I've been in a strange mood lately... I don't have anything major on my mind to worry about, but I am without inspiration and creativity and working and sitting around is about all that's going on in my life... so I've taken on a positive negative attitude (or is it vice-versa?) which is saying that things are prolly close to their worst, but it can only get better from here... so I'm actually happy and giddy at times and not down as I should be... I dunno... I'm just bitter that I'm getting stuck home more than I want to be due to "bad weather"... whatever... I'm just waiting for the 'carnival' to come back around... it's been quite a while and even though I'm patient, I'm growing weary of waiting... and nothing's going to happen to change the condition if I'm stuck at home... so the waiting must continue...