Paul's Story

I am 6'1" tall around 137 kg much to my doctors discussed i have all ways been large born big I think my mother said something about 13Lbs and also something about when I was born the hospital people said breast milk was out and cows milk was in so I developed a taste for the cream. my childhood was lonely as I did not have any friends I was usually alone in play , you know 10 stone at ten tears of age , 11 stone at 11 etc., got stirred about being fat all the time I would seek solace in food.

The more I was put down The more I ate.

The more I ate the fatter I got.

The fatter I got the more I was put down and the cycle continued.

Always thinking I am ugly and not wanted . The teenage years were a nightmare. Girls in the seventies wanted athletic types and fat kids did not come into the equation. I developed a very mean attitude toward everyone and everything. I was rebelling against all and none and mostly my self. now at 42 years old i have learned to accept my self , and with the onset of type two diabetes just last year I have to watch what I eat now , but I was any way I have stabilized around this weight now but who knows. I have found that the mystic side of my life has developed from my past and I now know that I had to go through the mixer to reach the awareness, MY philosophy in life is don't judge a book by its cover I don't want to be judged that way, and the personality is eternal when the looks are gone!