Who is Sarnokh?
(a bit about me…)
As you graciously visit my humble Homepage, I shall tell a bit about myself.
I am Sarnokh (or Adara Zirenu), so these are just alias names. I was born in 1971 (Ugh! What an old man!!!) in the southwest of Germany, and moved to Berlin with my parents – in think in 1976; memory is a bit foggy about that time…
Most time when I was a kid at school I hated being young, not taken serious and not being allowed what grown-up where allowed to do – whatever that may have been! In short: I wanted to be what most kids want, but few elder people like: being old. I must confess that I used to be on my own the most time. I had few but good friends, all some kind of “Outcasts”. I was a shy boy, but as a result I learned to see things from a different point of view than the most. One of my prime interests even in early years was to understand why people are what they are, and what motivates them. I began reading books of Philosophy and Spirituality in rather early years, since I was 13, if I remember correctly. In other words: I lived like an old man when I was a kid.
When I had to decide what to study at the University, I had to choose between security and interest. I decided to follow my real interests – and paid the price of unemployment later! So I studied Sociology and History and made my examination. I really loved Sociology, as it gave me answers to my questions: why people became what they are. I started to intensify my reading and began to write scientific articles as well. But something was missing. I felt empty and separated.
It was just then in early 2001, when I first saw a Digimon Episode from one of the first seasons. I remembered Anime from my youth I had loved so much, most of them “Captain Future”. I still have the Soundtrack CD! As I watched the Digidestinied I learned what I had lost, and I learned that there was no such person as a grown-up Sarnokh! He was just a mask, behind a child was still living. So I begun to nurture this child. Since then I have felt happy and free as never before. I dream and hope and love. I begun to learn how to draw. Even though my abilities to draw are quite low, I will continue my training. And there is one passion that lived through all these years: Writing!
In the last 12 years I have written quite a lot of short stories, and even began to write my own great Fantasy Novel, which will be made of three volumes. Volume one may be ready somewhere in 2002 and have around 300 pages. I have written many different kinds of stories: classic detective stories (a bit like Sherlock Holmes), Fantasy, Science-Fiction and now Digimon Yaoi! Some of these works will be put online here, but some are in German only. Nearly all of them contain one of more gay characters.
I have had my coming out as gay when I was 17 years old, though I knew
about it since I had my first boyfriend when I was 12. My family truly
supported me, and most of my friends, too. Gay life in a big city like
Berlin is certainly easier that in some small catholic village. Nevertheless,
fighting for gay rights occupied me for many years, and I ran some Coming
Out groups to help younger people in their problems with their Coming
Out. After writing several stories I began to ponder, that here are very
few gay characters in most genres. So I decided to change that. Some of
these changes you might see here, for beyond all things I have ever done
or I ever had become, I am an author and writer, who has seen that only
one that remains to be a child in his heart can gain true happiness. The
solution to many problems is that simple truth, even though in our world
it is one of the hardest ways to go: be, what you truly are in your heart!