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why does e'ery con'ersation I o'erhear end up being about sex?... is that all that's on people's minds anymore?... isn't there anything more important to talk about?... it saddens me 'ery much to think that this is what this world's come to... in almost e'ery portion of the media, there's some reference to sex... the media has quite an affect on our minds... about what should and should not be important to us... about what we should consider right and wrong... inserting a grey area where there should be black and white... it saddens me that through elementary school, high school, and college that this is what most e'eryday con'ersations end up focusing on... e'en the once conser'ati'e education system is putting these thoughts in young minds... I didn't e'en know what a condom was until about 8th grade and I'm proud of it... my thoughts were on at most dreaming of a kiss, if not just holding hands with a caring girl... but the dirty jokes, the infatuating clothing, and the portrayals of sex in the media began to clutter these thoughts... and sadly, we can ne'er go back... I belie'e, without those outside influences, we could actually do something about the plight of the world... luckily, I ne'er fell prey to the pressures, but my mind has, partially... so I ha'en't lost the true focus: making this world a better place to li'e in... I just wish I could put 100% into it... I''e tried to get my mind off it, but it always somehow goes back to the need for a relationship, the need for looking pleasing to the opposite sex, the need for sex... I''e seen the corruption of youth: 5 year olds smoking and chewing tobacco, crude jokes made by kids 1/3 my age, kids' tele'ision programs saying or showing a little too much... it's sickening... I don't e'er regret my innocense of youth... let's do something so that our kids don't regret... focus on the important aspects of life and consider... this is the future of the world we're talking about...