Sixteen

The flight wasn’t too bad, and after the time difference and the red eye we’d taken out, it was a bright morning day when we arrived.  We had both slept peacefully on the plane.  That was the one good thing about being in the industry we’re in, we learn to sleep anywhere and everywhere.

It was a beautiful day, only scattered clouds as we took a car up to the hotel and checked in.

We’d decided to sleep some more, then eat and do a little sightseeing before spending a very long night together.

When I awoke after our long nap, my smile was a mile wide.  His eyes were shut and his face relaxed as he breathed deeply, his body facing mine.

I put my hand up to his head and ran my fingers through his hair.

He stirred a bit and then suddenly the room lit up as his green eyes stared at me.  It was like someone had turned on a light in the middle of a dark desert as he looked back at me.  They were so clear and loving as he stared back at me.

“Josh,” his voice was a little raspy as I pulled him into me and held him there tightly.

“Did you sleep good baby?” I asked.

He nodded as he tried to wake his mind and body.

“I’m going to go take a shower and head downstairs to do a few things, so I’ll meet you back here in an hour and we can go out?” I asked.

Lance stared at the white curtains blowing in the breeze in front of the opened French doors.

“You okay?” I asked.

“It’s really going to happen tonight Josh,” he blankly replied.

My hand found the side of his face.

“Are you okay with that baby?” I asked.

“I’ve been waiting for so long, but I’m kind of scared,” he confessed.

“Me too…” I replied.

“Why are you scared JC, you’re a natural at things that are intimate?” he asked.

“Because I’ve never done this before Lance and I’m scared I’m going to disappoint you.”

His green eyes focused on my blue.

“JC you could never.  What matters is that we’re together, it’ll be amazing no matter what.”

“So why are you scared?” I asked.

“Because I’m so lost in love with you that I don’t know what to do.  And this…this will just push me over the edge and I’m going to be so far gone in love I won’t know what to do with myself,” he quietly replied.

Tears brimmed my eyes at his words.

“I love you too, so much…” I pulled him close.

We laid there for a few minutes before he said “guess I should let you go get ready, huh?”

“I’ll see you in an hour,” I leaned down and kissed his forehead before literally skipping to the shower.

While Lance was in the shower I made some arrangements for our special night together.  After I did so I headed upstairs and found him just putting his wallet and key into his pocket.

I smiled as my eyes followed his curvy body.  He was wearing a pair of khaki’s and a white see-through shirt with the sleeves rolled up and a white tank top underneath.  His hair was gelled perfectly and his face was shaved just enough so that he still had a small beard that was a perfect thin line across his jawline.

I approached him and kissed his neck.  It was still a bit damp from the shower and his cologne smelled fresh against my skin.

“You look amazing,” I kissed his neck again.

He tugged on the bottom of my tight black muscle-shirt, “you do too Josh.”

His green eyes smiled at me as I grabbed his hand.

“You ready?”

“Sure, let’s go,” he replied.

The day had proved to be the most relaxing and fun I think either of us had in a long time.  We walked along the beach hand-in-hand without one person looking at us oddly or asking for an autograph.  After a while we went to a quaint restaurant on the water and went through some little shops along the coast.

I’d found Chris a ridiculous hat and Justin a really cool necklace.  Lance bought Joey and Brianna some gifts and then we decided to go sit on the beach and watch the sunset.

I sat there, his legs around me, his arms hugging me close from behind and watched the clean and pure water crash along the white beach.  The sun was a beautiful orange and pink color as it set over the green water. 

I turned around and looked at him.

“I’ve never seen anything so beautiful in my life.”

“Yeah the sunset is pretty, huh?” He smiled.

“I mean you,” I replied.

He smiled big and dropped his head to look at the ground bashfully.

“Thank you,” he whispered.

“Are you ready to go back to the room?” I turned completely around now and looked at him.

He nodded, “I am JC.”

I stood up first and gave him my hand to stand up as well.

He followed me up the beach and into the hotel.

When we got back into the room his face lit up as he looked around the room.

“JC…” he breathlessly replied.

The candles that illuminated the room danced along the wind with the view of the almost dark ocean behind them.

“There’s hundreds of them Jayce,” he turned to look at me as I shut the door.

“I know you love candles, so…you know, I’m not exactly the most creative romantically, but this was easy enough and I knew you’d like it,” I shrugged.

“It’s perfect and most importantly, it’s from your heart,” he replied staring at how beautiful the room looked.

“I also want to be sure I can see every inch of your body move under mine,” I whispered in his ear as I came up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist.

He let out a deep sigh.

“You sure you’re ready for this?” I asked.

He nodded, “more ready than I’ve ever been Jayce.”

I turned him around to face me, our eyes locked intently on one another as my fingers slowly made their way up his chest and began unbuttoning his shirt.  His eyes stayed focused on mine, studying how they grew brighter and brighter as I slowly pulled off his shirt.

you wrap me in your eyes
and that's just where i want to be
collect your thoughts together
and show me what you think of me

I saw him gulp hard as my hands roamed around his chest over his tank top.  My fingers found every curve and niche on his chest, stomach and shoulders as a smile curved on my face.

seems we're both here thinking of
what it'd be like making love,
offering each other's best tonight

His lips leaned in and met mine, his tongue sliding over my teeth and into my mouth.

“I’ve dreamed so many nights Jayce what this would be like.  I can’t believe it’s going to happen,” he whispered into my lips as his fingers found the bottom of my shirt and pulled it over my head.

His eyes fell over my chiseled body, his hands following the path his eyes did.

so give me one more smile
let it shine some light upon my soul
'cause it's been awhile
since i've had half a chance to feel this whole

He smiled brightly as he saw goose-bumps form on my arms.

I reached over and pulled off his tank top, his skin as soft and warm as a comforter in the middle of winter.

His arms wrapped around me, allowing our bodies to touch.

It felt amazing having his warm body next to mine.

Our hands continued to roam each other, just studying and playing, but most of all learning.

whatever peace you offer
is peace i've come to find
but i've done all i can do
sitting here staring at you
i think it's time i said what's on my mind

My fingers ran through the back of his hair, his hands on my arms as I kissed him deeply, our tongues dancing together.

He reached down and pulled my buckle on my pants, then began to unbotton and unzip them carefully.  It took us at least a half hour to fully undress one another because we couldn’t stop kissing and petting each other.  We’d been together like this before, but it was never this deep, this meaningful, this amazing…

glasses full of red
laughter full of honesty
and i'll remember every word you said
as i paint my morning memories

“JC…I…”

He pulled away from my lips, our foreheads touching, both of us extremely aroused.

“What’s wrong?”

“I just want you to know that you’ve been not only an amazing part of my life for how many years now, but you’ve made me feel so loved and so beautiful and so amazing over the past two months.  I’ve never loved anyone this much and I want to love you forever if you’ll let me,” he whispered.
I stared back at him intently and smiled.

“You’ve made me so happy Lance, I love you too,” I replied.

“Make love to me Josh,” was all he said as his green eyes burned into mine, his lips colliding with my own.

if only for this moment
if only for tonight
i've had all i can stand
avoiding what my heart demands
i think it's time i gave into this fight

I led him slowly back into the bed, his body lightly falling onto mine.

I wrapped my arms around him tightly as we began to cover each other in kisses.

He left my mouth and my arms to trail his tongue down my skin.

He made circles around my nipples, my belly button and the tip of me.  He kissed along my thighs, my calves, then back up to my hips, my ribs, my arms and my neck.  Finally he met my lips again quite a while later.

I flipped him over so I was on top of him, my eyes locking onto his.

I leaned over to the side of the bed and grabbed what I needed.

He watched me curiously as I put on the condom and then lubricated myself.

“Come here,” I told him as I moved his legs up so I could lubricate his body as well.

I set down the contents and then leaned over him.

“Tell me if I hurt you, okay?”

He nodded as I slid one finger slowly inside of his body.

My eyes slammed shut just from the warm tight feeling that surrounded my finger.

His eyes were closed, his mouth slightly open.

“Does that hurt?” I asked.

“No, it feels good,” he replied.

I slid in another finger and moved them around as I leaned down and kissed his legs and his thighs.

“One more, okay?”

He nodded.

This time I saw his face contort a little, but after I’d moved it around a bit he relaxed.

I reached over and grabbed the lubrication and put more on him and myself.

I hovered over him, his eyes looking up at me lovingly, a small smile on his face.

I leaned down and kissed his neck and down his stomach and then put his length in my mouth.  I swirled my tongue around him before I leaned back up and kissed him.

“I love you Lance.”

“I love you too Josh.”

I moved his legs up on my chest and then slowly began to slide inside of him.

His body tensed up at first, so I stopped, but then his eyes told me it was okay to keep going.

The feeling of him around me nearly made me lose control.  He felt so amazing, so warm, so beautiful.

“You feel amazing,” I breathed heavily above him as our eyes stayed on each other.

“Gosh Josh…” he moaned as I slid in him further and further.

“Am I hurting you?” I asked.

“No, you feel so good,” he let out a small groan.

if i move you just right
i'll find a brand new point of view
lookin' in your eyes
as i hold you tonight

I leaned down as much as I could in the position we were in and kissed him gently.

My pace was steady, my whole body tingling and my heart soaring.

His hand slid down his body and he began to stroke over his own erection.

“Let me,” I whispered as I pulled his hand up to my mouth and sucked on his finger.

My hand ran over his hard length, his body jerking up into me, causing him to tighten around me.

“Lance…” I called.

My hand moved over him as I continued to move slowly in and out of him.

“JC…JC…” he kept calling when I felt him tense up around me.

I thrusted into him a little hard as his body fell over the edge.  The liquid spilled all over him and all over my hand.

I can’t put into words how seeing him lose control while I was inside of him made me feel.  I wanted to lose it right there, but I didn’t want to stop just yet.

He lifted himself up a little so I could lean down and kiss him.

i've got to hold you tonight
that's all i want to do
want to feel you tonight
kissing every part of you

“You feel good Josh, don’t stop,” he told me as his eyes locked onto mine.

“I wish I could never Lance, but you feel too amazing…”

His hands fell over my chest as my body started to lose control.

“Jayce…” he whispered, “I love you baby…”

And with that I hit the top.  My body fell at a steady pace, my orgasm lasting for what seemed like forever as his hands caressed my body.  Losing myself inside of him sent shock waves in me from head to toe, I felt like I was paralyzed as I collapsed beside him.

His arms scooped me up instantly and he pulled me into him tightly.

Tears were brimming my eyes, I was nearly crying I was feeling so much pleasure.

He spooned against me, his arms wrapped around me and not letting me go.

I looked down at the condom and saw a little red.

“I made you bleed, did I hurt you,” I quickly turned around and looked at him with a paranoid expression.

“I’m a little sore, but I’ll be okay Josh,” he rubbed his hand through my sweaty curls.

“Are you sure baby?” I asked.

“I’ll be okay, don’t worry,” he smiled, his green eyes bright.  “You were amazing,” he added.

“God you were so beautiful Lance,” I wrapped my own arms around his.

“I’m not done with you,” he whispered, “but first we sleep,” he whispered.

“I’m not done with you either, we have the whole night,” I answered.

“Nap?” he asked.

“Nap…” I replied.

“I love you Joshua Scott Chasez.”

“I love you too James Lance Bass.”

i want to hold you tonight
that's all i want to do
feel you tonight
each and every part of you*

*Lyrics and music by Tony Lucca

Chapter Seventeen