Samuel Trager's Guestbook

August 26, 1998 Hi. I'm not sure really what I should say. I've known Sam since 7th grade. It's been so long but looking at this beautiful page, it feels just like yesterday again. He was so much to me. I feel so lost without him. I long so much and so hard to have just another hug. It scares me sometimes. I've stumbled thru life since the accident and I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. Please give the strength to get thru this like you would've if you were still here. I remember a time when I was shaky about us. We had been thru so much I didn't think we could hold together. But the way that I think about you so often, if this isn't love, i'm scared to find out what is. I love you so much and I always always will. The way you used to make me laugh, your smirk, the way that you said my name, those are the things i would do anything to have back. With you, so much of me died. I pray for you and I pray for us everyday. You will always be a undying part of my heart. I know it must hurt for you looking down on all of us, seeing the pain we feel for you. But don't worry, we feel because we love you. I will get thru life because I still have your memories. Rememeber me as I will always remember you. "Deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you" -Sarah McLachlan ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A candle stands burning for you the flames joylessly dancing the flicker accross the shadows as we kneel and pray for you With a whisper, the wind kills the flame we look up with fear in our eyes though no one wants to say or believe Our hearts are slowly breaking I know a candle burns yet for me how long, no one can tell but when the flame for it too burns out You and I can begin once more ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Me

September 30, 1998 May the butterfly be a sign of your son's spirit flying high and free. I know how hard it is to deal with the death of your son. I went through it myself in Nov of 97. Though I knew my loss was coming it was hard to deal with. He has a site here also. My God grant you peace. Judy Zubovic Matthew's Mom

October 10, 1998 HI, MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY FOR YOUR LOSS, I DO KNOW THE PAIN. I HAVE A BABY GIRL LATOSHA OTT AND A SON GREG OTT HERE IN THE GARDEN. GOD BLESS. Mary LATOSHA AND GREG'S MOM

October 17, 1998 Today marks the third year and we thought of nothing but you today honey. As strange as it is, it never gets any easier. We talked about you during dinner, about our memories. We miss you so much, more than you can imagine. It's hard to believe that it's been three years already. Sometimes, it still feels like it isn't real. We all still remember you as clear as ever...we can almost hear you laugh and see you smile. October 17, just know that this day reminds us how much we love and miss you every day of every year. Love, Mom and Dad

October 17, 1998 This is the first time we have written something here, and we want you to know how much we miss you. You were a great brother most of the time. We wish you were still here to look out for us and give us advice on life. We're not sure what we really should so. You were on our minds today and we all remininsced about you. Your friends came over and we must have spent like 2 hours just talking, thinking, crying, and laughing. We think you'd be proud if you could see us today. We sure hope so. Growing up has been hard without you by our side. You're always on our minds though. We love you. You're the best brother we could've had. Cathy and Carrie

October 17, 1998 I can't believe another year has gone by. I guess you hear this alot, but it doesn't get any easier. You were the only person I could think about all day. I thought alot about me and you and us these past days. I wonder what you'd think of the person I've become in these few years. I know you've been watching over me and guiding me along the way. I always have treasured your advice and I'll never forget anything you said. I'm so thankful for the time we got to spend together and thankful that you were such a big part of my life and will always be. It's been so long but I can always remember your smile, and your laugh. Sometimes, when I feel lonely or sad, I can close my eyes and almost hear your voice and it's the most comforting sound I can imagine. Sometimes, I sit by the window by myself and just stare outside and it doens't at all feel lonely because I know you're still by my side. I miss you so much but I know that you're still here. I don't know what I'm looking for in life, besides something that made me feel as free and good as being with you did. So many people love you and miss you Sammy and I'm just one of them. ~~ "For just a moment" We laughed until we had to cry and we loved, right down to our last goodbye we were the best, I think we'll ever be just you and me, for just a moment we chased, that dream we never found and sometimes, we let one another down but the love we made, made everything alright we shone bright, for just a moment. Time goes on, people touch, and they're gone and you and I, will never love again, like we did then. Someday, when we both reminicse we'll both say, there wasn't too much we missed and through the tears, we'll smile when we recall we had it all, for just a moment. Tina

November 18, 1998 Rhiannon In Loving Memory of Justin Lee Hermann

November 27, 1998 Thanksgiving was today and I was just thinking about you. I am thankful for the time we had to spend together and all the wonderful memories you leave me with. Thank you. Tina

December 25, 1998 May god keep you and hold you in his arms forever and ever... Erin Rouse

January 31, 1999 Happy Birthday Sam. 20. Wow, imagine that. Hope your doing good. Wish I could have spent your birthday with you. You know, it's funny, year after year it never changes. When it comes to you, everything still feels the same. I still feel the same about you and I hope I always will. Well, I'm not here to complain. Do hope you have a blissful birthday. Make a wish for us. Thinking of you

April 22, 1999 After reading your memorial, tears came to my eyes. I can't say I feel you pain, because I don't. But I can say I have an idea of what you are going through. My 10 year old brother was hit by an 18-wheeler while crossing a cross walk and also sustained serious head injuries. He had surgery done on his brain, and stayed in an induced coma for 8 days. Finally, he died on Halloween '98. Death has been such a confusing experience. It makes you think and wonder. Its a shame that "The Good Die Young" Your site truely touched my heart. Feel free to e-mail me at JeNnYoPooH@aol.com. God bless. Jennifer Beitzel My Beloved Brother