things continue to go the way they've been going... still feeling quite anti-social, prolly mostly due to having to put up with customers most of the day... after that, I just don't feel like being around anybody at all... oh well... anyway, I hope to update my personal news more frequently, including more random thoughts and whatnot to help me along with my present writing struggles and just to get more thoughts "down on paper"... k, I'll start now... = )... dreams can be quite baffling... almost all of mine don't involve anybody I know or have ever met - they mostly involve complete strangers... and it's as if I've known them forever... what's strange is who shows up when it actually is somebody I have known sometime in my life... like last night, I dreamed that I was hanging around with a girl I'd known and liked for a long time, though it was nobody I've ever seen in real life... later in the dream, a girl I had liked in real life, but never talked to in high school, showed up (I had had a crush on this girl and a few other girls in my quiet and lonesome life at high school... I haven't seen her since graduation (almost 5 years ago) and haven't thought much about her since... but she ends up showing up in my dreams instead of somebody I'm close to)... in the dream, I remember admitting that I had had a crush on her in high school, but I started waking up as she was responding... I remember thinking twice about saying it, as I would have exactly in real life... it just makes me wonder what dreams are all about... and why complete strangers and people that aren't close to me end up being the main characters... I thought it was strange that I hesitated saying something to this girl, though I'm sure I knew it was a dream and that I could've said anything... well, something to think about, at least...