Ten

I heard the loud banging, how I don’t know.  I usually am unconscious when I sleep.  But it came banging through my dream and startled me awake.  My eyes shot open and I saw nothing but black staring back at me.  My eyes found the red digits on the clock next to me, it was 3 in the morning.

“Hold on, hold on,” I moaned as I stumbled down the staircase and to the door in nothing but my boxers.

I looked through the peephole and sure enough, Lance was standing on the other side.

“Lance, what are you doing here, it’s the middle of the night,” I replied as I allowed him in.

He didn’t say anything, he just wandered in my house and plopped down on the couch.  He seemed almost in a catatonic state.

“Lance?  Are you okay?” I asked as I sat down next to him.

There was silence for a few moments and then he whispered, “I feel empty without you Joshua.”

“Oh…God…Lance,” I tried to reach out for him, but he just moved away.

“Just let me talk…” he muttered.

“Okay,” I agreed.

“I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t do anything when we’re not together JC.  I just…I feel like part of me is missing and I don’t know why.  I’ve been in love with you for so long and most of that was spent being just your friend.  I don’t know why it’s so difficult now.  Why it hurts so bad.  I guess I really have deeply fallen for you, so bad that my heart hurts when I’m not near you.  So bad that I can lay in bed at night and feel my body burn and ache for yours.  I feel like I’m empty and part of me is missing when I’m not with you…”

He stopped for a moment and cleared his throat, tears burning at his eyes, his voice beginning to choke.

“I’ve never…” he held back the tears as much as possible, “ever loved someone like this in my life and it feels so amazing I don’t think I ever will love anyone else this way again.  And by knowing this I know now that it’s time to tell Trin, to tell my parents, your parents and the world…and why?”

He sniffled and wiped his nose.

“Because I can’t spend another minute without you from now until forever,” he concluded.

I looked at him in disbelief, my heart fluttering, my eyes burning from tears, my whole body in shock.

“For – forever?”

He looked up at me, his green eyes dark.

“Are you willing to give forever Jayce?”

I blinked a few times.  I was speechless, of course I was willing to give forever, but the fact that HE was willing to give it to ME is what blew me away.

“I love you Lance, more than my life and I’m willing to give ANYTHING for you, for US, I just…I can’t…you’re…we’re…” I just pulled him into my arms, both of us choking up a bit and rocking back and forth for a matter of minutes.

We both sniffled and looked at each other.

“I love you too, Josh, are you willing to give up your life for me?”

“Do you even have to ask that?” I rubbed his back gently.

“Everything’s going to be okay, right JC?” he asked.

“I promise, as long as we’re together everything will be alright.”

“Jayce?”

“Yeah?”

“Can I stay the night here?  I told Trin you had an emergency and I’d be home in the morning,” he sighed.

“Lance, do you have to ask?  I need to feel you in my arms…” I grabbed his hand and led us up to my bedroom.

The moon led the way as he followed me.

I stopped at the edge of the bed and pulled his face in my hands.

“You’re sure James?”

He looked up at me, caught off guard by the use of his first name.

“I’m positive, I want you and only you…”

My fingers began to unbutton his shirt slowly, his body trembling at my touch.

“I’ve missed you so much Jayce, God, my body just aches for you,” he whispered in my ear as I ran my hands over his now bare chest.

“It’s okay baby, I’m here now, and I’m going to take away that ache and turn it into nothing but love and pleasure,” I whispered back, my fingers undoing his pants and dropping them to the floor.

His hands found my boxers and he pulled them down gently.

His were soon followed by mine, my hand grabbing his hot and hard mass.

He flinched at my touch.

“Gosh, I missed feeling you touch me,” his eyes locked with mine, both of us searching each other’s eyes.

I leaned into his earlobe and took it in my mouth, slowly suckling and biting on it.

“I’ve missed watching the way you look at me when I make you feel good,” I replied, leading us down on the bed.

I landed on top of him, my naked body pressed to his, the heat between our lower halves was rising and rising.

I slid off of him just enough to move my hand up and down his shaft, but I was still on top of him enough to look down into his eyes.

They were growing brighter by the moment as he just stared up at me.

“Your eyes light up this amazing green when you come, you seem to glow,” I whispered.

His body began to twitch as I watched him lose control.

“I love watching what I can do to you, and it’s all because of how much I love you,” I kissed his nose.

His eyes locked on mine intensely.

“Josh…” he moaned, his face scrunching up.

“I love you James Lance Bass, forever,” my lips met his carefully.

When I felt him jerk abruptly under me I looked into his eyes.

His eyes never left mine, just moans that escaped his mouth as he came.

His breaths were uneven as he looked up at me, tears in his eyes.

“God JC…” he sat up a bit, his body still lingering from the orgasm.

“What’s wrong baby?” I asked.

“I want you inside of me…” his deep voice whispered into my neck.

I reached down and stroked over myself, knowing full well that being inside of him would feel better on this straining than anything, but it wasn’t the right time.  Especially when we were this turned on.  It would take me all of two seconds…

“I know, but not right now, you know we’re going to wait Lance…” I reminded him.

“I know, but, maybe…” he reached over and grabbed my hand.

I smiled at him, “okay, learn me mister Bass,” I teased.

He flipped me over so that he was on top of me, accept in the 69 position.

He looked back at me, “just really wet your fingers and I’ll be fine, just enjoy this…”

And with that his mouth took my entire self inside of it.  He sucked over me softly as I sucked on my own fingers and then found his entrance.

“You sure I won’t hurt you?” I asked.

He removed me from his mouth and replied, “it only hurts a little at first, don’t worry about me, I know you know how to use your fingers,” and his mouth was sucking on me again.  I bucked up into his face.

“Fuck Lance, if you don’t settle down this is going to be over before it started,” I laughed.  I could feel him smirking as he slowed his pace.

My index finger pushed inside of him slowly.  I felt him tense up for a moment and then relax.  The feeling of his insides set my body on fire.  He was so soft and warm.

My climax began instantly as I moved my finger in a steady pace in and out of him.

I began to moan, the pleasure overwhelming my body like never before.

Suddenly I removed my fingers and they gripped the side of the bed.

“I’m…” within seconds I filled his mouth, my body jerking over and over, the orgasm lasting longer than I could ever imagine.

When he knew I’d finished he sat up and turned around, then fell into my arms.

“Oh…God…that was…” I was trying to catch my breath.

“It felt so good having you inside me,” he kissed my ear, his body aroused next to my side.

I looked down, my hand finding his problem.

“God you feel so warm and amazing…” I breathed heavily, my hand wrapping around him as his hips moved in rhythm into me.  “I want to make you feel as good as I do Lance…” I moaned into his ear.

I pushed him over on his back, my mouth trailing down his body, within seconds he was in my mouth.  This time I spent more time concentrating on every move I made instead of the quick shower scene back in New York.  I made a rhythm with my mouth and made sure I kept him slick and moist.  My hand found his base and moved in the same motion, my tongue swirling around the tip here and there.

He kicked upward in bed, his body in the same rhythm as my mouth, his whispers were “JC, don’t stop, baby don’t stop, please.”

He grunted and shifted up more until he suddenly shifted too far into the head-board, his head hitting it with a thud.

I looked up at him to make sure he was okay, he had hit it pretty hard, but he didn’t seem to care, his small pants and grunts continued.

“Jayce…Jayce…I…”

His hand pushed my head down and held it there, he jerked a few times and then the liquid filled my mouth.  I swallowed quickly and crawled up to him.

He kissed me quickly, his tongue darting in and out of my mouth.

“So how do I taste?” he asked quietly.

I had the strangest look on my face.  I’d never…tasted…that…before.

He just laughed because I was sure my eyeballs were popping out of my head.

“Tastes different, aye?”  He wrapped himself in my arms.

“Definitely an acquired taste,” I joked.

We laid there in silence, our sweaty bodies pressed to each other.

“Jayce?” he suddenly spoke up.

“Yeah?”

“I never knew it was possible to love someone this much, I feel like I’m going to turn inside out…”

“I know, me too Poofu.  We have to tell them soon, I don’t know how much longer I can go without making love to you, coming home to you every night, seeing your beautiful green eyes stare up at me in the morning…and making you breakfast…”

“We’ll tell them…” he thought for a moment, “Thursday?” he laughed.

“Why Thursday?” I shook my head confused.

“Because then it’ll be a month we’ve been together.”

“You remember that?” my voice went one octave higher.

“Of course…did you really think I didn’t love you?  I was just scared JC, scared that I was so much in love.  I’m sorry,” he replied.

“I’m sorry for walking out on you, I just…I thought since you didn’t want to tell anyone that this…US…wasn’t really serious…” I softly answered.

He sat up and looked at me.

“Don’t ever say that Joshua, I love you, I’ve told you before, ‘I’ve loved you forever, in lifetimes before…’,” he sang softly.

I leaned up and kissed him gently.

“Thursday then…”

“Thursday it is…good night Jayce.”

“Good night baby.”

Eleven