this world fails to surprise me anymore... I believe that people are basically evil and must fight to be good... well, it seems that very few are putting up a good fight... and I must say that I'm quite disappointed... true purity and beauty is exceedingly rare indeed... people I thought I knew and who I thought were good people with good judgement are continually proving me wrong... there is no excuse... it's becoming more and more difficult to forgive - and I'm quite a forgiving person... one thing I know is that I won't be able to forget... I have no idea what my role is in this world since nothing I do, no example I set, no empathy I give, seems to matter... I've known this world is well beyond the point of saving, but I didn't know it was this bad... I have some thinking to do... I don't mean to sound self-righteous, but I expect certain important values to be upheld... I'm losing my respect for those whom I had never thought this would come into question... I am sickened by their weak moral standards and their total overall weakness... I cannot respect the evil-forgetting and the morally weak... some things are just too obvious to pass over... when it's clear to see that the person isn't the person you thought they were and that they treat you like shit, they're manipulative, and have subversive behaviors, that's exactly who they are... they are incapable of true love and are not going to change and you've been used... but you forgive and forget because it's easier to do that than to stand up for yourself, for your self-respect, and for morals in general... that's weakness... it's a slippery slope and it can only get worse and worse... and it affects much more than just the people involved... and that's why I have some re-thinking to do... where to go from here?...