once, I could daydream of you
and let out a contented sigh
knowing everything was alright
that I would see you again
that we would share our thoughts again
that I would hold you again
my heart would fill
and I'd get that warm feeling
then shiver it off or risk forgetting to breathe
those daydreams kept me going
little flashes leading up to the explosion of light when I finally saw you

but now it's over
and the daydreams persist
the same haunting little flashes of light
darkened now that you're not there
the memory lives inside me still
but to remember unleashes a stabbing pain
and an emptiness in my heart
the inevitable sighs became sighs of release
a temporary release from the overwhelming pain
these daydreams drag me down
and make me think too much

you drew me in
and left part of you inside me
now I wake up numb and empty
knowing I'm without you by my side
you gave me spirit, you showed me happiness
you helped make me whole
but my daydreams have gone bad
now that you're gone

written 10/6/99
©1999 Matt Henderson 4/21/76