This was written for a dear friend, to whom I offered encouragement and compassion, as I tried to view things through her eyes. Through my words she found comfort and solace in knowing that someone cared enough to take a few minutes to express empathy and understanding. It does not take much to be a friend, just a geniune concern for a fellow human being who, as all of us have at one time or another, felt alone and confused.
I awake each morning to a dark and gloomy world
Not because my eyes are clouded or lack the ability to see
but because for so long, I have lived in a self made hell
of pain, despair and loneliness
The days morning glow offers no illumination, no joy and little hope
I go about my business nothing more than a machine doing
that which I have long come to accept as life
A repetitious act of that which I know and that, which is expected of me
I yearn to escape my shackles, discarding the invisible chains that bind me
I want to flee the walls that encircle me for places and people I have never seen or met
I want explore all that I have missed and find the one, that is within
I dream of a me, the person I want to be, can be, should be........will be
I am no longer complacent with the person that I am
I know there is life out there beyond what I know and what I feel
A world of warmth and caring,.... of passion and love, without torment
or self inflicted pain and anguish
I reject myself and that which I became through choices I have made
Made for the sake others, at my own expense
No longer shall I seek comfort from those who should care
but will freely accept the kindness and warmth from those who do
I have felt the compassion of a friend who has pushed opened the door
to a new world, where sunshine bathes me,... comforts me and soothes my tired soul
Where the flicker of hope grows and the wish for a better tomorrow lifts my spirits
and renews my belief in me.................
