Keith is in a place neither
here nor there. Everything is black. There is no light.
“So.” Al’s
voice rings out in the void. “What is your choice?”
Keith sputters. “Choice!
You call that a choice?”
“Yes.”
“She dies either
way. What kind of choice it that?”
“You cannot control
if she lives or dies. That is out of your hands. But you can have
a say in how she lives her life until she does. In one world she kills
herself in order to escape a living hell. In the other she dies defending
the world and the man she loves. You cannot control when or how anyone
dies. Just like your family. Their deaths were completely out of your
hands. You had nothing to do with it, yet you’ve carried that
guilt around with you all these years. You cannot control the fates,
no more than you can control how your souls are destined to be together.”
“But she’s…”
“You do love her,
don’t you?”
“Yes.”
“Do you think she
would have wanted you to kill yourself over her?”
“I…”
“How did you feel
when she killed herself over you?”
Keith crumples up into a ball and weeps.
“Keith? …Do
you want to live? But this time really live, like your parents did?
They didn’t let their possible future stop them from enjoying
what little time they had, from stopping their love. You need to give
up your demons and not be afraid of what your future may bring.”
“Keith?” A
woman’s voice calls out. “Keith, come back to me. Please?
Keith, please forgive me…”
Al’s voice chimes
in again. “Keith? …Do you want to live?”

It’s close to midnight
on Christmas Eve and the castle is silent. No parties. No celebrations.
Hunk took control watch figuring the distraction of work would do
him good. The others are all now taking turns staying with Allura
after Hunk saved her on the bridge, everyone fearful of what else
she might do in her current state of mind.
Hunk has cried his eyes
dry. He still can’t believe it. The one man he thought to be
the unbreakable backbone of Voltron is gone. He drops his head down
to rest on the consol, hearing a faint beeping coming from another
terminal. “Great my mind’s playing tricks on me.”
He turns to the noise. His eyes boggle as he realizes where the sound
is coming from. A far off console that Pidge didn’t have the
heart to turn off. It was set to scan for Keith’s com’s
homing signal and it now has picked something up. Hunk races across
the room to the screen. Yes, it has picked up Keith’s signal
but, Hunk’s face soon falls flat. It has homed in to the base
of the Lion Monument, a place they searched thoroughly many times
over. Hunk envisions that Keith’s body must have washed up beside
it. He swallows down the lump in his throat and keys his com. “Lance,
can you and Sven come up here?” The crack in his voice unmistakable.
“We’ll be right
there Hunk.” Lance solemnly replies.

Now midnight, two men slowly
make their way in silence down the snow covered bridge to the Lion
monument dragging a skid behind them. A light snow is falling all
around them, the full moon casting a surreal glow to the whole scene.
They reach the monument and Sven turns on the handheld scanner to
home in on the signal. “Lance, it’s coming from over there.”
Sven points to the shoreline beside the monument. The two men pass
under the monument to the shore and they both have to choke back cries
as the Black Lion fiercely growls at them when they pass underneath,
as if he too knew something was terribly wrong. They pick their way
along the shore, the scanner leading the way. Then, they see it. What
they both hoped yet feared to find. A body lies face down in the snow
at the shoreline draped in a huge black cape mostly covered in a light
dusting of snow. They reach the body and both stand frozen the reality
hitting them hard. Then, from the mouth of the body a white mist of
breath freezing on the cool night air snaps them to their senses.
“Keith? Keith?” Sven and Lance drop to the body’s
side gently flipping it over. It is Keith and he’s alive, but
he is strangely dressed and covered from head to toe in blood. “Keith,
can you hear me?” Lance calls to him as Sven quickly ascertains
his injuries.
A faint voice whispers
back. “Lance… not so loud… okay?”
“Are you hurt?”
“Tired...cold…”
Sven shakes his head and
can’t help but smile. “I don’t get it. His clothes
are trashed, all cut up and covered in blood, but underneath he’s
fine.”
“Keith can you move?”
Keith slowly and with huge
effort lifts up his hand and softly slaps Sven across his face. “Cargo
jock, eh.” He chuckles.
“I guess that’s
a yes.” Lance laughs as Sven just shakes his head. He pulls
Keith’s arm over his shoulder, Sven does the same, and they
gently lift Keith to his feet.
“Sven? What day is
it?” Keith listlessly asks.
Sven looks at the time.
Just a little after midnight. “It’s Christmas you fool.”
“Christmas?”
Keith closes his eyes for a long moment. Lance and Sven exchange worried
looks. Keith’s head flips up and he look Sven square in the
eye. “Merry Christmas, Sven.”
Lance laughs. “We’ve
got to get him inside.” The two men supporting their captain
between them head back towards the monument.
Keith looks at Lance and
smiles. “Merry Christmas, Lance.” Keith starts to chuckle.
“Oh boy, he has lost
it.” Sven laughs. The three reach the monument and are greeted
by an ear-shattering roar from the Black.
Keith shoots up to his
unsteady feet reaching an arm into the air and yells at the top of
his lungs. “Merry Christmas, Black Lion!” He then collapses
into Sven and Lance, dizzily laughing.
Lance and Sven help Keith
into the skid and quickly make their way to the castle. “Lance
to Control.”
“Go ahead Lance.”
Is Hunk’s somber reply.
“You ain’t
gonna believe this Hunk, but…”
“Merry Christmas
Arus!” Keith bellows out in his half conscious state.
“Was that?”
“Yep!”
“Woo hoo!”
Hunk yells. Suddenly all the sirens in the castle go off, blaring
into the night and the searchlights go on as Hunk hits the alarm.
“Merry Christmas,
Castle of Lions!” Keith bellows out with all he has and then
falls back onto the skid eyes closing, sleep overtaking his body again.
Lance laughs to Sven. “Whatever
he’s on… I want some too.”

Around one in the morning
Keith lies unconscious in a hospital bed dressed in a hospital gown,
the fatigue catching up with him. The team stand arm in arm around
his bed with Romelle, Nanny, Coran and all the space mice. Allura
lies sleeping, still under the effects of her heavy sedation, in the
next bed over. Dr Gorma is busily checking and rechecking Keith’s
vitals. He stands up shaking his head. “I don’t know what
he has been through. His body is reacting as if he has suffered a
severe trauma yet physically there is nothing wrong with him except
for the broken wrist and contusions he had before he disappeared.”
Sven shakes his head. “What
about the blood?”
“That’s the
strangest thing. Half of it was his. Enough blood loss to have killed
him.”
“And the other half?”
Coran asks.
The doctor glances over
to the sleeping form lying in the next bed. “It‘s the
Princess’.”
“What!” They
all collectively exclaim.
“I can’t explain
it. But it is an exact match. All we can do is wait until he wakes
up to hear what happened. Now, why don’t you all go and get
some rest. I know you haven’t been sleeping well. Please, I’ll
call you if there is any change.”
Romelle steps forward.
“Would you mind if I stayed a while with them?”
“No, not at all as
long as you’re quiet.” The doctor looks at Sven’s
pleading face. “Yes, you can stay too. But that’s all.
Now the rest of you, go.” They begin to head for the door but
stop, for Nanny now is standing in the doorway.
“Is he going to be
alright?” She asks, eyes dropped to the floor.
No one wants to look at
her. The doctor finally speaks. “He is exhausted and I believe
he has quiet a story to tell, but aside from that he is fine. I expect
him to make a full recovery.”
“Oh…may I see
him?”
Everyone exchanges worried
glances. Coran then signals to the group to leave. They all slowly
file out avoiding looking at Nanny as they pass. Coran pauses, putting
a hand on her shoulder. “Take as long as you need. I’ll
be waiting outside with Sven and Romelle.” She just nods.
Nanny stands in the quiet
room for the longest time. Afraid to look at him, she walks up to
Allura’s bedside instead running her hand along her leg. “He’s
home now Allura. You can rest now. I just wanted to see you before
I left. I’m sorry for all the pain I caused you. I… I’m
sorry for everything…” She drops her head to kiss Allura’s
cheek. She turns around to face the man lying in the other bed. Slowly
she crosses to him, her eyes landing on his wrapped wrist, the one
she broke days ago. She pulls up a stool and sits next to him then
delicately cradles his broken wrist in her hand, placing her other
hand atop it. She closes her eyes, focusing everything into his injury.
When she opens her eyes they are full of tears. She reaches up to
his face, still cradling his hand with her other. Tenderly she brushes
his hair back off his face, keeping her hand on his head. “I
need to ask you a favor Captain.” She tries to smile through
her tears, her lip quivering. “Will you look after her for me?
Please? I know now you are the friend she needs, not me. I only bring
her suffering and pain.” She strokes his cheek. “Please
watch over my baby. I realize now that is what you have been doing
all along, I’m sorry for not realizing it earlier. I hope someday
you will be able to forgive me for the suffering I brought you.”
She stands up and kisses him on the forehead. As she straightens,
she fixes his hair, smiling down at him. “Such a handsome boy
and the heart of a lion. You do Arus proud, Keith Paladin.”
She looks up to the ceiling. “Please watch over them Alfor.
Keep them safe.” She looks back down to Keith stroking his cheek
once more as she backs away, only then slowly releasing his hand.
She backs her way to the door where she pauses turning to Allura and
curtseying to her. Nanny turns and walks away down the long hallway
alone.

Hours later Romelle sits
cuddled up with Sven in a large overstuffed chair in the hospital
room. Both sit watching their two sleeping friends as the first rays
of sun begin to show in the sky. Sven hugs her close. “Merry
Christmas, my love.”
Romelle smiles back at
him “Merry Christmas.” She reaches up, pulling his lips
to hers. From across the room she hears a faint murmur and pulls away
from Sven.
“Romelle? What is
it?”
“Shhh.”
“Where are you, my
love…?” The voice calls out.
“Allura!” Romelle
jumps to her feet rushing to Allura’s bedside, Sven right behind
her. “Allura, are you awake? Can you hear me?”
“I… love you.”
Allura mutters.
Sven grins. “She’s
still dreaming.” He leans into her ear. “Who do you love,
Allura?”
“Sven!” Romelle
pushes him. That’s not very…” She quickly quiets
when Allura mumbles again but frowns when it’s all garbled.
Sven grins at her. “Ha!
You want to know too!” He laughs.
“Shut up… and…
try again!”
Sven rolls his eyes and
gives her a smirk. Leaning in again to Allura’s ear… “Who
do you love Allura?”
“Hmmm.” Allura
mutters. “Don’t leave me, my love.”
Sven stands up straight.
“Well that’s good enough for me! Only one guy left.”
He grins.
Romelle blushes. “Do
you really think so?”
“Romelle, the woman’s
distraught over him. How could you even think otherwise?”
“Well she’s
just been so quiet about it. She’s never told me anything, always
denying it when I asked. And what about him? Does he even feel the
same way?”
“Are you crazy? The
man jumped off a bridge because he thought she was dying! I think
that might be a subtle hint at where his heart lies. Look Romelle,
Keith has lived a hellish life compared to the rest of us. To survive
he has had to isolate himself. That’s not something you can
just snap your fingers and change.”
As Sven snaps his fingers
to illustrate. Allura’s eyes suddenly snap open. Making them
both jump.
“Romelle? Sven…
What are you…?”
Romelle grins at her cousin.
“Merry Christmas, Allura.”
A smiling Sven adds. “Yes
Allura, Merry Christmas.”
Allura’s face is
flat, registering no emotion. “It’s Christmas?”
She whispers.
“Yes.” Sven
grins. “And Santa brought you a present.”
“I’m really
not in the mood for your jokes Sven.” Allura’s hands move
to rub her face awake.
“No joke. It’s
right over there.” He points to the other bed.
Allura grows annoyed, slowly
sitting up. “Listen, I don’t want to celebrate…”
Her eyes focus on the sleeping body in the other bed. “Keith!”
She screams, scrambling out of her bed and onto his, climbing over
him only in her hospital gown. “Keith! Are you there, Keith?”
But still he sleeps. Allura sits up on his bed. “What happened?”
Sven, still a little red
from watching her clamber over Keith. “Well, Allura…”
Romelle shoots him a smirk
arranging Allura’s gown a little more modestly.
Sven continues. “We
don’t know. Doctor Gorma says he’s fine, just exhausted.
We’re waiting for Keith to wake up to tell us. We found him
dressed in a ripped up red and black leather uniform and…”
“Leather?”
Allura’s eyes wander over Keith’s body.
Romelle leans in and whispers
in Allura’s ear. “You should have seen it Ally. I never
knew he was hiding all that under…” Sven shoots her a
look, clamming her up. Allura blushes as her eyes begin to wander
over him again now wondering herself. Romelle grabs a blanket and
drapes it around Allura smiling as she whispers in her ear. “You
should have seen it.”
Sven grabs Romelle by the
arm pulling her to the door. “I think we better go, Romelle.
We’ll let the others know you’re up and feeling better.”
They reach the door almost running into the doctor. “Sorry Doc.”
Sven smiles and whispers to Romelle “I can’t believe you
were ogling Keith!”
Romelle smiles. “Well,
maybe you could borrow that getup and then…” Sven laughs
and grabs her into his arms with a spin, whisking her away. “Merry
Christmas Ally!” Romelle giggles from down the hall.
“Ah, you’re
up.” Doctor Gorma enters the room still grinning and shaking
his head from Sven and Romelle’s exit. “And how are you
feeling, Allura?”
“Doctor, how is Keith?”
she pulls the blanket around her tight, not taking her eyes off Keith.
Gorma walks up to the bedside.
“As far as I can tell he’s fine. He’s just exhausted.
Whatever happened to him took everything out of him. But everything
checks out normal. After some rest he should be good as new. Now,
how about you? Are you alright? Any more nightmares?”
Allura drops her eyes and
stares at the floor.
“I see. Well maybe
now that our Captain is back you’ll be feeling better?”
He examines Keith and checks some readings. “I’ve let
most my staff off for the day, but I’ll just be down the hall
in my office. If you need anything buzz me. Will you keep an eye on
him for me?” He regards her as she looks at Keith, seeing her
undeniable adoration. “Merry Christmas, Princess.” He
smiles and turns to leave closing the door behind him.
Allura bites her lower
lip and tentatively reaches out a hand to touch Keith’s chest.
“So many secrets.” Her hand rising and falling with his
every breath. “I knew you were here Keith. I could feel it.”
She slowly lowers herself down to him, lips almost touching but she
hesitates, biting her lip harder, instead lays her body down next
to him. His body feels so cold next to hers so she drapes her blanket
over the both of them, snuggling in tight against him trying to warm
him, only the thin fabric of their hospital gowns between them. She
allows her hands to tentatively explore him, feeling his toned body.
She stops, suddenly feeling him inhale deeply. Softly he groans out.
“Don’t leave me…” His arms encircle around
her body wrapping around her tightly. “Don’t leave me...”
She shudders at the sensation of his touch as his arms hold her tight.
Feeing so safe she nests into him and whispers into his neck. “Never.”
She exhales, melting into his arms soon joining him in sleep.

Allura walks up to
the same old dark house. Slowly opening the door she steps in.
Inside the house is all aglow for the season. The tree is twinkling,
the fire is burning bright, candles are lit everywhere. But this
time she hears faint sobbing. “Hello?” She calls out,
but there is no answer. She follows the sound towards the same
gory scene. On the sofa lays the bloody bodies of a man and a
woman, broken, charred and unrecognizable. In the playpen across
the room lay the mangled bodies of two babies. Then she hears
the whimpering again and looks down.
Sitting at the base
of the tree clutching at his blood-soaked stuffed lion is little
Keith. His weak voice cries out looking at the two bodies on the
sofa. “Mommy … Daddy … don’t leave me.”
He cradles the lion to his chest and sobs again rocking back and
forth hugging his lion. Then the old clock in the hall clicks
and starts to chime. It rings out into the night … twelve
times… Allura quickly looks around the room, eyes locking
on an advent calendar on the mantel, every door open but one.
The one, the one for Christmas day. “It’s Christmas?
It’s Christmas?” She looks down at the little boy
dropping down to him. “Keith, is this what happened? Is
this what Christmas is to you?” The boy doesn’t seem
to hear her. He continues to rock.
She reaches out a hand
and starts when she can actually touch him. She strokes his hair.
“Keith? Keith can you hear me? I’m here. I…”
The boy’s little hands clamp down tighter on his lion, his
little knuckles turning white. He buckles over, now wailing. She
reaches out and pulls him to her lifting him to her lap cradling
him in her arms and rocking him back and forth. “It’s
all right, Keith. You can cry.” She holds him as close as
she can.
The boy eventually
forms to her, clutching at her, his tears soaking through her
clothes. His muffled voice cries out. “Bring them back.
Please bring them back!”
Allura coos. “I’m
sorry, Keith. I can’t bring them back.” She continues
to rock him running her hand soothingly over his hair.
“It’s not
fair!” He cries. “I don’t want ‘em to
go.” He starts to fight.
She tries to sooth
him. “No Keith, it’s not fair.” She wipes her
own tear soaked face. “It’s not.”
He pulls away from
her. “Why? Why did they have to die?” He looks right
at her as he stands before her his little body shaking with rage.
Allura is taken aback
for a moment. She has nothing she can say to answer him, instead
she just shakes her head.
“It’s not
fair!” The boy screams throwing his lion into the tree.
His whole body tensing as he leaps at the tree pulling it down
with a thundering crash and begins ripping at it, tearing it apart,
crying the whole time. “I hate Christmas… I hate Christmas!”
Repeating it over and over.
Allura just sits back
and watches little Keith destroy every bit of Christmas in the
house. Eventually he stands in front of the fire. Holding two
matching glass angel figurines in his hands, his small shoulders
shaking. He recoils back to throw them in the fire. Hesitating,
he drops to the floor curling into a small ball, holding one angel
in each trembling fist. Allura slowly scoots closer to him, laying
a hand on his back. She closes her eyes and weeps with him.
“I never got
to know them… Ally.” Allura trembles, his voice now
that of the Keith she knows. She slowly opens her eyes seeing
him now as an adult. He slowly sits up looking at the glass angels
in his hands. His voice is racked with tears. “They were
only one when they were killed. They never had a chance to live.”
Allura moves in closer to him. He looks at her with his shimmering
eyes. “I miss them, Ally.”
Allura completely loose
it, reaching out to him wrapping her arms around him and holding
him tight. He collapses into her and wails. Wrapping his own arms
around her tight, still clutching the figurines. They rock to
and fro wrapped around one another for the longest time. Eventually
pulling apart she reaches up to his wet face, stroking his hair
away. “Keith, remember them. Remember them in happy times,
not like this. What was it like the Christmas before this?”
He drops his head to hers, sniffling, slowly settling down. He
sets the figurines down between them taking her hands in his,
deep in thought, eventually a slow smile comes to his lips. The
room shimmers, shifting back into perfect order, a huge pile of
presents now under the tree. Allura then hears a child’s
shout from the top of the stairs. “Come on! Hurry!”
The pair sit on the floor, hands wrapped in one another’s
and watch as a little five year old Keith slides down the banister
and races for the tree. “He came! He was here!”
“Who came?”
A mans voice calls down.
“Daaad…Who
do you think?… Santa!”
A man appears at the
top of the stairs. He is the image of Keith, just older and with
a stubbly chin. In each arm he cradles a sleeping infant. His
eyes look like he hasn’t slept in weeks. He makes his way
down, sitting down on the sofa where before the bodies had been.
He arranges the pillows he then scooches to put his feet up on
the table in front of him. He moves one of the sleeping babies
to the same side as the other, now both lying side by side in
his arm supported by a pile of cushions.
Keith jumps up on the
other side of his father, pushing on his chest. “Where’s
Mommy? Where’s Mommy?”
Keith’s father
smiles putting a hand on the boy’s head. “Relax, she’s
coming down in a minute.”
Little Keith climbs
over his fathers lap to look at the infants. “Mommy’s
right they do look like angels.”
“Yes they do.”
He laughs. “Well, when they’re sleeping they do. You
know Keith, this is their very first Christmas. You’re going
to have to show them what it’s all about. Can you do that?”
Little Keith nods suddenly
looking very serious.
“Ah, there my
two men are.” Keith’s mother appears behind them.
Giving them both a hug. “Merry Christmas Keith.” She
smiles at her son moving around to sit beside them. Allura is
again taken by the woman’s beauty. Her long raven locks
flowing behind her. Her eyes the most beautiful shade of green.
Keith father smiles
at his son. “So, what’s first?”
Little Keith sits in
thought a moment. “The note! Santa’s note!”
He bolts off the sofa running to the fireplace running right past
the adult Keith and Allura sitting on the floor. They turn to
watch. As he pulls down a note tacked to the mantle grinning.
“Look! Look!” He runs back.
Keith’s mother
snuggles into her husband. “What does it say?”
Little Keith holds
it up and slowly reads the note aloud. “Thanks so much for
your help last year… Wow! He remembered Dad!” The
boy beams at his father. “Keith, I hope you liked your lion.
And Angelica I hope you like your two new little angels as much
as I liked giving them to you.”
“Why you!”
Keith’s mother, blushing feverously, shoves Keith’s
father then buries her face into his shoulder bringing a chuckle
out of him his hand coming up to stroke her head.
Little Keith gives
them a strange look then continues. “Thanks for the milk
and cookies and the carrot for Rudolph. Merry Christmas, Santa.”
Little Keith stands there for the longest time just looking at
the note.
“Son? Don’t
you want to open your presents?” His father smiles, pulling
his wife in close.
He looks up as if he
had forgotten but then drops the note on the table and dives for
the tree, pulling out a present for everyone. He carries them
over to his parents, stopping in front of them for they are now
lost in a kiss. He waits… and they still kiss. He waits
some more… still kissing. “Hey! Presents!” They
pull apart grinning just in time as he leaps between them handing
them the gifts. “This says it’s for the twins”
“Well, let’s
save that till they wake up. Then you can help them open it, alright.”
Keith’s mother ruffs his hair as the boy smiles up at her.
They begin opening their gifts.
Allura turns from the
scene playing out before her to the Keith sill holding her hands.
“So much love.” She breathes looking up into his eyes.
“I…” Her eyes soon get lost in his shimmering
ones. She tries to speak again. “So… much… love.”
She tracks his eyes as they glance at her lips, the distance between
them slowly disappearing. “So much…”
End of part eleven.