Entry 11 (Juliet)

Dear Diary,

Yes, I'm back. My physical wounds have completely healed and so has my heart. Surprised? I bet you're not. You saw this coming, didn't you, Diary? Well, to inform you, yes, I'm back with Joey. That little episode last month where he attempted to save me showed me how much he cared. Not only did he care, but when I thought that the Lhaam had given up hope on me, I found out how deeply affected they all were. Here I was, the newest Council member and I've already seen so much more of the Nica than all of them combined. They say it's not my fault I gave up hope. I was forced beyond my limits this time. But then I was also told how Joey'd taken care of Doug all by himself while Lance and I were recuperating… Well, it showed me that he can be responsible when he wants to be. When I was finally allowed to have visitors, he'd come rushing in, proclaiming his love for me and Douglas and how he was ready to share a life with me. You bet I was touched. Some guilt remained and I tried telling him that I wasn't going to be had on a guilt trip or anything of the sort. I had to be sure that he was in it for the right reasons. I should have known better. He bared his soul for me to see and let's just say I was overwhelmed with the love he held for us.

Of course, it helped when Douglas took the opportunity to draw attention to himself and sit up, gurgling some baby nonsense until he had our attention. As we looked at him, I could see in my mind's eye a picture of Joey and I together in the future, happily wed and laughing. I saw Joey gaping in wonder as we both realized that the Energy we'd felt the night Lance, Joey, and I had almost died was radiating from his little body. Laughing, I swooped down to pick up our smiling child and cuddle him as Joey finally took a seat next to me on the bed.

I wasn't prepared for what happened next. Gently, he took my free hand in his and from inside one pocket, he drew out a ring. I listened, entranced as he went on about how he'd been scared to death of losing either me or Douglas when he felt himself come near his own end. He went off about how he wanted to be selfish and live but knew he couldn't if he'd known there was a chance that I could be alive in his place. He'd been so willing to give it all up for me and he was going to try his best to make sure he was never going to let me go again. And that's how I became engaged to the man who I've only known for about two years and have sensed for even longer (did that make sense?).

What makes it all the more wonderful though (yeah, as if that wasn't great enough already), is that Lance finally emerged from his coma. Even after being out for so long, the first thing he asked was if I'd made it, then if Joey was all right and if Douglas was fine. He really cares for us… And when he heard about our engagement… Well, he lit up like the little boy I remember from long time ago. Anyway, things look great with him and he'll soon be up and about as soon as he gets back some strength.

I can't believe it. Who knew that all this would happen? Two years ago, I was a nobody, a kindergarten teacher with a famous best friend. And now? I feel as if the whole world is mine. I've got a wonderful fiancé, a bright child destined for greatness, the support of so many friends and people… I'm so thankful.

Well, I've got to run. Lance insisted on taking care of Doug tonight so Joey and I could celebrate our engagement so I guess this is it. Until next time!