I Will Love You As long as I can dream, as long as I can think, as long as I have a memory, I will Love you. As long as I have eyes to see, and ears to hear, and lips to speak, I will Love you. As long as I have a heart to feel, as soul stirring within me, and imagination to hold you, I will Love you. As long as there is time, as long as there is love, as long as I have a breath to speak your name, I will Love you. Because I loved you more than anything in the world. JUST REMEMBER ME When a loved one dies, with no tomorrow's or today's, Don't you sometimes wonder, what to us they'd say? Of course they'd say "I love you," and "I miss you, can't you see." But also don't you think we'd hear, "Please, just remember me." We find out we're not protected, no never given a chance. Death hits and strikes so quickly, without a backward glance. So many things unanswered, we ask, how can this be? But can't you hear their voice say, "Just please, remember me." Our loved ones gave so very much, before their life was through, So to them we say with all our love, "We'll always remember you..." In memory of Dana Lynn Hefflinger by her mother, Debbie Bartels Hefflinger Aaron's Mommy Billie Lynn still grieve 2 and 3 Visit Aaron's site! I found out I was pregnant the day after Christmas...WOW!! what a Christmas present!! I was excited, but also a little bit nervous!! I was still in college, and Michael(my husband to be) had just graduated. But we both loved each other very much, and we wanted this baby!! And we knew we did not have to be rich to raise a happy baby...we needed love! My pregnancy progressed very well! I did not have much morning sickness. I still had alot of energy. I really felt wonderful!! At around 12 weeks, I heard my baby's heartbeat for the first time and it was such an amazing feeling. It made the pregnancy so real! I was going to have a baby!! At 22 weeks we had an ultrasound, and I was moved to tears to see my baby(we did not want to know the sex) moving around and kicking his legs! It was our first glimpse at this beautiful baby growing inside my womb!! And I just feel in love with my precious baby!! A few days later, I was sitting on the beach and I felt him kick! I couldn't believe it! I was so excited!! I ran down the beach to where Michael was playing volleyball, and I was jumping up and down and screaming " I felt our baby"!!! Michael was so excited also. Of course, he couldn't feel the kicks yet, but a few weeks later he was able to feel a kick, and he was overjoyed!! We loved to play music and sing to Colin, and he would always kick like crazy when we did this!! I guess he loved the music also!! And at night I would sing lullaby to Colin and tell him how much I love him!! When I was 5 months pregnant, Michael and I got married! It was a very special day!! Colin kicked through the whole ceremony...He was happy for his mommy and daddy!! This will always be a special memory for us!! My pregnancy kept progressing normally and on September 4th I had a doctor's appointment. I was 41 and a half weeks pregnant and ready for my baby to be born. At the appointment all was well. We saw Colin on the ultrasound kicking his legs, and his heartbeat was strong!! The doctor told me they would induce me on Monday if I did not go into labor first(They had induction already scheduled for Fri.,Sat., and Sun.). My hubby wanted to push the doctor to go ahead and induce me before Monday(he knew how miserable I was), but I told him not to. I could handle a few more days!! On Saturday morning I started having mild contractions. And around 7:30 they were about 5 minutes apart, and my doctor told me to go to the hospital!! On the ride there Michael and were so excited!! We couldn't wait to meet our baby!! When we arrived at the hospital, the nurse tried to find Colin's heartbeat, but she seemed to have trouble. She called in another nurse to help, and she was unable to find his heartbeat also. She went to get the doctor and told us not to worry because babies move around alot and it can sometimes be hard to find their heartbeats. The doctor came in with the ultrasound and when I looked at the screen I did not see my baby kicking. Then the doctor told me he had died. I looked at him and said "What?". I did not understand...babies are not suppose to die!! The doctors gave me alot of medication to ease my physical pain while I in labor. My hubby was by my side holding my hand and crying. But I could not cry. I was such a state of denial. I kept thinking the doctors are wrong...it is a mistake!! I was very calm throughout my whole labor. I was comforting my hubby!! At 4:09 am on September 8, 1997 my son, Colin Michael Dammann was born. And he did not let out a cry! And it hit me that my son had died, so I lost it! I started crying at the top of my lungs, and I could not stop. The nurses brought him over for us to see, and he was so beautiful. They asked if I wanted to hold him, but I said no. I didn't think I could handle this. After a few hours I was taken to my room, and I cried myself to sleep. I woke up about 3 hours later with a overwhelming need to hold my son. And they brought him to me. He was so beautiful!! He had a hair full of dark hair. And he had long "piano fingers" just like his daddy. And Michael said he had my nose and lips. As I held my beautiful boy, I told him how much I loved him, and I cried and cried! This is a memory I will cherish till the day I die...holding my angel in my arms. HAPPY BIRTHDAY COLIN!!! I love you and miss you, my sweetpea now...and forever SOMEDAY by: Moe Barakat The precious lips that I once kissed Will smile for me someday, The voice that I never heard Will sing to me someday. The tender hands that I once held So tight within my own, Will reach for me and let me see That I am not alone. The tiny feet I once felt kick Will dance for me someday And we will share the lifetimes lost When my angel went away. The steady heartbeat that I once heard I'll listen for again To help me find my way I'll miss you until then... ~Someday~ by Moe Barakat The precious lips that I once kissed, will smile for me someday, The voice that I never heard will sing to me someday. The tender hands that I once held so tight within my own, will reach for me and let me see, that I am not alone. The tiny feet I once felt kick will dance for me someday and we will share lifetimes lost, when my Angel went away. The steady heartbeat that I once heard, I'll listen for again..to help me find my way. I'll miss you until then.... September 17th my Sweet Angel Baby was born. After 3 weeks of constant worry and tears, he was finally here. Two months early and only 2 pounds 2 ounces. He was a little fighter. He was born at 12:23 am after a emergency c-section and having the cord wrapped around his neck twice. He was the most beautiful site I had ever seen, I was totally amazed that he was mine, I had made him !! He was terribly sick and I knew this but it was 1999 !! They were gonna fix him and he'd be coming home with his Mommy. Well 10 hours after he came into this world.....The nurse came to my room...."I need to take you to see your Son". I knew something was wrong and the tears started to flow. As I entered the nursery I realized that the Doctor and nurses were doing CPR on my Baby !!!!!! They took him off of the table, hooked him up to his respirator and handed him to me...."Ms. Peacock, I am sorry but your Son is very sick and he's not going to make it". I am not sure of my exact words but all I remember was screaming "oh God". For four hours I sat and held, rocked, kissed and snuggled my Baby boy....This was my last chance. I remember looking down at him and saying "Come on Dillan..Move, blink, cry ANYTHING...just prove them wrong..Please prove them wrong".... A few Minuets later his Doctor came to me and knelt down next to us...he started to look for Dillan's heart beat....but there was Nothing...He looked up into my eyes and said "I'm sorry he's gone".....Again all I can remember was screaming...no words..just screaming. At 1:52 pm my Little Angel got his wings and flew home. What began as the most beautiful, Proud day of my life..ended as the most horrific day of my life. I lived a thousand lifetimes in those four short hours. I love you Dillan Jesse Peacock FOREVER !!! Dillan's Mommy Stacey sg 2 and 3 Visit Dillan's Pages!