My heart feels torn and shattered
You feel so distant and my soul so tattered.
My joy is squelched, I need to come to repentance
But remorse is replaced with my justification dance.
Why won't my heart break in this moment
As I sort through this ugly sin for which You paid atonement?
O this coward heart of mine that seeks to justify the weak in me!
When will I confess that there is no excuse and humble be?!
These sins, my deeds, my hands nailed You to the cross!
Break me and drive me to my knees for what I've cost!
Now here on the ground, fallen down, I bow before Your throne.
My selfish pride aside and each thread of complacency expelled with a groan,
Tears stinging and throat burning, I see my heart through Your eyes.
The stains so dark, so deep, here now I finally realize.
This sin has burdened me and brought pain to Your heart.
Now I lay it down, all my sinful ways, pick my soul apart.
Reveal to me where my sinful tendencies lie,
Remove the burden from my life and free me once again to fly.