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COLORBLIND

by Ashley Lane

 

I am . . .
Taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready
I am fine . . .
--Counting Crows, "Colorblind"

 

From Part tWo:

"Alex, it's me.  Don't you recognize my voice?  It's me . . . it's Liz."

Liz was trembling as she waited for Alex's response. She stood awkwardly with one arm stretched out, fingers clutching at the overly-long sleeve on her pajamas.

"Alex," she asked quietly.

The silence from the other side of the phone was deafening. The blood pounded in her ears as her mind raced to forecast his next words.  Over two years had gone by.  Maybe she shouldn't have called.

Scrap that--she knew she shouldn't have called. Knew there was a chance they were still watching.  But surely . . . surely two years was long enough.  And she had to do it. The suffering she felt everyday wasn’t lessening with time. It was getting harder, the not knowing, the friendships lost . . .the love she left behind. It was threatening to suffocate her. She had completely lost herself along the way and nothing else was working.

"Liz," Alex's voice was hesitant and pained.

Liz closed her eyes against the tears that filled them.  Her name, her real name, was like a breath of heaven to her.  A genuine smile touched her lips for the first time in . . . was it months, or years?

"Yes, it's me.  I'm so sorry, Alex.  I couldn't call . . ."

"Liz, where are you," Alex said evenly. "We've been worried."

"Worried," Liz repeated.  He sounded so cold, so distant.  But she had planned on that, hadn't she?  Come on, how could she not know what to say after two years of thinking of almost nothing else?

"Okay, more than worried," Alex slowly admitted. "We thought you were . . . dead.  Of course, there was no body.  But what other explanation could there be for you skipping out like that? Leaving Max, your parents, Maria, everybody . . . I want to see you, Liz."

She shook her head automatically and turned to the mirror and looked at the pale reflection there.  A shudder ran through her and she turned away.

"Alex . . . I've missed you so much. You'll never know how many times I've thought about you, all of you, and how I've wanted to call and tell you how horrible everything's been . . . ." Liz had to stop herself.  The truth was just pouring out of her and she couldn't tell him. They couldn't know, that was part of the deal.

"Liz, please . . . what happened?" Alex whispered tensely. "Did someone hurt you?  Is that why you left? Are they still with you?"

Liz closed her eyes against the flood of memories that his words provoked.

Did someone hurt me? She wanted to scream, "Yes!"  But she forced herself to ask the question that had been burning in her heart for too, too long.  The question had started out a lot longer, but had been worn down over the years. Now it was three simple words.

"How is Max?"

"He's fine.  Well, okay, that's a lie.  He's terrible," Alex said abruptly. "You're not being fair, Liz.  How can you expect any of us to be fine when we don't know where you are?  Tell me and I'll come get you.  Max will help me if there's danger or something.  He can handle almost anything now."

Another smile broke out on Liz's face.  Max would come if she asked him?  Oh god, to see his face. She didn't even have a picture of him . . . those beautiful hazel eyes and the black hair that fell over his forehead just so.

She could almost smell his aftershave and taste it on her tongue.

But she wouldn't allow herself to go there.  She had walked away.  And that walk away from him had been the most costly of her life.

"Liz, where the hell are you?"

"Alex," she burst out, startled by his cursing. This felt very wrong suddenly.  What had she been thinking? She had to find out if it was safe now, and get off the phone.

"I'm sorry.  I can't tell you where I am.  Did the other ones, the evil ones, come yet?  Did they fight them? That's why I called.  I have to know if it's happened already."

And she meant it. She would have never called otherwise.  If she could just outlast them . . .

"No, but Max seems to think they'll be coming soon.  He still loves you, you know.  Liz, please, what should I tell them?  Maria has been in mourning for you.  Your dad, your poor mother . . ."

"Tell them I'm fine. Tell them I can't come home, not yet.  And tell Max...oh god...tell him I should never have walked away.  I have to go, Alex."

"What?  No, Liz!!  Wait!  You have to tell me why you called Max to meet you at the cave that night."

Liz stood completely still. "What?"

Had she forgotten something?  When had she done that?  She was trying to figure out where the confusion was when she heard Jude shout in a voice she'd never heard before.

"What do you--hey!" Jude yelled again from right outside her door.  The sound of struggling and then a crashing sound and glass breaking.  The noise hit her like a physical blow, making her gasp.

"Hey, what's goin' on?"

Liz barely heard Alex.

Oh god, it couldn't be . . .

"Liz . . . why did you leave? Liz . . ." Alex's voice began to sound desperate.

She opened her mouth to answer, but her chest was heaving and no words would come out.

"What's going on?  What was that?"

"Alex, I'm sorry," Liz whispered finally. "I didn't think . . ." She had thought it would be safe.  She thought they might not be watching.

The door handle twisted slowly and opened.

She whimpered.  

She had been wrong.

 

(to be continued...)

 

Colorblind Teaser Part Two


COLORBLIND

by Ashley Lane

 

I am Colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready
I am . . .
--Counting Crows, "Colorblind

 

From Part FoUr:

Max's head was bent low over Alex's desk.  The police had finally let the family reuse the room and Alex was getting settled in his bed.

Max could hear Isabel whispering words of comfort as Alex groaned. Turning over was agonizing for him still, but Max hoped that wouldn't last long. Now that they were home, he could him heal him enough to get rid of the pain without raising suspicion.

Isabel went to go get a cold cloth for Alex's head.

Max swiveled in his chair and faced the bed.

"So, you feeling any better?" he asked lightly.

"Better than . . . what?" Alex cast his eyes around as he joked. "Better than a kielbasa on the Valenti dining table?  Yes.  But frankly not as good as I'd like."

Max smiled briefly at his reference to the Sheriff and his son, who remained friends with the group, though from the outside.  It was still hard to fathom that not even with Valenti's connections could they come up with any information on Liz's disappearance. Of course, now everything had changed . . .

"Have you remembered anything else about that night, the conversation with Liz, anything at all?"  He searched Alex's eyes, feeling a sense of desperation springing up.

He couldn't believe it.  Even after she wouldn't talk to him, he still wanted to hope, to believe that somehow, she was still his Liz.

"Uh . . . yeah.  Actually I have," Alex said hesitantly.

Max sat up straighter in the chair. This didn't sound good.

Alex cleared his throat and then smiled up at Isabel as she handed him a wet, cool washcloth for his forehead.  Alex moved to sit up farther and she bent over to help him.  His back had been badly bludgeoned and he winced at the movement.

"Sorry," Isabel whispered.

"Alex, I can take care of that now if you want me to," Max began, but a gesture from Alex cut him off.

Alex closed his eyes briefly and leaned back against the headboard.

"I was shocked at first. I don't think I would've recognized the voice if she hadn't told me who it was. But once she did . . ."

"You knew it was her," Max quickly prompted him.

"Yeah," Alex said slowly. "It was Liz.  And she was deliberately not answering my questions. It was like some bizarre nightmare. There she was, on the phone, alive and well, and I couldn't get anything out of her about where she was, or where she'd been. Or if--if anybody had hurt her."

He stopped and gulped.

Max saw Isabel cut her eyes at him angrily as Alex continued.

"But like I said before, she did ask about you, Max.  And about the evil ones, if they had come."

Max nodded.

"That's so weird," Isabel muttered.

"I thought so, too," Alex looked up at her and agreed. "She was . . . happy to talk to me.  I remember thinking that.  And, she said that she wanted me to tell you all that she was okay, but she couldn't come home yet."

Max sat up even straighter, if that was possible.

"She said she 'couldn't' come home?" he asked eagerly.  Alex hadn't mentioned that before.  But it made sense, because the more he thought about it, her voice had sounded panicked when he heard her in the background.

Maybe someone was keeping her away.  He tried to squelch the hope leaping inside of him . . .

"That's right.  And then I tried to ask her about why she called you that night, but it was almost like she didn't know what I was talking about."

Isabel cut another glance at Max.

"And then, things got . . . hairy."

Max looked back up at the change in Alex's voice. There was something he'd been holding back. Alex's blue eyes intensified as he leaned forward. "I don't want Maria to hear this," he said in a low voice.

Max nodded, unable to move his eyes away from Alex's bruised face for even a second.

"While I was throwing questions at her, someone came in her room." Alex hesitated again.

Max felt the room grow colder as each second ticked by. He suddenly didn't want to hear this . . .

"I could hear noises and yelling . . . and Liz apologized. It didn't make any sense until this happened," Alex gestured around the room, indicating the smashed window covered by brown paper and tape. "God, what I wouldn't give to have that conversation recorded.  But that's all I remember."

"So, Liz was . . ." again Max trailed off. His throat was so tight that the words just wouldn't come out.

"She was . . . attacked pretty much the way I was, I think," Alex shifted uncomfortably on the bed at his own words.

"It sounded pretty b--brutal. Screaming and . . . thumps . . ."

"We get the picture, Alex," Isabel said quickly.  Max could feel her eyes on him, but his vision had gone completely blurry. And his mind was stuck on those words:  brutal and screaming.  Words that should not be used in conjunction with Liz's name . . .

 

(to be continued . . .)

 

 

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