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These are notes between Darth Vader and Obi-Wan Kenobi, but it’s AU. (I read the book AOTC so I know that Padmé’s father is supposed to be named Ruwee, and her mother’s name is supposed to be Jobal. That change will not take effect in this story until you reach the point where I started writing after AOTC. This is just so you can tell what I wrote before and after AOTC, and to make sure that all the different Notes fics fit together). (Another thing is that in my story Vader didn’t actually kill Obi-Wan on the Death Star.)


Note 1
Obi-Wan Kenobi,

I know you’re here. I know you came on that ship called the Millennium Falcon….I sensed your presence. Well I’m not going to let you leave. I will face you and kill you. You’re the last Jedi Knight, and you will die. I am the master now!!!!!!! By the way, my nephew told me that he saw you and some boy together…..and that you both had lightsabers? I don’t know…my nephew is on the stupid side and might have been wrong….but is this boy force sensitive? Are you trying to train him in the ways of the Force? Well whoever he is, I’m going to kill him and everyone else that was on your ship. I hope you enjoy your last minutes of your life.

I hate you!!! Everything is all your fault!!!!! I wouldn’t have to wear this mask and suit if it hadn’t been for you.

Your hater,
Darth Vader
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Note 2
Darth Vader,

I'm surprised you're writing letters to me, and I see you've worked on your handwriting, because I can now read it. If you don't remember, when you were my apprentice that your handwriting wasn't the best, I'm shocked you can write in that suit of yours.

Anyway, why would I want to tell you if I'm training an apprentice? You're stupid to think I would tell you anything. Yes, I may be the last Jedi Knight, but whatever I do with my knighthood, is my business, not yours.

I've sensed you also, and I know you wish to fight me. If I must I will, I am not afraid of you.

Blame me all you wish. One day you will come to realize you were wrong, but that day hasn't come yet.


Obi-Wan
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Note 3
Obi-Wan,

I’m writing you even though you’re dead…just for the fun of it. I know you’re not going to receive this, but it’s fun!!!

Shut up about my handwriting. I was only 9 when I first met you. Did you expect me to have good handwriting then? Come on….think!!!! And I know my writing isn’t the neatest. I’m not an artsy kind of person okay. Why shouldn’t I be able to write in my suit? I still have arms and hands and fingers.

Okay…I saw who was with you…my nephew, my brother, my father, Leia, some guy, R2-D2, C-3PO, and a Wookiee. I couldn’t get a good look at anyone’s weapons to see if any of them had lightsabers….but I KNOW my nephew, my brother, my father, Leia, R2-D2 or C-3PO could not be force sensitive, so they couldn’t have been the one that Gryvon was talking about. The other man that’s with you doesn’t look the type….but I know that he could be a Jedi anyway.

Well if that guy is your apprentice, I’ll go and kill him too. Don’t worry, I’ll find your apprentice if you had one.

What do you mean, “Blame me all you wish. One day you will come to realize you were wrong, but that day hasn’t come yet.”

Of course I’m right. Everything that happened to me is ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!

Darth Vader
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Note 4
Vader,

First, if I had an apprentice, I wouldn't tell you, second, you're stupid you would ask, and third, I thought you killed all the Jedi, so how can I have an apprentice?

You're not the artsy kind of person? So, how did you draw out the plan to the Death Star to get it built? Come on, did I look stupid to you? I KNOW you thought of it, but I'm just wondering up you could have built it, without having a drawing of it first.

I'm just surprised that you can write in that suit, because you're SO...stiff whenever you move or anything (including fighting). You can't even turn your head without turning your whole body. That's why I'm surprised you can write.

Why are you blaming me for everything at happened? I would like to know. I'm not stupid, I DO remember the past, VERY clearly, but what one thing are you blaming me for. What did I do that made you look like you are, besides dueling with you, and jumping out of the way of you oncoming lightsaber blade, that would have killed me if I did. You should have used the Force to stop you from falling into the lava, but somehow, I don't think that's what you're blaming me for. So please humor me, what ARE you blaming me for?

I hope you enjoy getting a letter from the Ghost of Obi-Wan-Kenobi. I told you before you 'killed' me, that I would become more powerful than you can imagine, and I've proved it.


The Ghost
Obi-Wan-Kenobi
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Note 5
Obi-Wan,

So you do have an apprentice!!!!! He doesn’t look like he’d make a good Jedi. He is a little rough and he’s old. He looks like he’s 30 or something and he has brown hair. See I know who your apprentice is! He has that Wookiee with him. Now you didn’t need to tell me because I figured it out!! Ha, ha! Well it is possible that I missed some Jedi when the Emperor and I killed off Jedi, and maybe we missed some Force sensitive children. No matter, he’ll soon be dead, as will you.

I did not draw the plans for the Death Star. I only said that it was POSSIBLE to build a huge battle station that would have the power to destroy an entire planet. I figured out how to build the firing mechanism and I decided how big the Death Star would have to be. I left the actual design of it up to others.

Well I can write.

Everything’s all your fault. You wouldn’t listen to me when I told you I wanted to talk to you and that it was important….and so it was too late when you finally believed me. Palpatine already had me. All because of you I lost everything. I lost my wife because I couldn’t be with her and still be a Sith. You also never told me my full Force potential when you knew it. You wouldn’t let me achieve my potential. YOU kept the fact that I had the strongest Force level and highest midi-cholorian count from me because you didn’t want me to be better than you. The Emperor showed me the true nature of the Force. He didn’t hold anything back from me. If we hadn’t fought by the lava pit this never would have happened to me, now would it have? You’re the one that popped out of nowhere when I was on an assignment for the Emperor and then I had no choice but to fight you there and then I feel in because you HAD to jump out of the way of my blade and I lost my balance on the edge of the pit and feel in. YOU DID THIS TO ME!!!

One last thing I’d like to tell you. I’m not stupid. I know that there is no such thing as a ghost. I realize that you disappeared on me.

Well as I write this, we’re approaching Yavin, so you will be dead!!


Darth Vader
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Note 6
Darth Vader,

First of all, no that guy you're talking about isn't my apprentice, so you're wrong about that (which is a shock, because you always say you're smart). He's not even Force Sensitive, so he can't be my apprentice.

What did you think I would do? Let you kill me when I had a chance to get out of the way? Now, let me remind you that it was YOU that attacked me before you fell in, and if it were me, you wouldn't have fallen. Also it was YOU that was willing to like the Emperor brainwash that little brain of yours, and get prideful because of your powers. I was going to tell you about your midi-cholorians when you were knighted like all masters do when they apprentice's are knighted, but you turned just after being knighted, so I could not tell you. Still, I know your reaction to my words, and I know you will find any way to blame me, but I know the truth as well, so you may blame me all you wish, for I know the truth.


Master Kenobi
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Note 7
Obi-Wan Kenobi,

Just because I’m smart does not mean that I can’t make mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes. Being smart does not mean that I don’t make mistakes. So I was wrong about that guy being your apprentice.

Tell me something; is my nephew your apprentice? Or is it the Wookiee? It’s practically impossible for my nephew to be Force Sensitive, but I do have it on good word that he was adopted. Is that true? If so he could have had Force Sensitive parents.

How long have you been training him? Have you been training him since he was a baby? That would explain why you have been living on Tatooine all these years. How Force Sensitive is he? Was his mother Force Sensitive…because I know that Owen’s not, and the only other possibility would match up with something that my spy told me. Is he even Owen’s son? My spy told me that he was adopted, and I would like to know if that’s true. If that is true, who are his parents? Were they Jedi?

For your information, I did not let the Emperor brainwash me, thank you very much. I had no other choice but to turn. If I hadn’t he would have killed me…so you see I had not choice. You’re the one that could have stopped it because I tried to contact you and I tried to tell you that Palpatine was a Sith, but you wouldn’t even take the time to let me tell you. Well you had the chance of telling me about my midi-cholorians, but you did not. You should have told me from the beginning. But I know the real reason you didn’t tell me. You knew I was stronger than you and you just didn’t want me to be stronger than you. You tried to hold me back so that you could control me everything is all your fault! You couldn’t stand the possibility of your apprentice being stronger than you in the Force.

I HATE YOU SO MUCH!

You’re going to die in about a minute because that’s when Yavin will be in range. I can’t wait for the moment when you die. I only have one X-Wing pilot left….but he seems to have a strong Force. I’m rather confused. How many Force Sensitive people are in the Rebellion? I thought I had wiped them all out. No matter, this pilot will die soon, as will everyone else on Yavin. I can get this pilot…it will just take more precision and concentration to destroy this one.


Darth Vader
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Note 8
Darth Vader,

Nope, you're wrong AGAIN!!!! I don't have an apprentice, because I know the dangers for that person that would be my apprentice if I took up one. No, I'm not afraid of training one or of the Empire, but I'm SMART enough to not take one, for my own reasons.

So, I can't answer ANY of your questions about your nephew. Sorry about that.

I'm still alive, just so you know that.

No, I'm not telling you anything about any Force Sensitive people that are in the Rebellion if there were any. Why would I want to do that?

Is there anything ELSE that you want to blame me for? Go ahead tell me.


Obi-Wan
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Note 9
First Vader and Obi-Wan Note written after AOTC came out


Obi-Wan,

Don’t lie to me, Obi-Wan. Okay, so maybe MY SON is not your “apprentice,” but I know you’re teaching him about the Force. My nephew said that he saw him with a lightsaber. My old lightsaber?

My spy just told me that Luke’s my son; so don’t try to deny it. You can’t protect him forever, and I’m going to find him. Nothing you can do or say will stop me from finding him. I also know that he’s the one that destroyed the Death Star, and I also know that he has a Strong Force because I felt it, so don’t try denying that either.

How long have you been teaching my son about the Force?

I KNOW that you’re alive because you’re writing me.

You don’t have a choice to tell me any more about Luke.

And since you asked, YES there are two more things to blame you for. First of all, remember when I was having all those nightmares about my mother getting hurt? Well because you wouldn’t listen to me and you kept on telling me it was just a dream, she got hurt. She ALMOST DIED all because of you. You wouldn’t let me go to Tatooine to look for her. I HATE YOU FOR PUTTING HER THROUGH ALL THAT. You don’t know how much it hurt for me to see her that close to death. If it hadn’t been for me being sent on a separate mission to take Padmé to Naboo and protect her while she was there, my mother would be dead right now, ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. Luckily, Padmé and I were able to get to Tatooine in time for me to save her life. She was so close to death. If you had been there, you would have prevented me from going to save her. I hope you never forget your mistakes with that.

The other thing that I have to blame you for regards my son. YOU kept him from me. You kept the knowledge that I had a son from me, that Padmé had been pregnant, that you had given him to my brother. I hate you for that! All because of you I never knew about my son. I hope that you don’t make mistakes with him…because if you do, you’re going to die. Once again you were trying to hold me back all because you were jealous of me. You couldn’t stand that I had a son, and you want to hold him back too. You want to make sure that no one that you teach is stronger than yourself. You didn’t want me to know that I had a son so that I couldn’t train him and have him work for me. You were afraid that we would find you and kill you. I hate you!!!!!!!!!!!


Darth Vader
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Note 10
Darth Vader,

All right, now that you know about Luke being your son, I will tell you only the truth. He is my apprentice, and I've been training him for a while. Yes, he's using your old lightsaber, but he knows nothing of you being his father. He doesn't know that Anakin was he father. He only knows that Alex-Anakin-Skywalker was his father (who you killed, along with his wife Padme). He knows that Alex was a Jedi knight, and Padme a Senator, both of which you killed. He's being trained as a Jedi and I doubt you will make him turn, he's got his mother's stubbornness and her focus.

He does know about you though, because he's been asking questions about Anakin, Qui-Gon, the Jedi Order and stuff like that, so he knows who Anakin was, and thinks he's neat.

Now, is there anything ELSE you want to blame me for?

I know you hate me, don't you think I already knew that from the beginning?


Obi-Wan
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Note 11
Obi-Wan,

Thank you for admitting the truth. I wasn’t 100% sure until Padmé, Owen, and you all told me that Luke is my son. I was just testing it to check and see what you would say, and I pretended like I believed my spy…but now I know! So he is my son!!! And you have been training him for a while. How long is “awhile?” He is using my old lightsaber then. I could care less. It doesn’t mean anything to me now anyway….so I don’t care. So he doesn’t know that I’m his father? I didn’t think he did, but thanks for telling me, and for telling me that he doesn’t know that Anakin was me…or that he knew that Anakin was the name of his father (before I became Darth Vader), and that he believes his father’s name was Alex Anakin Skywalker who I killed along with Padmé. That really helps to know what he believes/thinks….because now I know how much he knows…and I can use some of the stuff to make him turn (like I can use his anger towards me since he believes I killed his parents.) You can be quite useful even though I hate you. So he knows that Padmé was the name of his mother? Why does everyone keep bringing up my great-grandfather’s name? He knows that Padmé was a Senator too.

What makes you so sure that I won’t make him turn? Even if he does have his mother’s stubbornness and focus (as you say), how do you know he’s not going to turn? That’s not proof that he’s not going to turn!

I don’t care if he knows about who I used to be…I don’t care if he knows anything about the name Anakin Skywalker, because you know what….that name no longer has any meaning to me now. He doesn’t know I’m his father, and nothing that I did before I turned matters anyway. So he thinks that Anakin Skywalker was neat? I don’t care because like I said it doesn’t matter to me.

I already told you everything that I blame you for, and you well know everything is YOUR FAULT so I don’t need to repeat all that, do I?

I’ll get Luke on the Dark Side…you’ll see. How’s the weather wherever you are?

Bye.


Darth Vader
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Note 12
Vader,

It's sad really, seeing what you've become. Cold, dark, uncaring and blind. You've lived in the darkness so long, that you can't see. Can't see that I wasn't protecting Luke, I was protecting YOU! All of this has been about protecting and trying to see you too your full potential. I kept you away from knowledge that would hurt and tempt you, but would you listen to me? NO!

Why wouldn't you listen when I told you about Attachement being Forebidden? Why wouldn't you understand that the root of all evil isn't money, but PRIDE (something you've an ABUNDANCE of)? Why wouldn't you get the fact that there are some people that have been places you've been and are trying to WARN you away from them?

You were prideful of your abilities, disgraceful in your attitude toward others (especially me), and THAT was your undoing! Your overconfidence, your pride, and your lack of respect for those wiser than you is what undid you, not me. You got to the point where no one could tell you anything, you were just ALL knowing! Well, you're not! And neither is that sniveling, pathetic excuse for a being you call a Master. Get used to defeat.

MASTER Obi-wan
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Note 13
Obi-Wan,

Whatever. You are too stupid to see what I have become. You were too stupid to see the true power of the Force. If you had joined the Dark Side, you could have become powerful. You’ll never be as powerful as I am. I am more Force Sensitive than you are, and I use the Dark Side.

And about me not listening to you…that’s ridiculous. You’re the one that NEVER listened to me when I ever had anything to say. All you ever saw me as was a little boy.

I LOVED Padmé. How could I go against love? And if I had, Luke wouldn’t even exist. Would you like that? Of course you would. You always were jealous of me that I feel in love and got married…and now that I have a child, you can become jealous of him too. I hope he sees you for your true self. You were never in love so how would you know how I felt?

You have no control over me now. I am a master of evil and you’re just a pitiful old man.

You never took the time to try to understand me. Maybe I wasn’t as prideful as your thought I was. If you had only listened to me and took what I said seriously maybe things would have turned out differently. But that’s not the way it happened. I did have respect for you, but you had none for me. After a while of your not listening and not understanding me, I gave up and just did stuff my way. You weren’t going to listen to me anyway.

How dare you insult Palpatine. He is much more powerful and more intelligent than you’ll ever become. He saw the opportunity to rule the galaxy, and he took it. He outsmarted the weak Jedi and ruled right under their noses.

Have you noticed anything unusual lurking around your base? How do you like your new base? I will find it. Even now I am sending thousands of probes out into the galaxy…I will soon find your base…or maybe I have found it already. Ha ha. I guess you’ll never know.


Darth Vader
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Note 14
Dear ANAKIN,

I don't know what to say to all that that would change your mind or get through the rage that's blinding you from the truth. It's clear now that maybe you were as dangerous as the Council had predicted: too swayed by feelings, by your own selfishness.

Love isn't wrong, but when you let something consume you, than it's wrong, that's why we discourage marriage, so many strong feelings and ATTACHEMENTS. When your attached to something, you don't think of the needs of others. If you'd hadn't been thinking about how YOU were going to avenge the Jedi, and how YOU were going to make him pay, Dooku would've been stopped in that launch bay. And I really don't think it had anything to do with the Jedi that died as much as it did with Padme` lying on the ground and you wanting to be there for her.

Palpatine was and is an idiot. Anyone that let's power, lust and greed take over, no matter what the reason, is stupid and just wrong. Look how ugly he looks now, how lonely he is (despite what he'll tell you), and how lonely you are.

What makes you think I didn't try to listen and understand? I tried to be there for you, but you're so much of a momma's boy that every little thing, you got attached too. Padme', tools, smart-mouthing. Instead of listening and, more than that, DOING the things I instructed without whinning like a brat, maybe things would've turned out different.

But you know the major difference between the two of us is? I'm willing to admit my mistakes, you just want to blame everyone else for your bad decisions. Cause you're right. I handled you like an adult, someone who understood life, but I guess that slave-boy-stuck-in-the-sticks education of yours didn't fully mature you. I should've understood how immature you were and started with basic stuff. I'm sorry. And I'm sorry for dealing with you and expecting you to behave like a man.

Our new base, well, being a spirit, I guess it's all right. I'll keep hoping that the good in you that wants to please your momma will break out. I'm not sorry that you had a son, many Jedi have sired sons, and he, hopefully, will not stray from the light.

MASTER OBI-WAN
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Note 15
Obi-Wan,

You were always against me. I still remember overhearing the conversation between you and Qui-Gon before we left Coruscant for Naboo. You were jealous of me then, and it only multiplied when you trained me. What do you know of how I am or was? Maybe I’m not as selfish of me as you thought I was. I still say you never tried to understand me. The Jedi Council were to worried about their stupid Code to realize what the wiser man (Palpatine) was doing to the galaxy, or about what action should have been taken. If they would have been stronger maybe I would have remained a Jedi.

However, it was clear to me that Palpatine offered me much more than you or any of the other Jedi did. You never truly considered me a friend.

You know nothing of my relationship with Padmé, or how I felt for her. You’re too quick at making judgments, but you do not understand. Did you ever for once try to put yourself in my place to see how I would feel?

You’re wrong, old man. Love is something you’ll never be able to grasp. Love ALLOWS for people to care for others besides themselves. There is a great difference between love and lust. You disgust me. When you feel love, you DO feel and think about the needs of others. You don’t know what Padmé and my relationship was like. In fact…love IS thinking of the needs of others. This is such a complicated subject that it is difficult for me to explain. When you are in love, you feel the most deepest and wonderful feeling. You want to help everyone and do everything you can for the galaxy. It’s because of you that my relationship with Padmé ended. She could have joined me on the Empire side…but instead…YOU yes YOU had to hide her from me!

You are wrong to assume that my motive for wanting to take Dooku down was just because of Padmé lying there. I really was angry with him for doing all that he had done that day…for the things he tried to do. At any rate, Dooku is dead now, and that is all in the past.

However, the very fact that you mentioned my thinking of Padmé lying on the ground and me wanting to be there for her… that discredits what you said about me being selfish or whatever you thought. I cared about her so deeply. She was so special to me.

How can you say that Palpatine was and is an idiot. He outsmarted everyone! I could care less what Palpatine looks like. He is a powerful man who is an effective leader, and one who was able to outsmart the entire galaxy. I am not lonely, so shut up about that.

Let me see here…what makes me think you didn’t listen and understand me? Well for one, you totally misread me. The very fact that you called me a momma’s boy and saying that I whined like a brat…….and all the other stuff you said about me…that proves that you did not understand me. Whenever I tried to say anything, you never let me explain. You would make it sound like whatever I said was of no value to you or anyone else. You would hurry on and say something. You never treated me as a comrade.

About the “mamma’s boy” thing. You just assumed that because you were jealous of me that I got to know my real mother, and you never did. You were never a slave…and you never had to grow up in a dirty slave quarters where your master would sometimes beat you and your mother. My mother was the only one I had when I was growing up. She was the only one who loved me…and we would protect each other from harm. I defended her against enemies who tried to kill her. Don’t you understand that she meant so much to me. And I had to leave her when Qui-Gon took me away, and I was told I could never see her again. I had promised my mother that I would rescue her, and that we would see each other again. I did rescue her a year later, and of course I got in big trouble for that…with the Jedi Council…and with you. And then later, when my mother had been captured by Sandpeople, and I had all those Jedi visions in my dreams, you ignored them. You told me they were dreams and would pass in time. I KNEW my mother was in danger. Yet you didn’t care. You wouldn’t allow me to leave. Finally when Padmé and I were alone, we went to Tatooine. I rescued her. You don’t know how close to death I found her. The Sandpeople had beaten her so badly…and if I had been with you during that time, she would have died because you wouldn’t listen to me. You didn’t take what I said seriously. That is how you were always were.

The way you told me to do things annoyed me. You didn’t see the value of talking to me…of trying to understand…instead of just telling me to do things. You never saw me as anything except a little boy who knew less than you did.

I know that I am not perfect, okay. I sometimes did make mistakes…but the decisions (which were not bad, by the way), were the results of other people…especially you. You are the Jedi that I hated the most. You better not treat Luke the same way you treated me.

You held everything back from me…when I could have advanced and done something better for the Jedi Order, you wouldn’t let me because you didn’t want me to get ahead of you. You enjoyed seeing me suffer.

You handled me like an adult? That’s too funny! You treated me as a 3 year old all the time. You certainly didn’t TREAT me like a man.

There was more to me than trying to please my mother. Didn’t realize that? I not only wanted to please her, but I wanted to do something to help someone. You never understood that about me.

And on a different point…you said that “many Jedi have sired sons.” Well if that was true…which I’m sure it was…then how were those children created? They were created out of lust. Sex outside of marriage is something I have totally despised always. I don’t think the Jedi Order ever realized the importance of marriage. When I married Padmé, I did it because I loved her. I made a commitment to her, and I respected her. Our relationship was not the cheap kind which so many people had. We loved each other for who the other person was inside. Do you know what I do to Imperial officers who have sex outside of marriage? I kill them. It disgusts me when I find someone use a female in that manner. I could have just had a relationship without getting married to her, but I loved Padmé too much. I would never lower myself to having sex or using a girl without making a commitment and really loving her for who she was on the inside. I waited for her…I never fell in love with anyone else. I wanted to save my whole self for her…but you ruined it by hiding her from me!

Now she hates me.

By the way…thanks to my stupid officers, I’m sure you have detected my fleet in the Hoth system. Don’t worry, we’ll crush the base and capture some prisoners. I know you will probably be putting up a fight. It would have been a surprise attack, but my officer came out of lightspeed too close to the system. I disposed of him as soon as I found out.

I also heard that Luke was hurt by some Wampa Ice Creature, and that Luke managed to cut off its arm. IS that true? That Wampa will pay for its action with its life.

Until I wipe out the base and finally destroy you.


Your hater,
Darth Vader
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Note 16
Vader,

No, Anakin, I wasn't against you, as a matter of fact, I had to convince Yoda to let me train you, and it was I who fought so hard to KEEP you in the Order. That conversation, so long ago, was because I was scared and I was jealous. But when Qui-Gon died, I relized what it was to not just think with the Code, but to obey your heart. The Code does what's best for the whole, and you must look at the Spirit of the Code, not the letter of the Code. If you obey your mandates, most of the time, you come out of the situation on the better side.

You were cold inside, a momma's boy, who'd never seen the real world. You'd seen the underbelly of the underbelly, but the REAL universe still awaited and you didn't have momma's aprons to hold onto. You kept to yourself and instead of making it easier on people, you decided to be difficult.

Palpatine stepped, killed, bought and STOLE his way to the throne. If that's stronger and wiser....Well, I'll let you finish that. But it takes a stronger man to put down his weapon, than to take one up. It takes a stronger man to advance through the levels of power without conceit. And he used people, you being the Prime Example. Do you think that when Luke is old enough, the Emperor is going to give a care about you? No! He'll just try to apprentice your son and eliminate the old. That's a real friend.

Yes, I understood how you felt. I've been there and worse. I was trapped, not 20 feet away from my Master as the Sith Lord killed him. At least Padme` still lived, course you probably didn't check before you ordered the ship down, so consumed with rage were you.

And this doesn't have anything to do with love. You care about Padme`? Why did it have to take me REMINDING you of what SHE'D do in YOUR place? All you thought about was yourself when you ordered that ship down, when you were ready to renounce all you trained for. You know why love is difficult for you to explain, cause YOU don't understand it. Why does a parent disipline their child? Why do they tell them that fire's hot, yet allow them to get burned that one time they stick their hand on the grill?

If you wanted to help everyone in the galaxy, why'd you let a tyrant take the throne? If you loved everyone in the galaxy, why'd you initiate political camps where people were thown into for having a different opinion? Love and respect go hand in hand, otherwise,you're just fooling yourself.

Hide Padme` from you? It wasn't my idea, but she asked me to help. She was scared, scared of you and the monster you were becoming. When she came to me, it was because she knew that there was at least SOME hope for the future: Your son. And she placed him in my care.

How can you be angry at Dooku? You've done far worse and I'll leave it at that. And it doesn't discredit what I said about you being selfish. You cared about your own needs and desires, that's selfish. You were willing to let Dooku get away, which he did, cause ANAKIN SKYWALKER had all the answers. ANAKIN SKYWALKER was the CHOSEN ONE. The Force was with Anakin, and he was the Force. How easily Dooku proved you wrong. So filled with rage, you attacked on your own, you didn't obey the Code, or think of others. I told you that I couldn't take him on my own. Because of your selfishness and anger, he got away.

Palpatine's overconfident, power hungary and maniputalive. Only idiots deem those admirable.

Anakin, when were you ever a comrade? Respect is a two-way street. Not only do you show off and keep me in the dark, you ignore what I have to say about everything. You said you were trying, but all you wanted was to go your own way. About Shmi, most dreams, do pass. I kept you away from your mother because I was trying to cut the ties that held you so strongly to her. You have to remain objective, and you never learned that. All you thought about was you. What if it was the will of the Force for her to die? Do you think that it didn't hurt me knowing you were in pain? I know what it's like to see a loved one die.

You're right, I didn't know my mother and I look at that as a good thing, because I probably would've turned out like you, consumed by feeling instead of what's right for people.

I just have to shake my head at you. You didn't have it bad, and neither does Luke; he's actually better than you. He's your dreams of saving the world, but in him, he's willing to learn, willing to accept that he can make mistakes. When I insturct him, he pays attention, listens and DOES what I say. No questions, no, I'm in a Force-trance-and-know better. HE is the man you should've been.

You weren't ready for the advance things, you still had to learn patience and acceptance. You had to learn that you couldn't do everything, and accept that.

Your statment about my handling you, just proves my point. I tell you something, you whine. The Council issues you an order, you ignore it. Child-like behavior. I trusted you to back me up against Dooku, you tried to play the boy hero and paid for it with your arm, my arm and leg, and Dooku's escape.

If you respected her, why would you join a government that she opposed? You would've had to place her in one of your "Political" Prisons, and that's really showing her love. She doesn't hate you, Anakin, she hates what you've become.

I said SIRED, I didn't say they slept together. And another thing, if you'd been listening to your insturctors you'd find out that a Jedi's commitment to a loved one is much different than the average person's. A Jedi must place others above themselves and their families. The weaker people are most important, and we must put aside everything to do what's best for them.

Yes, Luke was hurt by a Wampa, he's a very resilian young man.

Master Obi-wan.
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Note 17
Obi-Wan,

Quit calling me Anakin. I don’t like it. It’s the name of who I once was before I found the true nature of the Force. You, of all people, must realize that I have changed forever. I am never going to be that weak person who never knew the power of the Dark Side again.

I am amazed that you convinced Yoda to train me. I must admit that I did not know that before. Still, it changes nothing. The Jedi Order was full of weak people who were too blind to see the rise of the Sith, or that you could have wielded a greater power. My training as a Jedi was only the beginning of my training…it gave me the knowledge that I needed to realize that the Jedi were weak and would never have access to the full power of the Force.

Ha! I was right! You were jealous of me…and you still are. I know you are. But you’re not going to get me. I am more powerful now then you could ever be. I am glad that you finally realize the foolishness of following the Code word for word. You never seemed to grasp that concept very well when I was still training under you.

What…you don’t think being a slave and being beaten qualifies as seeing the real world? We had to always look out for each other in order to survive. And you think that the Jedi Temple raised their Jedi in a “real world?” The Jedi were sheltered from every feeling, every bad thing, and even from love.

As for keeping to myself…who are you to judge that? Why is that such a bad thing? You know some people find it easy to talk to others, and they have a lot to say. I didn’t. Maybe I felt that no one would appreciate what I had to say anyway, and that maybe everyone would have preferred it if I had not been with them. Maybe I found it hard to talk to people, or that I never knew what to say…or that I was afraid of what they would think of me, or that I was afraid of looking like a fool in front of them. To most of the Jedi, I was an outsider. I did not grow up with them…and some of them even made fun of me. Maybe I didn’t feel comfortable talking to other people…maybe other people didn’t listen to what I had to say anyway. Did you ever even consider those possibilities? Because that’s exactly how I felt.

Palpatine outsmarted everyone and was able to start a government that was much more effective than the Republic ever was. He knew how the galaxy could be run…effectively, as an Empire, and he to the initiatives. He found a way to get the position of Supreme Chancellor by fooling everyone in the Republic, and then he started the clone army so that he could get emergency powers and become the Emperor. He planned out everything so carefully and so thoroughly. How could anyone not respect a man like that? I am proud to call him my master, and am honored that he took me on as his Sith apprentice instead of killing me like other Jedi.

Palpatine will not eliminate me. I am far too important to him. In fact…I wouldn’t even give him a chance to train Luke himself. Instead, I plan to kill Palpatine (sometimes he does act like a fool…even though I do have much respect for him.). I could run the galaxy better. I am more Force Sensitive than he is, and I know that Luke must be very Force Sensitive too. I will train him on the Dark Side, and together we will rule the galaxy. No one will be able to oppose us.

I just wanted to be with Padmé…to help her. I loved her, and I wanted to make sure she was okay. That is all. That is why I wanted the ship down. Uh…..yes I do care about Padmé, okay. And that is why she must die now. I cannot let me feelings for her weaken my respect as a Sith. No one may find out my feelings for her now. She must be eliminated. I told you just now that I cared about Padmé, and wanted to help her. But when you asked me what she would do in my place, I knew that I needed to help you, okay.

You judged me to harshly. I wasn’t thinking about myself when I ordered the ship down…I was thinking about Padmé…and wanting to be there for HER, not ME. How is that selfish?

There are different kinds of love, Old Man. There is the love for a family members, and there is romantic love…..and there is the kind of love for friends…and there is a kind of love for God…….they are all a little different by themselves…but they also have something in common. It’s hard for me to explain love because it is a feeling, and it cannot be described in words.

I let Palpatine take the throne because I saw that there was no hope for the Jedi…that the Sith had everything, and I would have been a fool not to follow him. Besides, long before I knew Palpatine was a Sith, he and I had talked many times. Remember, the foolish Jedi Council was the one that allowed me to speak with Palpatine while I was not allowed to speak with anyone outside the Jedi Order? He told me all the problems within the Republic, and I grew to believe that there was only one way to have an effective government…and that was for one person to be in charge and tell everyone else what to do. Everyone would be made to agree, and there would be no arguments. Things would get done quickly. Palpatine was obviously the man for the position. He was a powerful Sith, and had deceived the foolish Jedi. Now things are getting done in an effective way. Anyone that does not agree with us is simply eliminated. People that oppose the government are just creating hindrances to getting stuff done.

If Padmé asked you for help, and you cooperated with her, then it is BOTH of your faults. She does not deserve the power I would give her once I would become Emperor. The two of you contrived to hide the existence of my son from me? Well then…I hate both of you.

In my last letter I did not mean I was mad at Dooku NOW. I was only trying to explain my feelings at the time of the battle. Obviously my feelings towards the Jedi have changed since then…but at the time I was mad at Dooku for killing the Jedi.

I suppose I cannot persuade you to see how I really felt about anything. You still won’t listen to me or understand me. I don’t even know why I bother explaining anything to you. If you thought that I merely cared only for my own needs and desires, you were misled. How do you know what I thought when I went after Dooku? Maybe I thought that if I could take him down I could have prevented others from getting killed by his hand. Maybe my thinking that I could have taken him down by myself, right then and there was wrong, but maybe I had different intentions then what you seem to think I had.

So, I was right in thinking that you never thought me as a comrade? That you never considered us friends? I admit that I did want to go my own way…but that was because I KNEW I could do stuff in a better way than what you thought I should do. You were never as Force Sensitive as me, so you never understood how I felt things through the Force, and you just ignored everything I had to say. I stopped trying to explain stuff to you…because when I tried, you’d only go off on one of your lectures. If you would have let me explain my opinions, instead of expecting me to follow you just because you were more experienced and thought YOU knew better, maybe we would have gotten along better.

You never even considered the possibility that maybe my “dream” was not a dream, but a Jedi vision. I kept trying to tell you, but what I said amounted to nothing in your eyes. Yes, I had strong ties with my mother, but didn’t it mean anything to you that my mother could have been in danger? That her life might be in danger? And you wouldn’t let me do anything about it. Maybe I was thinking of my MOTHER and not myself at that time. Did you ever think about that?

Well my mother is still alive, thanks to the opportunity I had to save her life. If I had been with you, she would have died.

So you thought that you should just let my mother die when you knew that we could have saved her, just for the sake of cutting the ties between me and my mother?

You say that Luke is your perfect little example of what a Padawan should be like. Fine then. You must understand, though, that he thinks you’re the greatest person ever, and that he is training in a time where you and Yoda are the only Jedi Knights alive, and he does not see how slow his training is, and has no way of knowing how you’re holding him back…and has not yet met the power of the Dark Side.

How could I have been patient when I could tell you were deliberately holding me back in my training? I wanted to be challenged, yet you never let me advance. I could have taken the trials, but you wouldn’t let me. You enjoyed seeing me suffer.

Maybe the Council didn’t realize that my mother was in danger and she was in such pain. And maybe when you were on Geonosis we came to rescue you so that you wouldn’t die…just think if we would have remained on Tatooine instead of going to you. What would you have done? You might still have gotten away from the execution, but I would not have been able to help you at all. Would you have preferred that?

You never made any mistake in your life, Obi-Wan?

I gave Padmé the opportunity to join me on the Empire, but she wouldn’t come to me. She chose not to take part in the Empire…and the Republic turned into the Empire with the Clone Wars, so Padmé did not really oppose the Republic. She only opposed the Empire after stuff started to fall into place.

How can someone have kids unless they sleep together? And since the Jedi were opposed to marriage, it being a reason for expulsion from the Jedi Order, I thought that when you said that many Jedi had sired children…I just assumed that they didn’t marry. I married, I know…but the Council did not know…and we tried to keep our decision a secret. So did the Jedi that you mentioned who sired children…did they marry, or not. I suppose other Jedi could have done that in secret…. But since romantic love and attachment was forbidden in the Jedi Code, and most Jedi obeyed the Code so strictly, I didn’t see how those Jedi could have actually loved the mother of their children…that they had actually made a commitment to them, and that valued that person so much.

I hope you know that I sent a stormtrooper squad out to find that Wampa. They have reported back to me that the Wampa is now dead. I’m glad you confirmed that Luke had been hurt by that Wampa. Now it will never harm him again.

As I’m sure you know, there was a battle on Hoth. I entered the base with my stormtrooper unit, but most of the Rebels had gone. They put up a good fight, but my officers were able to get the shield down, and several Rebels were captured. I did not find Luke…I saw the Millennium Falcon leave just as I had left the base. I didn’t see you either. You better feel lucky that I did not. You would have been one dead old man if I had. Do not worry, though. The fleet that I went with will be chasing after the Millennium Falcon.

The prisoners that I have captured…some of them have broken down and given me some information about the Rebellion. I have now disposed of all of them properly.

I may not be after you at this moment, but I promise you that I will not forget. I will get you eventually.


Darth Vader
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Note 18
Anakin,

It is the name of your true self, what defines you. You are Anakin Skywalker, and the chosen one who will fulfill his destiny. That, you cannot escape. Having morals and sticking to them is not weak, it takes a stronger person to live by a code than to break one.

You may have been right about the Jedi Order not seeing the rise of the Sith, but maybe it was destined that way so that YOU could save it, that YOU would be the one to usher in the demise of the great evil. You still might. We held the power of the Heart. Can you honestly say that with all the anger that's needed to fuel your "Power", you still have room for love, commitment, honor and integrity? Can you feel anything besides your hatred?

What's real power? What's the true power of the Force? What's right and what's wrong? What makes rage and fury so right?

Yes, Anakin, you were right. You power scared me. Maybe Qui-Gon would've had the wisdom to train you better, I don't know. There's nothing to get prideful about, even APPRENTICES can teach their master's something, as Qui-Gon would tell me. I never fully followed the Code, but unlike Master Jinn, I never disabandoned it. Rules aren't wrong, they help us keep our focus.

No, Anakin, it does not. There are things that are a lot worse than being Watto's slave. You weren't prepared to handle the deeper stuff, such as Galactic politics and the terms "good" and "evil". You never would've had to face that if Qui-Gon hadn't taken you. We did prepare them for the real world, however, a powerful, dark apprentice against FOUR year-olds!? Sure, Annie, sure.

I know otherwise, Anakin. You felt like you had no one and that I was too busy saving the galaxy to worry about you, but you should've made an effort. All that was was a copout, nothing more. You never know untill you try. Maybe, if you looked at it from their point of view, you WOULD'VE talked to them and talked to them. An outsider, you went from noone to the most talked about Apprentice. How do you think that made THEM feel? Most people don't ever get the chance to become Padawans and you went straight to it.

To bad that included Padme`. How do you think she felt to see you ruin everything she fought for? It's not a lack of respect for his ambition; it's a disdain for his motives and for his lack of repsect for lives, and his intolerance to aliens, people outside the human race.

Palpatine didn't kill you cause, why kill you when he could manipulate you with your woe is me attitude?

So, you'd rather get angry and let the villian get away to terrorize more. We had a job to do and one that you CHOSE. You can't quite just cause it gets tough. You should've sent out your presance and FELT her than you'd know it was just a bump on the head. But your ANGER clouded you.

You'd rather kill her than allow the only real THREAT to your master? Why wouldn't you save her and fight for good? Why must you eliminate her now that you've joined the dark side? You're giving up everything you say you want and couldn't have with us. Well, I must go. Will write more later.

Obi wan


Anakin,

I'm back, sorry, evacuating doesn't give you a lot of time to finish letters. Back to what you were saying in your last letter, about not being able to persuade me to see how you really felt. I was seeing it and trying to show you a BETTER way. I'd been down that road and I was trying to tell you from experiance, but you just knew it all. Dooku is a prime example. Taking him down by yourself? He threw you aside like the arrogant wannae-be you were. If you'd listened and stayed by my side, Yoda would never of had to save us.

Anakin, you never allowed me to think of you as a comrade. All you wanted was to show everyone that you were the best, but the best aren't flashy, they show themselves, do the extrodinary and are satisfied with a job well done. Lectures? You just seeing them as that is why you never learned from them. Do you consider what Palpatine says to be a lecture? And yes, I did expect you to follow after my lead because of that, because of my experiance in COOPERATION. It's a two way street.

Yes I did, Anakin. I was also thinking about your future and what it would mean. And with your mother being alive, how long do you think that'll last? Palpatine doesn't share ANYthing and if he's tasked you with killing your beloved, what makes you think that your mother is any safer? And if you're willing to kill the woman you love, what makes you think you won't slay your own mother to prove your loyalty to a mad man that's taken everything from you. Because of him, we BOTH lost Qui-Gon.

Slow? We've had to force feed him (literally). Just because you caught on quickly and felt that once you had a basic understanding you needed to move on, doesn't mean that your son has the same problem. Some people strive for QUALITY instead of Quantity. Maybe your challange was patience. Maybe the greatest advancement was learning to be content while you were getting ready to learn more. Because of impatience, you lost your arm, remember? I did not enjoy seeing you suffer, but you placed yourself in situations where that's all that was there for you. You wanted to make dumb decisions, why should you blame me for their consequences?

You really didn't help me all that much anyway, Anakin. As I remember, when I needed you by me, you rushed the Count AND brought Padme`. I'm grateful for your loyalty there, I just wish you would've listened. You still would've had your arm, and, maybe, just maybe, we wouldn't be at war with each other.

Yes, I just chose not to blame them on anyone else. YOU are a mistake that I take great sorrow in. The greatest potential in the galaxy, turned sour. I don't intend to loose Luke the same way I lost you. HE will be better prepared cause I will be.

Why do you think that she chose not to join the Empire, Anakin? Do you think less of her cause she chose something else? Is she stupid? Absurd? What gives you the right to tell her that? You knew nothing of how the goverment opperated and why she diapproved of a dictator.

Very few Jedi have the ability to love someone, yet put others first. That's why it's opposed. We were trying to keep rash desicons, like putting down a fighter in the middle of a chase, out. We had a different type of marriage, it was a commitment to the Force and others first, than our mates, though it was encouraged not to. We value choices over people. Your choice has cost a lot of pain. We see the needs of many and we do what we can to help them, even if that means sacrificing a loved one. YOU couldn't do that untill you joined the Sith. Since your so commited to her, why are you going to go ahead and kill her? You're doing a lot of preaching about love, but your doing everything we told you to do in the first place.

It was only doing its nature, and it wanted to eat. I'm glad that Luke survived and, if I was there, I would've dispatched the beast myself.

Like I was when we met on the death star? You need to get some more practice droids, I rarely had to rely on the Force.

I look forward to our meeting, Anakin. One day, I will win you back to the Light side.

Obi-wan
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Note 19
Obi-Wan

Since I can’t make you stop calling me Anakin, I’ll just ignore it. Oh, so you think that I’m going to “fulfill my destiny.” And what might that be? You think the Chosen One will bring balance to the Force, right? Well did you ever think that it might mean victory for the Dark Side? That it might mean wiping out the Light Side completely? Well maybe the people who break the code have a better idea of how to use their powers than those stuck in the traditional way of life. Don’t you think that finding a new way proves intelligence and resourcefulness, and STRENGTH?

Let me get this straight…you think I’M going to save the Jedi Order. If there is one thing said about the Jedi…it is that they are too naïve. I am a Sith…does that word mean anything to you? Why would I save the Jedi Order? What do you care what I feel anyway? Why is it any of your concern whether I feel any feelings at all? I am not your Padawan anymore, Obi-Wan. You of all people should understand this.

Real power is having an unlimited power…the power of the Dark Side. There are no rules or restrictions limiting what you can do with the Force. Rage and fury provide a great source of power to draw from. You would be surprised at all that a person can do when using these two elements.

Well that’s just it. You never saw me as your apprentice…someone that could teach you. You never listened to me when I had something to say…because I did not have the experience that you had. Rules held the Jedi back. That is why they were so easily wiped out.

Well it was the Jedi’s undoing that the apprentices were not trained. My master (I’m talking about Palpatine here) and I killed four year olds who were Force Sensitive. You should have prepared them from the beginning. And don’t EVER call me “Annie.” Not only was that term used by the people closest to me, but it was also used by my friends and everyone when I was a little boy. The fact that you called me that proves that you still consider me a little boy.

Well maybe I DID make an effort to talk to other people, but every time I tried, people never seemed interested enough to talk to me, and I quickly gave up. Well I couldn’t help it that Qui-Gon found me and you took me on as a Padawan.

I don’t entirely agree with everything Palpatine wants for the Empire. That’s why I’m going to become a better Emperor…I only have to wait until Luke joins me on the Dark Side. One thing that I do not agree with is his intolerance to aliens.

Well Palpatine didn’t ignore me like the Jedi did. He may think that he has complete control over me, but as soon as I get Luke trained and kill him, and take the galaxy for ourselves, I think he’ll realize that he cannot manipulate me.

Well the thing with Dooku is in the past. I have my opinion on the issue, and you have yours. At any rate, I eventually killed Dooku when Palpatine felt that he was no longer needed…and I took his place as Palpatine’s apprentice. It was anger that helped me defeat him in the end (Talking about Dooku).

Yes, I want to kill Padmé. Why would I want to fight for “good?” I already know the Light Side is nothing in comparison to the Dark Side…so why would I give up the power that I have on the Dark Side. Besides that, if I suddenly joined the Rebellion, don’t you think people would kill me in the Rebellion? I must eliminate Padmé because I love her, and I need to prove to everyone that I am a full Sith and will not look weak to anyone. Love makes me look weak on the Dark Side. Now if she would have joined me on the Imperial Side, we could have kept our relationship up in private.

Well you never explained to me your reasons for “trying to show me a better way” or that you had been in those situations before. All you ever did was lecture me without providing any explanations, and I never thought that you understood me.

Did you ever consider that you might have mistaken what I was trying to do? That maybe I wasn’t trying to show everyone that I was the best. At any rate, since you never considered me your friend, then I assume you never cared about me (and it is also evident in your replies to me), so WHY do you pretend to care about me now? Why would you want me on the Light Side if you care nothing for me anyway? No, I don’t consider what Palpatine says to be lectures. He treated me as if I were at his level…not that I was a young little person who knew nothing. Well maybe your experience was not always right.

WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT ME? YOU SHOULD NOT. I AM YOUR ENEMY, AND A PERSON YOU NEVER CONSIDERED YOUR FRIEND OR EVEN CARED ABOUT IN YOUR LIFE.

I don’t know how long my mother will be alive. She has chosen against joining the Empire (although she doesn’t know who I am). I tried to keep my mother safer, but I fear that he will find out that she is still alive. If that happens and he orders me to kill her, I can do nothing about it. I must obey him. I WILL kill my mother if I have to.

You’ve had to “force feed” my son? I don’t believe you. I thought that he had a strong Force like me. But he doesn’t? Is that what you were trying to say, or what were you talking about? (I said that because you said that he didn’t catch on quickly or something like that.) Of course I remember losing my arm. You want to know something? I think every Sith should have that experience. Well maybe I had a hard time with patience, but so what. I’m now the most powerful Force Sensitive person in the galaxy, and soon my son will be the same way.

Oh, so I never helped you much anyway. Well that’s good to know, because now I know I had no purpose and never valued anything I did anyway.

Well you’re going to lose Luke too, whether you like it or not!

I never meant to imply that Padmé had little intelligence because she joined me, but what I was trying to say was…oh never mind…you wouldn’t understand anyway.

Oh, so there was a Jedi kind of marriage? No one ever told me that. Everyone said it was forbidden, and thus it was kept a secret from me. You’re wrong. I can and will sacrifice a loved one to cause. That is why I will kill Luke, my mother, and Padmé if they oppose me.

And why do you want to win me back to the Light Side? You never thought we were friends, you thought I cared only for myself, and you have never liked me, so why?

I am now an asteroid field in pursuit of the Millennium Falcon. I will get to Luke and turn him, and you can’t do anything about it. My fleet is even now searching for the ship.



Darth Vader
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Note 20
Anakin

It is the name of your true self, the self that your mother was proud of, that your mother gave you. Please don't turn your back on her too.

You will fullfill your destiny, Anakin, and the Force will guide the events, that I have faith in. And it is NOT a new way, Anakin. Rage and Anger have always been, but it clouds us and leaves us ultimately unfullfilled. Did you know that to become a Master and take on an apprentice in the Sith, you must destroy Palpatine, and that, if you do turn Luke, he must in turn destroy you? I think that you will do as the Force guides. Your feelings have always been important to me, Anakin, but it was you ways of dealing with them that I was trying to change.

Real power is knowing you can do something, and having the STRENGTH not to do it, espeicially if it harms someone else. Strength under control is the greatest Strength of all. And someone who could teach me? Anakin, you were always trying to reverse the roles, but I did gain from you, and Luke is progressing nicely.

I'm really glad that you take pride in the fact that you and the Emperor killed little four year olds, innocents who were barely learning to Force throw during tantrums, who understood nothing of the cruelties of this world. Teach them? How do you prepare a four year old to face the wrath of a power hungary mad man and his pouting pupil?

I'm sure you did, Anakin. I'm sure you tried really hard to fit in. When was that, do you think? Before or after you tried practicing your wit? Not everyone appreciates a bully's sense of humor.

Palpatine saw a moody, firey, and talanted young man whom he could manipulate. You call yourself faithful, how can you claim loyalty to a man you intend to kill? If he's given you everything, why kill him?

Keep your relationship private? I"m just going to shake my head at that, Anakin, because you know better. Love makes you look weak, so you left the Light because you couldn't, now you are going to her because the Darkness tells you too? Okay, Anakin. Sure thing.

Maybe I got tired of you not listening to my reasons? Or considering me out of touch? Or that we were sometimes in places where i couldn't explain?

Anakin, you're reacting out of hurt and bitterness. Why do I pretend to care about you? Anakin, I never STOPED caring about you. Did you ever stop to consider if YOU were wrong? Have you ever even admitted that you didn't know? Or owned up to a mistake?

Palpatine treats you like an equal? You have to bow to him, do his biding at beck and call and I'M the one who's wronged you? I'm the one you don't respect? He's doing everything I did, enforcing all the rules I laid out, and you just don't see it. All you think about is where you're at right now and the hurt, try to see past that and look at the stuff I told you. See it as me trying MY best to help you. I did the best I could, and I'm sorry that you don't think it's enough.

So, if you'll obey Palpatine's orders to kill her, but you wouldn't obey me when I said leave her, how come you don't hate him as well. YOU'LL be the one responsible for her death instead.

Luke's living in a time where the Force is taboo. Anyone FS is living under the threat of death, why would he know even basics? The force feed is my poor analogy at speeding up his progress. If he's to stand a chance against you and your Emperor, he must be as equipped as possible. It's slow, but I'm going as quickly as I can.

In the clutch, we're you there when I needed you? What would you have done if I hadn't reminded you that Padme` in your position would've left you on the ground till she finished what she'd started? What happened when you rushed off after Dooku? I needed you, Anakin. I tried to explain to you that we weren't dealing with some common lunatic, but a Master Jedi who trained Qui-Gon, but you were still just so caught up in what you wanted to do.

And I do remember congratulating you on finding that weakspot on the Trade Federation forces.

I'm glad you don't know what your saying about Padme`, it shows me that you're thinking on it and that your own arguments are turning against you. And no one said anything because you were too busy trying to break the rules, push the envelope and "find" yourself. You didn't listen to even the most basic lessons of philosophy and creed, why would you understand this one?

Why do you believe I never liked you, Anakin? Because I had to discipline you? That sounds more like a kid that doesn't get his way, than the mature adult your professing to be. A wise man heeds instruction.

Good luck against the Falcon, you're going to need it.


Obi-wan.
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Note 21
Obi-Wan,

I don’t care about whatever you think my “true self” is. You don’t know me anymore…Darth Vader is the name of my true self. It defines me.

Well then, you think that I will “fulfill my destiny.” Well I will, but it will be for the Sith, not the Jedi. I am a Sith and it would make no sense for me to do it for the Light Side. I already told you that I was planning to destroy Palpatine so that Luke and I could rule the galaxy together. But when I become Emperor (and the master of the Sith), I will change how the Sith works so that Luke and I can rule the galaxy together without taking on any more apprentices. Palpatine himself does not think about me destroying him…he told me once that if I even thought of doing it I would be dead before I had a chance. Ha, ha, hah. This is the first I’ve heard of my feelings being important to you.

A person would have to be a fool to hold back and not do all that they could with their power. You said you did gain from me? How was that possible when you told me (I think in your letter before this), that I was NEVER a help to you? You certainly never acted like anything I had to say was of any importance. Luke is progressing nicely? Don’t worry, I wouldn’t DREAM of interfering with his training. I know where he is…he told me that you and Yoda were training him, and I did a little research and discovered that he was on a planet called Dagobah.

Well you certainly should not have held back anything from anyone…but it was the Jedi’s fault, and look what happened.

I have never been one to do stuff just because it was popular, okay. I didn’t try to dress the way everyone else did, or like stuff just because everyone else did. And you think I was a bully? Really…that’s so interesting because I do not remember being mean to any of the other Padawans or saying anything or doing anything mean to them.

I have to have loyalty to Palpatine right now, because he is my Sith master, but once I turn Luke, then things will change. I can’t let him or anyone else suspect what I am trying to do. Unfortunately the Emperor has now found out about Luke, and asked me to take Luke before him for the turning. I promised Palpatine that Luke would join us on the Dark Side or die. Because of this…I’m going to have to fulfill my promise. I don’t completely like the way he rules the galaxy, and I would like to become Emperor myself and rule the galaxy with Luke. He has given me everything (Palpatine), but I must pretend that I still need Palpatine…otherwise he’ll get suspicious of me.

I have never stopped loving Padmé. Love is NOT the reason I left the Light Side, but it is the reason that I’m going to have to kill Padmé. I just found her again and I’m trying to get her on the Empire. It is not because darkness tells me to. But I wouldn’t be able to ever let Palpatine or anyone else know.

You cared about me ? That’s funny…because I never knew that either. I don’t see how you could care about me, but still not like me or ever consider us friends. I told you that I have sometimes been wrong, okay. You just never paid any attention to it when I did say that sometimes I was wrong, or that I didn’t know something. You just ignored those times.

Palpatine lets me have the amount of power that I always should have had. You held everything back from me, and treated me like I was a little kid…even when I was 20. Palpatine has my respect because he has done so much more for me…without holding anything back, and I feel that he uses his intelligence more and is more powerful than anyone else in the galaxy. It is an honor to bow to him and do his biding. Besides, if I didn’t, he would have killed me. My life is always in his hands.

But Palpatine does not limit my power, or treat me like I’m a little kid, like you and all the other Jedi did.

Why would you want to help me right now? I’m your enemy and am a Sith. I think you’re just trying to make me feel weak and less than you…like you always did.

I cannot hate Palpatine because he and I are trying to work on the same thing…we are both Sith…and I cannot take him down until I get Luke to join me against him. If I can convince him before taking him to Palpatine, we can kill Palpatine and then take the galaxy for ourselves.

Thank you for explaining what you meant when you said you had to force feed Luke.

But you didn’t “congratulate” me until after the things exploded in the Trade Federation forces. I remember you not saying anything about it until afterwards, and if you had had time, you would have told me it was a stupid idea, or it wouldn’t have worked, just as you always did.

You think my goal as a Padawan was to break all the rules? No. That’s not what I was after at all. You’re wrong, Obi-Wan. I only wanted to do what the Force let me…I didn’t care if it broke the rules, but I wanted to do what I knew the Force was telling me to do, but you and everyone else wouldn’t listen to me when I tried to explain it. None of you could feel stuff when I did because I was way more Force Sensitive than everyone else…and everyone thought that I was just wrong because they couldn’t sense it.

Why do I believe that you never liked me? Well let’s see here…you always put me down, assumed that I couldn’t know or sense anything that you didn’t know or sense, you never considered me a friend, you said that I was never a help to you, and you never would let me explain anything to you when we were talking…and because you never gave me any reason to believe that you liked me.

Well we will just have to see whether I get the Millennium Falcon or not.

You must excuse me…I have an important banquet that I am preparing for.


DARTH VADER
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Note 22
Anakin,

That was always part of your problem; you didn't ever really know what to identify with.

Whatever destiny that is, it will be the right one. I still have faith that you will eventually make the right decision, because deep down I believe that you want to do good and you just think that this is the best way.

How can you be so loyal to your Emperor, up to the point of killing your mother and wife, when you plan on killing him anyway?

don't worry, Anakin, it won't be the last time you hear it, I promise. And I didn't say never, I said that many of the times I needed you, you decided to do your own thing. Nice deductive reasoning, considering that that was one of Yoda's favorite planets.

We hold back because we can control. We don't just shoot out in mindless, destructive anger.

Have you ever looked at your attitude?

Ah, I understand. you're just using him, much the way he's using you. and together, you will reak fear and terror across the galaxy. Wonderful. And what's left for the encore?

You've already betrayed your "Master" because he wishes her dead and you haven't done it. Will you try and fight this Master too? Is this a cycle for you, Anakin. Rebelling against authority? Trying to use it and manipulate it?

That's because all you see are the times I tried to teach you. There are consequences to everything you do. you do something bad, and evil result happens. I didn't like your ACTIONS or your attitude at times, but that never meant that I never liked you. But, if we're playing it that way, how is it that you considered me the closest thing you had to a father? You never listened. You always tuned me out. You kept chosing to do your own thing. You say that I never paid attention, did you ever stop to think that maybe you were wrong? Is it ignoring you when you say something or suggest something wrong and I don't act on it.

Anakin, you acted like a kid, even at 20. Palpatine doesn't have respect for you, your his little puppet, his dog on a leash, the little kryat dragon that he unleshes because he's too old and frail to do it himself.

You're welcome. I don't want there to be that many lines of miscommunicion between us. I think that was the problem. I was too freash to really take on a Padawan, especially of your strength. I was the greatest Jedi Knight, but I was also the greatest faliure as a teacher. and for that, again, I'm sorry

But I didn't that time, and why would I congratulate you before you'd had it proven? and we never thought you were wrong, but there are rules to keep stuff like what you are doing from happening. If you'd listened to your lessons, you wouldn't have fallen to the darkness.

Is that all? For one, it wasn't putting you down, I was explain truths to you. How you took it was up to you. It could've been insturctive, or, like you've chosen, you could chose not to learn and be frustrated at me. I asked you questions to see if I could get a deeper understanding, not put you down. How could I say that you helped me when you were constantly doing your own thing, Dooku comes to mind. While you were lying around, I got some rather nasty burns and such, AND the enemy got away. anakin, you were to busy pouting to see that I did like you, you were just difficult.

I'll save you some swamp rat stew. It'll be in the kettle.


Obi-wan
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Note 23
Obi-Wan Kenobi,

I have news for you. I have just captured the passengers on the Millennium Falcon, and I have been torturing them extensively. Soon, they will be dead because I’m going to kill them.

Some people just have trouble knowing what to identify with because they are just so different from everyone else.

You’re so deluded to think that I will destroy the Sith forever. I suppose that you are entitled to your opinion, but you’re going to be wrong. I promise you that I will do what I can for the Empire and for the Sith.

I am a Sith and must not have any weak feelings. If I kill my mother and wife, it will be to show that I am completely fully a Sith.

Well it certainly sounded like you were trying to imply that I never helped you.

Yes, Dagobah was one of Yoda’s favorite plans…I did know that.

Anger is not just mindless…you do not know the power that one can get for it.

And for your information, I HAVE captured my wife when she went to look for information about our son. She thinks he died shortly after birth (thanks to you), and has gone to Tatooine and Blue Waters to look for his grave. Obviously she didn’t find it, and I gave her the address of my spy on Blue Waters, and she walked right into that trap. I haven’t killed my wife before because I never had the opportunity to do that. As soon as I finish killing Han and Leia, I will turn to Blue Waters and kill her.

You are wrong about my goal in life. It was not to rebel against authority; it was to do what I felt that I could do…and if that went against the authority, then so be it. I wasn’t purposely trying to rebel against it. Do you understand? I never tried to use you or manipulate you.

You hardly ever commented on anything I did, and I felt that you thought I was just a worthless person. You always made it seem that you really did not like me one bit. The reason I considered you the closest thing I had to a father is because I did not grow up with a father. My father sold my mother into slavery when she was pregnant with me, and I never met him until I was 11 years old, and then that was a very brief few hours. You…I lived with you, and you were like a father to me, even though I didn’t think you liked me. At least you weren’t selling me into slavery or treating me badly, like some of my masters did when I was a slave. You’re wrong. I DID listen to you, but you never gave me an opportunity to tell you, because you always thought that I never paid attention to you. I chose to do my own thing because I felt it in the Force…which is something you could never do as well as me because I was way more Force Sensitive than you. Many times when I did try to say something, you would interrupt me and wouldn’t let me finish. It was like what I said meant nothing to you because I was worthless.

You don’t know this because I never felt I could tell you when I was training under you, but many nights I would cry because I didn’t think anyone loved me…sometimes not even my mother….because I felt that maybe she thought I deserted her to become a Jedi. I would cry because no one seemed to understand me and I really had no friends when I was a Jedi Padawan. I wanted them so badly, but I never knew how to talk to other people. I always felt that others would laugh at me or what I had to say was stupid, and that no one would like me because I seemed to be so different from everyone else. It really hurt…especially when other people misjudged me or made fun of me. There was really no one to talk to…except Palpatine. Now I don’t have to worry about other people talking about me or making fun of me because I am a Sith, and they wouldn’t dare.

At least Palpatine tried to understand me and was there to talk to me without interrupting me or disregarding my feelings and everything I said. Palpatine gave me the respect I needed while I was a Padawan. He was the only one that I felt that I could tell anything to. He gave me the position I have right now. Maybe he doesn’t respect me like he used to before I became a Sith, but I owe so much to him.

I agree with you, though. We did have a lot of miscommunication between us, and that was a big problem for us.

But when I did try to explain something, you never let me finish.

Well you never showed that you did like me. I always thought that you couldn’t stand me.

What are you talking about this “swamp rat stew.” You said you’d save some for me. What are you talking about?


DARTH VADER
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Note 24
Anakin,

Thank you for admiting that I have that right, but I believe that you will destroy the Sith. They are a collapsing regime, one that breeds fear and anger. It will eventually fall on itself. How can feelings of Love be weak? How come you are so eager to prove yourself Sith? Why wouldn't you use that same passion for good? You weren't willing to sacrifice either of them when you were Light-sided, why are you so willing now? You are stronger than that.

I know, and that was another mistake that I've been trying to remedy; one I believe I have with your son. I wish that I could take back all those miscommunications, and, knowing what I do about you know, understood you a little differently.

Yes I do, and I also know the cost of it.

And you feel that I was trying to manipulate you? Anakin, please try to think objectively. When did you NOT chafe under authority? Even now, with all you claim about your Emperor, you will still kill him, betray him.

And I did comment on stuff you did, and when you did good, I praised it. Your problem is you only recognize the bad, because that feeds your desire for revenge, your anger. Without your hatred towards me, you have no dark side power.

And how can you hate me so if I did treat you well. I never beat you or abused you. And you always had opportunities to tell me, that's all you really did was speak. You wouldn't ever SHOW. I tried to show you the right way, and show you by example. And when did you ever show any gratitude toward me, or make an admirable comment to me, complimenting me? If were going to be like that about it, let's examine the other end of the table. How many times where you just putting up with what I said? How many times did you try to understand where I was coming from, or even make my job easier? And, when I'm insturcting you, is not the best time to bring anything up. If anything, it was you always interrupting ME! And I never said you were worthless at any time. You were and are still very precious to me.

And all you're doing is making excuses for not dealing with your emotions. Anytime, other than combat, would've been a great time to talk about it and that. You were loved, respected and admired by many, including myself. Unfortunently, it was left to me to train you and that meant that I had to have a certain detachment. It also meant I expected things of you. Anakin, your mother alos loved you, she was the one who told you to go, to be what she couldn't be, to do what she couldn't do, to stand for what was right and honest and pure.

As far as Palpatine is concerend, how do you think he'd feel about you saying that you don't feel loved? Or that you cried at night? How would he react? He tried to understand you? All he saw was some little one, emotionally tramatized with a massive ability. A litle nudge, a few quiet talks and you were his. And it's more like mockery than respect. Do you think that if Palpatine had to chose between you and your son, you would be the one he chose? Do you think that he'd let you both walk together? No, you both would be threats to him. Whatever I think of him, he is intelligent.

You'll find out about it soon enough, Anakin.

Obi-wan
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Note 25
Obi-Wan,

Hello again. You know something? I have Luke right where I want him…he walked right into my trap. You see, I tortured Han and Leia because I knew they were good friends with Luke…and I knew from personal experience that a strong Force Sensitive individual can feel when people they care deeply about are in danger…especially through Jedi visions. I knew Luke was training to become a Jedi, so I figured he would feel Han and Leia’s pain.

Luke flew right to Cloud City to rescue his friends, but I set up a trap for him, and he walked right into it! The fight is not over yet, but by the end of it, he will have joined me, and there is nothing you can do about it! You know you cannot interfere in our fight.

So far I have been playing with Luke…testing him to see how Force Sensitive he is. He truly surprised me when he fell into the carbon freezing pit, and jumped out of it (using the Force, of course.) I think that Luke truly has inherited my Force Sensitivity from me…close to the same amount, so once he joins me, we will be unstoppable!

I have thrown objects at him with the Force, and I believe I bruised him up a bit, but he has held up well. Soon he will join the Dark Side. I tried to cut off his arm, because I felt that every Sith should have to experience that, but he lost his balance on the platform and hit one below. I think he hurt his arm…probably broke it. Well it looks like he can’t fight anymore, so he’s going to either have to join me…or face the consequences of not joining me. I think he will make the only reasonable decision and join me…especially after I reveal a certain secret to him, that I feel everyone has been keeping from him. He’ll see what kind of person you are, and he’ll want to join me. Also, he’ll realize the power that the two of us could have together…in ruling the galaxy.

The reason why I am so eager to prove myself a Sith is because I have a reputation to keep up…and no one can hurt me if I am fully a Sith. No one would dare try to enslave me again…and I have a power that no one can beat…fed by anger, and extremely powerful tool. Love shows that you cannot fully be a Sith…it’s just something that Sith don’t do. Even if I wanted to (which I don’t), I couldn’t use the same passion for the light side…because everyone would hate me and want to kill me. You know they wouldn’t want Darth Vader alive…even on the wrong side (the light side).

Well my Jedi life is in the past. Nothing you could say will bring the past back, or change anything that happened. I can’t change the past either.

The reason I am going against Palpatine is so that I can take the galaxy for myself and Luke. We can rule this galaxy in a better way than Palpatine did, and although he is my master, he also lost my trust…especially after I found out that he knew about my son after he was born and tried to kill him. He’s an old fool now. He might have been great one day, but he has making foolish decisions…and I don’t like where he’s going with the Empire. Okay?

I…I have more than just my hatred for you that feeds my power. Because of the power a person can get from using the Dark Side, so much more can be done. The Jedi were defeated…they were the losing side. They could not compete with the Dark Side of the Force.

I didn’t know that Padawans were supposed to make a compliment to their master. In the early years of the training, I was grateful towards you…but then I began to think that you disliked me, and that I was your little distraction from getting everything done. I thought that you always considered me in your way, and I didn’t know you wanted me to say anything to you about complimenting you. Okay, so maybe be both messed up during my training. It’s over and done with now. I’m a Sith, and you can’t change that now. We’re enemies, and will always be from now on.

How could I be precious to you? I’m your enemy, and you never considered me your friend or comrade, so you COULDN’T have that kind of feeling towards me. I remember asking you a few letters ago if you ever thought of me as a friend, and you said no…that you never thought of me as your friend.

I would never tell Palpatine what I told you in my last letter, because it would look weak to him. Those feelings that I relayed to you in my last letter, are also in the past. I would have no reason to tell Palpatine about them anyway. It makes no difference what Palpatine would do if he had to choose between Luke and me, because he’s not going to get that opportunity. Through the fight that I’m having with Luke right now, I’ll turn him to the Dark Side, and then together we’ll kill Palpatine. It’s as simple as that.

I must get back to my little fight with Luke now.


DARTH VADER
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Note 26
Anakin,

Well, I wish you would've used that same zeal for the light side, we wouldn't be doing this if you'd had. You could use that same passion, the passion to do good, for the light side, and everyone understands redemption, in time. You've done a lot of evil, Anakin. You've much to atone for.

Okay, Anakin, I completely understand those reasons. He also wanted to kill Padme` to keep you celebate, cause he knows that Luke will be a threat to him. We THREE can defeat the Emperor, Anakin, and restore Order to the Galaxy, atone for all the fear you and the Emperor have placed on everyone.

Anakin, I sense the conflict. It is ME that fuels your anger, your feelings of abandonment. Dark side sucks you dry and leaves you looking like Palpatine (quite the dashin man, he is)

We're just as needful as you are of compliments, we need to know that we're connecting and doing a good job. As you've come to see, we're many things, or were many things, but omnicient isn't one of them. I never disliked you, I did disapprove of some of the stuff you did, but I always liked you. Truth of the matter is, I thought you didn't like ME. I thought that I was always being compared to Qui-gon, and how Qui-gon could've done this, or Qui-gon was always there and so much more compassionate.

How could I think of you as a friend when I felt that you disliked me, or thought I was incompetent. I thought of you as a Padawan, but we never got past that part, you always held back your feelings, and so did I.

You're wrong, my student. You will be faced with that choice. As a Jedi or a Sith, you will face your son before the Emperor AND see where you truly stand.

Enjoy the fight, Yoda's taught him some interesting tricks.

Obi-wan
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Note 27
Obi-Wan,

Well too bad. Wishing something will not make it come true. It’s all in the past now. I’d be killed before people would believe that I could turn back to the Light Side, even if I did turn back. (Which, by the way, is not going to happen.)

Well let’s see here…Padmé and I had already spent one night together when he tried to kill Padmé, and that’s when she got pregnant. It was the night following our marriage. He knew that…but he knew the chances of her getting pregnant would be greatly reduced if he prevented me from going back to her after that night, which he did prevent me from doing. I cannot give up my power on the Dark Side, and you wouldn’t go along with me and Luke taking the galaxy for ourselves.

What are you talking about? THERE IS NO CONFLICT. I am a full Sith, and I’m not turning back to the Light Side again.

Well those were our misunderstandings of the past. Admitting that we had those misunderstandings does not change anything now. I am a Sith and you are a Jedi. We oppose one another. It’s good to clear up the past, though.

And do NOT call me your student. I am not your student anymore. 20 years ago I became Palpatine’s student instead. Well ha, I guess I’ll just have to show you…show you that Luke and I will cut down the Emperor, and take the galaxy for ourselves.

The fight between Luke and me is over. Luke may have escaped, but my Imperials are working on capturing him once more. He’s put up a good resistance to joining the Dark Side, but I will convince him to join eventually. How could anyone refuse such power? After Luke fell and hurt his arm, I took the lightsaber he was using. After all, it was my old lightsaber…so it was really mine. Obviously after I did that he could not fight. So he started moving away from me. I told him he hadn’t begun to discover his power yet, and then I decided to tell him a certain secret that you and everyone else have kept from him. I said, “Obi-Wan never told you what happened to your father, did he?” And Luke said, “He told me enough! He told me you killed him.” And I said, “No, I am your father.”

So you told him that I killed his father, huh. That is why he disliked me so much…and I thought Jedi tried to not teach about hate. It’ll be your fault in the end. At any rate, I don’t think Luke quite believes me yet. The news must be so shocking, especially to realize that a man that he held in such high esteem (you) would have lied to him about something so important. I think Luke is beginning to understand that I was the one telling the truth, but he is having a hard time accepting it. Once he accepts it, he will want to join me. My men have deactivated the hyperdrive on the Millennium Falcon, and my ships are rapidly gaining on them. I have already ordered my men to set their weapons for stun and prepare to board the ship and take the passengers.

Oh I did not tell you, did I, that after I told Luke that I was his father, he jumped into a tunnel and landed on the bottom of Cloud City hanging on a weather vane. I saw him fall and tracked him until I knew that he hadn’t fallen to his death. Then I saw the Millennium Falcon come back (they were not far away) and rescue Luke.

Luke will be mine in a matter of moments; I promise you that.


DARTH VADER
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Note 28
Anakin,

Won't know till we try it, and, I'd protect you best I could. Besides, if you were the one who killed the Emperor.... Anakin, I would go for you coming back to the light and helping us reestablish peace and harmony.

Yes, it is good to clear up the past. I will keep working to get you back, Anakin. No more of the same mistakes, Luke's proof that I've changed. Will you change as well?

No, Anakin, I did not lie. You ARE dead....dead to what you used to stand for, dead to those you love, dead to yourself. This....abberation, is not you. It's the evil, ugly side that all of us control and keep away, but it's not you. Whatever you were, you always used your heart and trusted in that. Now, you're trusting in your anger and hatred. You've already betrayed not only your heart and one master, but soon, the ONLY one (according to you) to have listened and reached out to you. And could you imagine what that would do to a boy who despises the Empire and its Emperor? Can you picture how crushed Luke would've been if he would've learned that it was HIS family that destroyed the Republic and murdered the Jedi? Think of Luke, so full of life and zeal....and now imagine yourself and what you've become. Can you really, trully want Luke to become that?

Luke's stronger than you realize, stronger and braver than even I realized. He wasn't ready for the burden of knowing what his father is, but he's held up admirably and I'm proud of him for it. He's so much like Padme`, so much the optomist and stubborn about remaining true. He's like you too, a dreamer who looks away, dreaming of adventure and stands, stands for good.

Better make good on that promise, Darth. :)

Obi-wan
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Note 29
Obi-Wan,

Well it seems as if that that little droid, R2-D2, was able to fix the hyperdrive for the Millennium Falcon. This of course caused me to lose the ship. No matter, I will capture them eventually. Right now, though I must return to our new Imperial project. We are building a new Death Star, one that is even more powerful than the original one. The Emperor will personally be overseeing the completion of it. This will bring the end of the Rebellion.

The Emperor is pleased with the lack of progress, so I must put the men back on schedule. I also want to be aboard the Death Star when the Emperor arrives. I know that Luke and the others are going to Tatooine to rescue their friend Han Solo. I’ll leave them alone for now. Jabba will present enough of a challenge for them. When they are done with Tatooine, I will be there to capture them.

Oh please, you think that I would ever trust you to protect me now that I am a Sith? Even if I turned back, you wouldn’t be able to just let me live. That is how everyone on the Rebellion would think. No one would believe me if I said I killed the Emperor either (if I turned back to the light side, which makes NO sense.)

Why do you bother working to try to get me back? Haven’t you realized by now that it is a pointless endeavor? What makes you think that I will change? You’re a great fool to think that I would change!

If I’m dead to you then why do you keep trying to convince me to turn back to the light side? Luke will learn that the Dark Side offers much more than the Light Side ever could…and he’ll realize what a weak thing the Light Side is. I don’t care what Luke thinks of the fact that I destroyed the Republic and the Jedi. Maybe it will help him realize how foolish he would be to remain on the Light Side, and how hopeless the Rebellion is.

And you know something? My private spy just found out some information…very interesting information…and you know what that information was? Luke has a twin, doesn’t he? I know who it is too, and don’t think you can hide her from me…because now I know. It was wise of you to hide her from me, but now your failure is complete. If Luke will not join me, then she will. Maybe they can both help me on the Dark Side.


Darth Vader
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Note 30
Anakin,

I know, I've been overseeing the whole thing. I'm very proud of Luke.

Yes, I expect you to trust me. We've accepted hundreds of disillusioned Imperials, you won't be any different. The Rebel Alliance is about redemption, and so is the Light side. Besides, you wouldn't have to do it alone.

Anakin, it's never too late to change. No matter what, you can always come back. You may have to deal with the consequences of your actions, and they will be greater the further you stray, but you can always come back, and I won't give up till you're dead.

Because Anakin can come back. Darth Vader is just a disgusting abberation of what you where, a perversion that I want to see erased and replaced with the REAL Anakin. Your son does have many of your characteristics, but he also shares Padme`s optimisim and he never knows when to quit. He's devoted to the Light's cause, and the cause of Freedom from tyranny.

That's interesting, Anakin. I'll keep you posted on it. =)

Anakin
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Note 31
Obi-Wan,

I understand that Leia has been caught at Jabba’s palace while trying to rescue Han. I also understand that Luke went to Dagobah to talk with you and Yoda. I hope you were able to affirm the truth instead of lying to him about his identity. Tell me if all this is true.

Unfortunately my wife and her brother were able to escape my trap on Blue Waters, and they have now joined back up with the main forces of the Rebellion. Is this also true?

I have now landed on the Death Star, and I am preparing for my Emperor’s arrival. He is scheduled to land in only 10 minutes.

Ha…well I doubt the Rebel Alliance would be able to accept a Sith into their numbers. Really, an exception must be made for me because no one in the Rebellion could possibly like me.

You’re wrong. It’s too late for me. I cannot come back to the Light Side. I cannot give up my power…and I could never allow myself to go back to something so weak.

Well I’m not Luke, now am I? He just does not know the power of the Dark Side yet. Once it is shown to him, I’m certain that he will not hesitate to join me. Ha, haha. You know what you signed your letter as? You signed your letter as “Anakin.” You must have been pretty tired.

I hope the entire Rebellion is having fun trying to figure out what the Empire is doing. Now, have they figured out about our new Death Star yet? It’s powered by a certain forest moon. Perhaps that would be of interest? Oh dear, I fear I have said too much about it.

I must go. The Emperor’s shuttle is approaching. I have to gather the men together to honor the Emperor properly.


DARTH VADER
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Note 32
Anakin

Yes, he came to me. I told him the full truth and also that I didn't lie to him. From a certain point of view, I was right. As you say, you're no longer Anakin Skywalker, Jedi Knight and Protector of the Innocent. You're Darth Vader, cruel, twisted and evil. There's still good in you, hopefully your son will be able to reach you. So, as you can see, as far as the galaxy's concerned, Anakin is dead, killed so that Darth Vader might take his place to wreak havoc among the galaxy and murder innocent beings because he feels unwanted.

Luke has always wondered about his heritage and parantage. I tried to protect the idealism in him for as long as I could. Had he not have rushed off to save Han and Leia, I would've told him after his training was more complete; however, he does share your impulsivness. He's a credit to you and Padme`.

Are you asking me to be your unofficial spy, Darth? Next, I'm sure you'll probably be wanting to know exactly where we are hiding out and locations of weak points. Do you want me to see if your step brother is still alive or not too? Oh, that's right, your stormies murdereed them. Anakin, Anakin....why and how could you have strayed so far from the teachings of your mother and the ideals that you once held?

If you turned, you wouldn't be a Sith any longer. And, yes, Anakin, you would be different, but you'd still be you. We may have a hard time trusting you, but look at what you've done. Look at who you are. I'm willing to believe that there's some good in there and to give you another chance. And it's never to late. Power? What power? The power of loneliness? The destiny of living life alone? Shuned? Hated? What kind of power is that?

And how's having the power to kill, but refraining weak? That's strength under control. Do not make the mistake of confusing meekness with weakness. Besides, we turned back hordes of Sith before when they came in force, you all came in subltey, a mistake that we won't make again, nor fail to notice.

Did I? hehe. Yes, helping the Alliance and training new Jedi is tiring.

Nope, just confirmed what I've already known. Quite an ugly design, if I do say so myself. Not as elegant as the last one, Palpatine musta designed it.

Honor him properly? Do you mean with rifles pointed at his head? Save a shot for me. Have no fear about Luke, he's in the best of hands.

Obi-wan
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Note 33
Obi-Wan,

Emperor Palpatine has arrived, and everything is going as planned. The Death Star is halfway completed, but the half that is completed is to the highest perfection. The Emperor even has his own throne room with a large window in it. It is very nice…I have whole rooms for my own use.

I am glad that you have told Luke the truth, and that he has accepted that I am his father. Leia seems to have accepted the truth too. You Jedi were ALWAYS foolish…thinking that good things will happen. When you die, hopefully you will realize how foolish you are to think that I would ever come back to the light side, and that Luke would resist turning.

Well I wouldn’t blame Luke for wondering about his parentage. I always wondered about my father before I found out that he had sold my mother into slavery when she was pregnant with me. But I never got the opportunity to tell Luke about his father because I didn’t even know I had a son until my spy discovered that little fact for me, and until you, Padmé, and Owen confirmed it. You hid my children from me! I’m SURE you would have told Luke that I was his father. You wanted him not to know. I knew he would rush off to save Han and Leia because I knew what I would have done in that situation (before I found out the true nature of the force.)

By the way, I guess you never learned about my family. My brother Owen is my brother, not my step brother. We have the same parents. It’s just that my father didn’t sell him into slavery, and when my father changed his last name to Lars, my brothers had their last names changed too. Since I didn’t live there with my father when the last names got changed, my last name stayed Skywalker. And another fact, my stormtroopers did NOT kill Owen. I didn’t touch Owen or Beru…I just kidnapped my father. I believe that Owen and Beru are both in the Rebellion. Yes, you can let me know if they’re alive if you want to. However, I hope that Beru stays out of my sight. Luke told me that she abused him.

I gained new knowledge. Why would a Sith want to lay down everything that they have accomplished, all the power on the Dark Side, all the respect? At least on the Dark Side people will listen to me and I don’t have to worry about people laughing at me or having fun at my expense. At least when people hate me they notice me.

It looks weaker not to use the full power that is at your disposal. Ha..there haven’t been that many Sith in the entire history of the Republic. The only Sith there have ever been was: Palpatine’s father (who found the Sith journal from before the Sith were destroyed in the founding of the Old Republic), Palpatine, Maul, Dooku, and me. Since Dooku and I were the only Sith out of those who had ever been Jedi, and Dooku never turned back, how can you say you turned back hordes of Sith?

Actually, I am the one who designed this new Death Star. Dooku designed the first one, as I said before, and the Emperor wouldn’t let me change the original plans, even after I pointed out possible weaknesses. But I designed this Death Star, and it does NOT have weaknesses like that last one.

No, when I said honoring Palpatine properly, I meant gathering all the troops together in a large ceremony to be present when our Emperor arrived. It was a respect thing.

I am glad to hear that Luke is in the “best of hands.” I have received a letter from Luke, though, and he told me that Leia has gotten caught by Jabba, and is now chained to him like his little slaves. That tub of slime had better not hurt her. And Luke told me he was on Tatooine now, ready to rescue his friends himself. Apparently Leia got captured while unfreezing Han Solo. Know anything more?


DARTH VADER
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Note 34
Anakin,

I hope you enjoy the view. Is it a half view as well? Sorry, couldn't resisit the temptation =)

I told Luke the truth before, just sheltered him from all of it. Just because I didn't just come out and say, not only did Anakin get destroyed by this monster I created, but he's also your father, doesn't mean I lied to him. You haven't totally defeated the good man of Anakin, but as far as most people are concerned, he's dead. I almost consider him a goner too, but I learned long ago to never doubt Annie. He's a fighter and a suvivour.

Luke had every right to know the full truth, when he was ready, when he was more apt to handle it wisely. At the time, I felt him too vulnerable, to impatient....so ready to take on the Galaxy with his newfound abilities. He could feel the Force, but his control....heh, it's hard on him.

And no, Anakin. I didn't hide them from you so much as PROTECTED them from the Emperor...I still remember the fear and anxiety as I covered up her pregnancy and whisked her away. Creating back-up stories on why she couldn't be seen for over six months without arousing suspicion was....challanging.

That's funny, cause I seem to recall Luke visiting a burning slab with TWO bodies crisply burning in the hot suns.

They don't laugh cause they aren't free too. Your reputation is one of death and destruction, and you'll never get anyone else's honest opinon about you. In this world that we live in, people like you for who you are and some people hate you for who you are; you can't let that affect you. You are responsible for you, how you manage yourself. You take in people's opinion with a grain of salt, but you must remain true to your nature. Anakin, you aren't an evil person.. You're mother said there wasn't an evil bone in your body, you gave without thought of reward, open and honest, someone who valued courage and hounour and firends and love.

Sure they notice you, Anakin, don't think that they wouldn't mind noticing you on the floor with a Noghri knife stuck in your back, or if you displeased the Emperor and he fried the ciruits in your suit<.

I talk of a time when the Sith numbered in the thousands....with the Knights of Old and Legend. When we were more the Army of the Light, with Captains and Liutenants, when there were more than one apprentice to a master, when the "fencing" style of saber combat was used due to the many saber-to-saber battles. It is the style Dooku trained in primarily and you notice how effective his technique was against your Powerhouse Type !V combat style and even my own style.

All things have a flaw, mine own was not having enough compassion and sense at the time when I needed it the most. Yours seems to be arrogance, anger, a refusal to see past your hurts and be the stronger person.

Just that I'm going to be personally overseeing her being freed. I won't have one of my charges hurt, especially not from some slimeball Hutt. And if he abuses her.....well, some Light sided retribution might be needed =)

I've placed a couple of agents in there to help assist Luke, hopefully, Mara Jade won't complicate matters. Well, that's all the revealing I have. May the Force guide your decisions, Anakin.

Obi-wan
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Note 35
Obi-Wan,

My view is my view…it is NOT a half view. How DARE you even suggest such a thing.

How DARE you hide my own from me! It’s your fault that I never got to see them when they were just born. You hid their existence from me. Well you KNEW that Luke was not aware of the fact that I was his father…and you deliberately ENCOURAGED him to hold that opinion. Not telling the full truth or withholding information is still a form of lying.

You and your deluded beliefs will soon find out how wrong you are. What makes you think that I would turn back if everyone else is convinced that I will not? Well Luke is now out of your control and into mine. I will convince him to turn to the Dark Side eventually…trust me on this.

So my children were born 3 months early then? You said that you had to hide Padmé for 6 months. Were they all right when they were born? Are they all right now? I could have protected them from the Emperor if you had informed me of the situation. I have spies and information right now that the Emperor doesn’t even know about.

Well however said that Luke visited a burning slab with two bodies crisply burning in the sun gave you a bad rumor. Luke’s uncle and aunt are still alive; trust me on that. I know they are in the Rebellion, and I have been WRITING to my brother. He is very much alive.

At least I have control over people, and no one will dare try to harm me again. None of that matters any more. That is from the past…and I did not know the power of the Dark Side then.

I know a lot of people would like to see me dead, and to prevent that, I must remain on the Dark Side.

Ah yes, the traditional way of fighting that was used before the formation of the Republic was used up through Dooku’s training time.

I agree, no one is perfect.

You’re going to Tatooine with Luke and the others? Funny. In Luke’s last letter he never mentioned you. I did hear, however, that my son was thrown into a monster pit where he could have been killed by Jabba’s pet rancor. Luke was smart enough to get out of the situation fine, killing the rancor, but Jabba now wishes to kill him and Solo and the Wookiee by tossing them into the Sarlacc pit. Since I grew up on Tatooine, I do know a little bit about the Sarlacc. Jabba better stay away from my daughter. If he harms either of my children, he’s going to pay!!

Mara Jade? That’s the name of Jabba’s pet dog, isn’t it? It’s a rather nasty creature I have heard.

You must excuse me right now. The Emperor has asked to speak with me.


DARTH VADER
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Note 36
Anakin,

You're absolutely right, it is your view, but that doesn't mean it can't be manipulated. You are basing a lot of your views and beliefs on hatred and anger and bitterness, which we all know blinds and clouds our vision.

First of all, I hide them from the Emperor, not you. You, however, being the Emperor's lap dog, meant that I couldn't tell you. Not encouraged, just never brought up. For all intents and purposes, to your wife, you are dead. You killed yourself. and there was no reason for him to know that his father is a mass murderer. Why should he bear your sins?

What if you had to chose between your Emperor and Luke's life? what if he gave you that choice? Luke won't turn, and you'll be forced to not only turn your back on yourself again, but on your family which you state you hold dear. You'll be killing yourself and a part of you again.

No, she just didn't know she was pregnant during that time, and I tried to hide their presance when I found out. Anakin, you couldn't, or wouldn't, protect your WIFE from the Emperor, there's no way I would take that chance, not with the Emperor. I don't underestimate him, nor his manipulative ways.

The only power the Dark Side has is an easy out. An easy way to get power, an easy way to use it, but a terrible cost to pay: Look at what it's done to your family.

You have no tact, Darth. If my pressance is known, it's because I want it to be or it's required. I much prefer the shawdows, watching, leading from behind. My time on the front has ended.

Obi-wan
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Note 37
Obi-Wan,

I heard that my daughter killed Jabba using the Force, and that all of them were able to escape from Jabba and his crew. I was much relieved when I heard of that. Luke gave me the details, but I am sure that he has also given you the details, (or that you saw it because you were there, as you claimed). I even heard that Boba Fett was made food for the Sarlacc pit. Good riddance. I never had a whole lot of respect for bounty hunters. I also never liked the idea of creating clones, though they are necessary to our Empire as stormtroopers.

Yes, well not telling me about my children is still hiding them from me. By not bringing it up, you WERE encouraging him to hold misguided beliefs about his father. I wasn’t asking Luke to bear my “sins.” Understand.

If I had to choose between the Emperor and Luke’s life…I would choose the Emperor. He is my master. Do you even think I would consider choosing anything else? If I did, it would be weak. Don’t be so sure that Luke will not turn. He just might. I will…I will find a way to make him turn. How could he possibly keep resisting?

She had to know she was pregnant by the 3rd month, and since she had twins (even though one of them was very, very, very small), wouldn’t she have had had them at least a little early? How do you know I wasn’t able to protect my wife from the Emperor? I was never give the chance to protect her. You hid her from me as soon as I turned. What was I supposed to do?

The Emperor has asked me to go to a command ship, so I must go now.


DARTH VADER
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Note 38
Anakin,

Yes, Leia killed Jabba and they all safely escaped, though 3PO had some eye trouble. I've recieved his accoung of it, yes. We also discussed you. Bobba tried to take on Luke, Han hit his rocket pack and sent the Sarlacc a meal, air mail. I really didn't like the Jedi clones, either.

Why should I have told them? Why should they have known what you are? Why is it my duty to inform them that their father's a monster? I didn't encourage a thing, I just never brought it up. And it doesn't matter whether you were asking Luke or Leia to bear your sins, they would by assosiation; they would automatically be held to it and bound to it the rest of their lives. Understand.

And with you chosing the Emperor over Luke, what happened with your thoughts and desires of turning on him? What happened to you and Luke killing him and taking over the Empire? I'm very sure Luke won't turn, there's a lot of his mother in him and he's stronger than you think.

No, she didn't. She thought she was just gaining weight. And I wasn't going to trust the future of the Jedi order to someone who doesn't even understand himself, who cared more about his own personal satisfaction than what was good for everyone. You want to protect them from the Emperor? How? You just said that you would sacrifice Luke to him to prove you weren't weak. Do you wish your son and daughter to look as decrepid as the Emperor? Living a life of Hate?

Obi-wan
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Note 39
Obi-Wan,

Well I am sure you Rebels are up to no good, and think that you can outsmart the Imperials. We will soon see. You must be planning something, and honestly it does not surprise me.

Ah, so Leia did kill Jabba. She is just as Force Sensitive as Luke, isn’t she? It was through the Force that she killed Jabba…it had to have been. Well Boba Fett’s death seems to have suited him. The account even seems to be of a humorous sort.

And you told my mother what had happened to me too! How dare you! Didn’t you know that she had enough to bear? If you thought that you had to protect my children, then why did you leave my mother out of it? I know she found out recently. I wouldn’t mind if you had told my children because they never knew me the way my mother did, and I would have liked it if my children knew. Then it might have been easier to accomplish my goals.

I DO want to turn Luke to the Dark Side and have him help me destroy Palpatine, but if he doesn’t turn, then I will have no choice but to kill him. Does that answer your question? But it is of great importance to me that Luke does turn to the Dark Side. Because without that, he can’t rule the galaxy with me the way I intended it. Don’t be so sure that Luke won’t turn. I bet you never thought I would before I did, so why think that Luke wouldn’t either? Not after I show him the true power and nature of the Force. I assure you, he WILL turn. There can be no stopping it.

Don’t you know that females go through a certain thing called periods that they have every month? They don’t have those during pregnancy. If she went for two months without having them, don’t you think she would NOTICE? And don’t you think that the Royal Force would make her more sick than a normal person…she once told me that this thing called the Royal Force (which isn’t really like the Force we use at all…it’s just something they named this element in her family line….) which would make her feel 10 times more pain than most people, and would make her feel 10 times more sick than normal people. Don’t you think she would have known by that that something was wrong? I don’t understand how she could have gone for 3 months without realizing she was pregnant.

You do not know what it is like to live on the Dark Side.


DARTH VADER
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Note 40
Anakin,

Yup, that's us, always up to no good. I mean, treating aliens with respect, not thinking we're superior to them, not making people scared for their lives, bringing hope to the hopeless....yeah, we're really workin' hard at that.

Yup, but she doesn't seem as commited to the Order as her brother, I think she'd rather stay in politics and let this part of her heritage lack. And, I agree about Bobba, his life story seemed to be one of pain. I remeber him when he was just a boy, so rough, so....I don't know, too old for his age.

I thought you weren't ashamed of who you'd become, Anakin? I thought you were PROUD of the fact that you're a mass murderer and child's nightmare? Why wouldn't you want to share the most significant and proud moment with your mom? If you're so happy about it, why shouldn't she embrace it too? You're mother is a smart woman, it wouldn't have taken much for her to add 2 and 2 together and figure out that her little "Annine" is the big, bad Darth Vader. Besides, she's your mother. I find it odd that, when it comes to her, you're embarassed about what you've become, yet you seem to enjoy and RELISH flaunting it in my face and telling me how much you want to prove to the Sith that you're not weak. Being a MOMMA'S BOY isn't going to improve that standing. "Uh, sorry, Emperor Palpatine, I can't genocide that planet, my mommy wouldn't approve of it."

When it was time, I would've told Luke everything, but, he rushed off to save Han and Leia before the time came. When he'd completed his training all the way, I would've dropped the bomb. What sense would it make to leave him vulnerable before his time? Besides, before you told him that you were his father, he hated you; and that wasn't my fault (Owen really didn't want me around). When he'd had a little more control over his feelings and was mature enought to handle it, I would've told him freely.

Anakin, I wasn't sure about you. Your future was clouded and you were considered Dangerous. I did the best I could to instill some integrity, honour and nobility in you....I guess I'd failed. Luke was blessed to have Padme`s heart, her never quit mentality. He, like she, still believes in democracy and the freedom of all people's. And what power is that of the darkside? Without anger, you're nothing. All it takes to suck the power dry is to remove hate. *shrugs* It's a simple, coward's way out.

If you'll remember, she was a bit busy fighting your master as far as stopping him from turning the Republic into and Empire and save as many races from genocide as possible. More than likely, she attributed that pain to the fact that you were turning into the very thing she despised and were destroying all she'd worked her entire lifetime for. If anything, the pain that YOU caused was worse than the childbearing.

And I pray that I never do. It's a cop-out. You have to be angry, alone, disgusted with the world to fuel your power. Things that take that away, like peace, serenity, the soft sound of waves crashing against a sunseted beach....you aren't allowed to revel in. You can't truely enjoy the pleasures you have, cause to do so would usurp your power. I can enjoy an afternoon breaze, or the company of close friends, feel the love in the place and STILL be as strong in the Force as I ever was. You....you'd loose every bit of that "STRENGTH" And power you so desire and covet. No, I don't know what it's like to walk in the darkness and have it eat at me. All I can say is, I'm blessed all the more for it.

Obi-wan
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Note 41
Obi-Wan,

I am sorry for everything I did. You were right about me…as much as I hate to admit it…you were right.

I suppose by now that Luke has told you about our little fight…and how I saved his life and killed the Emperor.

I don’t really know what to say to you now.


Anakin Skywalker
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