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Rachael Anne Hendricks I was born on January 24th, 1969. As with all the other ladys I have very destinct memories of being more imaginitive, and less aggressive then the other boys in the neighborhood. I remember all to well, because my father has on it tape a Christmas when I was being asked what I wanted for Christmas and I replied I want a Talking Besty Bean Doll, I am still reminded of that time still today. I started experimenting with the crossdressing innocently enough about 4-7 years young at a friends house, playing house and make beleive. I really felt the urge about 11 years young long about the time puberty and and all it wonderful attributes came into play. but I still longed to wear the pretty, frilly things. From that time on, I have always thought that I was of the wrong gender, especially after hearing from my mother that they had been planning for a girl, and even had names planned. It strikes me funny that of the three names I would pick one of them. The names Rachael( I don't know about spelling), Jennifer, Elizabeth. I really didn't know what to do with that information at the time but I find it very comforting now that I am not the only ones surprised by my gender... Let me say that I do not look at as only body parts, but more like an overall me. My mindset has always been more feminine but well as for the the other parts... I still think god put a stem on the wrong apple. I have done many things in my life, and see many a places, I spent what would be sixteen years trying to find myself, and at the age of twenty-five, I began almost four years of deep soul searching, I entered the United States Marine Corps and threw Rachael into a closet for four years with the exception of a few times I couldn't resist. I still hadn't told anyone that I know that I was a crossdresser, and then in 1999 everything started to open up. A friend of mine came out with the question "Do you Crossdress?" I was dumbfounded how could he have known I ask myself? I answered back yes,and how did you know? Through the night we discussed the all that we knew including that I knew of his life long before he knew of mine. The toughest situation I have encountered yet is with my wife. I love her so much and had heard of others who had ended in divorce over this issue, so one night decided to test the waters and rented "Too Wong Fu. She laughed at the movieand enjoyed it, I didn't know how to take it, a coulple nites later I sprang it. and she was quiet, and turned away but she hadn't left. The next few days were awqward to say the least. I made a point to tell her that I am the same person I was before just that I needed to express the feminine side of me sometimes and that I am who I am because of Rachael. It has taken some time but she has come around almost full circle with the exception of she doesn't want to see Rachael, but still is supportive. I know that if I had waited to tell her I would not have her in my life today... if there is anything I can say it is this. Know yourself and love yourself, and if you have problems, try to resolve, if you can not resolve them. at least find a friend that will listen and be there to try and help. More About Rachael |