Written by Lucy Symonds

CHAPTER 8 Now what would I do? I decided to wander over to the basketball ball court to where Brian, Kevin and Howie were attempting to play basketball but it was turning into a wrestling match. "Hi Guys, I've been kicked out of the bus by Nicky and Erika, they want some Private Time." "Oh OK," said Howie slightly confused. "Want some pizza?" "No thanks I'm not hungry, I'll just have a bit of a sun bathe." "OK, come on Bri your always hungry." As the 2 guys left Kevin stayed back. I started to lie down but he put his handsome hands round my waist to stop me and said, "Let me put some cream on you, you don't want to get burnt." Before I could refuse he started to pull the straps down on my top and made my lie down. Mmmmmmm he has such a sexy body with no top on! Jesse stop thinking about what he is wearing or lack of it. But he is so sexy! Come on don't think about what is above the belt line or what is below it either. I tried my best to avoid looking at Kevin or touching him but it was impossible. As he rubbed the sun tan cream into my back I started to think about all the good time that we had in my old pool in Kentucky and all the places we went together. I remembered that I thought that he was the best thing in the world and nobody could get to me or hurt me because he would look after me and no other girl could have him because he was all mine. "Jesse," he said nervously, " I don't know if you heard me last night but I think you probably did, 'cause before, like 3 years ago you always heard me at night." "Kevin, things are…." I started to say. "No let me finish, and I told you that I loved you and I wanted to marry you, so would you?" Oh my God! I didn't know what to say. The guy I loved and probably would always love was asking me the question that I always wanted him to ask . "I," why wouldn't my voice work, it never stopped usually. "Lets wait a while and sort some stuff out. Wanna go steady?" I found myself saying, why couldn't I say what I wanted? "Yes I would love to," Kevin was saying, "Come on I have something to show you." Before I could decline knowing I had to get back to work, he grabbed my hand and carried my over his shoulder. I started to kick and hit him on the back but I knew it was no good, he was much stronger than me. He eventually put me down in a hotel room and sat me on the bed and sat down beside me, we started to kiss and you all can guess what happened next! I woke up 2 hours later in Kevin big strong arms and I sighed, it felt so good to have him in my life. I rolled over to look at the time, it was 5pm! I woke Kevin up by shouting in his ear, OK it wasn't the most romantic thing to do but we needed to get of there! "Kevin, wake up!" I yelled in his ear while trying to find my knickers which had mysteriously landed on the door handle. "Get up you lazy lump, we were supposed to be back hours ago!" I didn't wait for an answer from him I ran out the room switching my mobile phone on and pulling down my top. I ran back to the buses which were meant to leave an hour ago. I ran over to the bus where Brian and Howie were pacing around. CHAPTER 9 "Hi Guys," I tried to sound casual, which I knew was impossible as my hair was a mess and my lipstick was smudged. "Where is Kevin?" they said together, just as Kevin came running down the road. They could tell that he had been with me as he had lipstick all over his face and down his stomach and further. "Come on get on the bus were are late already!" I said jumping on the bus running straight to the girl's section where I found Erika sitting looking very happy with herself. "So what have you been doing then?" I said, "I could ask you the same thing!" she replied. "Well me and Kevin have sorted some stuff out and we decided to steady again!" "That's great news Jess! well I think you kinda gathered that me and Nick are an item. Hi Louise what did u do today! Well AJ and me got kicked out of the mall after we started to sing and jump off the balcony, it was so unfair!" "Now girls would you like to come in and watch a film with your 3 favourite Backstreet boys?" said Kevin, walking in. He stooped down and gave me a kiss on the cheek, which Erika wasn't bothered about but Louise slowly had to pick her jaw off the ground. " In a minute, but we have to gossip about you guys for a while, five mins OK?" she said. "OK see you soon." I quickly told Louise about Kevin and me and we walked through to the T.V room. I sat down next to Kevin who sat me on his knee. Erika went and sat between Nick's legs on the floor and Louise sat next to AJ with his arm round her. "What film is it then?" I asked, not really caring. "The Mummy" said Aj turning the T.V on. The film wasn't really scary but it was a good excuse to cuddle up to Kevin. But Aj had other ideas, he kept tapping Louise on the shoulder and scaring her. About half way through the film the guys started to fall asleep. "Wanna play a trick on the guys?" I asked. "Yeah," the girls agreed. "Go and get some shaving foam and a razor," I said happily. So we shaved the guy's legs right up to the top of their thighs and took pictures of them in stupid poses. We quickly decided to go back to our room and we talked for ages, then fell asleep. We woke up to 3 very annoyed voices yelling, "Want a fight?" and sprayed foam in our beds. Kevin jumped on me and covered me in shaving foam and started to kiss me. There wasn't much noise as Louise and Erika and the guys had abandoned me. Oh good! Alone with Kevin covered in shaving foam, I hopped into the shower and pulled the shower curtain across. I heard someone come in and pull the shower curtain across and Kevin joined me in the shower. Then I got changed someone came in and closed the door. "Can I talk to you for a second? Jess?" I turned round to see Howie standing there with tears in his eyes. "Oh what is it Sweetie?" I said getting into the mood to be an agony aunt. "Well, my girlfriend just broke up with just before I asked her to marry me." He said crying now. Kevin came in with a towel wrapped around his waist. "Kevin, can you leave us alone for a couple of minutes? Now please?" "Yeah sure whatever" and with that he left. "OK tell me what happened," I said hugging Howie. CHAPTER 10 "Well I told her that there was something I wanted to tell her, but she started to go on about wanting different things and she thought it was best to split up then and there. So I just got up and left and drunk about ˝ a bottle of Jack Daniels and now I'm unhappy and pissed and I've got to go on stage in 1 hour and do interviews about how happy I am!" "Oh its OK, I'll fix everything, promise" I said feeling rotten that I was so happy when Howie's life was collapsing around him. "Will you get her back for me?" he said looking deep into my eyes. I could see the pain he was in. "No I can't do that but I will sort out the interviews and performance." "I don't wanna go on stage tonight." He said snuffling into my top. "If you don't you will ruin thousands of lives as well as your own. Now lets limit the damage, OK?" I said, it may sound harsh but it would be true. "And if you manage that I'll come and get drunk with you OK and I'll pay and get you back to the bus in one piece OK?" "Yeah let's do it!" he said sounding better. CHAPTER 11 After all the drama of the last few weeks on tour me and Kevin decided to take a break and we went to visit his mom and brothers in Kentucky. I didn't really want to go but he sounded so happy to see them. I was becoming a minor celebrity because I had to fill in for one of the dancers the last couple of weeks as she had broken her leg. We flew down to Kentucky and were immediately spotted by some 15-year-old BSB fans. Oh great I thought it was bad enough coming back again without fans turning up here. But Kevin was very polite and signed autographs and answered all the questions they threw at him then came the big one, " are you going out with that girl over there called Jessica or something 'cause I read that you were in a newspaper?" said one of them. I was all set for Kevin to deny it and I was just travelling with him which was the normal story, but he just said, "Yes." There were squeals of delight and they insisted that they got a picture of me and Kevin kissing which was not unpleasant but not needed at 3 in the morning. But we obliged anyway to keep the girls happy. 3 hours later we arrived at Kevin's mom's house which was only a 30-minute drive away but the fans kept asking for autographs and we had to stop for Kevin to sign them. "Hi mom I'm home," yelled Kevin at the top of my voice. "My baby's home" replied his mom. "Hi!" I said nervously. I had met Kevin's mom lots of time before, but not since we started to go out again. "Do you have the thing I asked you to get mom?" said Kevin like I'd never see him act like this before. "What's going on?" I asked before Kevin's mom whisked me upstairs to Kevin's old room, to my surprise it hadn't changed much at all apart from his awards and things. I sat down on the bed and I could hear people whispering in the hall. Then the door opened and I saw a beautiful chocolate brown Labrador with a bow around its neck, funny I had never heard Kevin talking about it before. It came up to me and started to lick my hands, then I saw a note attached to its collar, I picked it up and read it, "Hi babe, my name is Mickey and I belong to you now. I'm a gift from Kevin. I hope you know who I mean! Anyway go downstairs and go into the kitchen. And Kev will meet you there. I went downstairs slightly scared in case it was another shaving foam fight. Last time the foam took ages to get out. I opened the kitchen door with Mickey at my side and saw Kevin sitting at the kitchen table with his Mom. When she saw me she left the room and went into the backyard. "Kevin, what is going on?" I said waiting for the foam fight. The he took my hand and without saying anything led me to the old swing in his garden which was the first place we kissed. Then he put me on the swing and started to push me. "What is the matter Kev?" I asked. Please don't break up with me again. I silently prayed. Then he dropped to one knee and said the words I had longed to hear, "Jesse baby will you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me?" He produced the most beautiful ring in the whole planet. "Well will you?" he asked again. "Oh yes baby, I will" I answered starting to well up inside with tears. "Oh well done Kev" I heard as all my friends and the rest of the guys were yelling and Kevin looked at me with a sigh of relief. And hugged me tightly and whispered into my ear, " I'm never going to let you go ever again." And with that he kissed me passionately. "Jessebella, Jessebella," I heard and turned round to see my dad running towards me. "So you did it then," he said to Kev proudly. "Yeah thanks for you help." Kev said. I sat and talked to everyone, who turned up, more and more people kept turning up but I soon realised that it was still only 3.30 p.m and I was really tired, so I went back into the house, I felt a bit sick, I had been for the last couple of weeks now especially in the morning. CHAPTER 12 I woke up and found myself running to the bathroom. I promptly threw up into the toilet. "Your pregnant, aren't you?" said a voice, it was Erika. "How did you know?" I asked. "So am I," she said quietly. "Have you told Nicky?" I asked wondering how she could keep a secret like this from me. "No and you haven't told Kev either, I know that 'cause you wouldn't be here on your own now." Said Erika. "Hiya," said my step-mother (called Anna), "what are you talking about?" "Guess what," I said very calmly, "me and Erika are both pregnant!" "That's wonderful, but you haven't told the guys have you or else they would be holding your hair back for you when you were throwing up, am I right?" She said. "How did you know?" I said. "Cause that's what your dad when I told him I was pregnant. Now lets go downstairs and announce it." She said then turned round and marched us out of the room. "Now everyone, these 2 girls have an announcement to make." She said before retreating to where my dad was sitting and Kevin came up to put his arm around me. Oh god! I am just about to tell the whole world my secret. "Well…. You how Kev and me are getting married, well that's not all that's happening. Well me and Erika are both," I stopped and took a deep breath I could see Erika staring into Nick's eyes and could see it was up to me to announce it. "We are pregnant!" I said shakily. "WOW," I could see Kevin mouth. "I'm so happy," he said cuddling me and giving me a big kiss, everyone stood in shock, but then that shock turned into happiness, "for how long" he asked? "Well for me it's 2 months I don't know about Erika." I said before my little sister came up to me and said, "Can I have a baby too?" "Maybe in a few years" I said, to my little sister. "I really love your dog can I take him for a walk?" "Just around the yard" I said. CHAPTER 13 The following few weeks were hectic as I wanted to get married before I got too fat, but Kevin said it didn't matter what I looked like as long as I was there. We decided to get married on the 3rd of October, Kevin's birthday. We got married in a small church in Kentucky, the day was wonderful apart from the morning sickness but that cleared. Kevin wrote a song about the day and included some Spanish lyrics that said, " you are my world, my heart and soul." He then sang the song he wrote for me when I left America and nobody had heard it now until not even me. When we said our vows Kevin had tears in his eyes but he tried not to show his emotion. I must confess that I did cry a little especially when Kevin saw me in my dress for the first coming down the isle, and my dad put on his kilt and held my hand going down the isle. I think there were some BSB fans at the entrance to the church just before I arrived but the security men got rid of them and said some pictures would be published on the Internet. Kevin and me wanted at very private ceremony with only our families and close friends invited. CHAPTER 14 It was in early March when the guys were touring around North America and Erika and me were proudly showing off our bumps when we decided to go out for dinner all 10 of us. Howie had a new girlfriend (Dionne) and so did Brian (Kimberly.) some of the guys decided to go to the restaurant early so we wouldn't get our photo's taken and Erika, Nick, Kevin and me waited for a couple minutes before leaving. Erika went to the toilet and me and Nick stood in the garden. "Nicky, Nicky come here now" I heard a frantic voice, it was Kevin. "Erika is losing blood fast, get an ambulance." Well Nick couldn't have run faster if the Grim Reaper had been running behind him. I called the ambulance knowing he would be to worried about Erika and the baby. Erika had collapsed when she saw the blood and slipped on the floor and hitting her head. In hospital we sat next to her while Nick held her hand and prayed that it would be all right. While Kevin sat, I asked if I could have a word with the doctor about my own pregnancy. She agreed and I told Kev that I would be back in a few moments. As I sat in the waiting room, I realised how helpless I was if anything happened to our baby. It was all up to God to make sure he looked after it until me and Kevin took over. "Now what would you like to talk about, Jessica?" said the female doctor. "Well I'm a bit concerned about my baby." I said. "It seems to be growing really fast and I think there may be something wrong." "OK I can get a scan done now if you want, as your were due to come in tomorrow anyway. Do you want me to go and get Kevin for you?" "Yes," I said quietly. I was normally so sure of things but lately I couldn't seem to do anything for myself. Kevin came rushing into the room, all red in the face and looking very concerned," what is the matter Jess?" he asked not pausing for breath. "It's all right Mr and Mrs Richardson," said the doctor. I still couldn't get used to people calling me Mrs Richardson. "I'm just going to give your wife and Ultra Scan, just to see if Kevin Jr is all right". But how did she know it was a boy? "Good news," said the doctor brightly pushing the jelly across my stomach, " you are going to have twins. Do you want to know the sex or not?" "No thank you," said Kevin. "Its unlucky to find out before the baby, I mean babies are born." Erika was eventually allowed out of hospital but was told not to anything until her baby was born (it was a boy.) This gave her a good excuse to order Nick around and to make him tidy up all the time. Kevin and me had decided not to tell anyone about our twins. But every day he would bring something new like clothes back home. We had decided to set up home near his Mom's house in Lexington, Kentucky. We had an old house converted and extended. The whole house was beautiful and the nursery was Kevin's pride and joy. He had decorated it himself while he wasn't working, but for 6 months when the babies were born he would only work in the recording studios or nearby states. He didn't want to miss a thing while I was pregnant or when the babies were born. I swear that if he could have had them himself he would have. Then on April 18th, James Gerald Richardson and Lucy Abigail Richardson came out into the big wild world kicking and screaming. Kevin did all the breathing exercises with me and didn't complain when I almost pulled his hand off during labour. My dad, Anna, Kevin's mom and brothers and Louise and Erika and the rest of the BSB's paced the corridor waiting for news. I tried to keep my screaming to a minimum but if you haven't been through labour its like someone with a very sharp knife hacking at your insides for hours. Jamie and Lucy arrived at 5 am in the morning but nobody seemed to mind. "Well done Jess," everyone shouted which set the babies off crying but nobody cared. People kept taking my picture, which I must have looked like a woman possessed. CHAPTER 15 Waking up on the first morning was wonderful. I was at home, slightly fat, but very happy, Jamie and Lucy hadn't cried for hours. I rolled over to see if Kevin was sleeping but he wasn't in bed. I could see the light streaming through the nursery door. So I got up and saw Kevin wearing just his boxers sitting on the sofa softly strumming a guitar and singing quietly. I could see the babies lying next to him on the sofa fast asleep. This is what every mother should wake up to, I thought. The first 8 months of Jamie and Lucy's lives were wonderful. I would wake up everyday with Kevin singing to them. He would go out to work with the guys and them they would come back to our house and Erika, Louise, Dionne and Kimberly would come round and we would talk about everything, we couldn't have been closer if we would have been in a band ourselves. Erika would bring round Nick Jr. The concert on 31st December marked the guy's first concert since Jamie, Lucy and Nick were born. They were really nervous about it and how the crowd would react. The crowd were brilliant, they sang every word and screamed in delight. "Aren't you just so happy?" said Erika. "Yeah I suppose I am," I said from the side of the stage. Lucy gurgled happily. "Now for a special treat," said Nick from the stage. "Now all you guys I want you to meet my baby Nick Jr and Kev's little ones Lucy and Jamie." Kevin, Brian and Nick ran over to the edge of the stage to where Erika and me were standing. "Be careful," I said a bit unsure how the crowd would take it. They walked out on to the stage with the babies and the crowd started to clap. They did it quietly so the would wake Jamie who was fast asleep in Brian's arms. They sang one song with the babies then signalled for me and Erika to come and collect them. I ran over to Kevin and Brian and Kevin gave me a quick kiss on the lips. I sat quietly waiting for them to finish. They were still brilliant on stage even though they were older and husbands and daddies now. "What's up with you?" I asked Louise. "Well last night after me and AJ had sex for 5th time he told me he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. I kinda felt a bit strange you know?" "Yeah but have you told him you love him yet?" I replied remembering when Kevin told me he loved me for the first time. "Not yet, but tonight I will and I'm going to propose to him, what do yah think?" I could see how happy she was. The guys came off stage all hot and sweaty, they each had their own dressing room. I left Jamie and Lucy with Kevin's mom and went into Kevin's dressing room with him. "Mmmmmm you smell nice?" remarked Kevin hugging me tightly. "And your all sweaty" I remarked. I unzipped his trousers and sat on his knee. "How was the concert," I said trying not to think about Kevin nuzzling my neck. "Good, good, guess what?" he said his mouth travelling down my back. "What?" "I'm horny after all that pelvic thrusting, wanna help me relive it?" he said with a cheeky smile. And at that moment I knew my life was complete!