I think that I am in control of my life in some areas and in other areas, I have less control of my life. Then there are also some aspects of my life where I feel partly in control. With schoolwork, I am really steering my ship. It is up to me how well I do in school. The work and studying that I do controls my grades and knowledge. Also, the lack of work and studying I do determines my grades and knowledge. I also feel that I am living a deliberate life when it comes to driving. I think that I drive well and cautiously unlike many other people in this world. Although I am steering my ship and my car, I can not control the actions and ways of driving of others around me. I feel that in areas of my religion, I am in between steering my ship and floating rudderless. I know about God and what everyone says about Him. I believe in Him but it is many times hard for me to see God present in my life. The only thing that I know is that I don't know everything there is to do with religion and God. Eating is another part of my life where I feel halfway in control. Many times, I eat what makes me happy and what tastes good, not considering any possible side effects down the road. But also, I do eat healthy and deliberately sometimes. I eat deliberately when I need to stay healthy for sports and other things like that, but most of the time, I am rudderless. The part in my life where I feel floating rudderless the most in the ocean is in the area of sexuality. I am tempted often to give in to my desires of fulfilling what I want and often surrender. I hope build a better rudder over the next few years so I can better steer my ship.

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