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| I went to the hosptial June 20, 2002 at 4:00 p.m. to be induced with P-Gel But it didn't work. I had some contractions and etc enough to put me in the hosptial but not enough to have me in labor... so the plan was to go through the same process the next day. But anyway, Frank came by the hosptial late that night. He had been expecting me to page him all day and let him know if I was in labor or not. But when Frank arrived he left the pager with his mother so he could page her when he wanted her to come get him. But he left it on vibrate so she didn't hear it go off when he paged. He stayed a little while and he kept getting mad and complaining about not being able to get up with her and he said he didn't want to stay with me b/c he was dirty and needed a bath. I asked him why didnt he clean up before he came (he didn't look that dirty to me) and he said he didn't have time, but he did have time, he had all day b/c he knew to be expecting the page b/c he knew they were trying to induce me. I asked him why he didn't clean up b/c he had all day, and he just got mad at me and avoided that question. He kept complaining and wanting to go home and I just got really stressed out and I told him if he wanted to go home to go and I got my step dad to take him. Well anyway, I'm still on the monitor and my contractions have totally slowed down to nothing and I'm just laying there not in any pain, and I get up to go pee and I felt something. I said "Ewww, I'm losing more mucous plug" But when I got up I thought I was peeing on myself. So after my water broke they told me it could still be well up into the next day before Colton would be born, so I didn't page Frank just yet. I got moved to the birthing room and they kept wanting to give me a pain shot but I didn't need one, and then suddenly I had a bad pain. It wasn't that bad though.... I could handle it, but the pains were so close and I was tired so I thought well since I'm gonna be a mommy soon I need to get some rest. So I got a pain shot, but all it did was make me more tired, it didn't block out the pain. So I asked for en apidural so I could get some rest. I got the epidural and a few minutes later I told my mother that I felt like I was going to use the bathroom on myself. And then I said I feel like I can't hold it in like I gotta push...... they got the nurse and she said the baby's head was right there! They told me to hold my legs together as tight as I could and my doctor was on his way! My mom paged Frank about 3-5 times and he didn't show up until 9 or 10 am that day. I pushed a total of about 30 minutes and at 5:32am Colton Michael entered the world! He weighed 7lbs 9oz and 19in long. I was so weak from the delivery and from the blood loss that I couldn't breast feed at first. I passed out on the nurses which scared me to death b/c the entire time I was out i was aware of what they were saying and I heard them yell "get in here quick" and I was scared I was going to die. But anyway, I didn't have my strenght back yet so I couldn't take a shower, so when Frank showed up I wouldn't let them take any pictures of me. I told them they could later on once I was cleaned up. But when they went to develop the pictures they had a birth announcement made. It was of Frank and the baby, it hurt my feelings b/c I felt like they should have waited and used a picture of both of us. So anyway, I had my own made lol. During the time I was pregnant Frank was working with his uncle but he always found time to go to the doctor with me. He said he was mad he missed the birth of Cole but he didn't get the pages. I know sometimes my pager does mess up, but how do I know thats what happened? Since Colton has been born Frank has only saw him 3 times. As I am writing this he is 10 days old. Frank came over one time to see him, and after that he has been working with his uncle. I think he could find time to see his baby, he always made time for the appointments before. I saw his mother treat his sister's boyfriend terrible and I'm afraid she is doing me the same way and putting things in Frank's head. I don't think we are going to stay together and I'm afraid they will try to take my baby. But even if we don't last, I still want Frank to be a part of Colton's life... |