I
am use to being the strong one, the laid back one, the one who puts everyone
else in the group ahead of myself…but as I lay in his arms slowly twirling his
ring in circles, I found myself losing my ability to always be the rock.
I felt vulnerable and childlike as I took in the scent of his cologne, my
arms wrapped around his waist tightly.
Lance
had done something in the past few weeks that no one – and mean NO ONE – in
my life had ever done for me and that was take care of me, love me, be there for
me. I knew – I always knew - that
Lance was the lover of the group – the one with unconditional love to give,
but I’d never experienced it until now. It
was like Lance had some type of instinct, like the maternal one women have, but
his was that he knew when to give love.
So
how do we pull all of this off? Easier
than one may think. We’d record
from around ten or eleven in the morning until like ten at night.
We’d leave the studio in separate cars and we’d meet each other at my
house. Trin thought he was just at
the studio until midnight or one.
The
days seemed to fly because I loved recording and I loved looking forward to my
time with Lance at the end of the night. What
I didn’t look forward to was leaving him at the end of the night.
Most times we just laid there in each other’s arms talking about
anything and everything, sometimes our make out sessions got so heated we had to
tear ourselves away from each other and he’d have to go home.
We hadn’t progressed any further sexually than the night on the couch
at Joey’s. We both wanted to
understand how we felt for each other before going any further. If there was one thing I wanted him to know it was that this
was not about sex, that it was more, that I was more in love with him every day.
Of course I never said the love part to him.
He had so much to deal with as far as his parents, Trin and now this, I
didn’t want to make things more complicated than I already had.
His
fingers ran gently through my hair, causing me to smile brightly.
“You
know, we’ll be in New York next week at Battery Studios, we’ll actually get
to stay together all night for the first time,” his green eyes looked down at
me lovingly.
I
sat up and looked at him carefully.
“You’re
not bringing Trin?” I asked.
“No
way, not when I can have you in my arms all night long with no worries,” he
smiled.
“All
night?” I repeated with a grin.
“All
night long – your unclothed body next to mine,” he leaned down and whispered
in my ear.
My
body felt immediately aroused by those words.
“Unclothed,
huh? So do I get to kiss every inch
of your soft skin?” I sat up and looked at him.
He shyly looked away for a second.
“I’ll
make you a deal. You know how when you get all worked up and you finally
orgasm, how your body is covered in sweat,” he asked.
I
flushed red briefly and nodded.
“I’ll
let you kiss my entire body if you…” he sat up higher than me and pushed me
over on my back, “….will let me…” he crawled on top of me, his head
traveling down my chest until he was between my legs looking at me, “…make
you come…” he suddenly bit down on the mass that was sticking out of my
pants, “…and then lick all of the sweat off of you afterwards.”
“Fuck,”
I gasped, my body instantly losing control, an orgasm rocking my body.
My
fingers were grabbing at the tips of his hair, quickly dragging his head up my
body until our lips met.
He
smiled into my mouth, he got absolute pleasure out of making me crazy.
“Tell
me something,” I asked him, our faces not even an inch apart, “if I keep
getting off by these small things you do, how are we ever going to make love?”
He
leaned down into my ear.
“Simple,”
he grinded into me. I stared up at
his completely shocked. It was like
I brought out this evil devilish side in him.
“I go down on you and make you come and then we have sex and you’ll
be good to go,” he whispered.
“Alright
Bass, that’s it,” I quickly flipped him over on his back and pressed my body
on his, ”I have always been the sexually dominating member of my relationships
and you render me speechless. You’re
hurting my pride, so it’s pay back time,” I pulled his arms up over his head
and held them there by his wrists. I
might be skinnier, but I’m stronger.
I
slipped up his shirt, my lips making contact with his bare skin instantly.
I’d never kissed anything that was under his clothes, but I didn’t
care anymore. I grinded my hips
into his, my body betraying me and becoming aroused as I his body jerked up into
mine. The feeling of how much I was
turning him on was obvious through his pants, therefore turning me on more and
more.
My
teeth bit down on his nipple, my tongue swirling circles around it.
I looked up at him, his body wriggling underneath mine.
My lips then met his as I pressed our hips together as hard and perfectly
as I could.
He
smiled, “you’re hard again,” he whispered.
“I
know, it arouses you more when I am and then do this,” I jerked up into him, a
moan escaping his mouth as he grasped the back of the tank top I was wearing.
“God
Jayce,” he whispered, his eyes closed as I kissed his neck.
“Come
for me…please baby,” I moaned into his ear.
I then felt his body jerk, his teeth finding my shoulder and biting down
on it hard.
I
picked up the pace, my body moving up and down so fast I began to break a sweat.
“JC,”
and with that small whimper, his hips jerked into mine one last time.
I
slowed my pace as I felt him twitch and move against me, his head dropping from
my shoulder.
I
smiled down at him and stopped moving so he could
catch his breath.
“God,
I’ve never…like THAT…just…” he stuttered.
“What?”
I laughed.
“You
give me these intense orgasms, I’ve never felt so good in my life,” his
green eyes were glassed over.
I
rolled off of him and onto my back, causing him to sit up and look down at me.
“You
love turning me into a freak, huh?” he
laughed.
“Yeah,
I love making you feel things you’ve never in your life.
I like the hungry look in your eyes when you see things like…” my
voice trailed off as I ran my hand across my stomach and slowly undid my pants.
His eyes followed every movement I made as I began to make circles around
my stomach right above my boxers. His
eyes popped out of his head as he watched my hand begin to make its way under my
boxers. I then wrapped three
fingers around myself and began to slowly move up and down.
He
watched intently as he chewed on his bottom lip.
Usually
when I did something like this my eyes were closed, but this time they were
fixated on Lance, watching his every move.
“Gosh
JC,” he leaned down and pressed his lips to my stomach.
As
I was beginning to peak I heard a loud ringing next to the bed – my cell
phone.
“Fuck,”
I muttered as Lance sat up.
I
painfully took my hand from myself and reached for the phone.
“Yeah?”
I answered not looking at the caller I.D.
“JC,
it’s Justin, what’s wrong?” he asked.
Suddenly
I felt Lance lay on top of me and put his hand down my pants.
I looked at him oddly, but he just smiled.
The minute his hand touched my bare skin my hips jerked upward.
“Fuck,”
I muttered as he moved his hand up and down in a perfect rhythm.
His lips found my other ear and he began to suck and whisper in it. It was at that point I knew he loved watching me TRY and play
calm and cool on the phone.
“Are
you okay C?” Justin asked.
“You
feel amazing,” Lance whispered in my ear, “you’re so soft…” he added.
“Justin,”
my voice cracked, “is there something you needed ‘cause I’m in the middle
of…” my body began to climax quickly.
“Oh
man, JC are you with her?” Justin began laughing.
“YES
and I think I’ll have to call you back because I don’t think you want to
hear this…” I slammed the phone down and quickly captured his lips with
mine.
“Lance…”
my body fell over the edge, liquid covering his hand and my boxers.
“FUCK,”
the wave of pleasure kept going and going.
I felt pressure on the tip of my length and my body kept falling.
He smiled down at me as I slowly stopped shaking.
He
continued to move around down there – which I never really liked –
especially after an orgasm of that caliber, but what ever he was doing felt so
amazing.
My
breathing became steady again, the tingling still running through my veins.
“God,
that felt amazing,” I sighed and looked up at him.
“That
was I think the sexiest, most erotic and intense thing I’ve ever
experienced,” he quietly replied.
“God,
you make me feel so good,” I answered, pulling his lips into mine.
We
kissed for a few moments when I heard a familiar beeping from the table.
I reached over and snatched Lance’s talkabout
pager off the desk.
“Must
be Trin, I shut off my cell and tell her I have no reception in the studio
‘cause of the equipment,” he laughed.
He
scrolled through the message and sighed.
I
looked over at him sadly knowing he had to go.
He
plopped back down on the bed after he’d messaged her back.
I
pulled him into my arms and sighed against his forehead, “you have to go…”
“Yeah,
in a few minutes. I hate leaving you Jayce, but…”
“I
know, it’s okay…it’s just hard after…shit…like…that,” I solemnly
replied.
“I
know…actually I better clean up before I go home…y’know,” he smiled.
I
nodded and watched him head into the bathroom.
A
few minutes later I walked him to the door.
“G’night
Jayce,” he kissed the tip of my nose.
“Night,”
I opened the door and allowed him out.
“Sweet
dreams,” he winked and walked into the blackness of the night.
Why
was it whenever he was with me I felt so complete and the minute he left me, I
felt so…empty?
I
leaned against the door and sighed.
I
was in love…head over heels…in love.