>>+Part One+<<

It was a normal day at sound check.  Sing a few songs, talk a bit with fans, and pass out some autographs, typical standard procedures.

I said goodbye to the fans and then headed under the stage and to the room where we usually sat around and talked a bit before concerts.  Our security, Lucas, was in there and I couldn’t help but laugh the way he hassled Joey.  Joey was fun to push around anyway, I just never did it for fear he’d kick my ass – I knew he could.  He’s a New Yorker and I’m from Mississippi, we’re raised to be scared of New Yorkers.

I plopped down on the couch and opened up a can of Sprite, taking in what was going on around the room.  Justin was talking with Wade and telling him how he wanted to change of up a few steps in “No Strings Attached.”  Wade smirked at him, telling him it had been that way for years now, why change it?  Justin’s answer: “it’s freakier.” 

Right…I just tend to go along with anything they say anyway.  Freaky or not, it doesn’t bother me.  I already know I’m not the best dancer, but I’ve come a long way since my cowboy line dancing days back home.

Home.  Did I miss home?  Sometimes.  I missed my parents, Stacy, even Ford.  I hated leaving Dirk at home, but he just doesn’t like the road.  It’s not that I don’t like the road, I love it, all the fans, all the cities, it’s just that sometimes it can get lonely.  Lonely, it had been a few weeks since I’d been completely that.  I’d found someone to keep my mind off loneliness on the road.  Although we never spoke about it, things had happened between us physically and emotionally.  I didn’t know how long it would last or if we’d even speak about it, but it was something that made me smile.

“You all right Lance?”  Chris sat down next to me.

“Yeah, just thinking,” I shrugged.

“We’re holding a meeting in five minutes, so you might wanna come back down from space before then,” he chuckled.

“No problem,” I shrugged.

What was I thinking?  Oh yeah, I was definitely more content on the road than I’d ever been.  I’d wait for the extra key to click in the door at night and then hear a few footsteps and then feel those warm arms around my body. 

It’s not like I’d never been held or taken care of before, but something about it this time was different.

I smiled, just thinking about what was in store for the rest of the tour.  Maybe if we just kept not talking about it then everything would be okay.  Isn’t it once you talk about things it becomes awkward and weird?  Maybe…

“Lansten, you coming?”

I looked up to see Justin and Wade staring down at me.

“Huh, yeah?  Where’s JC?”

“You know C, he’s always late,” Justin snorted.

“Alright, I’m coming,” I huffed as I followed them down the hall.

During the meeting I did as I usually did, sat and listened, every once in a while putting in my two cents. 

“Lance do you think we should switch up the dance?”  Justin suddenly asked.

I looked over at him and just shrugged, noting that I could feel a stare on me.  My whole body shook with the thought that I was being looked at. 

“It doesn’t matter, whatever you guys want to do.”

“Okay, well, I already have the switch ups choreographed, so let me show them to you for now and we can start learning them completely and putting them in the song next week on your break,” Wade stood up and ordered us to stretch out a bit while he grabbed some music.

I bent over, stretching out my thighs and my calves, then my arms and I could feel the stare.

“Lance?”

“Huh?”  I jumped.

“What is up with you today man, you’re totally in another world,” Joey laughed.

“I am not,” I protested.

“Man, if I didn’t know right, I’d think you were in love.  Man whose got your attention?”

It was then we made eye contact and the stare was burned in my eyes.

“What?”  I shook my head, feeling like Joey was a fly in my ear, “no one, I’m just tired.”

“What do you do at night that makes you so tired, you’re on your lap top and doing paperwork or sleeping, come on Lance, don’t give me that ‘I’m tired’ bullshit,” Joey hit my arm gently.

“Alright ladies, let’s do this,” Wade announced.

It was then I felt a set of hands on my waist really quick, “maybe I shouldn’t be keeping you up?”  Just as quickly as it was said he kept going, his fingers leaving my body as quickly as they were on it, only the feeling lingering throughout me.

I just looked over at him as he made his way to the left of me, Justin in front.

Why did he do that crap?  Is it cause he knew it made my entire body shake just when he looked at me or that my knees got weak the minute he touched me?

He looked over at me and I mouthed “fucker,” to him.

He just smirked.

Why’d I have to like the freaky one?  Lord…

That night I had a difficult time making it through the concert.  I mean it wasn’t like I was this horny teenager, I hardly ever was, even when I was a teen, it’s just the way he dances and the way he shoots these little looks at me makes my whole body tingle.  I feel like a damn girl…

“Yo, you coming out with us?”  Joey asked as I stood at my door, a towel wrapped around my waist.  You know, I always head back to the room for a shower after the show and we all left at the same time, so I always wondered how exactly Joey and Chris always were fully dressed and ready to roll when I was still in a towel…

“Na guys, I’m tired, I’ll see y’all in the morning,” I managed, a little too much drawl in my accent.

“Man Bass you’re a party pooper,” Chris snorted.

“Shut up little man, I’ll see you tomorrow,” I shut the door before they had a chance to protest.

A few minutes later I had run a comb through my hair and sat down on the bed flicking channels.  I contemplated getting dressed, but, well, that took energy and I really didn’t want to use any right now.

I slid under the cool sheets and tossed the towel on the floor next to me.  I knew in the morning it would bother me that I left a towel on the floor, but oh well, what’s one thing out of place?

I shut off the light and then closed my eyes, turning on my left side and wishing he was here with me.

I knew he’d probably head out with Joey and Chris, sometimes I wondered if maybe I needed him too much.  Why’d I have to be the hopeless romantic and teddy bear of the group…UGH.

I shut my eyes and tried to think of anything but him, my body slowly trying to find its way into a comfortable sleep.  I was in that state where everything is just starting to become a dream, but you’re still not really sure if you’re awake or not…then I heard a click.

My eyes shot open as I heard the door shut and feet pad down the floor of my suite.

I heard him doing something next to the bed, what was he doing?

Moments later I felt a hand on my waist and I gasped as I felt his entire unclothed body press up against my back.  The feeling of his soft and silky skin and then his arms slithering around my waist nearly made me let out a cry.

“JC you scared me,” I managed.

“Sorry, but who else would it be?”  he chuckled, his body curling into mine like a puzzle piece.

“Justin,” I joked.

JC just laughed as he held me close.

“So are you really that tired, cause I can leave…” JC asked.

“No Josh, stay,” it sounded almost like a plea as I wrapped my arm behind me and began to run it through his long light brown locks.

“You seemed so withdrawn today, are you okay?”

I loved that about JC, he had this natural motherly instinct about him.  He didn’t care how girly he sounded, he always spoke from the heart.  That was one thing I had to give him, he was always honest with me.

“Is it bad to say I missed you?”  I sounded so small as I asked.

“Why is that bad?” I could feel his childlike smile through the back of my head.

“I dunno C, we never really talk about anything, so I just didn’t know if it was bad or not to be feeling that way.”

JC sat up and looked down at me, his arms still wrapped around my chest with my hands covering his.

I felt his eyes studying me as I took a deep breath.

“Do you feel more than that?”  he asked.

“It’s all kind of confusing.  I mean you’re my brother almost, you know I love you, but it’s all getting so complicated, I think I might be feeling more than I should.”

He laid down and turned me around to lay on his chest.

“Tell me…”

I bit my lip, as I always did when I was nervous, I just didn’t know what to say.  I mean, I knew what I wanted to say, but I just couldn’t form it into words, so I did the only thing I knew how, I leaned up into him, our lips nearly sparking the minute they had contact.

He let out a sigh into my mouth, his hands rubbing my bare back.

“Josh, make love to me,” I whispered into his lips.

He pulled away from me, his ocean blue eyes locking onto mine.

We’d never done that before, have sex of any form…it was just basically touching and teasing, foreplay and just cuddling.

It all started one night when everyone else went out accept he and I.  We drank some in his hotel room and then laughed our asses off at some stupid porn on the TV.  And it just happened, we began touching more than we should and then kissing and well, ever since then it has only escalated.

He looked at me, shock written all over his face.

“Lance, are you sure?”  his voice nearly squeaked at the thought.

I sat up, this time rolling over until I was on top of him and looked down into his eyes.

“I need to feel every part of you Josh,” the fact that I even said those words floored me, my body beginning to become aroused; it didn’t help that we were both now laying completely undressed on top of one another.

Now I wasn’t quite sure what I was doing.  I really didn’t think JC knew much either.  JC had past experiences with men in clubs and such, but me…no.  JC was definitely my first for everything with a guy, so I wasn’t sure what the hell I was doing, I just did what felt natural.

He stared up at me “I need to feel you too,” his hand now reaching to the back of my head, our lips locking.

My body felt a jolt at what he said, I wasn’t sure if he was going to reject me or what, but as his hands roamed my body I didn’t care anymore about anything.

After many passionate kisses we broke away, our breath quickening.  I could feel just how much this was turning him on.  That in itself made my body almost lose control.

“Are you sure La, I mean from what I know you’ve never done this before…”

I gulped back hard and just nodded, “I need you…” with that I leaned down and kissed him forcefully, his arms wrapping around me tight.

>>>>>>Part Two