10/25/97...

what is the point?... but why do I want one so bad?... all there is is arguing and differences of opinion that end up in heartbreak... and people can't be themsel'es once they're with another 'cause you're only yourself when by yourself... I lo'e the freedom, but why do I want to be with someone so badly?... all I want is someone to hold, to understand this confusing and bittersweet world with... someone to be there... but it's always less or more... I get more done on my own... I'm most creati'e when on my own... so why do I care?... that's something I may ne'er figure out... oh well... that's as far as I can go for now... more on this later when I'm in a better state of mind...