well, I am officially a college graduate... commencement was yesterday at State College, but I didn't attend... first, there was no way I was going to drive all the way up there again... second, all the nursing students I started out with have graduated and there wasn't going to be anybody I knew there... and third, we don't even get our real diplomas anyway... so I passed and ended up working, spending a little Playstation time with friends, and going to bed early... I much preferred it to spending time 2 days after Christmas at a formal event among thousands of family members and fellow graduates receiving a blank diploma for 4 years full of confusion and stress, heartache and commuting, and a little bit of Heaven and a whole lot of Hell... I'm just glad it's over and I can finally find some stability in the place I can now definitively call home... I have a lot of thinking to do... it'll be at least 6 weeks before I can take the state boards, but even then, I don't think I'm ready for the real work world... but I'll have to see... I think I just need overall stability in every part of my life, which I do not have... but hopefully, once I find it, I'll be ready... I'm sure I'll know when...