PAST TEASER
Part One of Two Colorblind Teasers
COLORBLIND
by Ashley Lane
I
am . . .
Taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready
I am fine . . .
--Counting Crows, "Colorblind"
From Part tWo:
"Alex,
it's me. Don't you recognize my voice? It's me . . . it's Liz."
Liz
was trembling as she waited for Alex's response. She stood awkwardly with one
arm stretched out, fingers clutching at the overly-long sleeve on her pajamas.
"Alex,"
she asked quietly.
The
silence from the other side of the phone was deafening. The blood pounded in
her ears as her mind raced to forecast his next words. Over two years
had gone by. Maybe she shouldn't have called.
Scrap
that--she knew she shouldn't have called. Knew there was a chance they were
still watching. But surely . . . surely two years was long enough. And
she had to do it. The suffering she felt everyday wasn’t lessening with
time. It was getting harder, the not knowing, the friendships lost . . .the love
she left behind. It was threatening to suffocate her. She had completely lost
herself along the way and nothing else was working.
"Liz,"
Alex's voice was hesitant and pained.
Liz
closed her eyes against the tears that filled them. Her name, her real
name, was like a breath of heaven to her. A genuine smile touched her
lips for the first time in . . . was it months, or years?
"Yes,
it's me. I'm so sorry, Alex. I couldn't call . . ."
"Liz,
where are you," Alex said evenly. "We've been worried."
"Worried,"
Liz repeated. He sounded so cold, so distant. But she had planned
on that, hadn't she? Come on, how could she not know what to say after
two years of thinking of almost nothing else?
"Okay, more than worried," Alex slowly admitted. "We thought you were . . . dead. Of course, there was no body. But what other explanation could there be for you skipping out like that? Leaving Max, your parents, Maria, everybody . . . I want to see you, Liz."
She
shook her head automatically and turned to the mirror and looked at the pale
reflection there. A shudder ran through her and she turned away.
"Alex
. . . I've
missed you so much. You'll never know how many times I've thought about you,
all of you, and how I've wanted to call and tell you how horrible everything's
been . . . ." Liz had to stop herself. The truth was just pouring out of
her and she couldn't tell him. They couldn't know, that was part of the deal.
"Liz,
please . . . what happened?" Alex whispered tensely. "Did someone hurt
you? Is that why you left? Are they still with you?"
Liz
closed her eyes against the flood of memories that his words provoked.
Did
someone hurt me? She wanted to scream, "Yes!" But she forced
herself to ask the question that had been burning in her heart for too, too
long. The question had started out a lot longer, but had been worn down over the
years.
"How
is Max?"
"He's
fine. Well, okay, that's a lie. He's terrible," Alex said abruptly.
"You're not being fair, Liz. How can you expect any of us to be fine when
we don't know where you are? Tell me and I'll come get you. Max will
help me if there's danger or something. He can handle almost anything
now."
Another
smile broke out on Liz's face. Max would come if she asked him? Oh god,
to see his face. She didn't even have a picture of him . . . those beautiful hazel
eyes and the black hair that fell over his forehead just so.
She
could almost smell his aftershave and taste it on her tongue.
But
she wouldn't allow herself to go there. She had walked away. And that walk
away from him had been the most costly of her life.
"Liz,
where the hell are you?"
"Alex,"
she burst out, startled by his cursing. This felt very wrong suddenly. What
had she been thinking? She had to find out if it was safe now, and get off the
phone.
"I'm
sorry. I can't tell you where I am. Did the other ones, the evil ones,
come yet? Did they fight them? That's why I called. I have to know
if it's happened already."
And
she meant it. She would have never called otherwise. If she could just
outlast them . . .
"No,
but Max seems to think they'll be coming soon. He still loves you, you
know. Liz, please, what should I tell them? Maria has been in mourning
for you. Your dad, your poor mother . . ."
"Tell
them I'm fine. Tell them I can't come home, not yet. And tell Max...oh
god...tell him I should never have walked away. I have to go,
Alex."
"What?
No, Liz!! Wait! You have to tell me why you called Max to meet you
at the cave that night."
Liz
stood completely still. "What?"
Had
she forgotten something? When had she done that? She was trying to
figure out where the confusion was when she heard Jude shout in a voice she'd
never heard before.
"What
do you--hey!" Jude yelled again from right outside her door. The sound of
struggling and then a crashing sound and glass breaking. The noise hit
her like a physical blow, making her gasp.
"Hey,
what's goin' on?"
Liz
barely heard Alex.
Oh
god, it couldn't be . . .
"Liz
. . . why
did you leave? Liz . . ." Alex's voice began to sound desperate.
She
opened her mouth to answer, but her chest was heaving and no words would come
out.
"What's
going on? What was that?"
"Alex,
I'm sorry," Liz whispered finally. "I didn't think . . ."
The
door handle twisted slowly and opened.
She
whimpered.
She
had been wrong.
(to be continued...)
Colorblind Teaser Part Two
COLORBLIND
by Ashley Lane
I
am
Colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready
I am . . .
--Counting Crows, "Colorblind
From Part FoUr:
Max's
head was bent low over Alex's desk. The police had finally let the family
reuse the room and Alex was getting settled in his bed.
Max
could hear Isabel whispering words of comfort as Alex groaned. Turning over
was agonizing for him still, but Max hoped that wouldn't last long. Now that
they were home, he could him heal him enough to get rid of the pain without
raising suspicion.
Isabel
went to go get a cold cloth for Alex's head.
Max
swiveled in his chair and faced the bed.
"So,
you feeling any better?" he asked lightly.
"Better
than . . . what?" Alex cast his eyes around as he joked. "Better
than a kielbasa on the Valenti dining table? Yes. But frankly not as good as
I'd like."
Max
smiled briefly at his reference to the Sheriff and his son, who remained
friends with the group, though from the outside. It was still hard to fathom
that not even with Valenti's connections could they come up with any
information on Liz's disappearance. Of course, now everything had changed .
. .
"Have
you remembered anything else about that night, the conversation with Liz,
anything at all?" He searched Alex's eyes, feeling a sense of
desperation springing up.
He
couldn't believe it. Even after she wouldn't talk to him, he still wanted to
hope, to believe that somehow, she was still his Liz.
"Uh
. . . yeah. Actually I have," Alex said hesitantly.
Max
sat up straighter in the chair. This didn't sound good.
Alex
cleared his throat and then smiled up at Isabel as she handed him a wet,
cool washcloth for his forehead. Alex moved to sit up farther and she
bent over to help him. His back had been badly bludgeoned and he winced at
the movement.
"Sorry,"
Isabel whispered.
"Alex,
I can take care of that now if you want me to," Max began, but a
gesture from Alex cut him off.
Alex
closed his eyes briefly and leaned back against the headboard.
"I
was shocked at first. I don't think I would've recognized the voice if she
hadn't told me who it was. But once she did . . ."
"You
knew it was her," Max quickly prompted him.
"Yeah,"
Alex said slowly. "It was Liz. And she was deliberately not answering
my questions. It was like some bizarre nightmare. There she was, on the
phone, alive and well, and I couldn't get anything out of her about where
she was, or where she'd been. Or if--if anybody had hurt her."
He stopped and gulped.
Max
saw Isabel cut her eyes at him angrily as Alex continued.
"But like I said before, she did ask about you, Max. And about the evil ones, if they had come."
Max
nodded.
"That's
so weird," Isabel muttered.
"I
thought so, too," Alex looked up at her and agreed. "She was . . .
happy to talk to me. I remember thinking that. And, she said that she
wanted me to tell you all that she was okay, but she couldn't come home
yet."
Max
sat up even straighter, if that was possible.
"She
said she 'couldn't' come home?" he asked eagerly. Alex hadn't
mentioned that before. But it made sense, because the more he thought about
it, her voice had sounded panicked when he heard her in the background.
Maybe
someone was keeping her away. He tried to squelch the hope leaping inside of
him . . .
"That's
right. And then I tried to ask her about why she called you that night, but it
was almost like she didn't know what I was talking about."
Isabel
cut another glance at Max.
"And
then, things got . . . hairy."
Max
looked back up at the change in Alex's voice. There was something he'd been
holding back. Alex's blue eyes intensified as he leaned forward.
Max nodded, unable to move his eyes away from Alex's bruised face for even a second.
"While I was throwing questions at her, someone came in her room." Alex hesitated again.
Max
felt the room grow colder as each second ticked by. He suddenly didn't want to
hear this . . .
"I
could hear noises and yelling . . . and Liz apologized. It didn't make any
sense until this happened," Alex gestured around the room, indicating the
smashed window covered by brown paper and tape. "God, what I wouldn't
give to have that conversation recorded. But that's all I remember."
"So,
Liz was . . ." again Max trailed off. His throat was so tight that the
words just wouldn't come out.
"She
was . . . attacked pretty much the way I was, I think," Alex shifted
uncomfortably on the bed at his own words.
"It
sounded pretty b--brutal. Screaming and . . . thumps . . ."
"We
get the picture, Alex," Isabel said quickly. Max could feel her
eyes on him, but his vision had gone completely blurry. And his mind was stuck
on those words: brutal and screaming. Words that should not be
used in conjunction with Liz's name . . .
(to be continued . . .)
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