Daniel Andrews

5/18/97

Due to Miscarriage

Daniels story

I started spotting about five days
before the miscarriage.
  We went to the ER, they did an ultrasound and said everything looked ok. 
They told us that if i was going to miscarry that there wasnt anything they could do, so they sent us home.  Two days later I woke up and went to use the bathroom. I was in front of the tub talking to my
husband when a gush
of water streamed down my legs.  We went to the Er and again they did an
ultrasound.  They said the there wasnt much amniotic fluid,  but that
the baby looked ok.  So they sent me home again on bed rest.
  On May 16 I woke up several
times during the
night with a lot of pressure in my lower abdomen.  I would use the
bathroom and go back to bed and go
back to sleep.  On May 17
I woke up and the pressure go worse
during the day. It got bad,
and I went and laid down in bed. 
Before I knew it I was feeling as
if something was coming out. Well
it came completely out.  I yelled for my husband and he came and looked
and it was the baby.  He ran and called 911.  The ambulance came and took
us to the ER.  When I got there
they took me into the room.  They did another ultrasound to see if everything
was expelled and the placenta was still
there, so i had to have a d&c.  After the D&C  was over, and I had recoverd
we asked to see the baby.  The nurse brought him in and to my horror  
they had put him in a mason jar with some kind   of fluid. 
We couldnt hold him. We counted his ten fingers and ten toes. He was very tiny but he looked like a miniature baby.
so  perfect. Well in a few hours,
they discharged me and we
went home with empty arms.  I was so upset because I didnt get to hold
my baby.  We didnt know that we could hold him or we would have asked to. I am now upset that we didnt say something because i have found
out that we could have.
It has been really difficult since the miscarriage.  I long to hold my baby, and theres nothing i can do to
bring him back.