A poem is a blooom of emotion that begins as a seed in the heart.
Below is a list of the 'blossoms' I've created from the tiny kernel
so many have implanted within the soil my spirit. I'm not
as talented as Emerson, Dickenson, Whitman, or Lord Byron,
but writing gives birth to the emotions I've pent up inside;
much as the seed holds the fresh verdant life of a beautiful
unborn blossom. I hope as you read through the petals
I've chosen to include, you remember words that are the
hardest to say become free, easily filling a page as a
hand wields a pen, and emotions that are the most difficult
to describe become unconstrained as a leaf blowing
in the generous breath of a tree.
Hope you enjoy. . .
(* denotes my favorites)
Because I have so many leafs dancing in my minds wind, I have had to set up a second page. This page has some of my favorite writings. Please click here to visit it.
Even more; newer poems on thispage.
The Path***
Forbidden Love***
Innocence***
This World***
Virgin Eyes**
The Human Heart*
Grass*
Hate*
Rage Rage Rage*
Good Bye*
Sunsets*
Descention of Frost*
Silent Yearnings
Feelings
Falling
Near To You
Defying Death
Waiting
Strong
Why . . .
Finding Myself
Love
Without You
Sleep
Solitude
What is Love?
World
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I look at you, and I see
Things I could never have or be.
Never could I posses
Your handsome looks
Even if I tried my best.
Your arm holding me tight
Is what I oft wish to happen
But from you I cannot get
Even a smiling glance.
Why do you hate me so?
When my heart beats,
So very truly for you?
I know my love for you
Doesn't compare to
The beauty of many others
And I do try so hard
To make myself get over you
But I know I never could
Because every night I say
I hate you,
But I know my love is true,
When near you again, I am
But I know I never will be on your arm
And my heart is about to burst
Because of the possible
Chagrin my love would cause
If were it to be revealed
So my present is kept,
Silently within the boundaries
Of this wretched heart.
As I long to satisfy your tastes
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I feel for you so strongly
Words cannot begin to
Describe how much I do
I want to walk along your side
And whisper my deepest secrets
Into your ear
But, then, of another,
I hear you speak-
And you can't imagine
The pain my heart beats.
Because, I cannot offer the things
Someone smart, or pretty could.
The only offering I could possibly
To you extend
Would be that of my complete love-
More love than could any other person
Ever could begin to offer
But you deserve more
You deserve the things I
Could not ever submit to you,
And I want for you to own these.
Still, I want to be the other girl you
Are speaking endearingly of,
I alone want to be the
Benefactor of you love,
I wish for me
to be upon your heart imprinted.
Back to Top
When I am away from you;
I convince my self of the fact,
I no longer want you.
Then again, I find my eyes staring
Upon your handsome body, your good looks;
And I feel myself fall twice as deep.
Every day for you, I yearn more and more.
My heart strives to please you,
Although it knows I never could.
Back to Top
When you are near-
All my worries disappear.
When you are here-
I have no need for concern.
When you are by my side-
The entire world banishes and is gone,
(Gone too are all the tears I've cried)-
And it becomes just you and I as one pawn
Thus as one, together, a whole new world we enter-
A wondrous world full of gardens budding of love;
A world full of new experience, each of which we tour-
Floating on a sea of emotions and soaring high as a dove.
While all the times together united we have shared-
Has brought you and me even closer to one another.
I now have discovered it was only you I've truly loved.
An together, united, as one is how I want to spend forever.
Back to Top
You're really gone - can it be?
I can picture you lying all alone, cold.
But it can't be - it isn't you - is it?
Memories begin to fog my cluttered mind
Memories of you laughing, us talking, joking, working;
And I wail, scream silently NO!!!!
Don't let it be, It won't be - will it?
Now to most you've become just another victim-
Another statistic, one more meaningless number no one knows.
Death has from me stripped your very soul
Stolen your beautiful, wonderful character.
Is isn't just, not fair is it?
You were so young, so much to offer-
Now it's all vanished, along with you - or have you?
I won't I can't let it be true-
Though upon this Earth may you never tread
Alive forever in my heart you will be.
Death may boldly declare his victory, but
He lost, for you still remain lodged indelibly in my memory.
Back to Top
My heart now has passed away
Into a hollow, wintry plain.
The blossoms of love that once my entire
Being filled have dried wilted
And turned grey. The euphoria
Of eternal spring, now altered-Now a
Melancholy of bleak frigid nothingness.
My adoration of you, true heart filling love,
Vanished -Dormant in an apathetic permanent
Hibernation. An evermore deserted
Miserable loneliness dominates where all the joys
And pleasures we shared with each other once existed;
As the chilling ominous
Wind of never blows over my
Numb deadened spirit. The decaying outstretched
Arms of the tree of forever
Break and crumble-lost in the breeze's
Soft lull Sparrows eternally silent will be
The sun will rise ne'er more
With your quick, ill good bye- The raining stream of
My tears you froze perpetually
Banishing the blissful, the divine,
The blooming Spring of love that ne'er again will thaw,
Ostracizing it to always be a
Shadowy glacial winter of solitude.
Back to Top
Dejected, alone, each day I watch
As many people pass fastly by.
Hoping, praying, wishing one to be you
As each passes me on, a nervousness
Mounts- creeping quickly in-filling my soul-
Is it you? Finally are my dreams coming true?-
Only to be ciphoned out as I can
Realize the person is but no one to me.
I want to cry, I want to hurt;
But my heart refuses. - It cant; It won't
For I must await your coming-Surely come you will?-
Why did you leave? What did I do?-
Some one stops to talk; to be kind, to offer-
offer me a new road to take with hope.
I refuse-Can't they see I'm waiting-
Depending upon your arrival, your return?-
Seconds pass, along with people-people who aren't you-
Then minutes, and hours, and days, and weeks
Still you don't reappear.
Anguish, agony, and hurt, accompany the recognition
of my abandonment.
How could you leave me, How could you?
Rage, and tears, Hurt, and anger leave and still
Still I wait. I wait silently, alone, Defeated and Deleted.
I wait for hope, for warmth, for love, for YOU to return.
Until I realize my whole life wasted was, spent alone and
Waiting . . .
Back to Top
The door slams behind you, so hard I shake As my world crumbles,
Raining down upon me My heart breaks Everyone rushes to comfort and
hold me, And my happiness I fake But when I'm alone, all alone,
My hard, tough sheath begins to crack and break As finally I
realize:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're
wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I
need;
But when you left, As you walked out the
door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
The facade of everyday - The mask I've donned all my life Is rooted so deep,
On so tight; I've hidden all my tears 'till I can no longer cry. So afraid of
Letting people see a little glimpse of what's inside of me; I have covered the horrid
Pain you thrust into me as you left. My friends Try to alleviate the pain they
Know I'm suffering But they've begun to think I didn't love you for they can't see deep
Within me-As you left, "Love me, Hold me, Stay with me," I wanted to scream But I
Held back, denied myself the Right to feel, for I was strong Oh now I know:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're
wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I
need;
But when you left, As you walked out the
door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
Please come back, open the door. I want to hold you once more. I need for you
To see that I love you, that I'm sorry I couldn't show you I care before, Sorry
I was too busy being secure. As the pain begins to Overwhelm me, to
Envelop me, and loneliness Tightness her grip on my heart, I know I must to you Prove:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're
wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I
need;
But when you left, As you walked out the
door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
No, I don't want to be strong anymore
Back to Top
Good bye, sweet Love; Good bye
You leave me as we met;
Unloved, empty, alone.
Good bye horrid Pain; Good bye
The ache you inflict is dulling;
Until, I have found numbness.
Good bye tepid Heat; Good bye
Draining from my crumpled mass-
Leaving me shivering;
In the pit of nothingness.
Good bye glistening Light; Good bye
As I close my eyes, your presence vanishes;
Darkness me envelops forever.
Good bye dear Patrons; Good bye
The secrets and alliances we shared;
Matter no longer- I'm gone.
Good bye empty Life; Good bye
Memories now fade with vitality;
Movements now cease; thought now leave.
Good bye cruel World; Good bye
I concede to your harsh tatics;
Becoming glacial, and languid .
Hello, welcoming Death, Hello . . .
Back to Top
Why are we here?
Why is the grass green?
Someone share with me the secrets
I strive to learn.
Why does tree grow up?
Why does a river flow down?
Answer me please
Why do I love the one
that doesn't love me?
Why do dogs bark?
Why is the sky blue?
Will someone, anyone please
explain it all to me?
Why does a rain bow appear?
Why is this world so violent?
Teach me, please, tell me please.
Why do I adore the one
that doesn't adore me?
Why does an airplane fly?
Why is smoke gray?
Can anyone divulge to me
the answers to it all?
Why is time measured?
Why do we care?
Please, please, please tell me;
Why do I cherish the one
that doesn't cherish me?
Why why why why why,
Oh why do I love the one
that doesn't love me?
Back to Top
Stealing smiles, while every one's looking down
Locking glances when no one's around
Seemingly accidental touches of the hand
We forget about your simple wedding band.
I know it's wrong, but I can't stop yearning for more
Especially when I see you walk though the door
Never beyond the boundaries of friendship have we voyaged
Though each day; closer and closer to those lines do we edge
I know you too feel as I do, I see it in your smile
The tender care in your gaze; all the while
Knowingly we toy with danger, on the edge of breaking
Into a risky feeling that could lead to you, your vows forsaking
Warmly your body brushes against me,
As sacredly, we spend the time we have free,
The little time when we're alone,
Giving into the feeling to which we are prone.
Is it you or is it me
Bringing this illegal emotion to be?
My mind screams stop, my heart reaches out for one last grasp
I see the turmoil within you as our hands clasp.
We're stealing from one another, from your wife
I've known the difference between right and wrong all my life,
Though I know this is wrong, it seems so right, feels so right
Why don't I feel a sting of guilt, a twinge of fright?
I'm betraying my family, your family, God; But I don't care
I forget about them as you gingerly run your fingers through my hair
All the time we've spent together;
Wishing it could last forever-
The sunsets & picnics, an evening walk
Always careful not to arouse any talk,
Just being near each other satisfied our thirst
But made us both wished you hadn't met her first
We are always so careful to not cross the lines
Made by the ring on your hand; Afraid the fines
would be too high, knowing the pain
Caused by our union would only leave us to gain.
Together, we ignore our hearts; suppress emotions
Go through what seems to be friendly motions
Hoping no one sees we are wanting more
That stifling our feelings is such a chore
It seems so simple; I love you and you love me
But a tiny gold ring keeps coming between
Forbidding our love to ne'er explore
Always leaving us aching for more.
Back to Top
The fiery ball,
Warmth and light provides
Sinks slowly to the ground,
Crackling and splintering
Sending vivid colors
Of its stained glass scattering
Silently amidst the clouds
As the hues of pinks and reds
Violets and blues spread covering
Quickly the quiet world a black
Sable blanket wraps his bony
Fingers around the colors, them.
Slowly choking out; absorbing their
Hues; making them dreary ebony
But soon once more- light creeps slowly back
A gay new arrival- Life does not fail
Death cannot prevail; can't always choke out
Forever, the lively tint of the dawn
Of a new day, Fresh birth in the Eastern sky
Back to Top
(* denotes my favorites)
Go Back to the Vine (My Home Page)
I look at you, and I see
Things I could never have or be.
Never could I posses
Your handsome looks
Even if I tried my best.
Your arm holding me tight
Is what I oft wish to happen
But from you I cannot get
Even a smiling glance.
Why do you hate me so?
When my heart beats,
So very truly for you?
I know my love for you
Doesn't compare to
The beauty of many others
And I do try so hard
To make myself get over you
But I know I never could
Because every night I say
I hate you,
But I know my love is true,
When near you again, I am
But I know I never will be on your arm
And my heart is about to burst
Because of the possible
Chagrin my love would cause
If were it to be revealed
So my present is kept,
Silently within the boundaries
Of this wretched heart.
As I long to satisfy your tastes
Back to Top
I feel for you so strongly
Words cannot begin to
Describe how much I do
I want to walk along your side
And whisper my deepest secrets
Into your ear
But, then, of another,
I hear you speak-
And you can't imagine
The pain my heart beats.
Because, I cannot offer the things
Someone smart, or pretty could.
The only offering I could possibly
To you extend
Would be that of my complete love-
More love than could any other person
Ever could begin to offer
But you deserve more
You deserve the things I
Could not ever submit to you,
And I want for you to own these.
Still, I want to be the other girl you
Are speaking endearingly of,
I alone want to be the
Benefactor of you love,
I wish for me
to be upon your heart imprinted.
Back to Top
When I am away from you;
I convince my self of the fact,
I no longer want you.
Then again, I find my eyes staring
Upon your handsome body, your good looks;
And I feel myself fall twice as deep.
Every day for you, I yearn more and more.
My heart strives to please you,
Although it knows I never could.
Back to Top
When you are near-
All my worries disappear.
When you are here-
I have no need for concern.
When you are by my side-
The entire world banishes and is gone,
(Gone too are all the tears I've cried)-
And it becomes just you and I as one pawn
Thus as one, together, a whole new world we enter-
A wondrous world full of gardens budding of love;
A world full of new experience, each of which we tour-
Floating on a sea of emotions and soaring high as a dove.
While all the times together united we have shared-
Has brought you and me even closer to one another.
I now have discovered it was only you I've truly loved.
An together, united, as one is how I want to spend forever.
Back to Top
You're really gone - can it be?
I can picture you lying all alone, cold.
But it can't be - it isn't you - is it?
Memories begin to fog my cluttered mind
Memories of you laughing, us talking, joking, working;
And I wail, scream silently NO!!!!
Don't let it be, It won't be - will it?
Now to most you've become just another victim-
Another statistic, one more meaningless number no one knows.
Death has from me stripped your very soul
Stolen your beautiful, wonderful character.
Is isn't just, not fair is it?
You were so young, so much to offer-
Now it's all vanished, along with you - or have you?
I won't I can't let it be true-
Though upon this Earth may you never tread
Alive forever in my heart you will be.
Death may boldly declare his victory, but
He lost, for you still remain lodged indelibly in my memory.
Back to Top
My heart now has passed away
Into a hollow, wintry plain.
The blossoms of love that once my entire
Being filled have dried wilted
And turned grey. The euphoria
Of eternal spring, now altered-Now a
Melancholy of bleak frigid nothingness.
My adoration of you, true heart filling love,
Vanished -Dormant in an apathetic permanent
Hibernation. An evermore deserted
Miserable loneliness dominates where all the joys
And pleasures we shared with each other once existed;
As the chilling ominous
Wind of never blows over my
Numb deadened spirit. The decaying outstretched
Arms of the tree of forever
Break and crumble-lost in the breeze's
Soft lull Sparrows eternally silent will be
The sun will rise ne'er more
With your quick, ill good bye- The raining stream of
My tears you froze perpetually
Banishing the blissful, the divine,
The blooming Spring of love that ne'er again will thaw,
Ostracizing it to always be a
Shadowy glacial winter of solitude.
Back to Top
Dejected, alone, each day I watch
As many people pass fastly by.
Hoping, praying, wishing one to be you
As each passes me on, a nervousness
Mounts- creeping quickly in-filling my soul-
Is it you? Finally are my dreams coming true?-
Only to be ciphoned out as I can
Realize the person is but no one to me.
I want to cry, I want to hurt;
But my heart refuses. - It cant; It won't
For I must await your coming-Surely come you will?-
Why did you leave? What did I do?-
Some one stops to talk; to be kind, to offer-
offer me a new road to take with hope.
I refuse-Can't they see I'm waiting-
Depending upon your arrival, your return?-
Seconds pass, along with people-people who aren't you-
Then minutes, and hours, and days, and weeks
Still you don't reappear.
Anguish, agony, and hurt, accompany the recognition
of my abandonment.
How could you leave me, How could you?
Rage, and tears, Hurt, and anger leave and still
Still I wait. I wait silently, alone, Defeated and Deleted.
I wait for hope, for warmth, for love, for YOU to return.
Until I realize my whole life wasted was, spent alone and
Waiting . . .
Back to Top
The door slams behind you, so hard I shake As my world crumbles,
Raining down upon me My heart breaks Everyone rushes to comfort and
hold me, And my happiness I fake But when I'm alone, all alone,
My hard, tough sheath begins to crack and break As finally I realize:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I need;
But when you left, As you walked out the door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
The facade of everyday - The mask I've donned all my life Is rooted so deep,
On so tight; I've hidden all my tears 'till I can no longer cry. So afraid of
Letting people see a little glimpse of what's inside of me; I have covered the horrid
Pain you thrust into me as you left. My friends Try to alleviate the pain they
Know I'm suffering But they've begun to think I didn't love you for they can't see deep
Within me-As you left, "Love me, Hold me, Stay with me," I wanted to scream But I
Held back, denied myself the Right to feel, for I was strong Oh now I know:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I need;
But when you left, As you walked out the door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
Please come back, open the door. I want to hold you once more. I need for you
To see that I love you, that I'm sorry I couldn't show you I care before, Sorry
I was too busy being secure. As the pain begins to Overwhelm me, to
Envelop me, and loneliness Tightness her grip on my heart, I know I must to you Prove:
I don't want to be stronger any longer-
I'm tired of always being Herculean
You think I can't feel, but you're wrong
I just can't allow those around me see
That I'm weak, I want, I yearn, I need;
But when you left, As you walked out the door
I knew only one thing for sure;
I don't want to be strong anymore
No, I don't want to be strong anymore
Back to Top
Good bye, sweet Love; Good bye
You leave me as we met;
Unloved, empty, alone.
Good bye horrid Pain; Good bye
The ache you inflict is dulling;
Until, I have found numbness.
Good bye tepid Heat; Good bye
Draining from my crumpled mass-
Leaving me shivering;
In the pit of nothingness.
Good bye glistening Light; Good bye
As I close my eyes, your presence vanishes;
Darkness me envelops forever.
Good bye dear Patrons; Good bye
The secrets and alliances we shared;
Matter no longer- I'm gone.
Good bye empty Life; Good bye
Memories now fade with vitality;
Movements now cease; thought now leave.
Good bye cruel World; Good bye
I concede to your harsh tatics;
Becoming glacial, and languid .
Hello, welcoming Death, Hello . . .
Back to Top
Why are we here?
Why is the grass green?
Someone share with me the secrets
I strive to learn.
Why does tree grow up?
Why does a river flow down?
Answer me please
Why do I love the one
that doesn't love me?
Why do dogs bark?
Why is the sky blue?
Will someone, anyone please
explain it all to me?
Why does a rain bow appear?
Why is this world so violent?
Teach me, please, tell me please.
Why do I adore the one
that doesn't adore me?
Why does an airplane fly?
Why is smoke gray?
Can anyone divulge to me
the answers to it all?
Why is time measured?
Why do we care?
Please, please, please tell me;
Why do I cherish the one
that doesn't cherish me?
Why why why why why,
Oh why do I love the one
that doesn't love me?
Back to Top
Stealing smiles, while every one's looking down
Locking glances when no one's around
Seemingly accidental touches of the hand
We forget about your simple wedding band.
I know it's wrong, but I can't stop yearning for more
Especially when I see you walk though the door
Never beyond the boundaries of friendship have we voyaged
Though each day; closer and closer to those lines do we edge
I know you too feel as I do, I see it in your smile
The tender care in your gaze; all the while
Knowingly we toy with danger, on the edge of breaking
Into a risky feeling that could lead to you, your vows forsaking
Warmly your body brushes against me,
As sacredly, we spend the time we have free,
The little time when we're alone,
Giving into the feeling to which we are prone.
Is it you or is it me
Bringing this illegal emotion to be?
My mind screams stop, my heart reaches out for one last grasp
I see the turmoil within you as our hands clasp.
We're stealing from one another, from your wife
I've known the difference between right and wrong all my life,
Though I know this is wrong, it seems so right, feels so right
Why don't I feel a sting of guilt, a twinge of fright?
I'm betraying my family, your family, God; But I don't care
I forget about them as you gingerly run your fingers through my hair
All the time we've spent together;
Wishing it could last forever-
The sunsets & picnics, an evening walk
Always careful not to arouse any talk,
Just being near each other satisfied our thirst
But made us both wished you hadn't met her first
We are always so careful to not cross the lines
Made by the ring on your hand; Afraid the fines
would be too high, knowing the pain
Caused by our union would only leave us to gain.
Together, we ignore our hearts; suppress emotions
Go through what seems to be friendly motions
Hoping no one sees we are wanting more
That stifling our feelings is such a chore
It seems so simple; I love you and you love me
But a tiny gold ring keeps coming between
Forbidding our love to ne'er explore
Always leaving us aching for more.
Back to Top
The fiery ball,
Warmth and light provides
Sinks slowly to the ground,
Crackling and splintering
Sending vivid colors
Of its stained glass scattering
Silently amidst the clouds
As the hues of pinks and reds
Violets and blues spread covering
Quickly the quiet world a black
Sable blanket wraps his bony
Fingers around the colors, them.
Slowly choking out; absorbing their
Hues; making them dreary ebony
But soon once more- light creeps slowly back
A gay new arrival- Life does not fail
Death cannot prevail; can't always choke out
Forever, the lively tint of the dawn
Of a new day, Fresh birth in the Eastern sky
Back to Top
