My story is that I was always a chubby kid, and
at the age of 10 when I was just starting thru puberity,
2 devistating things happened to me. My father got
transfered to a different location, and I had to leave
everything I had ever known in my life, and I contracted
Rheumatic Fever. Being that this was in the early 1960's,
I was allowed NO physical activity for one year. Although
I had never been an athletic kid, I had always been
active. Up until that point in my life, all I had heard
was, that I was a picky eater, I remember being screamed
at to clean my plate, even if I was gagging. When I
became ill, suddenly I discovered that I was expected
to eat differently than everyone else, because I was
FAT. My mother baked bread every week and made cinnimon
buns, but I knew I could only have a taste, or there
were going to be comments made. As I got older I got
fatter, and my mother, for some reason decided that
I couldn't have clothes in my own size, they had to
be a size or two smaller, (because I was going to lose
weight and then I'd fit into them.) As a result, I
never had anything that fit me all the way through
school, except this one dress, boy did I love that
dress! It was a tent dress, it was in the mid to late
60's and they were all the rage! My mother continually
told me it made me look pregnant!
By the time I graduated from high school, I was
5' 7'' tall and weighed 185 pounds. I had been on every
diet known at the time. The worst one being the vinegar
diet, I had to drink a glass of water loaded with vinager
before and withe each meal, while my Mother watched
every bite I put in my mouth. I have had shots of some
kind, fasted, ate lettuce and orange juice, been to
all the groups around, tried the liquid protein, and
every diet known to man, and a few that I made up myself.
I dieted my way up tp 315 pounds. I have finally stopped
dieting and have at least stabilized my weight. I spent
my life looking for somewhere I could be safe to be
me, to be accepted for who I am, with out condition.
I had never known what should be everyone's right.
I had never known unconditional love, Until I adopted
my last child, what a gift!
Thanks for listening,
Jay
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