Castle in the Clouds

I was lost and all alone
Broken, torn with a heart of stone;
You lifted me up and gave me pride,
Deep inside you, you let me hide.
I was ice and you were fire,
I was scared if we got any higher
I'd be falling; so I ran from you,
But dear God how was I to know.

I was damned, but then you saved,
And took my hurting far away.
Then you gave me something I never had
And I realised just how bad
It was before I ever knew you.
You belong with someone who can give,
And who already knows how to live.
But I swear that I didn't know.

I thought love was only all a dream,
That was all that it just seemed,
Just like a fairytale castle in the clouds.
And that you loved me deep and long,
Was something I refused to see all along.

For giving me answers when I'm questioning why,
For knowing and accepting without asking why,
You know for that, I thank you.
For coming to my rescue when you know I'm alone,
For taking and for giving and for staying the same,
You know for that, I need you.
For holding and for caring and for loving me so,
For being there when I'm growing old,
You know for that, I want you.
For loving me hard and for loving me strong,
For believing there was something in me all along,
For knowing me better that I know myself,
For helping me out before I know I need help,
You know for that, I trust you.

I know this isn't just a castle in the clouds,
And I wish I could shout it all aloud,
But I know now, I love you.

Copyright K. Connell 1990