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These are notes between Shmi and Padmé (Amidala). it’s AU. (Yes, I know that Amidala is not alive in ANH-ROTJ and neither is Shmi, but they’re alive in my fic.)

The person playing the part of Samantha has the name: Celina Jovia and Bobill

Note 1
Padmé,
Since I am in charge of the registration process of the Rebellion, I know that you are alive. How are you? It’s been forever since we last talked…since the wedding. I heard about Anakin’s death. That must have been hard on you. It was hard on me.

Shmi
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Note 2
Shmi,

I am fine, I've gotten over Anakin's death quite well. I wish he didn't die, but everyone has to die sometime in their life, but I wished that he didn't have to at his young age. I still miss him. I hope you have gotten over it well. I'm sure you miss him.

How have you been? What have you been doing all these years? Well, if there is anything else you want to know about me, please ask, I'll be more than willing to answer all I can.

Padmé
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Note 3
Padmé,

Yes, I wish Anakin hadn’t died…he was my favorite child. I don’t know what happened to my two other children….I haven’t seen or heard from them in years. I hope they’re all well.

You never did meet any of my other children, did you? Oh well….I don’t want to talk about them because it makes me sad.

I don’t mind talking about Anakin with you, because you share that with me.

Yes…..I missed him a lot. I raised him alone….from the time he was born until that day when he was 9 and Qui-Gon took him away from me.

I have been doing pretty well. I work for the registration part of the Rebellion. I’m the person that registers every single Rebel….it takes a lot of time, but it keeps me busy.

Anything I would like to know…..how exactly did Anakin die. I realize that he was a Jedi and that the Sith killed him, but I never got any more information than that on him.

He was only 20 when it happened….if he were still alive today he’d be 39….I still keep track.

Oh well, no matter…what have you been up to all these years….the last time I saw you was the day of your wedding.

I have a lot more paper work to do, so I’ll see you later.

Shmi
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Note 4
Shmi,

You sound quite busy, but that's good to keep your mind off of Anakin's death. Anyhow, Anakin was killed by a Sith who is Darth Vader. I'm not sure of all the details, because Anakin said he had something importation to do, and will keep me up to date, but that's the last time I saw and heard from him. I believe Vader and Anakin had a duel of some kind, and Anakin was killed. I'm not sure of the reasons, but that's all I know.

Well, I've been busy as well. Trying to keep my mind off of the past and all. I would tell you more, but I am quite busy. I wanted to reply to your letter before work took over my day. Must go. Bye.

Padmé
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Note 5
Padmé,

Have you heard the news? Apparently the droids that were sent to Anuvuin are now missing. They cannot be located at all. I hope the plans are safe.

Yes, every minute I think about my Anakin.

Oh, I just wish that we could kill Darth Vader. I can’t believe that he would kill a boy who was not even 21 yet!!! How terrible! Darth Vader killed off all the Jedi. I wish he would just die!

It’s good to take a break every once in a while. Would you like to go and get coffee with me sometime. We could really talk. I really enjoy talking to you, and I’m glad that Anakin found such a nice girl to marry…..while he was still alive.

Bye for now.

Shmi
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Note 6
Shmi,

I suppose I can get a coffee break soon. I've been working for hours, non-stop, I think I'll take you up on your offer. When are you able to get a break?

I wish Vader would die too, I miss Anakin terribly, and wish he were here.

Everything seems to be falling apart! The droids are missing, what's next? I hope Vader doesn't find them, or the Maurders.

Well, if you're ready I'll meet you at the coffee shop. See you there.

Padmé
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Note 7
Padmé,

Good. I look forward to seeing you at the coffee shop. I will be able to get a break exactly one hour from now. Perhaps I will have something interesting to say. I am so tired right now.

I wish Anakin were here right now too. He used to always cheer me up and put me in a good mood. He always knew the right thing to say to me.

Have you heard any more about the droids? I’m sure the Empire is also looking for them.

Well I must get back to work. I see that a whole new line of people is forming that I must register. Sigh…all right…..the girl next in line looks as if she will be easy to register.

Shmi
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Note 8
Shmi,

Ok, I'll see you at the coffee shop. I hope you get a break soon.

I wish Ani was here too, he was able to cheer me up at bad times too. I miss him.

Padmé
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Note 9
Padmé,

Oh…I just got finished with the registration process for today. I’m going on break right now.

I just got done registering this girl…her name’s Lissy. She said she’s from another dimension and got her by mistake. She can’t go back home because the doorway that connected her world to ours has been closed forever. Isn’t that terrible? She’s only 19, and now she has no family.

Two of my children are here. You never did get to meet Anakin’s brothers, did you? Would you like to meet them, or would you rather not.

I heard Bail Organa saying that some boy from Tatooine may have found the droids and that he might have taken them back with him. Bail informed me that he thinks that the boy might know of Obi-Wan, and might give him the droids. I sure hope that he does. Tatooine……that brings back so many memories…..good and bad.

I wonder who the boy was. Maybe I knew some of his family, or maybe I had at least heard of his family. Tatooine is not really THAT populated….I mean it does have quite a few people, but no where in comparison to a non desert planet.

Well I’ll see you at the coffee shop. I’m leaving for it right now.

Shmi
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Note 10
Shmi,

Ok, I'm leaving to go to the coffee shop, right now.

I don't think I would mind meeting your sons, it would be nice to see them.

Poor girl (Lissy), I hope she likes this dimension, if she can't go home.

Must go, meet you at the coffee shop.

Padmé
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Note 11
Padmé,

Hello. Wasn’t that coffee wonderful? I see that you didn’t finish yours. Are you saving it for later?

I introduced you to my son Rhun, and his two daughters Riana and Nicole. What did you think of them? I don’t know where my other son is right now….I know he came in…..oh that’s right….he went out with Lissy to help Bail get some papers from Alderaan. They should be back any time now. I’m surprised they haven’t returned yet. I wonder what’s taking them so long.

Well, you’ll never believe this…..but that Lissy girl……she’s actually Bail Organa’s long lost daughter. Can you believe that? Bail said she was kidnapped when she was a baby…on the day she was born. Bail didn’t tell me he was looking for his daughter when he asked me to get all the young girls to go to him to get a blood test. At the time, I thought it was weird, but I didn’t say anything. Don’t you think that’s really neat?

Well what’s been going on with you lately?

Shmi
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Note 12
Shmi,

I heard the rumors that Lissy was Leia, but didn't know for sure, but I'm glad she is. I hope she likes it here.

Yes, I'm going to save my coffee for later, but I'm going to have to get back to work soon.

Your family (what I've met so far) are very nice. I enjoyed my talks with them. Strangely I won't have thought that Rhun and Anakin were brothers, but if I hang around him a little more, I bet I'll figure out what they have in common, because they seem so different.

What have I been doing? Well, trying to track or keep track of the plans. The rumors keep changing it to Vader has the plan than Obi-Wan, than back to Vader, and back and forth. I'm trying to figure out which is true, and which isn't. Of course it should be easier once they're here.

Must go. Coffee was great.

Padmé
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Note 13
Padmé,

Did Bail find out if the Lissy girl was his daughter or not? Where is she anyway? I haven’t seen her around.

I’m going to have to get back to work soon too. The plans have not come in yet…..but I have heard from Bail that he is pretty sure that Obi-Wan has the plans….and that he is the one that’s on his way.

Yes, Rhun and Anakin are very different. They didn’t get along during the month that Anakin and I spent with the rest of the family. Their personalities really clashed…and they ended up almost hating each other.

Darth Vader is a creep. I was told that he killed all the Jedi Knights…which would include poor Anakin. Samantha….Anakin was only 20 when he died. I’m sure despise Vader as much as I do. I hope Vader doesn’t have the plans.

Shmi
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Note 14
Shmi,

If Vader has the plans I'm going to-to KILL him!! Yes, he killed ALL the Jedi Knights, including my husband. That itself is enough for me to want to kill him. Yes, at age 20 Anakin died. That's a shame. He had SO much to live up to. I wish he was still alive. I miss him.

Yes, I heard that Lissy is really Bail's daughter!!! I was shocked when I heard that, but it's true.

Oh, so Bail has heard from Obi-Wan. It's about time! What in the galaxy is taking him so long. I hope he's all right, and STLL has the plans.

So, Anakin and his brothers hated each other. Why? They don't seem like the kind of people that would hate each other.

I have to get back to work. Work seems to know how to pile into my day. Coffee break was great, thanks for inviting me.


Padmé
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Note 15
Padmé,

You know the strangest thing….I just got done registering a bunch of people today….a lot of people have been registering me….and I was registering this one kid that reminded me so much of my past….of Anakin…..and of my life with him. He was from Tatooine…and that just brought back so many memories…..I almost broke down in front of him, but I fought it and I didn’t cry.

Yes…there have been people from Tatooine that have registered before in the past, but it always makes me upset every time I hear of that planet.

I have some good news!!!!! I registered Obi-Wan!!!! He’s here, and he brought back the plans! The only bad thing is that the Empire tracked their ship…..they believe it strongly, and I think they were right.

I miss Anakin too….greatly. Sometimes when I think I’m over it….little things come up that remind me so much of Anakin…..like that boy from Tatooine….and it gets me all worked up again. As soon as I was done registering the boy, I broke down crying. I almost called him Anakin because Anakin was so much on my mind…..but I stopped myself before I said it.

Well I’m glad that Bail’s daughter is safe. I’m glad he found his daughter.

Well Anakin and his brothers didn’t HATE each other. They only had a few clashes…..I mean……here was a brother that they never knew they had….and all of a sudden he living with them for a while…..I think they were a little jealous of him. I mean he lived with me for 9 years of his life…longer than either of my other two children had. They just didn’t get along. Owen and Anakin were pretty good with each other….they had minor disagreements…..but Anakin and Rhun…..and Anakin and his father…oh boy…..they had sparks flying whenever they talked to each other. They were just too different people to get along. Part of what Anakin had against his father was….I don’t know if you know this or not…..but Summoner….my husband….sold me to the Hutts when I was pregnant with Anakin….and that’s how we became slaves. When Anakin found out about that, he got really mad and had an instant hate for his father.

Hey no problem….

I just saw you a couple minutes ago. Did you spill your leftover coffee all over yourself? You have a huge stain on your dress. How did that happen?


Shmi
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Note 16
Shmi,

Yes, about my dress, some stupid kid wasn't watching where he was going and ran into me, causing me to spill my coffee on my dress!! Now the stain has ruined my favorite dress!!! Anakin gave it to me around the time of the Clone Wars, and now it's ruined!! I hope I can get the stain out, because I'll just be SO mad at the boy if the stain doesn't get out.

I'm sorry to hear that that boy (another nameless boy) caused you to remember the past and break down crying. Yes, I've seen people from Tatooine, who look like Anakin, but I wouldn't have noticed it unless I stared at the person for a long time, so this boy must look really like Ani if he caused you that much pain. I hope I don't run into him, because I'm afraid I may have a break down too.

Yes, I saw Obi-Wan talking to a boy, but I thought it would be rude to walk into their conversation, so I haven't had a chance to talk to him.

So, Owen and Anakin were nice to each other, while Summoner and Rhun with Anakin won't? Ok, I understand Anakin's reason to be mad at his father, but why Rhun? What did he do to Anakin to get him mad?

Is Owen here yet? You said that he was here, then left, but have you seen him anywhere? I would like to meet him.

Must go, having a meeting here shortly.


Padmé
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Note 17
Padmé,

I’m sorry to hear about your dress. Isn’t that the same dress that Anakin got you for the secret engagement? It’s such a shame that you have a coffee stain on it. I hope that you can get it out.

I know how angry it must make you, and it is sad that something so important got ruined, but please try to calm down. I believe that boy is scared…scared that he might be kicked out of the Rebellion because of it. I know that you didn’t mean to scare him like that, but please try to calm down.

So it was the dress that Anakin gave you. Just try to sit back and be calm about it. I admit that I probably would be upset if anything that I had that I remembered Anakin by was destroyed too. You have a reason to be mad at “the boy” but do remember that he is very new to the Rebellion and that he is very nervous about what happened with you. He wrote to me to make sure his registration was okay. Just don’t be too hard on him if you can help it.

Now the boy I was talking about…the one that made me break down crying…the one from Tatooine…well I didn’t cry because he LOOKED like Anakin. He didn’t look like Anakin…well maybe he did a little bit…but I say that about all blond haired blue eyed boys. I just always see a connection with people who have that color hair and eyes. So the reason he made me cry was not because of his looks (except the blond hair and blue eyes) but it was other things with his registration. Like the fact that he was from Tatooine…and just other facts about him, but not outside appearance. I didn’t even look at him that closely. I cannot stand to look at guys with blue eyes and blond hair for very long…so even if he did look like Anakin, I wouldn’t have even noticed. Anyway, it’s been 20 years since I’ve seen Anakin……and that’s a long time. That’s a long time to remember what a person looks like, even if he was my son. So like I said, it wasn’t because of the boy’s looks.

About the “I hope I don’t run into him, because I’m afraid I may have a break down too.” Well…you DID run into him literally, or rather he ran into you. He’s the boy that you’re so mad at…the one that bumped into you and spilled the coffee all over your dress. Now you know who I’m talking about, and obviously he didn’t look that much like Anakin because you didn’t even know I was talking about him, and you didn’t break down because of his looks……so you see, it’s not his looks that I was talking about.

Have you talked to Obi-Wan recently? You said he was talking to a boy before, and I’m sure he can’t be talking to a boy forever.

Yes, Owen and Anakin were nice to each other…but Summoner Anakin and Rhun and Anakin did not get along very well. Rhun and Anakin just had very different personalities. Rhun was set in doing a task in the fastest way possible, even if it meant that the job was done really sloppily. Anakin was very precise and kind of a perfectionist…and when Anakin saw that Rhun wasn’t “doing something the right way” they got into arguments. They just didn’t understand each other. I also suspect there was some jealousy on both of their parts. Anakin was jealous of Rhun because Summoner had sold him into slavery and didn’t even acknowledge Anakin when he came back 18 years later. Summoner favored Rhun the most and Owen the second most….and didn’t pay much attention to Anakin. I believe Summoner did that because he felt very uncomfortable around Anakin…he had not been there to see Anakin grow up. Rhun was jealous of Anakin because Anakin was a Jedi Knight and because he got to grow up with me…and because Anakin was my favorite child.

Yes, as a matter of fact Owen is here. He’s just new to the Rebellion and I only registered him when I registered Leia…because he came with her. Would you like me to get him for you?

I’ve been receiving disturbing letters from the Empire recently. They’re from Darth Vader…why he would write me I have no idea…but in his letters he says that he loves me and that he knows me from my past and that he doesn’t want me to get killed. He told me to leave Yavin. Of course I’m not going to listen to him, but why in the world would he of all people be writing me? I wonder if he is an old boyfriend from my past.

I’m glad that the meeting for the attack on the Death Star went well. I only hope that the Rebel pilots are capable of destroying the Death Star. It is our only chance. Have you heard how the battle is going? I’ve been busy trying to catch up on paperwork. I do know that you said you didn’t like watching space battles because of the memories of Anakin that they bring up. I am the same way. I guess that’s why I chose this moment to do the paperwork. You are welcome to stop by my office and talk to me if you don’t want to hear about the battle.

Someone did inform me that the battle is not going well. There are some TIE fighters that have been shooting down our pilots. I was also told that one of the TIEs is Darth Vader’s ship. I don’t know if he’s a good pilot or not, but I do know that he is a Sith…that he can use the Force to target pilots and shoot them down. I do hope that our pilots are okay. It’s too bad that none of them are Force Sensitive. I heard that it is Blue Squadron that is on the attack run right now. Let me know if you hear anything.


Shmi
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Note 18
Shmi,

I'm hearing the same things you're hearing about the battle, and *sigh*, do you mind if I go down to your office right now so that both of us can wait out the battle? I'm keeping myself calm (or I'm trying), but battles are stressful, and I'm going to go CRAZY because it!! This time NO coffee!!

All right, so that boy that made you cry because he reminded you of Anakin, is the same boy that ran into me and I yelled at him? Ok, so maybe I was wrong in yelling about him, but....but he RUINED my dress (which by the way IS the dress Anakin gave me)!!!!!! This dress can NEVER be replaced, and it's the only thing I have of Anakin that he gave me before he died. Ok, ok, I'll do my best to be calm whenever I see him or talk to him, happy?

I haven't talked to Obi-Wan personally, because he's busy with something, but I HAVE been writing to him, and he's replying to him. Is there something you would like me to ask him for you? Maybe you and he should exchange letters. I'll mention it to him, if you wish.

Well, I have to go. I'll be heading for your office in a little while.


Padmé
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Note 19
Padmé,

I’m glad that you were able to come down to my office. LOL, I made sure there was no coffee around in the office. I heard that the battle is now over and that the Death Star was blown up. I don’t know much beyond that….the details don’t really matter. It hurts me every time I hear about a really good pilot because it makes me think of Anakin and then I get all upset. We are alive and the Death Star got blown up, that’s all that matters.

I heard there was going to be an awards ceremony. I might peak in for like 5 minutes to see how it’s going, but I DO NOT want to be there when the heroes are presented with the medals (I heard that’s what’s going to happen.) Do you feel about the same way that I do?

Yes…the boy that reminded me of Anakin (because of how he answered some questions that had to do with where he was from and other things…not because of his looks beyond the fact that he had blond hair and blue eyes) is the same boy that ran into you. No, you were right to yell at him, all I was saying was to try not to scare him. I suppose I am sensitive to hurting little boys’ feelings no matter what they did…because boys with blue eyes and blond hair always make me think of Anakin…and I just cannot find it in my heart to hurt a boy with blond hair and blue eyes.

I suppose I shouldn’t have lectured you about yelling at him…because the fact that he ruined your dress should have made a legitimate reason for yelling at him. I am sorry. I know how important that dress is, and I feel really upset that it was ruined too. I know it can never be replaced.

All right…you don’t need to be calm around that blond haired blue-eyed boy.

Yes there is something I would like you to ask Obi-Wan for me….I’ve been getting strange letters from Darth Vader (not that what he says should mean anything) but he said that what happened to Anakin was all Obi-Wan’s fault. It was rather strange. Why would a Sith say that? It was almost as if HE was upset that Anakin had been killed….but he said he didn’t kill Anakin and that Obi-Wan almost did. That can’t be true, can it? I have to make sure. Obi-Wan was Anakin’s Jedi Master…he would not have almost killed Anakin. I don’t think Darth Vader knows anything…but I still would like to hear what Obi-Wan says about it. I don’t like having doubts about Obi-Wan…but the way Darth Vader said it is making me question myself. I know I’m stupid for even considering believing something that Darth Vader says….but yes, I would like to hear what Obi-Wan says. Darth Vader’s just probably trying to play with my mind, but I must know what Obi-Wan says.

All right, I will be talking to you soon.

By the way, we are considering moving the base to Hoth after the Awards Ceremony. Do you know much about Hoth? It’s very cold and unpleasant, but it’s the best we could do.

Shmi
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Note 20
Shmi,

Vader! Oh that CREEP!!! He's SUCH a loser. I mean, who does he think he is saying that Obi-Wan almost killed Anakin. I'll tell you one thing, Vader hasn't done his homework and doesn't know that Obi-Wan loved Anakin as though he were his son. Obi-Wan would NEVER hurt Anakin. I'll ask him for you though if you're still doubting him. Ugh, I hate Vader even more.

I know some about Hoth, it's very cold (completely ice/snow), and everything unlike Tatooine. I'm sorry I had to bring that planet up again, but Hoth is completely opposite of it.

You don't mind if I go with you when you go for a peek at the ceremony, do you? I told my dad that I wasn't going to be there, but of course I'll go for about a second or so to see what it's like. No way am I staying there.

I'm not yelling that Andrew (I learned his name, or so I think, he has to explain something, then I'll know if that's his TRUE name or not, I can explain later). He feels awful about the dress. And YOU made him feel three times as bad. He told me what you told him about me and the dress, and *jaw drops to the floor* I can't believe you do that. I mean, I'm glad you did, but...I'm shocking.

Well, I have to go. By the way, Thanks for not having any coffee in your office, I'm staying AWAY from it. :-)


Padmé
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Note 21
First Shmi and Samantha Note written after AOTC came out. I also read the book, and because of that I found out what Padmé’s parents names were so I have changed their names from Tim and Sally to Ruwee and Jobal. I have also decided to no longer use the name Samantha and to use the name Padmé. Her family’s last name will no longer be Jedi, but it will be Amidala. Instead of being the royal family of Coruscant, they will be the Royal family of Naboo. They do not rule anything though. The elected Queen of Naboo still does that.


Padmé,

Vader certainly IS a CREEP. He’s been writing me “I love you notes” when he doesn’t even know me personally. I now realize that he knew that I was Anakin Skywalker’s mother, and because of that, he was trying to get at me. He used Anakin as a way of learning Rebel information, and as a way of getting me to hand Obi-Wan Kenobi (our last Jedi) over to him. I am so glad that you and Obi-Wan reassured me of everything. I feel so ashamed of ever even doubting Obi-Wan, and believing what Vader said…even for such a short amount of time. How dare he use Anakin like that? Vader is a no good, horrible, cruel, mean, cruel man! He killed Anakin and then he had the nerve to use his name in that way so that he could kill the last Jedi Knight. Someone told me that Vader’s real name is Nigel Reklaw. Now I NEVER knew anyone by that name, so now I have proof that what Vader fed me about our “past” and “relationships” was all LIES. Padmé, dear…I don’t think that it was a matter of “not knowing” that Obi-Wan loved Anakin as if Anakin were his son. I believe it was Vader’s way of twisting and manipulating the information so that it would have the right affect on me. Vader is just like Palpatine!

You are very right…it is very cold here on Hoth. It is THE EXACT opposite of Tatooine. I don’t mind you bringing up Tatooine…because we both share the same pain connected with it.

Well I was glad that I had someone to go with me to peek in at the awards ceremony. I couldn’t stand to glance in more than a second…so I don’t even know what was going on. I do know that a lot of people were there.

What? What…you say that the boy that bumped into you was named Andrew? He must have lied on his registration forms then. When he signed up he said his name was Luke Skywalker. Sigh…kids these days! On your last letter you said, “I learned his name, or so I think, he has to explain something, then I’ll know if that’s his TRUE name or not, I can explain later.” What did you mean by that? You discovered his lie too? I suppose I’ll have to call him back so that we can change all his information to the right name. Well I just wanted to make sure that he felt guilty enough about the dress. I didn’t yell at him, but I did want to make him feel bad about what he did. Yes, I did tell him about you and the dress. I thought that he should understand the full meaning of what he ruined.

I understand why you’re staying away from coffee, LOL.

By the way, have you heard that one of our people has been left out in the cold? That’s a shame that we lost one of our people…but in environments like these, people are bound to die. I just hope we don’t lose any other Rebels. Hmm….wait…I just heard from someone…one of OUR other people has gone out to look for him! How foolish! There is no way that either one of them will survive the cold.

What do you think of our new base?


Shmi
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Note 22
Shmi,

I don’t know, this whole thing with Vader writing to you… Don’t take it too seriously. Maybe the best thing you can do is just ignore the notes, maybe they’ll stop coming. I realize that Vader’s told many lies, but he is a human like the rest of us, we should remember that. There’s reason to him becoming this way.

The Awards Ceremony WAS crowded, with all those people celebrating the victories! I did get a glimpse of the heroes. They’re so young, too young to be in war!

Luke Skywalker did lie, but not to you. This IS his real name. You’re right, kids these days, so untruthful! But Luke, he lied because he was shy. Weird, don’t you think, for someone to be so shy as not to say his name? But yeah, he is ashamed for what he did. He won’t stop apologizing now for ruining my dress, and he’s convinced I’m going to kick him out of the Rebellion! Can you imagine?

I’ve heard also that the heroes have gone out in the cold. I don’t like this. We lose enough men in combat. We can’t afford to lose any more to nature. I wish there was some way we could help. Bail and I, we’re gonna send some people to go looking for them, but the chances aren’t good. That’s the downfall of having a base on such an icebox, unfortunately.


Padmé
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Note 23
Padmé,

I know I should probably just ignore Vader’s notes…and you’re not the first person to suggest that to me. My husband and Obi-Wan also thought I should do this. For some reason I can’t, though. I’m not sure why…but I feel I have to write to him. I know that makes no sense…but something about his letters. Vader a human? How can you suggest that? He’s killed more people than any other person I could think of. He does not even act like a human! And he killed my Anakin!

The heroes are pretty young. I looked back at their registration cards. (Han FINALLY signed up for the Rebellion), and it lists Han as 31 and Luke as essentially 20. A lot of young people are participating in the war on both sides. Young people are strong, have good reflexes, and have a lot of energy. They do lack experience, and it is a shame that so young people have to participate in the war…but in participating, they are taking their place and doing what they can for the cause they believe in.

Okay…so Luke Skywalker is the guy’s real name. Did you know that the name Luke was Anakin’s middle name? I’ll have to call him on lying to you. We cannot have our members lying to each other. If we are to join together, we all must know the truth. He’s convinced that you’re going to kick him out of the Rebellion? Sigh…have you tried to assure him that you’re not going to kick him out? Perhaps I was too hard on him…I did get on him for spilling the coffee on the dress….perhaps a little too much.

Have you heard any news about Han Solo or Luke Skywalker? The last I heard….two of our pilots were sent out in snowspeeders this morning (6:00 AM) to go in search of the two. Do you know if they have been found yet? I’m sure they’re dead. I would love to help them…but I have seen so much suffering and pain in my lifetime. I’ve accepted that in some situations I can do nothing. I would have given anything to save my son’s life. Unfortunately he died bravely as did the rest of the Jedi Knights. I know the chances aren’t good of finding the pilots alive.


Shmi Skywalker
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Note 24
Shmi,

You can’t help but write to Vader? Why is that? Do you feel anything towards him? He’s just a monster, you’re right, there isn’t anything about him that’s good and pure to feel for. You should force yourself to ignore him. You’re right, he killed Anakin, and doesn’t deserve our pity.

You’re right, Young people do seem to have a lot more potential and become a much bigger help to the Rebellion. Still, they should be at home, not at war, just as you said.

Oh Shmi, you’re so hard on the recruits! It’s all right that Luke didn’t tell me his real name, he was just nervous. It’s all worked out now. He won’t lie again. Don’t worry, he’s a nice boy and means well.

Solo and Skywalker are safe, thank goodness. The pilots that were looking for them had found them. Solo is all right, with only a few scratches, and Skywalker is improving dramatically. They will be fine.


Padmé
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Note 25
Padmé,

I am not sure why I feel that it is important for me to write to Vader. But I just do feel that way. Something bothers me about him…something that seems not right…or familiar…or I don’t know…but it is something that I can’t quite put my finger on. Of course I cannot stand the man…but I feel that I must learn about what that “something” is. He knows something about me, Padmé. I may not like it, but it is important that I find it out. I don’t even know why I spend time thinking about him when he killed my Anakin.

Well since we are in a war, there is little that we can do about the young people being involved with it.

So you think that this Luke kid is all right then? I’m glad you worked things out with him. I have heard that he is out of the bacta tank, but that he has pneumonia or something, and he told me that he also has asthma. Hmm…Anakin had asthma.

I also heard that we sighted some Imperial probe droids. Do you know the story behind that…or is it just a rumor? Either way, I suppose we had better prepare our pilots for battle.

Let me know if you heard any other information.



Shmi
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Note 26
Shmi,

Just trust me, no matter what parculiar feeling you have about Vader, you’re best leaving him alone! Please, Shmi, I saw so many people hurt and killed by the Dark Lord of the Sith, please don’t let him get you too. I don’t know what I would do without you. Please, just disregard his letters.

Luke has asthma? It’s funny, so many people get it these days. It’s probably just an excuse the soldiers are making so they don’t have to work out outside, though. I don’t envy those recruits, running around in the snow like that.

There might be an Imperial probe…I’ll have to contact Bail more about it. If there is, we could have great problems, moving the entire base from Hoth! Bail and I were thinking of not having another permanent base, as they seem so hard to take care of. What do you think?


Padmé
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Note 27
Padmé,

I am not affected by Vader…trust me on that. He said that he loves me, but I assured him that I did not return his love. From his letters it appears as if he does love me, although I do not know why. I’m sure it is a mistake…and that he thinks I am someone else. But why would he love anyone like that? I will write him back…if only to prove to him that he means nothing to me, and that he is not affecting me or getting to me. I can be strong.

Well I don’t know if Luke has asthma or not. That’s just what he said, but he could have just made that up, as an excuse, like you suggested many of the soldiers doing so they don’t have to work outside in the cold. After all he IS one of our pilots, and they do work out outside. At any rate, I know for a fact that he has pneumonia right now because he’s in the medical section, and I get reports when a person cannot work due to being in the medical section. (Remember, I do handle paperwork, including registration.) I’ve found out that many of the recruits that said they had asthma really did not…in fact we haven’t found anyone that really has it. It’s really not that common. I’ve talked to the doctors at our Rebellion medical facility, and they have all said that they have only found a few people in the entire Rebellion who have it, and it’s really not that common across the galaxy.

I heard that we sighted an Imperial fleet in our system! Have you received any updates about that? I’ve just heard an official announcement, but I know nothing about it. And about that possible probe…if our sensors are accurate, I’m thinking that that WAS an Imperial probe droid. How else could they have found us so quickly?

Yes, I heard about that idea. I think it would be a good thing for now…at least until things settle down a bit. The Empire could not have been too pleased with the destruction of the Death Star. Please also let me know more about this idea of not having a Rebel base.


Shmi
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Note 28
Shmi,

I don’t think writing back to him to prove that he means nothing to you is a good idea. You’re right, Vader’s not doing anything reasonable. Who knows what’s making him write letters like this to you? You wouldn’t want this insane part of him to come after you, would you? It’s probably safer to disregard his letters and let him rant.

I’ve actually seen Luke, so I don’t think he’s lying. He looks pretty sick, even with pnemonia. I do think he has asthma. He’s also a very brave person, and I really don’t imagine him as someone who would lie to get out of work. But you’re right, a lot of people DO like to cheat their way out of work.

Well, I suppose that you know we have indeed sighted an Imperial fleet in our system, as we are now evacuating the base! You have to come with me on the first ship, it’s imperative that you are safe. I really don’t know how they could have found us so quickly…Bail and I are working on a way of finding out, though.


Padmé
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Note 29
Padmé,

I don’t think Vader could come after me…even if he wanted to. If he had the means, that insane part of him who thinks he loves me, would have already found me. Don’t you think so? And now that we are safely at the rendezvous point, Vader’s going to have a hard time tracking us down. He seems more interested in the Millennium Falcon anyway. I have received letters from Leia, telling me that the Imperial fleet is currently chasing them. I hope they are all right. Han Solo and Leia Organa really are nice people, and it would be such a blow to the Rebellion if they were to get killed.

Okay so you visited Luke while he was sick? And you do think that he has asthma. I don’t know…Anakin had asthma, but I have not run into too many other people that actually had it. I suppose you are right, though. He probably isn’t the type of person to lie about something just to get out of work. He seems to be a hard worker. He has certainly done great things for the Rebellion. He blew up the Death Star…and I’ve heard rumors that he played a big part in the Hoth battle by figuring out a plan in only a few seconds, and tripped the Imperial Walkers. I suppose that would have to be attributed to the Force. He told me that he was Force Sensitive, and that he’s going to Dagobah to train with Yoda. That’s interesting…there aren’t very many Force Sensitive people around…but if the Empire were to find out that a Force Sensitive person is alive, I’m sure they would not hesitate to kill him. I hope that boy is careful about who he tells.

I must congratulate you on doing so well in getting the base evacuated, and for taking care of me. We are now safely at the rendezvous point, but the Millennium Falcon is not here with us. So far we seem safe from the Empire, but a few of our members were captured back on Hoth. I hope Vader does not torture them too much before killing them. That must be his intention.

Bail mentioned something to me about a new development for us…that he’s trying to confirm some new information our spies have gathered from the Empire, and if it’s true…it must be something pretty big. Has he mentioned anything about this? Or do you know anything about it?


Shmi
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Note 30
Shmi,

I suppose Vader might have a hard time finding the secret base and in turn a hard time finding you. Still, I worry for you. He’s a scary person with insane ideas…I don’t want him coming for you.

You’re right, he DOES seem interested in the Millennium Falcon. I hope he stays far from it, though…if something were to happen to them, well, the Rebellion would suffer a lot, like you said.

Yes, Luke does have asthma, pretty severe from what I hear. He isn’t trying to get out of work. I’ve warned Luke to be careful, but he says this is something he has to do, so I suppose it’s best for him to train. Anyway, I trust Yoda won’t steer him wrong.

I’m not sure exactly what Bail mentioned to you…I’ll speak to him about it. Perhaps it’s the new plan for having a continuously moving base rather than a planetary one, in order to be able to constantly escape without having to move so much. I think it’s a pretty good idea. What about you?


Padmé
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Note 31
Padmé,

I have received a request for leave of absence for a little while from you. Was that a mistake, or are you really going somewhere right now. I do not mean to be nosey, but I would like to know where you are going (if it is true), so that I can keep you informed about new developments in the Rebellion. As you know, I AM in charge of paperwork within the Rebellion.

You must remember that we are not on a secret base right now. We are currently gathered together at a rendezvous point in the middle of space. Vader will not come after me…at least not now. I feel quite confident. All his intention seems to be focused on going after the Millennium Falcon. So do not worry for my safety, but worry about the passengers aboard the Millennium Falcon.

All right. You sound so sure that Luke has asthma, so I trust that he does have it. You said it’s pretty severe from what you hear? Well even if it is, it doesn’t seem to affect him too much, which is a good thing.

Yes…well it would be nice to have a new Jedi working for the Rebellion, but I hope he knows how much danger it will put him in. My son was killed because he was a Jedi Knight. Let’s hope that Vader and Palpatine do not discover that Luke has been trained as a Jedi Knight. After all, I am sure they are trying to keep it a secret. I’m not sure why they would train him…because once the Imperials find out about Luke, he’s going to be in some big trouble. I would hate to see such a valuable Rebel be killed simply because he is Force Sensitive.

Well, Bail told me that our intelligences have located some new Imperial plans. They are building a new Death Star.

I thought that we had already discussed about not having a base for the Rebellion. Isn’t that what this rendezvous point is for right now? I thought we were traveling as a fleet right now. But that wasn’t finalized, or is there something else that I am in the dark about?


Shmi
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Note 32
Shmi,

Yes, I am going away for a while. I was hoping to visit some old friends off this planet. I’m afraid that they might have been casualties in these recent battles and I just wanted to check on them. Please do keep me informed on what’s going on in the Rebellion.

I am worried for the passengers on the Millenium Falcon, but I’m also worried for you. Vader, he has his ways of finding people if he wants too.

Apparently Luke needs to train because he’s one of the few Jedi left, and he needs to carry on the legacy. I suppose that’s a good idea. We’re all risking death if caught by the Imperials, Luke especially, as he destroyed the Death Star, so I don’t think he’s afraid of getting caught.

Another Death Star, another hundreds of lives down the drain with it. When will the Sith just learn to stop? They just keep killing and killing…

You’re right, the plan wasn’t quite finalized yet, but as we are already a fleet in the air, we will probably go ahead and make this our new base.


Padmé
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Note 33
Padmé,

All right…well I respect your privacy enough not to ask where you are going or for what purpose, though it would be nice to know what planet you were going to. Gwydion is with you, I assume, because he also put in the request to leave. When do you think you will be back? I’ll be sure to inform you as to any new developments that may arise in your absence.

You said that you were hoping to visit some old friends on a planet. I hope that you have arrived safely, and that you have taken the proper precautions against Imperials. I do not want to see you captured. I would hate to see what Vader would do to you if he captured you. He is a ruthless killer, and I don’t want him to ever lay a hand on my daughter in law.

Yes, the passengers on the Millennium Falcon…they were in grave danger when an entire Imperial fleet followed them. But I have heard that they are safe now, at some place called Cloud City. Hopefully they will be able to make the repairs needed on their ship in a timely manner, and then join us at the rendezvous point soon.

Wait…you said that Luke needs to train because he’s one of the few Jedi left. If he has never had any training, how could he be a Jedi in the first place? But at least we’ll have a Jedi, as long as his training goes well. Have you heard anything about the training?

Bail said that there is a new development in the information we have learned from the Death Star. He has not shared that information with me yet. I hope he does soon.

Do let me know how your trip is going. I would love to hear more about it in your next letter.


Shmi
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Note 34
Shmi,

I’m at Blue Waters now, and I don’t know when I’ll be back. Gwydion IS with me, but we hope to keep it a secret…for now.

Thank you for your concern. We did indeed land safely, and have taken the proper precautions against the Imperials. I don’t think the Imperials would be bold enough to come for us here. I’m glad you’re so protective, Shmi, it’s nice to know you’re there for me. Trust me, though, he won’t get a chance to lay a hand on me.

Apparently whether or not a Jedi is a Jedi is not so much based on one’s training as one’s Force potential. It seems that Luke has a very high potential, and if he works hard, could become a great Jedi. I suppose he isn’t one yet, though.

Bail told me that the new development was that the Emperor was on the second Death Star. This is wonderful news, as destruction of the Death Star could mean destruction of the Empire! This will put a lot of pressure on our pilots though. I hope they do well.


Padmé
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Note 35
Padmé,

You’re at Blue Waters now? I have always heard that was a beautiful planet, though I never visited there. My son Owen told me that they recently took on a customer that lived there. (Owen took over my husband’s old business of moisture farming and raising plants to sell to people across the galaxy as food or whatever. Many of the moisture farmers on Tatooine do this as well.) Perhaps you will by chance see the new client? Or maybe not. Owen said that he seemed to be nice enough of a person when the man first contacted him about his products. At any rate, you brought Gwydion with you? Oh good. Be sure to tell me about the trip when you feel comfortable in doing so.

I was glad to hear that you landed safely, and are being careful to stay away from Imperials. No, you’re probably right; the Imperials would not want to come after you on some minor planet. I am sure you are quite safe from them. I just…I just don’t want anything to happen to you.

I see…so this Luke person has Force potential? Hmm…I suppose that explains why Qui-Gon freed my son…because he knew he had Force potential. I’m not sure about this Luke kid becoming a Jedi, though. Think of what happened to all the Jedi about 20 years ago. He is just one person, and he has made himself so vital to the Rebellion. I hope he knows enough to not make it known that he is training, or that he is even Force sensitive.

You said that Bail told you that the Emperor was going to be on the second Death Star? How foolish can Palpatine be? He must realize that he will be a target…or maybe he thinks that the Empire can stand up against anything. I hope that our Rebellion can prove him wrong. Yes, I suppose our pilots will be under pressure once again. Maybe that Luke kid can blow this Death Star up too.

Have you heard from Bail Organa’s daughter? He seems awfully worried. Something must have happened to her.


Shmi Skywalker
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Note 36
Shmi,

I did in fact meet Owen’s customer. He is not the nice man Owen told you he was. I guess I shouldn’t hide it…the man’s name is Arawn Corta, and he’s Vader’s accomplice. I know what you’re thinking, the Imperials are everywhere! We’re currently under their arrest, but we’ll find a way out, soon.

I did try and stay away from the Imperials, but as you see, it didn’t quite work.

Don’t worry about Luke, he’s a smart boy. He’ll figure out for himself not to tell the Imperials. Remember, he wrote an essay on Anakin, he knows what the Jedi went through. He knows he has a legacy to uphold.

Leia seems to be in some pretty big trouble. She’s been captured by the Imperials! Bail and I are trying to rescue her, but I’m not even free myself! We’ll find a way to save her, if only because we must!


Padmé
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Note 37
Padmé,

You did meet Owen’s customer? But how did you know it WAS Owen’s customer? I told you I didn’t know the name…did he say he was Owen’s customer, or how did you come to that conclusion? I’m sure there is more than just one person living on that planet, so I don’t understand how you knew it was the same person. Anyway, you’ve been captured? How? You said that the man that captured you (Arawn Corta), is Vader’s accomplice? How can we help you….we shall try, but I’m not sure what good we can do. You are likely to be guarded by several guards, and our main focus right now is in learning information about the new Death Star.

Okay, well I hope that the Luke boy is having a good time with his training. Have you heard from him recently? The last letter that I received from him he was talking about going to Cloud City himself in order to rescue his friends…but Leia told me that Vader WANTED him there so that he could walk into a trap. Wait…I received another letter from Luke. He is FIGHTING Darth Vader. Not again…not another loss to the Jedi Order. There is no way that Vader’s going to let him live. Just when the Rebellion had hope with a new Jedi…look what happened. Apparently Vader captured Han and Leia purposely and started torturing them so that he could capture and kill Luke. This is dreadful!

Yes, but I heard that Leia was able to escape…or is in the process of escaping from Cloud City. Let us hope that she makes it here safely and is not too upset about the death of her friend Luke.

Keep me updated on if you hear anything.


Shmi
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Note 38
Shmi,

I remember a few years ago, I had a conversation with Owen and Beru, and they spoke of a customer called Arawn Corta. It was a strange name, and stuck with me. Later, when you asked about one of the customers, my first thought was Arawn Corta.

You don’t need to worry about me anymore, as Gwydion and I both arranged our escape. We are both out of Blue Waters now, and are safely heading toward the base. What can I say? Guards are stupid.

I don’t know what to do about Luke anymore. I told him repeatedly to stay away from Vader, and in response, he goes right to him. He’s such a reckless kid…too much like Ani. I only hope he can protect himself.

You’re right about Leia, she at least was able to escape. If only Luke could have also.


Padmé
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Note 39
Padmé,

Oh…so you talked with Owen and Beru several years ago? Did you keep a correspondence up with them, or what? But it was during a conversation several years ago and talked about Arawn Corta then. I see. It makes more sense to me now.

It is good to see that you came back here safely. Luke Skywalker, Chewie, Leia Organa, and the droids have now stopped by to sign their return papers. And the Lando Calrissian man just registered for the Rebellion also. As you can probably guess, it’s been a fairly busy day for me as well.

Well….I heard that Luke got beat up pretty badly in the fight, and that Vader told him that he was his father. How could Vader say something like that? It makes no sense. He was just trying to scare the poor boy into joining the Empire. I hope Luke is not too hurt by Vader’s words. And how could Vader think that Luke would believe him? First of all, Vader is a very hateful man, and I don’t know a single woman who would be his wife or sleep with him…whatever Vader’s morals may be. Second of all…the idea of Vader having a son is ridiculous. He claimed that one of our best members is his son. It just goes to show that Vader will stop at nothing to get what he wants.

Have you heard similar accounts by Luke? It was Luke and Leia who both told me about what happened.


Shmi
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Note 40
Shmi,

I have been keeping a correspondence with Owen and Beru, though lately I haven’t been able to catch up, due to all the action and responsibilities as leader.

I’m glad to hear that everyone is safe now, and also that we have a new member. I heard that that Calrissian is quite a pilot. I hope so, we could use all the help we can get with this new death star, I doubt they would make the same mistake twice in engineering.

Luke and Leia DID tell me what happened. You seem to hate Vader very much. I suppose we all do, after all he did, but we still have to remember that Vader was once a good man, and at one time it was probably an honor to be his wife or mother or son. IF only he had not become so corrupt, he could have done great things.

Well, I had better get back to work now.


Padmé
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