| The song in this part is the slow version of Heartbrake lullaby by A*teens ********************** It was past 1 am and Maxine had still not come back to the hotel. Maria was scared, what if something happened? She waited another hour before taking her jacket and went out to look for her. Maria walked around Roswell a long time before she finally found her, sitting at Alex's grave. 'How come she knew about this place?' Maria thought to herself. "Hi mom," Max said and she felt her mother standing behind herself. "Hi hunny," Maria answered and sat beside her daughter. "How did you know about this place?" "I got flashes when you and…Michael fought," Max said. "Ohh, how are you holding up," Maria asked. "I don't know, one part is furious with you, one part is just confused…I don't know, how am I suppose to feel?" Max said as she fiddled with her ring. "I don't know, I wish I did but I don't. All I can do is give you this," Maria said and gave her a book. "What is it?" Maxine asked. "When I was 16 my best friend told me the best way to explain your feelings is to write them down, so I thought you could try it. It might help," Maria said and got off the ground. "But how am I suppose to write in it, it's already filled," Max asked as she flipped through the pages. "I know, this is mine and I thought you should have it. It might help you with some answers you are looking for," Maria said and started walking away. "Thank you mom………I love you," Max said. Maria turned around and looked at her daughter. This was the first time she ever heard her daughter say those words to her. "I love you too," Maria said and walked out of the cemetery with tears in her eyes. Once her mother was gone Max started reading the book but haltered at a text: Why can't I laugh Why must I cry Every time we say goodbye Why does it rain Here in my heart Every day that we're apart Why can't it be Just you and me What will it take to make you see These are the words To my heartbreak lullaby Could it be? This was hers and Alex's song. Ever since Max could remember her mother always sung this to them as a bedtime song. Her father had been with her this whole time without even knowing it. Not in real life but in a small song… **************** "Ms. Deluca," Maria stopped and turned around. "Oh hey Matt, what are you doing out this late?" she asked when she saw the boy. "I am looking for Max, I went to the hotel and Alex said you were out looking for her," Matt explained. "Yea," Maria said. "Oh…"Matt said and looked down on the ground. Maria knew he was too scared to ask her. "She's at Alex's grave," Maria said. "Thanks," Matt said and started walking away but stopped when Maria said: "Oh Matt, if you hurt my daughter…." "I know, grandma Amy already had this routine with Phoebe's boyfriend," Matt said and grinned. "Good, then you know," Maria said to him. "Bye Ms. Deluca," Matt said and walked away. "Goodnight Matt and bring my daughter home safe," Maria yelled. "Will do," Matt yelled back as he rounded the corner of the church. **************** Max started to sing, a tear ran down her face. Why can't I laugh Why must I cry Every time we say goodbye Why does it rain Here in my heart Every day that we're apart…. Max stopped as she felt a person behind her. She turned around and met a pair of intense eyes looking at her. "What are you doing here?" she said and turned back to Alex's grave. "Oh, I didn't mean…what's that for song?" Matt asked as he sat down beside her. "OH, my mom wrote it. She gave me her diary," Max explained and showed him the diary. "Well, it's beautiful," Matt told her and took her hand in his. Max looked up at Matt when she felt his hand on hers. His eyes were looking at her with trust, friendship and love. "I know. It's about my father," Max said. "Oh, so how are things now?" Matt asked. "I don't know, I mean mom is sad, Alex…I don't know and I haven't talked to dad yet," Max said and leaned her head against Matt's shoulder. "Why not?" Matt asked. "I don't know," Max said. "I think you do…"Matt said and pulled her closer to him. "I'm just so scared," Max said and hugged Matt. She held on to him like it was a matter of life and death. She had never in her whole life admitted her feelings to anybody, and now she had to a guy she had known for less then a week. "I know you are, but don't you think he is too," Matt said and stroked her hair. "I guess," Max said and fiddled with Matt's thumb ring. "Max, go talk to him…I think you both need it," Matt said. He notes that she started to shake, so he took of his jacket and hung it over her shoulders. "I know. I will talk to him tomorrow," Max said and got as close as possible to Matt. This was a place she never wanted to leave. Here she felt safe. TBC |
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