by: Brandon
The conservative creeps that cracked your mind
The ones that force you to keep your schemes in hiding
The ones that frowned upon your being
And hid themselves from your existence
All the ones that put you down 'cause their open-minds were sewn shut forevermore
They make me feel so cold hearted against their actions and things used against you
In this real life I wander depressed thinking about being with you
Thinking about standing with you in the middle of all the chaos you’ve been put through
Even though I’m told you and it doesn’t truly exist
However, these thoughts of you are the drugs I choose
And like a drug when the vision’s done
I’m curled and convulsing in shambles against a wall seeping with tears that trickle down
Sure, the aftermath and realization of my true existence is all-consuming
But when I do escape with you I feel almost like this life is worth it
For without pain there is no pleasure
But without you no pleasure shall ever come
When I try to vent my thoughts upon a listening audience
They cringe and try to justify normal love and being
Rocking back and forth alone
I fetalize my body and begin to drift away
Oh God! Here it comes
We begin inside a scene serene
We’re all alone inside this place
And, yes, you’re already taken by me
We gaze into each other’s eyes and feel an urge that has immeasurable size
Over to our side a bed
this time we’ll have our appetites fully fed
As we writhe amongst ourselves it makes me wonder aloud “what are they afraid of”
It's not just sex it's mixed with love
It feels good and pure between us two
There’s nothing wrong, nothing to hide oneself from
But there’s something about it they see flawed
And once we’re done
again I must face them and the world that contains their presence and mine
If they found out what I did when left alone with you in my head
They’d label me crazy and possibly put me away
And then once done with me they’d go back to their sheltered lives
And they’d go at it with the things that they do not find to be obscene
And fill their heads with what they find to be normal and attractive to them
Yes, with you I admit I’m obsessed to the point of a damaging dose
But with every chance I get to escape with you
I’ll do it with no regrets
The only regret that I’ll find
Is that when its over in this world without you I’ll still reside
If I see things as so bad then one may ask why I just don’t end it all
My reply to them would be that possibly maybe on the other side there’s nothing at all
But you can bet that if I knew you were waiting
I’d join you without hesitation
Even I must ask myself
How can one be so consumed with a being such as you
One who’s invented in a mind and put on paper to make some cash and pass a viewer’s time
My answer to myself would be
Its just love’s warm and icy grasp taking hold of me
Besides, just because I believe in you
Doesn’t that already make you as real as any god
So, like times before tonight
I’ll wait in the shadows and let the thoughts begin to end
And once they’re through hell will be regained again
