First Rose
By: Jessa Carter-Timberlake / Edited by Megan Carter-Bass
Rating: NC-17
(c)TFP/TBB 2002
I
ran my hands through his thick blond hair as his tongue invaded my mouth. I
could feel his hands sliding down my sides and under my sweater. As his hands
traveled back up, my sweater followed as well. I pulled back and sat straight
up, running a hand through my hair, then I looking down at my lap. I couldn't
look him in the eyes, I'd done this so many times to him now. We sat there,
silent, until finally I looked up and mumbled an "I'm sorry" to him.
He tried not to grow frustrated with me as he spoke.
"Rain, what's wrong?" Nick asked, sitting back and adjusting himself a
little, his excitement from being caught up in the moment was quite noticeable.
I let my gaze wonder back down to my lap, biting my bottom lip. What was
wrong with me? I guess I am scared of actually going all the way. I'm
scared of what it's going to be like, what's going to happen, how I'm going to
feel. But I couldn't tell Nick that.
"I don't know. I...I guess I'm just scared," I whispered. I leaned
back against the arm of the couch and closed my eyes for a moment, opening them
when I heard Nick's voice.
"Baby, there's nothing to be scared of. I'm not going to hurt you, I
promise," He took my hands in his and pulled me closer to him, leaning in
he kissed me softly. "I love you Rain, and I want to show you. Please baby,
let me show you." He then pulled a rose out from next to us and
handed it to me.
I could feel tears coming to my eyes. I love this man so much and I wanted him
to show me how much he loved me as well. I took a deep breath and looked up at
him once again, finding how easy it was to get lost in the blue of his eyes.
"Show me Nick," I said softly, never taking my eyes from his. He
looked back at me, searching my eyes for reassurance.
"Are you sure? I don't want to push you into something you're going to
regret," He said, tucking a strand of hair behind my ears.
I answered by pressing my lips hard against his. Making sure he knew this was
what I wanted. And it was. He kissed down my neck slowly, taking his time
to suck and nip at the soft skin there. I closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling
he was giving me. I ran my hands down his back until I reached the hem of his
shirt. I tugged on it lightly, wanting him to remove it from his body. He pulled
his shirt over his head and the rest of his clothes followed. I couldn't help
but stare as he stood there completely naked before me. I looked up to see a
smirk on his face, causing me to blush and look away. He lifted my chin with his
finger, locking our gaze once again. I felt his hands start at my shoulders and
run down my arms, finally stopping at my waist. He grabbed onto the bottom of my
sweater and slowly pulled it over my head, tossing it to the floor and adding my
jeans and underclothes to the same pile. I could feel my heart beating faster as
I watched him take in all of my unclothed figure. I shifted uncomfortably as he
looked me over, crossing my arms over my chest.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked, placing his hands on my arms and
rubbing gently.
"I..I.. I'm just embarrassed, I guess." I felt completely stupid
as soon as the words left my lips. He grabbed my hands and pulled me close to
him.
"Don't be, you're beautiful baby." He smiled softly and laid me down
on the couch, careful not to put his full weight on me. He leaned down and
kissed me softly, letting his tongue run over my lips before slipping into my
mouth. As our kiss deepened, his hands ran through my hair as his mouth fell on
my neck, making its way down to my collar bone. I moaned softly as he sucked and
licked my skin slowly. Before I knew it, he had the rose back again and
was trailing the silky pedals down my bare stomach.
"Mmm.. Nick, don't stop..." I breathed as I tilted my head back and
closed my eyes, lost in the sensation I was feeling as his mouth made its way
down to my chest, following the pattern of the rose. He worked on my
breasts with his hands and mouth, paying special attention to each one. He made
a trail of kisses down to my stomach and back up to my lips. We kissed
passionately, letting each other know how much we were both enjoyed this. I let
my hands travel over his chest and down to his stomach. I wasn't quite sure what
I was going to do, but I wanted to do something to make him feel as good as he
was making me feel. I let my hand travel a little further down until it was
wrapped around his length. I heard him take in a sharp breath and I smiled. He
looked at me and took my hand away from him.
"Right now is about you... there will be plenty of time for pleasing me
later." Nick smirked as he kissed me again. One of his hands rubbed the
inside of my thigh gently as he looked up at me.
"Do you want me to stop?" He asked, his voice a whisper, his eyes
gazing into mine. I looked into his eyes for a moment before shaking my head.
"Don't stop... ever." I replied, my hands coming to his face and
pulling him close for another searing kiss. He spread my legs apart slowly and
inserted a finger, letting me get used to the feeling before he inserted another
one. I let out a loud moan, my hips shooting up off the bed as his thumb brushed
my clit.
"Just relax baby," was all he said before he continued. I just laid
there, my head thrown back and my eyes shut tight. I didn't think I could
take much more of the feeling of Nick's fingers working inside of me or his
mouth working away mercilessly on my neck and chest. It felt so good I just
wanted to scream out. He started picking up speed, my hips moving with his hand.
I felt my climax building up from the pit of my stomach and cried out as my
first orgasm washed over me. As my breathing returned to normal I opened my eyes
to see Nick staring back at me. He kissed me softly.
"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" He asked, concern heard in his voice.
I smiled and ran my hand across his cheek.
"You're amazing," it was all I could think of to say. Nick had made me
feel completely amazing and I never wanted this night to end. I wrapped my arms
around his neck and pulled his body closer to mine. "I love you, Nick,"
I whispered as I played with the short hairs on the back of his neck. He smiled
and kissed my nose playfully.
"I love you too, Rain."
"Nick, make love to me, please," I asked as I kissed him softly. He
answered by deepening the kiss. As his kisses traveled down my neck, he
positioned himself between my legs. He looked into my eyes once more, making
sure this was what we both wanted.
"Are you sure, baby? We can stop if you want."
"I want this, please Nick." I almost begged. I wanted him more than I
had ever wanted another human being in my life. I felt him slowly slide into me
and I winched from the slight discomfort. He stopped for a moment, making sure I
was okay.
"I'm
okay," I reassured him as I wrapped my arms around his back and held on
tightly. As he went further inside the pain got a little more unbearable. I
whimpered softly as a few tears escaped my eyes. He stopped once he was all the
way in, kissing my tears away and speaking to me softly. Once the pain subsided,
he started thrusting in and out of me. I wrapped my legs around his waist to
allow him to go deeper within me. The pain was soon replaced by pleasure and I
moaned, closing my eyes.
"Baby, open your eyes, look at me. I want to watch you," Nick said as
he held my gaze and our eyes locked. I tried my hardest to keep them open. The
feelings that were rushing through me felt almost too good to bare. I kissed him
hard as he picked up speed.
"Harder Nicky.." I moaned as he thrusted harder and faster into me. I
could feel my walls tightening as my climax came close.
"I love you," he whispered. "Baby.. Rain, you're so
tight..." He moaned as he felt his climax building up as well. His eyes met
mine as my walls spasmed around him.
"Oh, Nick.." I cried softly, the feeling unlike anything I had ever
experienced in my life. Nick moaned loudly as his orgasm hit and he emptied
himself inside me. When our breathing became normal, he pulled out of me with a
soft groan. He then pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead.
"Did I hurt you?" He asked, rubbing small circles on my back. I
smiled, feeling insanely happy.
"No, you made me feel wonderful. Thank you for making this so special Nick,"
I whispered as I placed a gentle kiss on his lips.
"I love you baby," He placed the rose on the nightstand next to
us. "Keep this rose forever, it's your first," He smiled as his
eyes grew heavy and he let sleep take over.
I looked giddy over at the red flower next to me, "I will and I love you
too," I spoke softly before my body gave into sleep as well; Dreams of what
had happened playing in my head all night.
* I'm dedicating this is you Meg, because I wouldn't have written this if you hadn't helped me. I'm actually surprised that it turned out as good as it did. Thank you for always being such a great friend and an amazing writer. Love yah Momee *grins* <3, Jessa