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| This page...is about love. I know you look all surprised the word love you didn't think people still used the word...I know I had lost faith till this one guy came into my life...he made me feel so special so wanted, I felt like I was the only one he would ever need...and I still feel that way. |
| I have been out with a couple of guys from San Antonio one from Seguin...my recent ex...what can I say I gave him half of what I could have given...I still remember how it all started all fine...I also remember the day we met runnning around the store like frightend little kids...when I saw his face I thought...how cute...maybe I should have given him my all...but what would have been left for me....we broke up by my choice...I knew it wouldn't work anymore we didn't see each other as often as people that are "In Love" do...I guess you could say we pretty much had our own thing going for us...but I was sick and tired of it so I packed my shit and came here to Sa oh well right another piece of my heart shattered and scattered on the floor.... |
| This guy I also knew...wow I felt sooo good with him he told me things that not many other guys would tell me...we always talked on the phone it all started out as friends....he knew that I was taken at the time...he was always there when I needed him...telling me everything would be fine when I would have a fight with my bf at the time...his feelings twoards me grew as did mine twoards him...the only problem was that he lived in Austin...I thought I would get with him and everything would turn out as he had told me. I saw him once and just once he had broght me a necklace at that time...my only memory of the long nights we stayed talking about love and him... |
| Oh yeah and there was ....Well I am not going to say his name...but if he reads this he will know! We started out as friends too but never in my mind did I think he would like me...he was so fine but Ialso he had a bf...what did I need drama for? I already had enough with my family, school...I didnt need more from his bf getting mad at me because his bf was checking me out and talking to me. We never had a chance to go out and become good friends but we still talk to this day...I remember when he worte me the first and last letter I am sorry I never wrote you back! |
| What can I say...my friend...p/b we started out as friends on the cools and you told me you wanted me and you liked me although I tried and tried to understand you, you just seemed to make things more confused always getting mad because you didn't hear what you wanted to hear...or when I would make things harder than they needed to be. I didn't know what you wanted me to do...but I guess as you can see things didn't turn out the way they are supposed to be...like in the end of a fairy tale...what was I supposed to do??? |
| Well if you read all this than, you must have been really bored or these small and simple stories must have been about you...but in all what I am trying to say is don't go jumping into anything unless you know what you are getting your self into every choice has it's consequence and for most when it comes to love the consequence is usually heart breaks, or heart aches...I have been through most of it...I went around thinking I knew what love was when in my mind I was still the little boy who thought he could never be hurt by anything or anyone...with a shield always around him...but I learned so many leassons with each and every person I have been and talked with...I have now taken the symbol of the butterfly because I needed a change in my life I needed to be free...and I feel free...not having to deal with the questions like Where I was? With who I was? Was I sleeping with him? Was I flirting with him? take life as it comes and if you think your in love...think about it put all your facts together...when he/she is the right one you will know and when you know...don't let him/her slip away I hope you took the time to think about what I wrote... Love, Angel |
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| Friday, December 12, 2003 Today, I realized something...something I was to blind to see but when I read this piece I found out...I don't know what love is..."Love is always patient and kind it is never jelouse. Love is never boastful nor concited, it is never rude or selfish it does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins but, delights in the truth it is always ready to excuss, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes..." so when I thought I was in love...I was truly not |