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Reflection
Staring through a veil of tears
Mirror girl looks back at me.
Mimicking her every move
I sit silently and watch
As a solitaire tear
Trails down her already stained cheek.
Smirking faces haunt me
And break my will.
I want to scream out against it all
Yet at the same time
I want to curl up in a corner and die.
Distractions come and go,
The happiness is quick to end.
But the problems still remain
Sometimes growing even worse.
A glass angel I hold in my hands,
A symbol of love
It shatters.
The things I hold dear to me
Crumble in my awkward hands.
Life falls apart before me
And all I can do is watch with little care.
As I watch the pieces of the shattered mirror fall
Like so many crushed dreams...
I leave the pieces where they lay
And with them I leave behind
My last grain of hope.
Incomplete
Not past the breaking point
But on the sharp edge of insanity.
All will to live
All care for this world
Is sapped out of my soul
Like water draining from a bath tub,
Except the turn of a knob does not replace my will.
I can feel madness gnawing its way into my being,
I’m being driven towards a break down
In a vehicle going mach speed.
Screaming for help
With a silent voice,
Screaming for a new life
With no one around to hear my cries.
Bowing out
I wave good bye to all those I’ve loved
And all those I’ve never known.
Reopening old scars
The flesh tears with all the swiftness of a hot knife through butter.
Now everyone will see
Hatred
You’re worthless,
You’ll never amount to anything,
Everything you say is bad,
Everything you do is wrong.
What horrible things to say to someone,
But what happens when they are directed at yourself?
The importance of the soul is known,
Yet no caution was ever taken.
Now all I can do
is beat myself
with hate.
Dying from the inside out
And no hope for salvation,
anywhere.
The cries die out
tired of not being heard.
Hope dies with a whimper.
Tears replace a shattered heart.
Sweeping the pieces away in a daze.
Misery is endless
Hope torn violently away
save me…help me…
Can no longer ask anymore
no one ever heard
So forever I shall be silent.
Days drudge by
Tears falling into puddles of blood.
Precious crimson drips down
a young neck
And eyes closed
never to be opened again.
Battling Depression
There’s a siege on my soul
I’m loosing all hope
all will to live…
An invisible force is attacking
and I’m caught with all defenses down
A smile, a laugh, none of it lasts forever.
I hate this depression, I’m tired of feeling this despair
I watch things and all I see is the sadness
The happiness goes past me
and I feel nothing at all
I am blinded by my emotions,
emotion…
depression
I reach for a hand that is not there
no one offering an explanation
These bonds, shackles, chains on my soul
Let me be free!
