Mediphobe
Answers Or "How to Overcome Pharmacophobia"
This
article is intended to go along with another at this site about
Cognitive-Behavoural
Therapy. You’ll see why in a sec.
So
you are thinking about taking medicine. And you panic. That’s
okay, that’s actually pretty normal. It’s a phobia;
it’s called Pharmacophobia. Hey! It’s got a name!
J If it’s got a name, we can fix it, right? The best way
to overcome a phobia is with Cognitive-Behavoural
Therapy. (read that article for great Question and Answers!!)
Even
thinking about getting a prescription filled or putting a pill
in your mouth, or even touching a pill sets off an automatic thought.
You don’t know this is happening; it’s all-undercover
deep inside of you. So you panic. The automatic thought can be
anything! Just for example:
·
This is going to kill me!
·
I’m going to pass out and nobody will find me!
·
What if I have those horrible side effects?
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I just can’t do this, I’ll throw up, I know it!
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Medicine? I don’t need medicine, weak people need medicine.
So,
after that, you have a behavioural response, an action that you
take, knowingly or not. You don’t get the prescription filled,
you don’t swallow the pill or touch it, you dump all of
the pills down the toilet and flush it, and this eases the anxiety.
But
wait! You were supposed to take that to feel better! Whoa. Vicious
cycle you’re in there. Let’s see what we can figure
out to help you get through this.
You
are having automatic thoughts, which stem from some belief, those
ones I mentioned that are rooted deep inside of you and you have
no idea that they’re happening most of the time. You might
be thinking it will make you weak, or that it means you’re
weak, that you should be able to do this on your own! Or maybe
you think doctors just like to push pills on people without really
thinking about other solutions. Or maybe you think you only visited
this doctor a few times, how could he know me well enough to tell
me what medicine to take? Quite possibly, you don’t like
being told what to do…your doctor might say do this and
you think, “no way! I don’t have to do anything I
don’t want to do!” Another is that all too well known
feeling of things being futile…why should you bother trying
medicine, nothing will work anyway.
Well,
medicine can work, if you stick to it and give it a fair try.
But nobody can do this for you, sure they can support you, but
you have to do it yourself!
Taking
Medicine Does Not Mean
·
That you’re weak, crazy, messed up, or broken in anyway.
·
That your doctor is just trying to rush you out of his office
without thinking your situation through.
·
That you’ll become an addict, die from side effects or need
to be on it for the rest of your life.
You
might be thinking that you should always solve your problems by
yourself or shouldn’t rely on something artificial, a drug,
or a chemical of some kind to make you feel better.
Here’s
a frightening thought…many of you may be thinking this:
“If I take medicine and I get better, that means I have
to BE better, but that’s not all that good really because
then I have to go back to work, face the real world, people will
expect SO much more of me, and maybe even have to face the fact
that my marriage isn’t all that great. I might get better
then I’ll want to get out of my comfort zone…that’s
scary! I don’t wanna !!!!!!!!”
Okay,
that’s completely normal for us. It’s a fear, it’s
deeply rooted inside of you, but it’s not uncommon. I mean,
it makes perfect sense, really. You don’t want to leave
what you know, your comfort zone, you don’t want to lose
control of your life…even though it isn’t all that
great right now, at least you know how it works and how to get
around in it…facing change, even the good change of having
a medicine work for you and change all that, IS scary.
You
won’t lose control of your life because you take medicine
prescribed for people with panic disorder. The goal is to GET
BETTER, and your doctor knows that and realizes that’s why
you are there. You want to get better, you’re giving effort,
you’re trying, and that is HUGE, it’s major! You’ve
started down the right road.
Don’t
let your fears get in the way.
Medicine
is not just for crazy people, used as a last resort, it doesn’t
make you into a zombie and it doesn’t have side effects
that are going to ruin your life. Working with your doctor, finding
the right medicine, and TAKING it, giving it a month to work,
is key to getting to a place where you feel better, and hey…maybe
even “normal!”
So.
What Do You Do?
Time
to ask yourself a few questions.
·
What concerns do you have about taking medicine?
·
What concerns do you have about taking a particular medicine?
·
How likely is it, do you think, that this medicine will work?
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How likely are you to actually take this medication everyday?
Yes,
knowing why you’re scared is a good place to start. Honesty
is a good thing to have when you’re answering these questions,
since really, you’re the only one who’s going to hear
the answers for now anyway, you don’t want to lie to yourself,
that isn’t good.
Do
you already know you aren’t going to take a medicine? Do
you already know you aren’t going to even call a doctor
and talk to him about taking a medication? Are you lying to your
doctor now about taking things that he’s prescribed for
you in the past?
Instead
of doing that, try using your imagination and see what kind of
reaction you get.
Imagine
you’re taking a pill. What kind of feelings are you having
when you think about that? Write them down to study later.
Write
down the pros and cons of taking medicine. Imagine you’ve
been prescribed Paxil – one dose in the morning, and Xanax
– three times a day. What would the pros and cons be of
that?
Some
pro’s might be:
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You’re going to feel better.
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Your mood will be better.
·
Fewer anxiety symptoms.
·
Fewer panic attacks.
·
Increased ability to function at home, work, shopping, etc.
·
Improvement in all of your relationships: spouse, children,
coworkers, etc.
·
Enjoyment in life. (remember how you used to love to lay in
the yard and soak up the sun? That’ll come back!)
Possible
Cons:
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Weight gain fears.
·
Side effect fears.
·
Cost. (A biggy! But you’re worth it!)
Your
list will differ, of course. But all of the sentences on your
“cons” list that have the word fear or scared in them
can be helped. Those are things that people can help you through.
A quote from a website that I researched this on, states this:
“A
patient who fears gaining weight due to medication needs to reflect
on the degree to which her life would be negatively impacted by
weight gain versus the degree to which her life is, and could
remain, negatively impacted by her [panic] disorder.”
It’s
an excellent point. Okay, if you gain ten or twenty pounds but
are able to sleep through the night, go shopping and driving again,
attend your children’s school plays, work, etc, isn’t
it worth the extra weight? And the weight can be very temporary…you
will feel better, you won’t worry so much that when you
exercise your heart will beat a million beats a minute and you’ll
die of a heart attack. That’s what the medicine helps…those
irrational fears, it beats them back.
Next.
Ask
someone to help you. Even if it’s your husband, wife, neighbor,
sister, friend, or online buddy. Ask them to call YOU every day
and ask you if you took your medicine. If you say no, then talk
it out with them, they should know ahead of time that your intention
is to stick to the intention of taking the medicine for at least
a month to see if it is helping.
Sticking
to it, taking the medicine every day, is the only way it is going
to help. You really can benefit from the support of others at
this time. If you feel like you’re being a bother, try not
to feel that way, there are people in your life who love you,
and you doing this is an example of you wanting to take back control
of your life. They’ll view that as a positive thing. And
if they don’t, if they despise medicine for whatever reason,
seek your support elsewhere, you don’t need any negativity
at this rough time!!
My
mother hated that I took any medicine for my panic attacks …
I’ve been called a druggy behind my back by my own family,
and you know what, I know that taking my panic disorder medicines
helps me, I know that it gave me my life back, and I know that
I’m NOT a drug addict. If I were diabetic they wouldn’t
feel like I was being weak for taking insulin, and my panic disorder
is just as serious as diabetes.
So,
talking things out really does help, I found my support through
my husband, my sister who also has panic attacks, my online friends
and my doctor. (I highly recommend the doctor as a support person!
It’s very reassuring and it’s their job to do that,
remember YOU pay THEM for their service. Without patients, they’d
be out of business, so don’t feel like a lowlife or anything
for going in to their office, you’re giving them MONEY for
their services…remember that!)
So,
if you think medicine won’t help, here are a few things
to talk out with a friend or a psychologist or yourself if that’s
all you can do for right now:
·
What’s the evidence medication won’t help?
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What’s the evidence on the other side, that medication
could help?
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What the worst that could happen? What’s the best? What’s
the most likely outcome?
·
What’s the effect of your believing medication won’t
help? What could be the effect of changing your thinking?
·
If a close family member or friend were as distressed as you
are and also thought “Medication can’t help,”
what would you tell him/her?
After
thinking about these things or talking them over with a friend
or doctor, write down your feelings about those questions. Your
GOOD feelings about those questions. Write them on an index card
and everytime you are getting ready to make that phone call to
a doctor about possibly getting medication for your panic attacks,
or actually taking the medicine itself, read the card.
Here
is an example of a card that I saw on the web, I liked the way
it was written … it was friendly and pretty much reflected
how I’ve felt in the past.
Before
Taking Medicine
I
hate to take medicine. On the other hand, I hate feeling this
bad even more.
There
are a lot more advantages to taking the medicine than disadvantages.
It
would be a shame if this medicine could help me feel better
but I didn't give it a fair try. I should stick to the treatment
plan we set up.
And….
After
Taking Medicine
I
deserve a lot of credit for taking this medication, especially
because I'm doing something that goes against my grain.
It
takes a strong person to do things she doesn't want to do.
And
I won't ever know whether this medicine could be helpful unless
I take it for a month.
It
is worth finding out.
I
can stand feeling uncomfortable about taking medication for
a month.
If
it makes you feel more active in your role as the medication taker,
journal your thoughts and feelings every single day, several times
a day, so that if you feel as if you can not take the medicine,
you will be able to show your friend or your doctor or psychologist
exactly what your thinking was at the time. Also, write down the
good things, like any improvement you felt! That will help, too.
Also,
ask your doctor how he would feel about a “check in”.
Do you think your compliance with taking the medicine would be
higher if you knew you had to call your doctor in between visits
and let him know how you’re doing with it? (I know mine
would be!)
Work
with your doctor on this…he/she can arrange to have his
office staff contact you once or twice a week to get an update
on how you’re doing with taking the medicine. Or you may
be able to just leave a message for him. (“Dr. SoInSo…it’s
me, Judy, it’s Wednesday and I wanted to just check in with
you and tell you that I took the Paxil every day, but it’s
still really scaring me.”)
Another
helpful thing is to, at first, take your medicine in front of
someone who can stick around for awhile while you make sure you’re
going to be okay. (This may be all wrong, but once my husband
took a Zoloft so he could prove to me that it wouldn’t kill
me to swallow it….now THAT is support.)
Hey,
it’s time to get serious, if it means going and staying
with a friend for a week who will understand what you’re
trying to do, and help you through it, talk you through any side
effects, etc, then you’re worth that. Being alone is one
of the hardest parts of taking a medication for the first time,
you just are so afraid it is going to hurt you. I know.
Some
Other Useful Tactics
·
Imagine what your life would be like in three months if you
kept taking the medicine and it worked.
·
Imagine what your life would be like in three months if you
didn’t take the medicine at all.
·
Imagine what your life might be like a year from now after not
taking any medicine, feeling the same, feeling grim all the
time, scared all the time, … it really is an eye opener
… very good for bolstering your courage. You want to get
better, that’s the point.
·
If you absolutely can’t comply with taking the medicine,
write down exactly WHY you couldn’t, what you were thinking,
feeling, etc, at the time you decided not to take it, then share
that information with your doctor.
Remember,
it’s your thoughts and beliefs about the medicine, or medication
in general, that is inhibiting your taking them. There are ways
around this, but you need to take the step to call a doctor and
try. You really have to try hard. Even though you might have a
lot of support, it is up to YOU to take your medication, it is
up to YOU to take charge of your life. Nobody can do this for
you, unfortunately, but conquering this fear will free you in
so many ways.
Sure,
you can have a friend make the appointment if you’re afraid
of doing that, that’s not a bad thing. Even having a friend
go with you to the appointment isn’t a bad thing…you’re
still DOING it, you’re taking an active involvement in getting
better, and that’s incredible and brave and amazing.
I
know you can do this, you can conquer this fear, be patient with
yourself, but be strong as well.
I
wish you all the success in the world. I don’t have much
more advice than this to give, I’ve wracked my brain for
three years trying to find the ultimate solution to this dilemma
and this article is what I’ve come up with. I truly…TRULY…hope
it has helped at least in some small way.