the holidays are here again, and again I am without companion... this has been the case year after year, save for one winter 4 years ago... the last few years have been the toughest - it tends to hurt more and more each year, especially after experiencing the 1st relationship... mine was over 4 years ago and it was the only one to last to and throughout the holidays, 10 months total... since then, I've had 3 or 4 highs, each lasting 2 months at most... they all ended short of any holiday, let alone Christmas and New Years... I keep thinking each year will be the year, but it never turns out to be... I really thought maybe this year, but... so this year is faring to be the worst... I don't mean for this to seem like a pity party for me... I know some of you are in the same situation... and I hope I'm sorta speaking for you... you're not alone... let's try and make the best of these holidays... better days must be ahead...