These are notes between Obi-Wan Kenobi and Padmé, but it’s AU. (I read the book AOTC so I know that Padmé’s father is supposed to be named Ruwee, and her mother’s name is supposed to be Jobal. That change will not take effect in this story until you reach the point where I started writing after AOTC. This is just so you can tell what I wrote before and after AOTC, and to make sure that all the different Notes fics fit together). (Another thing is that in my story Vader didn’t actually kill Obi-Wan on the Death Star, and Alderaan didn’t get blown up so Bail’s still alive too Padmé is still alive and goes by the name Mon Mothma.)

The person playing the part of Padmé has the name: Celina Jovia and Bobill
Note 1:
Padmé,

Hello. This is Obi-Wan….and I’m sorry I didn’t contact you until now, but I didn’t know you were alive. I thought you were too weak after giving birth to the twins to have survived….or I thought that Vader or Palpatine would have killed you.

I just found out from Bail that you were alive, so I wanted to touch base with you. How have you been? I know that these have been a hard 19 years for you. How are you holding up?

Right now I’m on the Death Star. I was pulled into the tractor beam, and we couldn’t leave until I turned it off. I am with 2 people….one of these people found the plans to the Death Star and gave them to me back on Tatooine.

The plans should reach the base safely, however I may not. Darth Vader has sensed my presence, and I have sensed his, and I believe that there will be a fight. I will avoid fighting at all cost, but I may be forced to fight.


An old friend,
Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 2
Obi-Wan,

You're alive!!!!! Everyone at the base was worried sick, and will continue to be until you get here!!!! Wow! What great friends we are!! We think each other are died! Well, I'm very much alive, and well, thank you. I didn't know you doubted me. Don't doubt me again understand!! I can pull through hard stuff, that you wouldn't think I could (of course being Anakin's wife I would have to). So, yes, I was strong enough to live after giving birth to the twins, and as for Palpatine and Vader trying to kill me, um, they're trying, but they can't find the base or me, so I'm safe so far. Vader is sending me threats saying he will kill me, but I'm not afraid to die, and he can't find me.

Great, you contacted Bail!! Did you know that EVERYONE has been asking me where you are? I guess I can just tell them that you're on the Death Star, sensing your worst enemy and maybe won't live through the fight. Obi-Wan, if you do not live, I'm going to find you and KILL you. We need your help. You're the last Jedi Knight, and we need you. You CAN'T die, I won't allow it!! Be careful.

Did you hear that Bail found Leia? I was shocked, because well, I didn't know it until he found her. He NEVER told me she was missing which must have been 19 years, and finally he found her and told me. I must tell you, I did yell at him for not telling me sooner, but I'm calm now.

So, you're with The Boy, I'm guessing, because we got news from Wedge (do you know who he is?) and he was searching for the plans on Tatooine, because he followed The Boy there. He saw you and The Boy were talking about Jedi stuff, and Bail knew it was you. Also, we figured out, because The Boy's friend came here with Owen, and Bail found out she was Leia, and Leia told him about The Boy and we're trying to found out his name. Do you know it? As you can see, I'm calling him The Boy. I would like to know his real name.

I've been holding up fine (as fine as you would expect after the past), how about you? What have you been doing? I know this may be a touchy subject for you, but did you ever find any other Jedi that are alive?

I'm giving you permission to kill Vader if you must, because he's planning on killing Leia, Owen, Summoner, and his nephew that lied to him, and YOU!! You MUST be careful. That's not a suggestion, THAT AN ORDER!!! Be careful.

Must go, things are getting busy here. It was GREAT hearing from you.

Your Old Friend,
Padmé
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Note 3
Padmé,

Well I’m here now. I tricked Vader, and I believe he thinks I’m dead.

I’m glad that you proved my doubts wrong.

Good…I’m glad Vader can’t find you. I will protect you from him, I promise.

I am sorry that I worried everyone, but I had no choice. It was far too risky to contact anyone while Vader was looking for the plans.

No worries; I lived through the fight. Actually I am not the LAST Jedi Knight. Yoda is alive too. How do you think I’ve survived these past 19 years without being killed if I wasn’t careful?

Yes…I did hear that Bail found Leia. It was a huge shock to me because I didn’t know that she was missing either. I’m sure he wanted to spare you future pain…like if he told you she was kidnapped, he felt that you would become more upset. There are reasons for withholding information. You’re the last person in the galaxy that needs to be hurt. You’ve been hurt so much by Anakin. He was only trying to protect your best interest, as we are all trying to do.

Yes. I’m with The Boy, LOL. Bail told me that you were all wondering about him. Yes, I know who Wedge is. I know that he is Bail’s real son…when I gave Leia to him I asked him about his own child and found out that his wife had given birth to a son named Wedge…and I figured that that’s who he was. Am I right? Was that Wedge Antilles or a different Wedge that you’re talking about? I did tell The Boy about Jedi stuff…mainly because he had an assignment from his school where he had to do an assignment on a Jedi Knight…so he was asking me a lot of questions, and I was trying to explain the force and other Jedi things to him. The Boy’s friend came here with Owen….okay, so that was Leia.

About The Boy’s name…yes I do know what his name is. His name is Curtis…you can call him that.

I’ve been doing very well, thank you. What have I been doing? I’ve been hiding from Vader and helping people on Tatooine. I’ve been basically living as a hermit there. Like I said, Yoda’s alive. That’s the only other Jedi that is still living. Of course that doesn’t mean that’s the only force sensitive person other than me that’s alive. Leia’s force sensitive.

I did not need your permission to kill Vader, but thank you for giving it to me. I did not kill him. Yes, I know Vader was planning on killing Leia, Owen, Summoner, his nephew that lied to him, and me. I know all that. Curtis rescued them though, so all went well.

Well I hope the Death Star Battle goes well.

Your Old Friend,
Obi-Wan
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Note 4
Obi-Wan,

So, The Boy's name is Curtis. All right, well that's better than The Boy.

Yes, the Wedge I'm talking about is Wedge Antilles, but I just wanted to make sure you remembered him. He was the pilot that overheard you talking with Curtis about the Jedi. Now, why would anyone be doing a report on the Jedi? I know that the Jedi are very interesting people, and have interesting lives, but after they were killed, I thought the Empire wouldn't like anyone do anything with the Jedi. So, why would Curtis be going against the Empire and studying them??

So, you're not the last Jedi!! That's great!! Yoda is STILL alive?? He was how old when the Trade Federation invaded? How old is he now? How is he? Are you sure he's the last, LAST Jedi besides yourself? It is a mighty LARGE galaxy, how can you be so sure?

Yes, I understand your reasons for not contacting us, but we can't help but worry when we hear that there's some of our people on the Death Star.

Yes, I know that Leia is Force Sensitive, that's the way they found her. I have been wondering, what if Leia's powers start to show, and she begins to use the Force by accident, what are we going to do? Will you train her as your apprentice or something?

One thing I don't want you to start doing now, if blaming yourself for Anakin's turning. Yes, I know I have been hurt the most by him, and if you haven't noticed, I said BY HIM, NOT you. You were only doing your job, and he did what he wanted, so I don't want you, Bail, or anyone to blame themselves for my hurt, understand?

So, you didn't kill Vader, but played a trick on him? Does he know yet? Well, I thought I should give you my permission to kill him, because I'm SOOO MAD at him right now. He thinks he can go anywhere and kill anyone, and NOT think of anything!!!! He's SO...So, Ugh, not-Anakin-like!! I can't BELIEVE he's still the same person, because they act so different, but I guess that's what the Dark Side does, right?

Well, must go, and change this dress. Some boy ran into me and made me spill my coffee over my dress, and now my anger toward Vader is going to this boy. It's such a good thing I'm not a Jedi, because I bet I would have turned by now, with all my anger.


Padmé
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Note 5
Padmé,

Yes, the boy’s name is Curtis.

Okay, so it was Wedge who overheard me talking with Curtis about the Jedi? I see. Well Curtis told me that he was doing a report on the Jedi because his teacher had assigned it. Apparently his teacher decided to break the law and have the students research famous people in the Old Republic, and Curtis ended up getting a Jedi Knight to do his project on. So it’s not because Curtis wanted to study them, but because he was forced to.

Yes, Yoda is still alive. Well Yoda was 30 years younger than he is now when the Trade Federation invaded. He’s approximately a millennium old. No, I do not know that Yoda is the last Jedi left besides myself, but so far Yoda is the only other Jedi I have come across since the Jedi were being killed.

Leia wouldn’t be able to do anything big while she is untrained. Her powers wouldn’t suddenly show up…she wouldn’t be sitting there and decide to move things with her mind or something like that. She would need to be trained before any of it would show up noticeably. Now obviously she has Jedi reflexes and things like that, but she is still untrained and cannot do everything she could do if she were trained. She’s had the same amount of force sensitivity all of her life, and she has gotten used to it….her sensitivity is a part of her, so she can’t do anything more with her powers unless she is trained. Will I train her? Maybe…depending on some other things. She doesn’t know about her force sensitivity, and I would rather her not know about it. You realize that if the Emperor or Vader find out that she is not Bail’s daughter, and that she is Vader’s, she would be in extreme danger. I may train her and I may not. It depends on some other things.

I can’t help feeling that I was a failure with Anakin. That’s another reason I wouldn’t want to train Leia. I’d be afraid that I would mess up with her and that she would turn…..and then I would hurt you even more. I don’t want to do that. I will discuss my plans with Yoda before making a final decision.

Yes, I’m sure Vader has figured out that I played a trick on him. It is very hard to think that Vader was once the Anakin that we all loved and cared about. Yes, that is what the Dark Side does…..changes people for the worse.

A boy ran into you and spilled coffee on your dress? Your anger you had towards Vader is now going towards the boy? Hmm…..what do you think of the boy? Hey, isn’t that the dress that Anakin got you for your engagement? Hmmm…

Well if you’ll excuse me, I must go talk to Curtis about something. I will talk to you later. How are you holding up with all these recent events?


Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 6
Obi-Wan,

So, Curtis is studying a Jedi Knight, because he was forced too? That sounds like a hard teacher. So, which Jedi Knight is he studying? Anyone I may know? I'm sorry, if I'm being too nosy, but you're the only person that doesn't get on me about marrying Anakin and having the Jedi as my friends. I hope you don't mind.

So, you think that if we began a search that we could find some more Jedi? Or do you think that is too dangerous?

I'm shocked, but glad to know that Yoda is still alive. His advice was very helpful during the Trade invasion and the Clone Wars. Whenever you see him again, please tell him I said 'hi' and 'thank you'.

Obi-Wan-Kenobi, you KNOW that Anakin turned for his own reasons, and that he WILL blame you, because he will NOT admit that he did this to himself. Just because Anakin turned is NOT the best reason for you to think that you'll fail another apprentice. Didn't Qui-Gon have an apprentice that turned to the Dark Side (Anakin told me stories that you told him, so that's how I know). Wasn't Qui-Gon's 'apprentice' that turned his first apprentice?? Now, if he didn't look passed his failure with that apprentice, I don't think you would be here as a Jedi. Now, do you? You MUST do what your former master did, and look passed your 'failure', but the problem is...you have no failure. You kept your promises, and never once turned back. You. Never. Failed. Do you understand, Jedi Master Obi-Wan-Kenobi??

Now, because you never failed, and because you've always been there, and helped me in everyway, you are the only person that I would wish to train Leia, if her powers show. Because if she's never trained, but still discovered by the Empire and Vader, what do you think they would do? I think they'd try and capture her and train her with the Dark Side of the Force. I don't want that, so I need to know...what if she never discovers her powers, but the Empire STILL finds out, what then?

Just how many people did Anakin tell that this dress was the 'secret engagement' symbol?? I thought it was a secret, and now I'm learning how wrong I am.

What do I think of Andrew Smith (that's the boy's name that spilt my coffee on my dress)? Well, what am I supposed to think of him? He ruined the LAST gift Anakin gave me BEFORE he turned, and now I don't have anything to remind me of the good side of Anakin. I'm STILL quite angry with Andrew, but I'm going to...try and not show it.

I must go.


Padmé _______________________________________________________________________________
Note 7
Padmé,

Yes, Curtis is researching a Jedi Knight because he was forced to because of a school project. I suppose the teacher was trying to challenge the students, and I think that was good. Which Jedi Knight is he studying? Uh….he’s studying Qui-Gon Jinn. No, I don’t mind you asking questions about people doing research on Jedi Knights.

Well, I suppose we could do a search for Jedi, although I don’t think it would be very useful. Any Jedi that’s still alive would not want to cause attention to be drawn to them. The Emperor or Vader would not hesitate to kill another Jedi, even now…20 years after the Jedi hunt had begun.

Yes, I am pleased that Yoda is still alive also. Yoda is very wise, and his advice has usually been very good. You do not need to thank Yoda; he was helping the galaxy when he was helping you. Helping people is something Yoda strongly believed in.

Yes, Qui-Gon did have an apprentice that turned to the Dark Side. The trouble is that I don’t think now would be a good time to train Leia. As long as no Imperial finds out who her true parents are, Leia should be quite safe. Remember, we set up the entire thing so that it would look believable to everyone. Bail’s own wife was pregnant at the EXACT same time you were, so I see no reason why the Emperor or Vader would question her parentage. I doubt they would take a midi-cholorian count. They think she’s Bail Organa’s daughter, so why would they have reason to think that she’s Vader’s daughter?

Thank you for your words about it not being my fault that Anakin became Darth Vader.

Her powers just won’t suddenly appear one day. She’s been living with them all her life and they have become a part of her. No matter how force sensitive she is, there are things she CANNOT do without training. For instance, she can’t lift objects without training, she can’t do mind control without training, she can’t disappear without training……that kind of thing. The only things she can do without training are to have quick reflexes, kind of see things before they happen, and sense danger. That’s it. That’s quite a lot for someone who has never been trained….most people aren’t force sensitive enough to be able to do those things. Those things would go by unnoticed by most people….because Leia has had them all her life. They have become a part of who she is….they are normal to her. I assure you that Leia is quite safe right now.

I do not have time to train her right now. Perhaps later…I am very busy with something else.

I believe Anakin told only Yoda and I that your dress was the secret engagement symbol. He only told his really close friends.

Uh…the boy told you his name was Andrew Smith? He wrote you? Please don’t be too angry with him. Yes, you can be angry, but don’t make him afraid of you, and make sure that you don’t scare him away from talking to you. Good, I’m glad you’re going to try and not show it. Do you think you can get the stain out of the dress?

I also noticed that you have not been paying attention to the battle…you’re not even in the room where everyone else has been listening to the battle. Where are you?


Obi-Wan
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Note 8
Obi-Wan,

I'm with Shmi. I'm talking to her, because we both don't want to hear about the battle until it's over. You're more than welcome to join us, if you wish. Shmi did tell me your message about you talking with Bail. Are you done yet? If you are and you have free time, you can stop by Shmi's office and we can all talk. You do know where Shmi's office is, don't you?

All right, I just want to make sure Leia is safe. You are perfectly correct, about her powers not appearing suddenly one day. I'm sure you're quite busy, and I'm sorry I was bothering you with it. Yes, I believe you are right about having her not trained, but I just think it's a waste of her talent. So, she will never be trained? If you think that's the best for her protection, I will go along with it. What (if you don't mind me asking) are you so busy with? You've been quite busy around here, and you said that you're too busy to even train Leia, so I was wondering what you're doing?

So, Curtis is studying Qui-Gon? Well, he came to the right person to question about the Jedi Master. I feel ashamed that it was because I called for both you and Qui-Gon when the Trade Federation invaded Naboo that Qui-Gon was killed. I wonder if Qui-Gon lived how things would have turned out. Now, I'm NOT blaming you for his death, because there is NOTHING you could have done. I'm just letting my mind wander, which I shall stop now, because I must focus.

So, does Curtis find Qui-Gon or the Jedi interesting?

Well, do you or do you NOT want me to get a team gathered so we can begin searching for the Jedi? I know you're right about them remaining hidden for their own safety, but I believe if we have more Jedi that it would help us a lot more. And who knows, we may be able to resurrect the Jedi!! Of course, it would be VERY dangerous, but it is doable, and we can search out a planet that would be 'perfect' for the Jedi. Well, not, perfect, perfect, but well hidden and the Emperor wouldn't go searching there. First, do you want to do it? Because you would most likely be the head of the Jedi search if we do. And if yes, than do you have a planet in mind? Also, how did you find Yoda?

Yes, I now remember that I told EVERYONE whom I invited to my wedding (well who showed up that is), but because of the battle and everything that's going on, I'm getting stressed, and forgetting things quickly.

All right, all right, I'll calm down, and 'be kind' to Andrew. I'm not going to kick him out and I told him that, but he-he RUINED MY DRESS!!!!! And I doubt I'll ever get the strain out. My mother and father are glad that it's ruined!!! UGH!!! Can you believe THAT!?! My own parents happy that the last gift the Anakin gave me before he turned is RUINED. Sometimes, I just don't get my parents. Believe this or not, but they want me to remarry, and I'm NOT doing that. *sigh*, I'm sorry, Obi-Wan, I guess since I can't yell at Andrew, I began yelling at you. I'm sorry, I should control my anger better. But-but...oh never mind, I have to go, and finish talking with Shmi. If you're coming I'll see you in a little while.


Padmé
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Note 9
Padmé,

So you were with Shmi during the battle? I see. Thank you for the offer, but I preferred to find out what was going on in the battle. Yes, I am done talking with Bail. Yes, I know where Shmi’s office is. Are you still there? I’m planning on going to the awards ceremony, so I can’t talk for long.

Yes, Leia is perfectly safe. No, you are not bothering me. Talking about Leia is important. Well we’ll see, maybe one day I will train her, but I just can’t right at this moment. Maybe we could wait to see what’s going on with the new base….and I may decide to train her there, all right? Um….what am I doing that I am so busy with? Well I’ve been trying to get in contact with Yoda, and helping Curtis with his project, and watching the battle, and trying to protect Leia, and corresponding with Vader…and need I go on? All right…all right….I know that’s not very convincing. The real reason I am “too busy” to train Leia is that I have begun to train someone else. I’ve been training this person for 10 years now, so I can’t stop that person’s training just to train Leia. You do understand, don’t you? I know it must feel as if I’m rejecting you and your daughter, but I have already begun to train someone else. I do not have the time to train someone who is in the advanced part of the training at the same time as I train a beginner. It just would not work. Please try to understand.

Yes, Curtis is studying Qui-Gon. Yes, he has come to the right person. I have been telling him all about Qui-Gon….so as you can imagine that it has taken quite a bit of time. You told me not to blame myself for Qui-Gon’s death…..well don’t blame yourself either! You truly needed Jedi or you would have been killed. You know full well that Palpatine would have killed you had you not asked for help, and you would have never met Anakin, and Leia and her twin would never have been born.

No….I can tell that it is torture for Curtis to have to do all this research on the Jedi. He is rather bored, and I feel sorry for him.

It would be far too dangerous to gather a team together to begin searching for Jedi. I do not think it would be a very good idea…especially when the Empire knows that we’re on Yavin. Certainly they will be watching our activity as soon as they can get a fleet here. We must move our base very quickly. Have you heard any word about where the new base will be?

Yoda has been living on Dagobah ever since he and I explored it. He and I have been in contact with each other for the past 19 years, and we have sent each other little letters to let the other know we are still alive. I let him know I was going to Tatooine to live, so you see…..we never lost track of each other.

Do not worry about forgetting things. We all do that. I understand how you thought that you did not tell anyone about the secret engagement symbol.

I’m sure that….wait….who is Andrew? I thought that…..oh….I see…..okay. Never mind. That’s his name? Who told you? So….although he ruined your dress, and you are mad at him, you are going to try to be kind to him. Very good. Yes, I know he ruined your dress, but since Andrew is new to the Rebellion he is a little unsure of what is happening. I don’t think that he reacts well to people that yell at him, or express anger towards him. He seems to be a sensitive individual and he probably doesn’t feel comfortable around people who yell at him. I think that maybe people have hurt him in the past…maybe…although I can’t confirm it.

Your parents are glad the dress is ruined? Well….ignore their “gladness” in the dress getting ruined. Your parents want you to remarry? Who are they considering as eligible partners?

I do hope that you will be able to manage your anger around Andrew.


Obi-Wan
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Note 10
Obi-Wan,

I'm sorry, I didn't know you were training someone else. If I had known I would have never asked you to train Leia. I'm sorry for asking and somewhat pushing the question. Don't worry about training Leia, because if you have an apprentice already than train him...or it is she? It's important to have Jedi, so your apprentice is very welcome here whoever he/she is.

We're going to Hoth, so be prepared for FREEZING cold weather when we move.

No I'm not going to the ceremony, I'm with Shmi right now. Of course she and I may peek in for a few seconds, but we're not staying.

I'm SO glad the Death Star is destroyed. Vader was SO stupid to think that it could NEVER get blown up, but it looks like that one pilot prooved him wrong. Ha!

My parents DO want me to remarry or at least get a 'wealthy' boyfriend. I'm not going along with their wishes though, because I don't want to remarry. It's the stupid 'royal line' that they want to continue. They don't care about me and how I feel about remarrying. They want the line to continue. Of course that don't know about Leia, and if they did they wouldn't push me to remarry. Anyway, they once suggested Bail (can you believe that?), then this other young man I've never met, and other younger people that I don't know at all, but I'm not remarrying so I'm not worrying about it.

Andrew told me his name was Andrew Smith, who by the way is studying a certain Jedi by the name of Anakin Skywalker. I thought if Curtis, and he get together maybe they can get all your wisdom of the Jedi and the Force out of you. Anyway, I told him about you and he said that he's already talking to you about it, but hasn't met Curtis. Maybe if the two put notes together then they can learn more.

You're acting like you know Andrew, Obi-Wan, why is that? You haven't even met him and how did you know he was new to the Rebellion. I don't remember telling you.

Well, I have to go.


Padmé
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Note 11
First Obi-Wan and Samantha Note written after AOTC came out. I also read the book, and because of that I found out what Padmé’s parents names were so I have changed their names from Tim and Sally to Ruwee and Jobal. I have also decided to no longer use the name Samantha and to use the name Padmé. Her family’s last name will no longer be Jedi, but it will be Amidala. Instead of being the royal family of Coruscant, they will be the Royal family of Naboo. They do not rule anything though. The elected Queen of Naboo still does that.

Padmé,

Yes, well I’m glad that we are at an understanding of why I’m not training Leia at this time. The apprentice I am training right now is a girl. I would like to keep the identity of my apprentice a secret, if you do not mind…for my apprentice’s safety, of course.

Um yes…it is very cold here on Hoth. Too cold…

That’s fine that you didn’t go to the ceremony. It was very nice, but it was also crowded in the room. I’m sure you had better things to do than to attend the ceremony. Did you end up peeking in at the awards ceremony?

Yes, I was pleased that the Death Star was destroyed also. Yes…Vader must learn that there are a few surprises waiting for him. Palpatine made him too arrogant and Vader now thinks that everything MUST go his way. I should think that Vader is feeling very wounded right now that he was proven wrong. The destruction of the Death Star does put Leia in a little more danger, but it shouldn’t be a problem. Just watch over her more carefully than you have been in the past.

Well do not worry about your parents wishes right now…especially right now…there are far greater things to be concerned about. I’m glad that you are staying strong and true to your own beliefs…I think that is one reason Anakin loved you so much. It’s good that your parents don’t know about Leia, and whatever you do, do not tell them. It might put her life in danger because Vader might find out. He seems to have a spy somewhere…I’m not sure if his spy is part of the Rebellion, or if the spy was from his past. Someone knows some information that they shouldn’t know. Well I guess I’ll put this bluntly because it does put both you and Leia in great danger. Somehow someone learned that you had had a son named Luke…and that person told Vader…and this happened VERY recently…like around the time of the Death Star Battle. Vader said that one of his spies told him about Luke’s existence. I’m not sure if Vader knows that Luke is dead or what happened to him…..or anything like that…but if his spy was able to find out about Luke’s existence, it’s entirely possible that the spy also told him about Leia. I’m not sure how much Vader knows….but be very careful about what you say to Vader. He might be just trying to get you to tell him something…so he might act like he knows more than he really does.

So your parents suggested Bail? LOL I cannot believe that. They suggested young men? Let me guess…they suggested Andrew Smith too? My goodness…if they did that…they would have been suggesting people that are half your age. Just how young did they suggest people for you?

Okay….now I deserve to give you an explanation. To clear some stuff when I was talking about Curtis, I was talking about Andrew. That boy seems to be going around lying about his name to everyone. Anyway, I lied to you when I told you that he was studying Qui-Gon. He was really studying Anakin Skywalker, and when you asked who he was studying…I just said Qui-Gon because I didn’t know how you’d react if you found out that the boy was studying your former husband. I thought it might be painful for you. That’s why I did that. So since Curtis and Andrew are the same person…you know that I had been talking to Andrew. That’s why I was “acting like I knew Andrew” in your last note.

At any rate, I have a personal concern, so I need to go meditate on it.

Comfort Leia if you can….she seems to be having a rough time here. I’m not sure why that is, but make sure that she feels comfortable.


Obi-Wan
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Note 12
Obi-Wan,

There is a spy in the Rebellion? Oh no. How much do you know about him? Whatever you do, don’t tell anyone anything about Leia, or anything that could lead him to Leia. I’ve already lost my son because of Vader. If he were to find out about Leia too, I don’t think I could handle it. I really appreciate the warning, and I will be sure never to say anything with even the slightest information to Vader.

Of course, Vader finding out that Leia is our daughter is not the only reason I won’t tell Mother and Father about Leia! These days they seem obsessed on having me carry on the royal bloodline. At a time like this, too! If they were ever to find out about Leia, they would subject her to the same royal training as they did me! And as for the subject of marriage, I have gone from repeated arguments to silent ignoring. I quote from my mother’s letter, “you know our standards, so please choose accordingly.” Can you believe her nerve? And Father, he did suggest that I marry Luke! For goodness sake, he’s young enough to be my son’s age!

I’m glad that Luke is studying Anakin, (and that I finally know his real name!). The man he once was should always be remembered, even if he did become that monster. I’m glad that his school assigned such a project, even if it is against the law.

I’ll try to find out what is bothering Leia. I can at least try to be a good mother to her, even if I can’t tell her that that is who I am. Don’t worry, I won’t ask about your apprentice if you don’t want me to. I understand how dangerous it must be to be training Jedi at a time like this, though it still pains me to know that it was my husband that caused this.

I never did go to the awards ceremony. I don’t understand why they are even having it! Now isn’t a time to relax and celebrate, it’s a time to get ready to strike again and bring down the Empire that has hurt so many!

You mentioned in your previous note that Palpatine made Vader arrogant. I disagree; Anakin was always arrogant, ever since he was a nine-year-old boy and bragged that he could win the pod race, even though he never had even finished a race before! Oh, how I wished he still had the innocence of that little boy! But Palpatine had used that arrogance and molded it into hatred and anger. The destruction of the Death Star will now only heighten this anger. Still, you’re right, this will make him more modest, and less reckless in his killing machines.

I’d better return to my work now. Please write back.


Padmé
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Note 13
Padmé,

No, that is not what I said. I didn’t say that I knew for sure there was a spy IN THE REBELLION. I only said that there MIGHT be. Vader has a spy SOMEWHERE in the galaxy who was able to find out that you had a son named Luke. Now that I think back on it, the spy would most likely have been a guy by the name of Arawn Corta. Just after Anakin’s turning, he told me of one of his spy’s that he would use to hunt me down…and he brought up that name. I don’t know anything about the guy, and I have never heard of him. I just remember that name. It’s most likely that that is who Vader somehow learned that information from. I’m sure that Vader has more than one spy, but I remember Vader telling me more about this Arawn fellow. I believe Anakin (Vader) was bragging about having some great spy who had previously worked for Palpatine, and knew all of Palpatine’s plans at the time. From the way Vader was talking, Arawn had had access to all kinds of secret databases and equipment…it’s possible he found out about your pregnancy. Remember on the night you gave birth, both the Maurders and some Imperial were after us, and we had to flee Dagobah? Do you remember that?

Well I’m about to tell you something I have not told you before. After that Imperial snatched the twins away from me (you were sleeping at the time) I followed the person to Coruscant. And an Imperial brought both Luke and Leia to Palpatine and he was getting ready to kill them…when I rescued them from Palpatine. Palpatine sent the Imperial after me, and ordered him to bring back your children. The Maurders followed us, and we got into this huge fight. In the fight, I got back Luke. (Luke was REALLY sick, as you will remember, so I tried to get him to somewhere safe…but as I already told you, he died about an hour before I arrived at the place where I was going to take him.

After his burial, I rushed off to the Maurder base to get Leia back. I was able to get her back, but I was followed to Bail’s. That’s how she was kidnapped later and taken to the other dimension.

I don’t know what happened to the Imperial, but my guess would be that that Imperial’s name was Arawn Corta. He would have been in the correct position to know about Luke (I’m pretty sure that Palpatine kept that mission secret because he didn’t want it to leak to Vader…because Vader obviously didn’t know about it until recently.)

So just because I said that Vader had a spy somewhere doesn’t mean you should panic. I’m guessing that that was who Arawn is. Why he decided to wait until now to tell Vader about Luke’s existence, I have no idea, but Vader knows now. I’m sure Arawn knew how sick Luke was and probably told Vader that too, and I’m sure Arawn told him that Luke died, and I hope you cleared it up with Vader yourself, to make sure Vader knew Luke was dead.

Padmé, give me some credit. I have been hiding the fact that you were ever pregnant for 20….almost 21 years. I’m not going to start giving out that kind of information. Believe me, I want Leia protected as much as you do. We just have to count ourselves lucky that Arawn chose to tell Vader about Luke and not Leia (as far as we know.) Since Luke is dead, Vader cannot hurt him. I will never say anything that would lead anyone to think that Leia is not Bail Organa’s real daughter. You have my word.

Do you realize that it’s almost Leia’s birthday? Wedge’s too. They’ll be 20 on September 30.

I cannot believe that your parents are pushing you towards remarriage, but do your best to ignore it. Your mother actually had the nerve to say that too you? That you had to choose a guy measuring up to your parent’s standards? Maybe it would be best if you didn’t talk to them for a while.

Wait……you know what Andrew Smith/Curtis’ real name is? Who told you? You must have known that I knew it and told you it was Curtis to mislead you. Again, I was thinking that the name might hurt you since it was the name of your son. I didn’t know how you would take it, so when you asked me for his name, I just made something up. Anyway, your father suggested that you marry him? That’s unbelievable. Why would you want to marry someone that’s like half your age? I’m glad you’re not following your parent’s wishes. Now that you know his real name is Luke, would you like to continue calling him Luke, or would you like to call him something else? Again, I’m only concerned with your feelings. If it would hurt you to call him “Luke,” find something else.

But it looks like I misjudged your feelings. So you don’t mind calling him Luke? All right then. Yes, Luke is studying Anakin…and he’s about finished with the project now. Maybe it will help comfort you that someone young can share with you in discussions of the great person Anakin was, without realizing what Anakin became. There is something that I ask you DO NOT DO. And that is do not tell Luke that Anakin became Darth Vader. Luke has such a high opinion of Anakin, from studying him, and I don’t want to damage that. It’s nice to think that someone can innocently study Anakin and not realize what became of him. Let’s try and keep that. There’s no reason that a young person should be exposed to the horribleness that Vader became. It will put my mind to much ease if you promise me you will not tell Luke that Anakin became Darth Vader, so can I have your word that you won’t tell him?

Bail has told Leia that she is to respect you and count on you, because you are his closest friend. I hope she will come to you for comfort and support. Have you found out what is bothering Leia? Is she feeling better?

Well I suppose that they had the awards ceremony because sometimes, even in the darkest times, we need to feel good, and it’s wonderful to celebrate such an accomplishment as the destruction of the Death Star. If you think about it, this was the Rebellion’s greatest victory in a little more than 20 years. Don’t you think that deserves a little celebration? And besides that, the ceremony was Leia’s idea. Bail told me. We all want to strike at the Empire and bring them down, but we also need to relax and take pride in what we have accomplished so far. It may bring us strength so that we can go on and win more battles.

Maybe you misjudge Anakin. Maybe he didn’t mean to sound like he was bragging when he said he could win the pod race. It was something he was determined on doing. I don’t believe that he thought he was above anyone else when he said he’d win a pod race…of course I wasn’t there and didn’t talk to him when it happened, but Qui-Gon told me about it as the events were happening. From what he said, I don’t think Anakin was saying it in a bragging way. I think it took a lot of courage, and I think he was doing it out of his kindness….out of unselfishness. He wanted to win not for himself, but for you and the others. I mean, did he go around and tell everyone, “I’m going to win!” Or did he say it in a way that gave him confidence. I think he just had confidence…..not overconfidence. There is a difference. Everyone needs a little confidence and determination. From what Qui-Gon told me, it was confidence, and not arrogance that Anakin displayed during the pod race. I don’t believe Anakin thought too much of himself at that time…and after all he did win the race, didn’t he?

Maybe I am wrong, and Anakin was always arrogant, but if that is true, Palpatine surely made it grow. I remember when Anakin was always excited about talking to Palpatine. Sigh….if only I had known what Palpatine had been. But it’s not all Palpatine’s fault. It’s also Anakin’s. Anakin let himself be transformed into Darth Vader. That was his decision.

And despite Vader’s bragging, that that was true bragging when he went around telling everyone that he came up with the death Star plans, Vader was NOT the one who came up with the plans. As it has been revealed to us, it was Count Dooku.

At any rate, Padmé, Yoda has contacted me and an emergency has come up. I will be leaving for Dagobah shortly. I will be back, although I’m not sure when. I will be spending a lot of time on Dagobah for the next several weeks. I will not leave until tomorrow. I just wanted you to be aware that I was leaving soon.

I also heard a report of an Imperial probe droid sighed. Do you know anything about it? If it’s true, then we must guess that the Empire might know where we are. I’m sure you and Bail are working very hard on this.

Your loyal friend,
Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 14
Obi-Wan,

Arawn Corta, Arawn Corta, the name sounds familiar, but I just can’t place it! I think Vader might have told me, too, but I’m not sure! I really hope he isn’t the spy! If he somehow finds out I was pregnant with Leia, and tells Vader, oh goodness. I hope he only finds out about Luke, since he’s safe in the next universe.

I don’t know how to thank you for all the things you have done for me and my children. If Luke and Leia had fallen to Palpatine, I think I would have gone insane! It almost makes me glad that the Maurders took Leia, at least she was safe in her other dimension!

Sorry if I seemed like I was accusing you of letting out our secret. It’s just, I couldn’t give Luke a safe and happy life, so I want so badly for Leia to have one! I didn’t mean to offend you.

Of course I know it’s almost Leia’s birthday! 20 years old! Goodness, she’s a woman! Seems only yesterday I was changing her diaper! And Wedge! He’s becoming quite a man!

I wish I could just ignore my parents, but, well, they’re my parents! I can’t just desert them! But I will ignore any conversation directed towards my romantic life!

I suppose you’re right about the ceremony. I know we were all really tense since the Death Star first appeared, and this ceremony was great for relaxing our nerves. It’s just that I’ve been fighting this war for 20 years (as you said), and I just want it to be over! I can’t stand having the Empire there, in the place of a once great Republic (even if it was quite corrupt)!

And I suppose you are right about Anakin as well. He was just being confident. Of course, at the time, I was really stressed about what would happen to Naboo, so naturally, I was quite doubtful of Qui-Gon’s plan to use Anakin for the parts. Still, you have to admit, Anakin was never one to be that modest, even growing up! Do you remember?

I remember as well how eager Anakin always was to see Palpatine, and go to him for council. If only we had known! Maybe things could be different. Maybe Leia would be able to know her true mother and father. O of course I would never tell Luke about what had happened to Anakin! Anakin was a great man, a great husband, and a great would-be father. Vader…he isn’t like Anakin at all! There’s no reason to associate the two together like that, especially with someone so young and eager as Luke! I want him to continue to have a high opinion of Anakin, no matter what had happened to him.

Actually, it was Luke Skywalker himself who told me his real name! He kept telling me over and over what a stupid name it was, so I finally told him that Luke Skywalker was my son’s name. Then he shut up. Still, Luke is a sweet boy (even though he’s rather talkative), and if my son had lived, I would have wanted him to be like this Luke, so I don’t mind calling him that. Besides, I think it would get confusing for him and me if suddenly he had two names!

You’re leaving to Dagobah? Why? Sorry, didn’t mean to pry, just curious. Good luck on whatever you are doing!

I heard about the probe droid, too. I don’t think it’s anything to worry about, but Bail thinks there might be danger. At any rate, we’ll be prepared; we already have a rendezvous point and everything.


Padmé
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Note 15
Padmé,

You may have heard the name Arawn Corta…but I believe there might have been another reason you could have heard the name. If my memory is correct, Arawn married someone, but I cannot remember who it was. I think his wife had some kind of connection with you, maybe one of your friends. I could be wrong, but when I saw him, I remember thinking that he was married to someone of importance. Actually, it would be good if Arawn were the spy, because if he’s not the spy, then that means someone found out that wasn’t supposed to know…..and it could be in the Rebellion. There was leaked information, and you know how dangerous that information could be. I do not think Vader knows about Leia being his daughter, because I think he would have mentioned it to us if he knew. Has he said a word about it to you?

You do not need to thank me for everything I have done for you and your children. I am a Jedi Knight, even if the Order no longer exists. It is my duty to serve you, both as a Jedi and as your friend. The future of the galaxy is important to me, and I did everything in my power to assure your children’s safety. It is unfortunate that Luke died, but Leia is still our hope. I would never have forgiven myself if Palpatine would have killed Luke and Leia.

I know how much you love Leia, and she is as safe as any person could be in the Empire. I understand how and why you feel you should protect Leia. You would not be a mother if you did not worry and want to protect your daughter.

Well today is Leia’s birthday. It is September 30. Maybe you can do something special for her. Wedge too…hmmm…I suggest that you NOT make a deal of it being her birthday, and don’t let on that you know it’s Wedge’s either. Unless they both tell you, do not say a word to ANYONE. It might look suspicious if you knew.

I wasn’t asking you to ignore your parents….only the comments about your romantic life. How have conversations been with your parents lately?

Is there going to be any sort of celebration dance? I think it would be a good idea.

No, I would never say that Anakin was ever modest. He was quite proud of his abilities, and he never let anyone forget that he was good at certain things (such as flying and building things.) And in those situations, he was quite arrogant when he grew older, but I don’t think it was arrogance that won him the race, as I said before. That is why I did not have him take the trials. I thought that he needed to learn some humility before taking the trials. He could have passed, but I wanted him to learn some lessons about life first.

I should have wondered what interest Palpatine had in Anakin, but I never questioned it. I feel that his turning was partially my fault, as I have already told you. I’m glad that you’re not going to tell Luke (the pilot) that Anakin became Vader. Thank you for your reassurances. You are really helping me out. There certainly is no reason that a person studying Anakin, and having such a high opinion of him, should know what happened to Anakin.

Luke told you his real name? He thinks his name is stupid? What did you tell him about your son? And what was his reaction? So you like him and get along with him well? That’s good. I’m glad you like him. You said that if your son had lived, you’d want him to be like this Luke. Be careful with that, because you don’t want to get too close to him. If something were to happen to him, I wouldn’t want you to take at as if he were your son, because you know differently. Whatever suits you. If you enjoy calling him Luke, go ahead.

Yes, I have already left for Dagobah…In fact, I am there right now. I thought I already told you why I wanted to go there. There has been an emergency that has come up, and I want to discuss a certain subject with Yoda. It’s a confidential issue that I would rather not discuss with you, if you don’t mind. I do not want the subject to accidentally come back and hurt you. You’ve been through enough already. I’m not sure how long I will be gone. And one other thing…you should know me better, and realize that I do not believe in luck.

I might not be back in time to meet at the rendezvous point for some time. Like I said, I don’t know how long this project will take, so I may not be back for a month or more. Tell me how things went at the base after the probe droid.

Obi-Wan


Written on 9/30/02
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Note 16
Obi-Wan,

You were right about the probe droids, they WERE dangerous! Only a few days after they came, Imperial Walkers came and shot down our base! Most of our people got away, but I don’t know where Luke or Leia is! I know Luke is with you, so he must be safe, but I worry about Leia!

Of course I remembered Leia’s birthday! I was going to give her a new dress, as her old ones are looking a little frail and worn. Just yesterday, though, I found a piece of japor snippet that I picked up on Tatooine the last time I was there, and crafted it into a little charm. It’s not nearly as nice as the charm Anakin made for me, of course, as I’m no craftsman, but it IS quite lovely!

As for Wedge, today, after I pretended to be shocked to hear that it was Wedge’s ansd Leia’s birthday, I treated them both to some cake. It WAS supposed to be a nice, leisurely lunch, but kids will be kids, and they nearly started a food fight in the café!

Lately, Vader has been talking a lot about Luke, but he didn’t really talk about Leia, or refer to her as anything but Organa’s child. So I think Leia is safe, for the moment at least.

A celebration dance? Hmm, that would be a good idea. I’ll talk about it with Bail. Maybe he could work something out!

I’m sorry if I insulted you or the Order by over-thanking you (I know that can be annoying, the other Luke Skywalker won’t stop questioning my morality either!). Still, Jedi or not, you are like an older brother to me, and I really appreciate all the support you have given me over the years. Not every Jedi Knight would go through such lengths for me, and I appreciate it.

My conversations with my parents lately have been quite…strained. It seems that all they want to talk about is my romantic life! I try to bring up another topic, like politics, but they just go back to romance!

I know what you mean that Anakin didn’t win the race because he was arrogant, he one it because he was skilled and patient. I know how angry he is at you for not letting him take the trials, but I think you’re right, he WAS just TOO arrogant to face life without some humility.

You’re right about me trying not to think of Luke as my son, but, well, he’s so much like him! Or at least what I envision him to be, sweet and warm-hearted. Still, I’ll try to keep my distance.

Of course I would never tell Luke about Anakin becoming Vader, but I did tell Luke tat Vader was once a good guy. I think it would only be fair for Luke to know that the man he is fighting was not always bad. I won’t tell him that Vader was once a great Jedi Knight, only that once he was a good man who lost perspective of his morals.

If you don’t want to talk about going to Dagobah, that’s fine, you don’t have to. Although I did become a little curious at your mention that it might hurt me. Are you doing something that involves Anakin? Leia? I feel that I have a right to know, but I trust you. If you feel it’s better to be kept a secret, then I won’t pry.


Padmé
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Note 17
Padmé,

I had a feeling that those probe droids meant trouble. So Imperial Walkers shot down your base? That’s disturbing, but it sounds like the Rebellion handled the situation well. You don’t know where Leia is? I don’t know where she is either!!!!!! Your pilot friend, Luke, he is safe I am sure. Do not worry yourself about him. You mean you know that Luke is on Dagobah too? He must have told you himself. Sigh….all right, yes, he is on Dagobah too. I am on a different part of the planet from him, though, so he is not actually with me. I am attending to my own business, as I told you before.

Now as for Leia, I have not heard anything from her. Please let me know if you do.

I’m glad that you were able to remember Leia’s birthday. Of course you know that your children were born on Dagobah. That was not the best place to bring two children into the world…a swamp…but at least that was a much better place than any Imperial establishment would have been.

You said you gave Leia a charm you crafted out of japor, a piece you found on Tatooine the last time you were there. When WAS the last time you were there? And did you visit the Lars homestead when you were there last?

That was very thoughtful of you to treat both Wedge and Leia out for cake. I’m sure they enjoyed it. You said they nearly started a food fight? What? They’re 20 years old!

Vader’s been talking a lot about Luke? Really…somehow that doesn’t surprise me. He’s been doing the same thing when he writes me. He’s blaming Luke’s death on me, among other things. It doesn’t bother me, because I know it’s not true. It’s all a lie, and in actuality, it is VADER’s fault for Luke’s death. What has Vader said regarding Luke?

That’s good; I’m glad Vader hasn’t said anything about Leia, and that he thinks she’s Organa’s daughter. See, I told you she was safe, and that he didn’t know.

Yes, I think a celebration dance would be good. Have you discussed it with Bail yet? And has everyone reached the rendezvous point? How is everything holding up in the fleet?

My dear, nothing you could ever say would be likely to offend me. You did not insult the Order or myself by expressing your thanks for everything I have ever done for you. It is good to know that I am appreciated, and you did not annoy me. We have both been through a lot, and I can understand how you would doubt a person. Your own husband, whom you loved, turned on you.

I’m sorry to hear that your conversations with your parents have revolved around romantic discussions. Hopefully in time, they will find more important things to talk about, or it will be safe to reveal to the galaxy that Leia is your daughter. How do you think your parents would react if they found out that you were pregnant, and had children without their knowing?

Actually, that wasn’t what I was trying to get at either. What I was trying to say is that Anakin won the pod race because of his love to help others. He did it just so he could help you and my former master. That’s the reason. Thank you for supporting me and letting me know that you feel I was right in not letting Anakin take the trials. Sometimes I feel as if I acted wrongly, but it is wonderful to hear that I have some support.

I’m just trying to protect your heart, Padmé. If something were to happen to this pilot named Luke, I don’t want you to become too attached to him. You’ve lost so much, and if you get too close with young pilots, you might lose them, and if you care too deeply for them, you will feel a great loss, especially if you thought of this Luke as your son. What do you mean when you said, “he’s so much like him!” I know you tried to clarify that by saying, “what I envision him to be, sweet and warm-hearted.” Did you mean anything more by that statement, the one, “he’s so much like him!” Or not?

You told Luke the pilot that Vader was once a good guy? So did I. I knew he was going to question me about it, since you had already brought it up, so I thought I’d better make that clear. I told Luke that Vader was once a Jedi Knight, but I didn’t say much more than that. You could not have been better at describing what happened to Anakin than you were when you said, “he was a good man who lost perspective of his morals.” That is so true.

Well, I was just thinking, since Dagobah was the place your children were born…you might not like me to go into too much detail about it. You ask if I’m doing anything that involves Anakin or Leia? Truthfully, yes, I am doing something that involves both of them. Again, I cannot tell you what it is, but since you felt you had the right to know, I answered your question. Please do not ask me any more about what I am doing on Dagobah. I am working on something by myself…and it is away from Luke (pilot), and whatever he might be doing here. I suppose he did tell you what he was doing here. Yoda is training him to use the Force (he is a LITTLE bit force sensitive), and Yoda decided to take on a younling. I suggested Leia to him, but he thought that would put Leia in too much danger, and he wanted someone that wasn’t very Force Sensitive to see if the Empire would find out about the training or not. If they don’t find out, then I’ll go ahead and have Leia trained, all right? We just want to make sure it’s safe for your daughter to be trained.

Obi-Wan
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Note 18
Obi-Wan,

I know you are trying to protect me by not telling me that you are training Luke, who in fact is very Force-sensitive, but I already know. Luke told me himself. It’s all right; I’m perfectly okay with it. In fact, I like the idea of you taking another apprentice, especially one like Luke, who I know won’t make the same mistakes as Ani. Luke isn’t nearly as arrogant or cocky; in fact, he seems as if he NEEDS confidence. I could never imagine Ani needing confidence.

What I meant in my last letter was that I envisioned Luke to be like the other Luke, sweet and warm-hearted, not that he was actually so much like him. How in the world would I know what my son would be like if he were alive? I wished I did, but I know I don’t.

I also heard from Luke that Leia is on a ship with Han. They seemed to have ran into an asteroid field pursued by Imperials, but they got out of that mess nicely. I think Solo would be able to take care of her, especially since I suspect he has a crush on her.

I’m not sure I agree with Dagobah being a better place to bring a child into the world than an Imperial establishment. Dagobah was so dirty and unsanitary. If Luke had been born in an Imperial establishment, their instruments might have saved him, and then I could sneak him out of there before the Imperials came for him. Of course, if that happened Vader might have found Luke and made him wish he was dead.

Trust me, I’m not the only one who agrees with you not letting Anakin take the trials. Had he taken the trials and become a Knight, his ego would destroy any caution or restraint that he learned from you, making him an even easier target for Palpatine. The entire Council probably agreed with you.

I don’t remember the last time I was at Tatooine; it seems a lifetime ago. I’m actually on my way now, with Gwydion, to visit the Lars homestead, and hopefully see Luke’s grave.

You don’t think 20-year-old people could start food fights? I thought you were at Anakin’s twentieth birthday party! Now that I think of it, you were the one who accidentally spilled wine over Anakin and started the food fight!

Vader lately seems to be spending all of his ink insulting you. He blames you for everything, for holding him back from the trials, for not letting him rescue his mother, for Luke’s death…for everything. He keeps telling me that I could have brought Luke to Vader when he was a baby, and Vader would have saved him and kept him a secret from the Empire. I highly doubt he was capable of doing that, though.

Bail and I were about to plan a celebration dance, but then we all got separated. Some of the rebels were captured, some like Leia and Han never made it to the rendezvous point, some like Luke, Gwydion, you, and me aren’t even going to the rendezvous point…another battle is starting so we probably shouldn’t be celebrating anyway until we can recover from this blow. I really hope that my parents never find out about Luke and Leia. Well, I suppose it would be okay for them to find out about Luke, as they can’t exactly turn HIM into any kind of heir, but I would never let anyone be subjected to the treatment my parents would subject to Leia, the rightful heir of the royal bloodline. Of course, there’s also the fact that I eloped with a man without my parent’s permission, which probably isn’t the best thing to tell them.

We’re nearing Tatooine now, so I better go.


Padmé


PS Luke told me that when he arrived on Dagobah he could neither spot you or Yoda. Instead, he spotted a little green guy. I understand that you Jedi have special methods for training, but don’t be too hard on him. He IS trying his best, even if he IS much older than the typical Jedi.
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Note 19
Padmé,

I instructed Luke not to tell anyone how Force Sensitive he was. Sigh…I hope he didn’t tell anyone besides you. Yes, I am training Luke…but not directly. I helped Yoda come up with the training program, but Yoda is the one that is actually training him. I’m just here if Yoda needs my help. Padmé…I know you like Luke very much, but I warned you not to get too close to him for a reason. That reason is that we don’t know for certain he won’t turn. I don’t want you to be hurt because of it; so don’t get too close to him. He may not be arrogant or cocky, like Anakin was, but that does not me he won’t turn. Until he finishes his training, he has a danger of turning. Vader has already senses his power, and of course wants him for the Dark Side…Palpatine may even be aware of Luke. Because of this, I ask you not to become too close to Luke. If anything should happen to him (like getting killed, or turning), I don’t want to be responsible for your hurt. Promise me you won’t get too emotionally attached to this boy. Training him is VERY dangerous, but the risk must be taken. And if you’re wondering how I know Luke is in danger from Vader, Vader has written me and expressed it himself…how he wants to either kill Luke or turn him.

I was just asking the question. I was confused by it and wanted you to explain. I know you would have no idea what your son would be like if he were alive.

Leia and Han are not back at the rendezvous point yet? That worries me. Imperials are pursuing them? You said they’re out of that mess then? That’s a relief. The sooner they reach the rendezvous point, the better about them I’ll feel. You have reason to believe that Han has a crush on Leia? That’s a relief to me too…you have no idea why, but it is. Does she return his feelings? Be sure to notify me as soon as they reach the rendezvous point.

You thought Dagobah was dirty and unsanitary? Well we didn’t have much notice that you would be giving birth there…I mean you stayed with Bail Antilles (Organa after the Empire began) on Alderaan, until the day Bail’s wife gave birth to Wedge. You wanted to come here to talk with Yoda and me…to give Bail and his wife some time alone with their new son, but we had no idea you were going to give birth on that day too. After all, you weren’t even due for another month (that is right, isn’t it…or did I have that wrong). On such short notice we couldn’t clean up the huts very well. We tried our best. We DID have a doctor on Dagobah at the time, if you will remember. Dr. Que delivered your babies, and he did his best with Luke. He had some instruments there, and I think he did about as well as any person at an Imperial establishment would have done. I am afraid you are right…if Luke had been born in an Imperial establishment, it would have been too easy for Palpatine (not necessarily VADER…remember, he didn’t even know you were pregnant, so he wouldn’t have tried to check the medical centers) to find out and destroy your children. Palpatine DID try to kill your children anyway, if you will remember.

Every day that I hear about what Darth Vader has done, I am greatly pained. In the back of my mind I think, “he was my Padawan. I should not have let it happen. I should never have allowed him to talk to Palpatine.”

Did you ever visit Tatooine after I gave Luke to Owen and Beru. (Remember, he was already dead at that time.) Or was your last time for being on Tatooine when you and Anakin saved Shmi? You and Gwydion are on your way to the Lars homestead to see Luke’s grave. Are you sure you REALLY want to do that? I’m not even sure where they live anymore. Do they still live on Tatooine? They refused to contact me, so I don’t know. And I’m not exactly sure if they would welcome your company…I mean you WERE Anakin’s wife…and they might not see the need for a mother of a dead baby to come to their homestead. They might, in part, blame you for what happened to Anakin. I advise you against going.

LOL, I forgot about Anakin’s birthday party. How did you know about it anyway? I assume he must have told you…he turned 20 just before we took the mission to protect you.

I don’t doubt that about Vader…that he would insult me. He keeps on telling me in all of his letters how much he hates me. I know he blames me for his injuries, for Luke’s death, for his mother’s near death, and for holding him back from the trials. Believe me, he has expressed that to me clearly enough. I feel sad that Vader could not get passed the Dark Side and see what was beyond that. I very much doubt that Vader would have been able to save Luke and keep him a secret from the Empire…but I don’t know…when he became Darth Vader, I ceased to understand him.

Perhaps we can have the celebration dance once everyone meets up at the rendezvous point? Unless there is something more pressing by that time? There is another battle that is starting? Where? I haven’t heard a word about it!

I wouldn’t even suggest telling your parents about Luke. You’d never hear the end of it from them…about how you were pregnant and lost their only heir. Padmé, remember, you DID tell your parents about your marriage to Anakin. They knew he was your husband soon after your marriage. Of course, as I can imagine, they weren’t happy about it. I don’t know what they’d say if you were to ever tell them that you were pregnant with Anakin’s children. That might upset them a tad.

As for Luke (the pilot) seeing a green guy when he landed, didn’t you assume that it was Yoda? He told me about it long before Luke’s landing, that he would disguise himself as a swamp creature to test Luke…test his patience and more about him. Yoda was against training him, but I convinced him finally.

As for making the training hard, yes, I read what you wrote, but just because he’s trying really hard will not make us alter his training. We WILL train him just as we would train anyone else with his level of Force Sensitivity. I don’t care that he’s never been trained, or whether he’s used to exercising so much, or anything else. He is our last hope, and for that reason, he will work hard. We can’t afford to be easy on him.



Obi-Wan
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Note 20
Obi-Wan,

I looked through some of my old notes, and I found out why the name Arawn Corta was so familiar. ARAWN CORTA WAS SOLA’S DIVORCED HUSBAND! And to think, he’s now a spy to the Empire! Luke’s been hinting also that Arawn Corta seems to be reporting a lot of his actions to the Empire. Luke could be the last Jedi, so you should do your best to protect him from Corta. In the meantime, I’ll try to contact Sola and ask more about what Corta knows. For some reason, though, Sola seems to be harder to reach these days.

I know that Vader was your Padawan; he was my husband, too. I feel the same guilt as you. We just have to accept the fact that Vader ISN’T Ani anymore, and he probably won’t ever be again, and that it really isn’t our fault.

I know that getting attached with a Jedi in training is dangerous. I’ve already learned that lesson. But even if you could rewind time to when I first met Ani, and grew attached to him, I would not change my feelings a bit. Everyone deserves a chance, even if you know they will reject that chance. Besides, I would go through all that hurt again if I could have another chance to feel the love I once felt. I know that Luke might still turn, and I’m perfectly prepared to handle that if it ever happens.

Actually, Anakin had told me about his birthday party. He showed me a picture of the food fight, and told me that whenever I thought of him, to think of the laughing man in that picture. I think he knew at the time that he was becoming more and more…dark, and he wanted me to remember that there WAS once a light part of him.

I didn’t mean to say that you didn’t do your best in helping me when I was pregnant I appreciate it very much! It’s just…I wish so much that the situation could have been different. That I could have been in Coruscant or Naboo, with my family and husband surrounding me, knowing that I would bring two new lives into this galaxy, two lives that would fill our lives with happiness. I suppose it’s just dreaming, though, and I shouldn’t do that so much.

Luke wrote to me about how Yoda didn’t want him to be trained. I realize that he being so old, and so Force sensitive, he might be hard to train, but really, he IS our last chance! I don’t see why Yoda was so against his training! He told me that his father was once a great Jedi Knight. If Luke ever is in a situation that he might have to choose between good and evil, at least he had that to hold on too!

Luke also told me that you said that Vader and Anakin were a lot alike. How could you tell him that? We both know that Vader and Anakin were completely different. Anakin was the innocent little boy that I fell in love with, and Vader was the monster that took over him.

I know that I shouldn’t give out any names about Luke’s (my son’s) previous whereabouts, but now that the Empire knows of Luke (my son) anyways, do you think it would be safe to mention the names Owen and Beru? After all, Vader knows of them and their whereabouts, too.

No, I never DID visit Tatooine after that time Anakin and I went to save Shmi. I want to go there now, though, to find closure. My son is dead, my daughter can never know of me, and my husband will never come back again, and I really need to accept that. I think that seeing Luke’s grave will help me understand that. I realize that this might disturb Beru and Owen, but really, it’s been almost twenty years, we all really need to find closure.

The battle I was talking about was the one at Hoth. It was a short battle, but it showed that the Empire is tracking us again, and will probably catch up with us soon. We need to be ready. Also, Vader keeps talking to me about some ultimate plan. I’m not sure what he’s talking about, but I have this feeling that this time it isn’t his ego talking, that there really is something big about to happen.

Leia DID write back, and, while her feelings DO seem to reciprocate Han’s feelings, she seems hesitant to let herself act to these feelings. Perhaps you could give her more encouragement on that. Right now, they’re at Bespin, with a man called Calrissian, and are attending some sort of banquet. Funny, I remember in Vader’s last letter he spoke of attending a banquet as well. Everyone seems to like to eat these days!

Well, we’re at the Lars’ homestead now. Funny, there aren’t any people here to greet us. I better go take a look.


Padmé
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Note 21
Padmé,

So it was your sister that Arawn Corta married? I see. Remember, I thought that he married someone that had some kind of connection with you? I also told you that Arawn had worked for Palpatine before he worked for Vader. I also remember telling you that Vader was bragging about some great guy named Arawn Corta, who was an excellent spy. Remember too, that Arawn was the man that kidnapped your twins shortly after they were born and brought them before Palpatine to be killed? But that I was able to rescue them from Palpatine, but that Palpatine sent Arawn out after me to bring them back to him. I was able to get Luke away from Arawn, but the Maurders had kidnapped her….and so on. I know I wrote you all about that. Look back a few letters and you’ll find it.

So it’s nothing knew that Arawn is a spy to the Empire…he worked for Palpatine long before he worked for Vader. Now how Arawn knows about Luke the pilot, I have no idea. Maybe he has stuck himself in with the Rebellion and has been observing Luke the pilot. That wouldn’t surprise me….with the extremes Vader seems to be going to get Luke (pilot).

Of course I will do my best to protect him from Arawn…I am doing my best to protect him…but I’m afraid I’ve failed. During Luke’s last training session, Yoda taught him about Jedi visions. All of a sudden, Luke got a Jedi vision about Leia and Han being tortured, and in great pain. Because of his loyalty towards his friends, and because of his hatred towards Vader (which was probably my fault. I shouldn’t have said the things that I did. I should have realized what would happen), he has decided to abandon his training for now. Yoda and I tried our best to convince him to stay, but he refused….much like Anakin did before he went off to face Palpatine. You remember that, of course…

I believe that Vader set that whole thing up on purpose so that Luke would feel their pain and want to come to Cloud City to save them. Vader wants Luke for his powers, and Yoda and I tried our best to convince him to stay. The worst part is I can do nothing about it. I felt so helpless when Luke took off in his X-Wing. I hope he doesn’t turn…but I can’t interfere with the fight that is bound to happen. If Luke turns, I’ll NEVER be able to forgive myself. Padmé, I tried everything to get him to stay here.

I’m afraid that when Luke fights Vader that he will turn for sure. Yoda shares my opinion on the matter. This is worse than when Anakin turned…because there’s less of a chance that Luke will not turn….

All I can say is I can protect Luke no longer. He is on his own. It gives me a terrible feeling. I can’t control what will happen during the fight, the words that will be said, or the outcome.

I can imagine that Sola would be harder to reach these days. Let me know if you can contact her…and what she says.

I feel like I’ve failed you now more than ever before. I cannot understand why, and I cannot tell you. I wish so much that Anakin could have loved you again…and continued to love you for the rest of your life. You deserve that much…but you have your friends, and you do have Leia.

You don’t know everything Padmé….and if you did…it would kill you.

I hope you’re right; that you could handle Luke (pilot)’s turning…but I’m not sure you would be able to. You’ve become so attached to him…that…just don’t get any closer to him, please?

I don’t know….I don’t know when Anakin knew he was becoming dark. You could be right; he could have known when he gave you that picture.

I would have given anything for you to be able to have your twins on Corucant or Naboo with your husband and family surrounding you…but as you know, it was impossible. I wish you could have raised both of them, and seen them grow…and be their mother.

Oh…about what Luke (pilot) told you when he went to Yoda’s house…remember, that was only his point of view. Actually, by that time, Yoda had already agreed long ago to train Luke. He was just testing Luke’s patience, and testing Luke’s reaction. He would have really not trained Luke had he failed the tests completely. And we shouldn’t have trained him. I can’t believe we’ve made such great mistakes with Padawans. Yes, Luke’s father, Alex, WAS a great Jedi Knight. But…I’m afraid the point you made in reference to that would only make him more vulnerable to the Dark Side.

I’m afraid you’re going to find everything out soon…and when you do, please do not blame me. I am only trying to protect you from being very hurt. I don’t like what’s been going on…but I cannot control the events.

Yes, I did tell Luke that Vader and Anakin were a lot alike. I did that because…well I’ll tell you later all right. I too, wanted him to know that Vader was not always a terrible person…that there was some good in him at one time. You told me yourself that you wanted him to know that.

Just who are you thinking of giving out Luke’s (your son’s) aunt and uncle’s names too? If the person does not already know that Vader was your husband, I do NOT want you to tell them that Owen and Beru were his aunt and uncle. This is partially to protect Owen and Beru. They are members of the Rebellion…I’m not sure how active they are, but I do know they are part of the Rebellion. I don’t want them to get hurt. Do NOT tell anyone that does not know that Vader is Anakin their names. I’m asking this of you. Please promise me you will not say a word about it to anyone…even to your most trusted pilot friend.

Padmé, I wish I could talk you from going to Tatooine, but obviously I can’t. Remember what I warned you about…that Owen and Beru might not welcome you, that they might be very rude to you. Don’t spend too long looking for the grave. I’m not even sure Owen and Beru could have afforded to buy a grave marker to mark his grave. You would like to see his grave marker, wouldn’t you? If there is none, wouldn’t that upset you, because you would think that no one wanted to remember your son?

Vader’s been talking about an ultimate plan? I have an idea what he’s talking about, and if I’m right, it’s going to be FAR from good. I couldn’t argue with you there, I think there is something big about to happen too. I wish I could do anything to prevent it from happening…but Vader is a Sith and has proven a hard enemy. It will be hard to stop his plan from advancing.

Has Leia written you again? Do you know if she is safe on Cloud city? Could Luke’s Jedi vision have been his imagination? With great pleasure I will encourage Leia to express her feelings for Han. I appreciate that you would suggest this of me. Vader spoke of a banquet in his last letter, and Leia spoke of one in hers as well? Hmm…I guess people do like to eat a lot these days.

So no one is home in the Lars’ homestead? That doesn’t surprise me. Make sure you tell me what you discover there, because I am interested.


Obi-Wan
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Note 22
Obi-Wan,

Leia’s been captured by Vader! She’s being tortured! And the worst part is, I think Vader might be on to our secret! You have to go and help her!

Luke told me in his last letter that Vader was torturing Leia but not asking her any questions. I think…I think he knows, and he’s trying to get back at me for lying! Please, go help him, or at least let Luke help him!

Wait, you’re right, Vader is probably only torturing Leia to bait Luke. Personally, though, I don’t see why you’re so worried about him. He seems pretty on top of things. If all else fails at least he can think of what a great knight his father was. Ani never even had that.

What is it that you don’t want me to know? Is it about Leia? Luke? Speaking of which, Gwydion and I are heading toward a planet called Blue Waters now to look for the Lars, since apparently they live there. I really hope I get some answers there so I can return to the Rebellion.

I think Anakin always knew he was going dark, he just wouldn’t admit it to himself. Even now he still tries to hide his…sithlike tendencies behind the Empire, saying how it was only for the good of the people, preserving order and ending slavery. All a bunch of garbage, if you ask me.

I wish Ani still loved me too. Still, I have to face the fact that it probably would never happen. Ani’s changed, and he probably won’t be the same again.

You said that the point of reference I made to Luke’s father would only make him more vulnerable to turn. Why do you say that? From what I’ve heard, Luke’s father seemed to have been a great Jedi Knight with integrity, and never fell to the Dark Side.

What is it that I’m going to find out? Please tell me. I won’t blame you if you tell me now, but I would like to be warned, if that’s okay.

Alright, alright! If you don’t want me to tell anyone about the whereabouts of the Lars, I won’t! I don’t want anything bad to happen to them, either!

I want to go to Tatooine not to see Luke’s grave marker, but to see his grave! I want to know where his body lays! I know it might upset the Lars, but I really need to see.

Well, Gwydion’s back, and I’d better go see him now. I’ll talk to you later!

Padmé
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Note 23
Padmé,

Okay, so Leia’s been captured by Vader? She was being tortured? So, Luke’s (pilot) Jedi vision turned out to be correct. That’s what I was afraid of. Have you heard from Luke since he left Dagobah? I haven’t. If so, do you have any idea what happened? And where Leia is?

Padmé, calm down. Now, think about it for a few minutes. If Vader knows Leia is his daughter, why would he torture her? I don’t think even he could be so cruel to his own child (at least I hope not). I could be wrong there, though. Anyway, you said, “And the worst part is, I think Vader might be on to our secret! You have to go and help her!” Do you have any evidence of this? Why do you think he knows? Has he mentioned something about her to you? If I were to go off there right away, like Luke did, I would be acting too much on an impulse. We must consider Vader’s motives, and the events surrounding. Jedi do not just rush into battle on the first impulse. I would give anything to help Leia, but I don’t believe her life is in too much danger.

And you said that you thought Vader was torturing Leia to get back at you for lying to him. How would that work? I don’t think he intended for you to find out in the first place…with the way he seems to be acting. You are not Force Sensitive, so you couldn’t have had a Jedi vision that would reveal what he was doing. I doubt that Luke (pilot) will be able to help her.

I am almost 100% sure that Vader tortured Leia (and Han and Chewie…don’t forget he tortured them too) only to bait Luke. I can’t tell you why I think that, but it’s evident to me. Padmé…you don’t understand what’s happening, and if you did, you would be as worried as I am. Luke is pretty on top of things, but things are not always as they appear. Luke sees Vader as someone who tortured his very close friends…and he wants to fight Vader to free them, and to take revenge for the Jedi’s deaths. I’m pretty sure, Vader would not go to the extent of torturing Leia and Han, and let Luke rescue them. I KNOW he wants Luke for his powers…for his Force ability. He’s going to set up a fight. I have no doubt there will be a confrontation.

The outcome of which, I can only guess at. I can only hope that he does not turn to the Dark Side. That is my greatest fear. I’m not so worried about Vader killing him…I’m much more concerned with Luke’s vulnerability…and whether he will turn or not.

Please tell me if you hear anything about the fight. If you don’t, we can assume that either Vader killed him, or he turned. Make sure you tell me. I would like to know so that I can prepare for a different training program for Leia.

Padmé, I’m afraid Luke (pilot) will be confronted with something that could make him turn. Information that he’s not prepared for. I don’t know how he’s going to handle this information, and it could make him turn against me.

For as long as I can, I will keep my secret from you. I don’t want you to go through unnecessary hurt, especially if something terrible happened during that fight (if Luke pilot died or turned.) I will not tell you what it is…but you are bound to find out sooner or later. When you do, contact me and I will sit with you and be close to you, and we can talk out everything. I’m not going to make you go through this alone. I don’t believe you are ready for it yet. You must prepare yourself.

You and Gwydion went to a planet called Blue Waters? I’ve never heard of it. Why do you think the Lars live there? Did someone tell you they did, or what? Or did you look up the name Lars and found out that a Lars family lived there? You must be cautious. I have no idea where you got the information, but if it’s from an unknown source, be careful. I advise against going anywhere to look up what happened to Luke….but it is your decision. I can’t stop you from going.

I gave up on Anakin during the fight where he burned himself. It was during that fight that I thought there was still good in him…that I could turn him back to the light side, to what he had stood for before. But when he fell into that pit, the evil was burned into him forever. I don’t think there is any hope for him ever to turn back…to be honest with you. I also think that (and Yoda shares the same view as me) once a Jedi strays to the Dark Side, there is no coming back. The person has made a decision. No Jedi that has ever turned to the Dark Side has ever come back to the light. It is our experience…Dooku and Vader and our old history records from before the Republic…all point to this fact. That is why I’m taking this confrontation between Luke (pilot) and Vader so seriously. If Luke turns, there’s going to be no way getting him back.

Padmé, let the subject of Luke (pilot)’s vulnerability drop. I have already told you as much as I could about it. Just leave it be. I know more about it than you do…so you’ll just have to trust my judgment.

I have already told you as much as I could about my secret. I’m sorry…I can’t tell you any more. Just think of the worst possible thing, and that should prepare you for the truth when it is finally revealed to you. I don’t think you will have to wait long, though. I think you will find out VERY soon.

Make sure you tell me how your research on Luke (your son) is going.



Obi-Wan
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Note 24
Obi-Wan,

Not only has Leia been captured, but also so has Luke! And Gwydion and me, too! This plan of Vader’s is really starting to unfold now.

Okay, I’m taking deep breaths now, and calming down. Yes, you were right, Leia wasn’t in any danger, she was only bait for Luke. She’s safe, now, or she was the last time she wrote me.

I don’t know how long that’ll last, though! I let it slip twice in my letters that Ani and I had more than one child! How stupid can I get? How could I be such a bad mother as to endanger my daughter’s life like that?

Okay, calming down again. Aren’t you glad I’m not a Jedi?

Vader tortured Leia to bait Luke, like you predicted. He doesn’t know of Leia’s true heritage yet, but he’s on the verge of finding out.

Yes, there was a confrontation, from what I hear from Luke. He said that Vader was hurting him badly, but not killing him. Why is this? You say it’s because he wants Luke’s Force abilities. I suppose that’s true, but why Luke? Why not all the other children who are Force Sensitive? Does it have to do with what you are trying to protect me from? The worst possible thing I could think of…would be much worse than I’d care to think about! Just tell me straight out, Obi-Wan, what is it? Is it about my son? Tell me, I need to know!

You plan to train Leia too? Do you have s little faith in Luke? I know you’ve been hurt, but Luke’s a good man. He won’t turn, no matter how much you think he will.

If you don’t want me to sit alone about this secret, then why don’t you tell me? I’d much rather hear it from someone I know and trust than someone like Vader!

I suppose you’re right about Vader never turning back, but Luke, he won’t turn. He’s strong in the heart, even if he does appear insecure about himself.

About Blue Waters, now. Gwydion and I landed there in hopes of finding the Lars, as you know. We got the address from Vader. I suppose that should have sent warning bells through my head, but I was stupid, and didn’t think about it.

You probably already figure this out, but it was a trap. The address was to Arawn Corta’s home. He captured us, and we are now awaiting our death. I suppose I should have expected this to happen; I can’t run from Vader forever. I wish they would let Gwydion go, though. He doesn’t deserve to die.


Well, I better go.


Padmé

PS: I just received a letter from Luke, and he claimed that…I’m not sure if this is true, but he claimed that Vader had said that Luke was his SON! I know that Vader’s been a stinky liar lately, ambushing Gwydion and me, but, I don’t know, would he lie about something THIS serious?

Did Vader remarry after he turned? Because otherwise, if he was telling the truth, then that would mean that Luke’s mother would be…ME! Is this the secret you were hiding? Please, let’s clear this up, now! I can’t stand all these secrets!
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Note 25
Padmé,

I need to clear something up right away. I read your PS message, and I’ll start with that.

What if I told you that your son was still alive? What would you say?

I can’t say that I’m surprised that Vader told Luke that he was his father. I expected it. It is unfortunate, but Yoda and I tried everything to get Luke not to leave Dagobah…because we knew Luke wasn’t ready to hear it. We would have told him at the end of his training, after he had been prepared to go confront Vader. But at that point, he just wasn’t ready to hear it. Maybe I was wrong in lying to him about his father. I am human, and have made mistakes before. You know that from my failure with Anakin.

As you can tell from my response, Vader was NOT lying when he told Luke that he was his father. He’s (Vader) known for a while…but not that long. He’s known ever since Luke blew up the Death Star. Arawn Corta told him around that time. That’s why I was so worried then.

I also want to put your mind at ease. Although after Vader turned, he became evil, he did not lose his morals, or his dedication to you. I don’t believe that he could have done anything that would hurt you, or have acted in an unfaithful way to you. Vader did not remarry after he turned, and he did not have sex with anyone. He is above that. Yes, that Luke is your son, Padmé.

I admit I have been lying to you about him. And again, I may have been wrong. But I honestly did think Luke would die after I gave him to Owen and Beru. That’s what the doctor told us, remember, and he WAS very sick. I didn’t think there was any way he would survive. I couldn’t bear to see my failure…Anakin’s turning and Luke’s death, so I avoided the Lars homestead. Owen also made it clear that he never wanted to see me again after giving him Luke. I left them completely alone for 20 years. Then all of a sudden I started receiving letters from this “Common Person” who asked for information on his school project on Anakin Skywalker. He seemed to be a very nice boy, but I didn’t know who he was. After the first few letters, I picked up on the fact that he was Force Sensitive himself, but I still didn’t know who he was until I asked for his name. He told me it was Luke Lars, and then of course I knew who he was.

Because I had thought you had died too…that Vader had killed you before I started writing you…I didn’t tell you. And then when I did find out you were still alive, I didn’t tell you because I wanted to protect you from the hurt of finding Luke again, and then losing him to death or to the Dark Side. I couldn’t bear to see you hurt again, so I kept this information from you. I would have told you at the same time I would have told Luke that his father was Darth Vader.

Yes, this was the secret I was hiding from you. I’m sorry. I hope that you will find it in your heart to forgive me some day.

Now on to answering the rest of your letter:

Are Leia and Han off of Cloud City yet? And what about Luke? Is he all right? Is he still fighting Vader? Did he turn?

Vader has captured Gwydion and you? Oh no! That too comes out of my responsibility. I tried to convince you not to go look up information about Luke, because I knew it was a worthless business….but you wouldn’t be captured right now if I had told you that Luke was still alive.

Now you understand why I was so worried about Luke when he went off to Bespin? That’s also the reason I was trying to encourage Leia to have feelings for Han. I knew Luke and Leia had some feelings between them, and I wanted them to break it. I would never allow a brother and a sister to fall in love.

So Leia is away from Cloud City now? That’s good! So has she arrived at the rendezvous point?

You have let it slip to Vader that you had more than one child? Just hope that Arawn is unable to provide Vader with that information, but it is my guess that Vader will find out. Leia is untrained in the Force, and she is a female. Hopefully Vader will not try to go after both of his children. I would think he’d want his son to turn more than he would want his daughter.

You’re not a bad mother to Leia to endanger her life. You did not mean to let it slip, but it happened. Sometimes events happen that we cannot control. You must accept this.

You should already know why Vader was hurting Luke badly without killing him. It is because Vader wanted Luke for his powers, and since Luke is so Force Sensitive (he has a midi-cholorian count of 29,000), he’s wants Luke for his own use. It might also have to do with the fact that Luke is his son.

If something happens to Luke…if he dies or if he turns, then yes, I will have to train Leia. Luke may be a good man, but you know that Anakin was once too. Luke is 20 years old right now, the same age Anakin was when he turned. Neither of us thought Anakin would turn either…but he did. So just be very, very careful not to get too hurt if Luke turns. I know it will hurt you a lot if he does…especially since you now know that he is your son. You don’t know for a fact that he will not turn.

I am very sorry to hear of your capture. Yoda and I are on our way. What’s the address? We’ll rescue you. But how do you know Vader’s intent is to kill you? What if he is holding you so you will not find out about Luke being your son? Or what if it is for another reason. Vader is pure evil, though, so I’m sure he will kill you eventually, no matter what intent he had in capturing you.

I hope you can accept what I have said.


Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 26
Obi-Wan,

How could you lie to me like that? I thought you were my friend! How could you keep a secret like that? Don’t you understand? He’s my son, MY LITTLE BOY! How could you FORCE me to go through life WITHOUT HIM? YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME ABOUT HIM THE MINUTE YOU REALIZED WHO HE WAS! HOW COULD YOU?

I suppose Vader IS above rape, but it’s better than believing that a man gone mad did something disgusting than a man I TRUSTED to LIE!

Luke, thank goodness, is all right. He was strong, and didn’t turn, though he IS a little bitter. He’s at an informatory, taking pain medication and throwing up, another thing that wouldn’t have happened if he had known who he was! He insists on rescuing me, though I really don’t think that’s a good idea, as Gwydion and I already found a way out through a vent.

You do realize, though, that had you lost faith in him, he would have TURNED JUST LIKE HIS FATHER? Why did you feel so sure that he was going to turn? Don’t you see that you mean the WORLD to him?

I for one will not lose faith in my son! He is a GOOD BOY! He just needs to understand that he didn’t come from a Sith, that he has half a family who loves him! He’s going to see that he’s loved by his mother at least, a mother that will protect him and guide him NOT to be like Vader.

You say you would never let brother and sister fall in love? Well, YOU ALMOST DID! You KNEW that Luke had feelings for Leia, and you KNEW I wasn’t going to stand in the way! It’s disgusting!

I suppose I wasn’t such a good mother to the twins anyway, letting Leia’s existence escape. It doesn’t matter if it was an accident, the point is that it happened, and now Leia has to pay for my mistake. Still, that doesn’t mean that I forgive you!

Don’t bother trying to rescue me, as I said, Gwydion and I already found a way out.

You know what? I’m not going to talk to you any longer! Not after what you did!


Padmé
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Note 27
Padmé,

Please…I don’t want to lose you as a friend. I know you’re very angry with me, and that you have a right to be, but try not to hold a grudge against me. If I were to lose your friendship, it would break my heart.

I AM your friend Padmé, if you will only accept me back as your friend. I already tried to explain to you why I lied to you. I didn’t think Luke would live, and I didn’t know that he was alive until very recently…I understand that he is your son. I was only trying to look out for what I thought was best for you. I didn’t want you to find your son, and then go through losing him all over again. I was wrong in not telling you. I see my mistake, and I am truly sorry.

And Vader hasn’t really gone mad. He was seduced by the dark side.

I’m glad Luke’s all right. So you say he didn’t turn? All right then, Yoda and I will remain on Dagobah until he comes back. He promised he would return. You said Luke’s at an informatory taking pain medication? What’s he doing there? And what’s he doing taking pain medication? I thought you said he was all right. If he would have hurt himself during the training, Yoda and I would not have given him any pain medication, because we know about the Royal force and how it reacts with pain medication. It’s surprising that Luke didn’t already know he was allergic to it. He must have never taken it before.

Have you and Gwydion made it safely to the rendezvous point? I hope so. I’m glad that you two were able to locate a vent shaft, and did not need any outside help.

Experience is what caused me to think Luke would turn…Anakin’s experience. Anakin and Luke were very much alike…and I was afraid that after Luke found out Vader was his father, he’d want to join him. The promise of power is a very convincing thing. Not many can resist it. I see now that I made a mistake in assuming Luke would turn.

I can imagine how horrible Luke must feel right now. As I said, he wasn’t ready to hear the truth. Yoda and I were going to wait until he was finished with his training before telling him…when he would be prepared to hear it. So Luke thinks he came from a Sith? I will do my best to assure him that he did not.

And I think it was a little wrong of you to say that I almost let Luke and Leia fall in love. I did not almost let them! I did not encourage it, and I even tried to dissuade each one of them in their feelings for the other. I kept on encouraging Leia to fall for Han…and you sounded as if that’s what you wanted, and were doing. Did you ever encourage Luke to fall for Leia? You never made any mention of that to me. If you had, I would have strongly opposed it.

Padmé…you weren’t even awake when Luke and Leia were kidnapped. I was the one watching them. Someone knocked me out and took them from me. How can you say you were a bad mother to them just because they got kidnapped…and about Leia. You weren’t even AROUND when she was kidnapped a second time. After I left, it was just Bail and his friend Correon who guarded her. She was kidnapped from them. You had nothing to do with the kidnapping. She was on Alderaan when she was kidnapped, and you were still on Dagobah. How could ANY mother have done something in that position?

And I’m sorry that you do not forgive me…I hope that you will eventually find it in your heart to do so.


An old friend that I hope hasn’t been lost,
Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 28
Obi-Wan,

Don’t bother to contact me. I’m not talking to you until you provide a darn good explanation for what you did to me.


Padmé
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Note 29
Padmé,

I know what I did to you was wrong. I know you do not wish me to contact you, and if that is truly your desire, I will stop contacting you. This will be my last letter.

I have tried to explain why I did what I did, and I have no more to say on the subject. If you will not forgive me for what I did to you, then I do not deserve your friendship. I am very sorry to lose that. I was hoping that wouldn’t happen, but I will not be selfish and sacrifice your happiness.

I did the same with Owen and Beru after I gave Luke to them. They were mad at me, and the result ended up in a 20 year no correspondence period. I have done so much wrong in my life. Anakin’s turning, telling lies about Luke…

You are right in breaking off our friendship. I never deserved it.


Your former friend,
Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 30
Obi-Wan,

Look, I’m sorry for all those harsh words I’ve said to you. I was…angry, frustrated…I don’t want to lose you as a friend.

I don’t think I could afford to break off a friendship with you, not with all of this happening at once. Luke wouldn’t be alive, calling me mom, if it waasn’t for you, and for that I am forever grateful.

Just, next time, let’s be honest with each other, okay?

Yes, Luke did tell me that he’s never taken pain medication until now. I really hope that the medication didn’t damage anything internally! I remember when I took it I was sick for a week. I got better, but I didn’t have poor lungs like Luke.

Also, Luke mentioned to me that his lungs were so weak that he couldn’t even lie on his back because his lungs couldn’t handle gravity! Is it really that serious? Is it fixable?

Gwydion and I have finally made it to the rendezvous point. I managed to spend a short time with Luke before he was on his way to Dagobah, but I hope to have a longer period with him soon.

Yes, you DID make a mistake assuming that Luke would turn! He’s a good boy, he’s my boy! He had BETTER not turn! Besides, unlike Shmi, I know where the Empire is located, and I can go and spank him!

Speaking of which, perhaps it is high time we tell Shmi the truth of what has happened to her son. I wouldn’t want her to go through the same pain as I did, hearing such a secret from someone I don’t trust.

I’m sorry I accused you of letting the twins fall in love. Like I said, I was angry and confused. I know those are feelings of the Dark Side, and I’m trying to stop them.

A friend that hopes she didn’t go too out of line,
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Note 31
Padmé,

I am thankful that you have forgiven me. For a moment, I thought you wanted to end our friendship, and I was hoping that you would not.

I understand that you were angry and frustrated. I wouldn’t want to lose you as a friend either. I accept your apology to me.

All right, I will be honest with you. Sometimes it is hard to know when to be honest and when not to. I don’t like seeing my close friends in pain.

And I don’t think you have to worry about that pain medication damaging anything internally in Luke. How could it? Just because he does not have strong lungs does not mean that the pain medication is going to hurt him internally. In fact, I don’t think his lungs have anything to do with the pain medication’s reaction. Maybe I’m wrong, but I do not believe that it would cause him permanent internal damage. It might take him a little longer to get better, but it’s not going to kill him. If he’s not better yet, he will get better soon. He’s not going to be permanently sick from taking the medicine. I don’t care how weak his lungs are; he will recover from the pain pill reaction.

Hmm…Luke told you that his lungs were so weak that he couldn’t lie on his back because his lungs couldn’t handle gravity? He has not told me that, but I don’t see why he would have had a reason to. If that’s what he said, then it must be true. I don’t think he would lie about that. Come to think of it, though, I have never seen Luke sleep on his back. The times when I saw him sleeping, he was either on his side or on his stomach. I didn’t even think about him not sleeping on his back. Even though his lungs are so weak, it doesn’t seem to affect him that much. He was able to train as a Jedi fine, and he has taken part in battles, and is a great help to the Rebellion. I think he can do things pretty normally, don’t you. I don’t think you need to worry so much about him. And I highly doubt that it is fixable, Padmé. I’m sorry, but I think if it were fixable, it would have been fixed by now. His legs were fixed, so if it would have been possible, his lungs would have been too. I’m not exactly sure of what all is wrong with his lungs, but I do not think that anything could fix the strength of his lungs. I don’t think surgery would help, because I don’t think it would do anything to the strength, and if anything, it would probably make them worse. And there is nothing else that I know of that would fix it. I’m sorry, Padmé.

And you should not be so worried about him. He’s lived for 20 years with his lungs like that, so I don’t think his problems are too bad. I understand that you’re his mother, but you CANNOT make everything perfect for him. No mother can do that for their children.

I’m glad that you have made it to the rendezvous point. I am back from Dagobah is well. Did he tell you that I talked with him? I’m sure you’ll be able to talk with him again. I would like to see you right now, but I cannot find you. I asked Gwydion where you were, and he didn’t know either. Are you in an important meeting right now? I’ll wait until it’s over.

You, like all parents, think their kid is good, and could never do anything bad. Think about Anakin. He was a good boy, wasn’t he? If you were Shmi, do you think your boy would eventually become something so evil? And really, Padmé, do you think if you spanked Luke that that would make him turn to the good side again? He’s 20 years old, Padmé. I don’t think any 20 year old gets spanked.

I too, thought that we should tell Shmi the truth. I have just told Shmi about Anakin. She knows that he’s Vader now, but she will need your support. You can understand how upset she is. She’s been talking to Luke, and he told her about the fight. Of course at that time she didn’t know who Vader was, or Luke was…for that matter. And she was shocked to hear that he was Luke’s father. She needs all of our support right now.

Yes, but Padmé, you’re not a Jedi. Anger and fear do lead to the Dark Side, but EVERYONE feels them at times. Even Jedi do. But if they act on those feelings, that’s when it leads to the Dark Side. It’s impossible to go through life without feeling any kind of anger or any kind of fear.


Obi-Wan
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Note 32
Obi-Wan,

It’s not like I could have had a grudge against you forever! You’re one of my best friends! You saved my children and me so many times!

I suppose it IS hard to know when one should be honest to a friend. After my talk with Shmi…she was so heartbroken! Everyone says that the truth is always best, but in real life it’s so hard to prove!

I suppose that the pain medication won’t affect Luke’s lungs directly, but what if he picks up on bronchitis while he’s weak? Can his lungs handle that? Maybe I’m being overprotective. I suppose he IS an adult now. I still worry about him, though.

So his lungs aren’t fixable? He’ll have to go through the rest of his life with an inhaler? Because his father was too much of a baby to realize how much hurt his anger would cause his sun? You say that he can do basically the same things as everyone else, but how can that be so if he can’t even lie on his back when he sleeps? Can he run well? Does he breathe too hard during saber practice?

I can’t help but be worried about him! I know he’s twenty years old, but for some reason I keep seeing him as baby, my little Luke that I held in my arms all those years ago. I want to take care of him, make sure that he’s happy and well!

I hope we made the right choice to tell Shmi the truth. She seems so hurt! But it was her right to know. These days I feel so confused!

Gwydion keeps wanting me to ask you this and I keep forgetting. Is Leia Force Sensitive? I thought Yoda had implied it once to Luke, but I could be wrong. I suppose it doesn’t really matter to me, I’ll love her all the same. It would be nice to know, though.

I know I’m not a Jedi, but I still have to rein my anger. Vader’s threatening to turn the twins, and if they do turn (which I FERVANTLY believe that they won’t), I just might turn also, unless I manage to retain my morals. So I still have to watch out for fear.

Oh, I’m so sorry I missed you! I went with Luke to Tatooine, to try to rescue Leia. Jabba the Hutt has captured her!

We didn’t go directly to Jabba’s palace, because Luke had to make a new lightsaber first. He brought me to home and showed me his room. It’s so much like Ani’s room, cluttered from top to bottom! He seemed to have gotten a lot of awards, which was wonderful! It’s great knowing that your son did so well in school. And also like Ani, Luke has all these small mechanical models in his room! He’s a builder, just like his father.

After he created a green lightsaber we were off to Jabba’s palace. It was horrible, seeing Leia there, chained to Jabba, wearing nothing but a skimpy slave’s dress. Then the floor opened up and swallowed Luke.

Now Luke is battling a monster, but I can’t seem to get my eyes off Leia. She just found out that I’m her mother, and it’s a big change for the both of us. The guards seemed to notice that I wasn’t moving, and chained me, and are now dragging me to a cell. I feel so stupid not to have done anything! I should have jumped in with Luke and helped him!

Well, I have to go now.


Padmé
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Note 33
Padmé,

Yes, I know Shmi is heartbroken. We can help her through this…all of this. And tell her about Leia and Luke…her natural grandchildren by Anakin. I know it could never replace Anakin, but it should mean something to her to know that she has grandchildren by him.

Your point is well taken about Luke possibly picking something up while he is weak, especially something having to do with his lungs. I’m sure he’s had a lot of lung infections in his lifetime, and I am pretty sure that he has had bronchitis before, and probably more than once. If he did get it, you’re right, he probably would be VERY sick, but with the right care, he’d be okay. I can imagine what bronchitis would do to his asthma, and how he would have to be in the medical center for a long time, but I don’t think that even that would kill him (unless it was untreated). His lungs have to be able to handle infections…even if they make him really sick…because I don’t think he could have lived for 20 years without getting at least one infection before. Besides, he had pneumonia after being left out in the cold on Hoth. Remember that? I guess it was a good thing you didn’t know very much about his lungs then, or that you didn’t know he was your son…or you would have been VERY worried. But now you know why I was worried when Luke had that.

You do have a right and reason to worry about him that way, but make sure you don’t dwell on that and over worry about him. You don’t want worrying over him to take over your life. You are his mother, and there are times when you should be worried about your son.

I don’t know for certain, but I don’t think his lungs are fixable. And yes, I would guess that he would have to go through the rest of his life with an inhaler. I don’t see how his asthma could be completely fixed. Even Anakin had an inhaler, and he didn’t even have asthma very bad.

And although I don’t know for certain that Anakin’s anger caused Luke’s health problems, it’s a possibility. Didn’t you tell me that he used anger and the Force out of anger, to kill an entire community of Sandpeople for almost killing his mother? That might have been enough to cause some kind of affect on Luke. I don’t know for sure. I don’t think we’ll ever know. Luke also might have inherited some of it from his father…because I do know that sometimes asthma can be hereditary, but Luke had it so much worse than Anakin. It’s still possible it could have been inherited. I’m not sure.

And yes, it appears that Luke can basically do the same things as everyone else. You see a Force Sensitive person can draw strength from the Force and from their body, instead of all of it coming from their bodies. Admittedly at first Luke did have problems running during his training. He did tell Yoda and me that he ran every day, and that must have helped him some, because he did better than we thought he would do. We knew how bad his lungs were. We also knew that it would take him a while before he learned to draw his strength from the Force. After he learned to do that, he really did not have much problems at all. Yoda and I had both decided before he had even begun training that we would not lower his training program because of the fact that he had weak lungs and asthma. We made him do the same exercises that we would make any person with his level of force do. He did very well with his training, in fact. If he doesn’t rely on the Force, then no, he can’t run that well (he got out of breath after a little bit of running). Honestly, he can run very well when he uses the Force. Same with the saber practicing…he’s fine as long as he relies on the Force for strength. That is what all Jedi are supposed to do anyway…rely on the Force…to have a high concentration. And using the Force, he can outrun a healthy non-Force user who is used to running. And since he is more Force sensitive than other Jedi, he actually can run BETTER than any of the Jedi that used to be around. Even running from with the Force, takes some physical stuff out of a person…so if Luke runs for too long, he still gets sick, but we would never make him exercise for more than an hour without having some sort of break.

I know that you want to take care of Luke. He must see you, and be very appreciative of your love. But still, you can’t make it so that he’s happy and well all the time. You’re trying your best, and that’s all that any mother can do.

And to answer your question, yes, Leia is Force Sensitive. She’s just as Force Sensitive as Luke is, because they are twins. They both have 29,000 midi-cholorians. That’s what happened when they were born…all of your husbands sperm the night you got pregnant must have contained 29,000 midi-cholorians. That’s how it is with midi-cholorians.

I am well aware that Vader is trying to turn the twins. He’s concentrating on Luke right now, since Luke has already begun his training. Because Luke was able to face Vader and not turn before, I do not think he’s going to turn later. That’s why Yoda and I were pushing for him to fight Vader. He and I both share the same opinion…we believe he is the Chosen One, and not Anakin. We believe it was that way all along.

Jabba the Hutt has captured Leia? Oh wonderful. But since Luke has gone off to rescue her, I have no doubt that she will be safe soon, as will you be.

Luke made a new lightsaber? Good. He must have used that crystal I gave him before he left. Luke showed you his room? I’m so glad that Luke reminds you of the man Anakin once was. Luke did mention to me that he was the top student in his school, so it doesn’t surprise me that he has gotten a lot of academic awards. Good for him. I’m glad that you can be proud of him. Luke has a lot of mechanical models in his room? He didn’t mention them to me. Perhaps his hobby is embarrassing to him?

Did Luke show you any pictures of himself when he was younger? You should get to see those if he didn’t. I’m sure he must have been a cute child. I wonder how much he looked like his father when he was about 9 or 10 years old. That would be interesting to find out.

Jabba has taken Leia as his chained up slave? That is disturbing. Luke is battling a monster? Hopefully he uses what he has learned in training and is able to use the Force to help him come up with a quick solution. I think he’s already been doing that his entire life. Most Force Sensitive people do that.

Do not worry; I’m sure Luke will figure out a way out of his current circumstance, and you WILL be rescued. Be sure to tell me what is going on right now.



Obi-Wan
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Note 34
Obi-Wan,

I’ve already told Shmi about Luke and Leia, and I think it helped her to know that even though her son did all those horrible things, at least he left some good in this universe. I’m looking forward to having a family reunion soon, or as close to one as we could ever really get.

I probably shouldn’t be surprised that you were worried about Luke’s health, but it IS nice to know that you took care of him. I hope his lungs haven’t deteriorated over time because of these illnesses, but he says that he’s seeing a doctor regularly, which brings me some relief.

I know I shouldn’t be so worried about Luke. It’s just, I haven’t had a chance to fuss over him for twenty years! I guess all that stress just sort of built up.

Well, whether or not Luke’s health problems were caused because of Ani’s anger, the thing is that they are there, and he is suffering. I know that I’m fussing again, but I just can’t help but worry for my son’s health.

Well, at least I know now that Luke’s health problems can be alleviated by the use of the Force. At least he has that to rely on. I’m glad that you didn’t lower the training standards fro him, I think it toughened his determination. He’ll need it if he’s going to fight with Vader.

Speaking of which, Luke seems very insistent on going to turn Vader back to the Light Side. It seems he was under the impression that you told him to kill Vader. I know that Vader is a Sith, and a sworn enemy of the Jedi , but he’s Luke’s father! Perhaps I’m hanging onto a man that’s dead, but it still chills me to think of my son out to kill my father.

I wonder if Leia can be trained as a Jedi. Although, it doesn’t seem like she would want to. Do you think it would be okay if she wasn’t trained? I’ve heard that if a Jedi wasn’t trained properly, his/her powers can build up as they grow and overwhelm them. Is that true? I personally like the thought of Leia just being a politician.

Well, Luke and I both rushed over to Tatooine to rescue Leia, but it seems that we are both captured. Don’t worry, though, Luke and I have a plan of escape.

Luke did use the crystal you gave him, and produced a very nice green lightsaber. I’m very proud that he got so many awards in school, and that he was a top student. And yes, he does have a lot of mechanical creations in his room. I wonder why he never told you, because he didn’t really hesitate to show them to me.


Padmé
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Note 35
Padmé,

I’m glad that you have already told Shmi about the twins. She mentioned that to me in her last letter, and how she is so proud of them. I know she’s still upset about finding the truth out about her son, but she seems to be in better spirits. I believe she has been writing to Luke and Leia for a while now, and she was impressed with Luke before. Now that she knows he is her grandson, she has been overjoyed to have him as Anakin’s son. It’s going to be hard for Shmi, for a while…..trying to deal with Anakin turning into Darth Vader. She’ll be able to accept it eventually, as we both were able to do. I hope that she learns quickly that Anakin is gone…and then she won’t be upset for long.

I think the idea of a family reunion would be a very good idea. Who are you thinking of inviting?

And I do care about Luke…just as much as I would if I had a son of my own. He is a very wonderful person. I doubt that Luke’s lungs have deteriorated over time due to lung illnesses. I could be wrong, but I think his lungs, although they’re not very strong and he does have asthma pretty badly, are healthy in the sense that they would be able to repair themselves from temporary damage from illnesses. His lung cells would be healthy, wouldn’t they, even if his lungs aren’t that strong? Even if he is prone to lung illnesses, I don’t think they would permanently damage his lungs. You’ll have to ask him, but if his lungs really were deteriorating over time, he would be getting worse and worse, and I don’t think he’d be able to do the things that he does now. His lungs have obviously improved since he was a baby, and if they were deteriorating, he probably wouldn’t even be able to breathe right now. Besides that, I think Luke tries to take care of his lungs.

Okay, so you said he’s seeing a doctor regularly? That’s good. Have you talked with this doctor? Maybe you should…

I understand why you’re worried about Luke…just don’t let that worry take over your life, okay?

In my opinion, Luke is handling his health problems very well. I don’t know if he’s really suffering because of them. But you are right; they are there.

And yes, Luke can use the Force to help him overcome his health problems during training, and during Jedi related stuff. He really shouldn’t use the Force for that purpose any other time…because that’s not what the Force is intended to do. And once his asthma is making him sick, he can’t use the Force to stop an asthma attack. That’s impossible. It can only prevent it from happening if he is already using the Force when he could be getting sick.

There is no way Yoda and I would have lowered the training standards for him. After all, we wanted him to be the best he could be. He needed to train like all other Jedi, using a training program modified to his level of Force Sensitivity. I too think that it will help with Luke’s determination when he fights Vader.

It does appear that Luke is very insistent on turning Vader back to the Light Side of the Force. I have done my best to convince him that it’s not going to work. I tried myself, and it was during that fight that Vader got burned. The evil had been burned into him. Once someone becomes a Sith, they are consumed by the power of the Dark Side. No one has ever turned back to the Light Side once they were a Sith. Vader is much more Force Sensitive than any other Sith has ever been, and he’s not going to turn back. Look what happened to Count Dooku. All hope of getting Anakin Skywalker back to the Light Side has long ago been destroyed. I did tell Luke to kill Vader…both Yoda and I did. Luke is our last hope, Padmé. He is the Chosen One, the one meant to bring balance to the Force. The only way Luke can do this is by destroying the Sith.

You must not think of Vader as your former husband. He’s more machine now than man, twisted and evil. There is none of Anakin left inside of him. It was hard to accept at first, but that is the truth. When Vader ceased to be Anakin Skywalker, he ceased to be Luke’s father. Because of that, Luke is free to kill him justly.

Leia can be trained as a Jedi, but not until Luke has brought balance to the Force. I would not want to risk having Palpatine and Vader go after Leia too. We don’t know that she wouldn’t turn, and if she did turn, the situation would only be worse. Have you talked with her about being a Jedi? You shouldn’t assume anything, especially that she wouldn’t want to be trained. Whoever told you that was wrong. If a Force Sensitive person is not trained, then they’re simply not trained. Sure, they might want to be trained, but the Jedi powers do not build up in an untrained person or eventually overwhelm them. Think of it this way, a person can only be as Force Sensitive as they were when they were born. Their powers don’t build up over time. The full potential of a Jedi is realized at birth, not a build up over time. An untrained Force Sensitive individual would be able to do stuff normal people couldn’t do, but without training, they could not go beyond a certain level. Anakin used the Force when he was pod racing, or when he was danger, but he could not move objects, or other stuff with the Force before he was trained. Same with Luke. Powers don’t just appear. Someone must be trained for someone to achieve their full potential.

Ask Leia what she wants. If Luke does not fail in the attempt to balance the Force, then Leia wouldn’t need to be trained. If she wants to be a politician, that is fine with me. But make sure you do what SHE wants.

Another event happening on Tatooine? It seems like that planet has been very important to the our history. I was sorry to hear of your capture. Obviously you and Luke found a way out of your mess, because you are back here now.

Luke has shown me his lightsaber. He did an excellent job, and his lightsaber does look very nice. I’m glad he is using his own now, instead of his father’s. He lost that lightsaber in the battle on Cloud City, correct?

You have a right to be proud of your son. I’m glad he did very well in school. What kinds of awards did he receive? What kinds of mechanical creations does he have in his room? It’s possible he told you about the mechanical creations because you had already told him that Anakin was good at building things. Maybe he thought it would help you, and please you to know that your son built things….kind of as a reminder of Anakin?

Well, once again the Rebel fleet is preparing for battle. This time it is the second Death Star that we are targeting. Vader personally designed it, or so he told me. I am going to stay aboard the Millennium Falcon with Lando Calrissian, who Han is letting borrow the ship. Where will you be during the battle? I did not see your name on any of the sign-up lists.

Han, Leia, Luke, Chewie, and the two droids are going to Endor to take down the shield. I’m sure they will do a fine job.

You must excuse me, but Lando wants to get going. I will talk to you soon, hopefully.



Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 36
Obi-Wan,

Shmi DOES seem happier now that she knows she’s a grandma to two terrific kids. I think it’s like a new start for the both of us, even if they both are grown up. We can still talk to them, be with them, and mold them into Jedi Knights that would never turn.

A family reunion, well, invite everyone! You, Luke, Leia, Shmi, Wedge, Jira, Owen, Beru, Bail, everyone! I wish I could have added Anakin to that list.

I talked to Luke’s doctor about this, and he said that Luke was doing quite nicely, though his lungs would never fully heal. If only I had been a better mother, found the proper facilities to take him to as a baby, maybe he would be all right.

You know, Luke also told me not to worry about him. I know I’m becoming overprotective, but, well, YOU try spending half your life thinking you had lost a child!

Well, it relieves me a little to know that Luke can overcome his illness with the Force. Still…

I’m glad now that you trained Luke just like you trained the other Jedi. He’s beginning to seem very Jedi-ish now, very in control of his emotions. If I didn’t know better, I’d say he was turning into you! You have truly been like a father to him, a stable father.

Maybe you’re right, that Luke IS the chosen one, and he DOES have to destroy the Sith. It’s just…It’s Ani we’re talking about here! I have a hard time accepting this son killing father thing.

I don’t know, sometimes when I write to Ani, I get this barest feeling that he still has some of the Light Side in him. Then he starts ranting to me about how great power was, and how unimportant his family was compared to it, and I would hurt all over again. Perhaps I should just sternly tell myself not to believe in Vader anymore. Sometimes, it’s so hard!

Well, I’m just worried if her powers would hurt Leia. I just wanted to make sure that she could lead a life that she desires, since she doesn’t seem to want to be a Jedi.

I talked to Leia, and she repeatedly told me that she wanted to be a politician. This makes me quite proud, knowing that my daughter takes after me. I’ve been helping her a lot lately, telling her all the tricks of speech giving and decision making.

From what I heard from Luke, yes, he did lose his lightsaber on Cloud City. Vader knocked it out of his hand while breaking his arm.

Luke suggested that I build my own lightsaber. I DO have a high midicholorian count, but I’m not a Jedi, so I’m not sure if I should dare to attempt fencing.

Luke seemed to get awards in every class he got! Mathematics, history, various sciences, he really put a lot of effort in his schoolwork.

What kind of mechanical creations does he have in his room? He has a remote control airplane, and a self-built holo-net monitor! Just like his father.

Where am I going to be during the battle? I’m going with the team to Endor, to try to destroy the shield control center located there. Our ships are strong, but they can’t penetrate the Death Star’s shields that well.


Padmé
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Note 37
Padmé,

What will Shmi be doing during the battle? She must be on another ship. Is Shmi planning on doing anything for her grandchildren, now that she knows who they are?

The fleet is traveling towards the Death Star as I am writing this. We should arrive in about an hour. I am hoping that your strike team will have the shield down by the time we approach, or I am afraid the fleet will not be able to destroy it. You must give me the progress on your operation.

It is pretty exciting, molding two new people into Jedi Knights…to think that the galaxy’s fate rests on them. I assume that Luke will find a way to confront Vader. As I told you before, that MUST take place.

But isn’t a family reunion supposed to be just for a family? How can you invite Jira and me to it? I know she knew Anakin…and I was Anakin’s Jedi Master, but we are not related to him. Wedge is related only because he is Bail’s real son, and Bail is included because he was Bail’s adoptive father. But if you wanted to be technical, you couldn’t invite either of them. It is too bad that Anakin couldn’t be added to your list, but he chose his fate. We all must accept this.

Oh, so you did talk to Luke’s doctor about his lungs? Very good. I told you that would help you feel better about Luke. It’s nice to know that Luke is doing, “quite nicely, though his lungs would never fully heal.” That boy has a strong mind, and doesn’t back down from anything. I’m sure many other people in his situation would not have been able to do what he has accomplished. And Padmé, do not start blaming yourself again. Luke’s lungs will never fully heal because he was born with his lungs likes that. I have a feeling that nothing you or anyone else could have done that would have made his lungs strong, and prevented him from having asthma. What could other facilities possibly have done to him that would make him not have any lung problems? You see, it was something he was born with…nothing you could have done would have changed that. Luke has told me that much.

I admit; I don’t know what it’s like to have a child, and I certainly do not know what you must have gone through on account of Luke…thinking that you had lost a child. If I was overly critical of you, saying that you were too overprotective of Luke, I am sorry. Maybe you are right to worry about him. I admit I don’t know. He seems to be fine, though. You ARE the one that talked to his doctor, though.

I too am pleased with how Luke has grown since he began his training. He really is looking like a Jedi Knight now. I think the Jedi of old would have been proud of him, Mace Windu…Qui-Gon Jinn… However, I am sure he will experience more emotions than the old Jedi in the Order ever did. He has admitted to me that he wants to fall in love and get married some day. Perhaps the old Order was wrong in not allowing love. There are things in life that we missed out on, and if we had not stuck rigidly to the Code and Order, perhaps we could have foreseen what Palpatine was doing to the Senate. I admit that I made mistakes in training Anakin. I did not take his opinions seriously all the time, and I did not try to understand him the way he deserved. Sometimes I thought I had more important things to do than to listen to him. My pride cost the galaxy terribly. It looks like all my faults are being made right in Luke.

I am confident that Luke is the Chosen One. In order to balance the Force, he needs to destroy all the Sith. That means killing his father. Padmé, do not think of that machine as your husband, Luke’s father. You of anyone, knows how twisted and evil he has become. Luke MUST kill Darth Vader. It is the only way for the galaxy to be freed from the Empire. Vader will not turn back. The evil was burned into him long ago.

I have not seen a shred of the Light Side in Anakin since he became Palpatine’s slave. It must only be wishful thinking on your part. You must accept that Anakin is never coming back. I know it’s hard; he was my apprentice. I have lost all faith in him. You must too. I do not like seeing you hurt. The sooner you can realize that Vader has changed forever, the sooner you will stop being so hurt.

As I explained to you in the last letter, Leia’s powers will NOT hurt her…unless she becomes a Sith. I do not even want to think about that. But just know that Leia will be able to do whatever her heart desires. A commitment to the Jedi Order should never be forced on anyone. The individual has to want it.

Okay, so you have talked with Leia on the subject. Very good. It does not surprise me that Leia wants to be a politician. I am glad that she will be following in your footsteps. Continue being there for her, as a mother would.

Vader broke Luke’s arm? How did that come about? All right, so he did lose his lightsaber on Cloud City for sure. Thanks for the information.

The building of a lightsaber, like anything else, is up to the person. Do not build a lightsaber just because your son wants you to. If you don’t want it, do not feel that you have to. Yes, I remembered that you had a high Royal Force midicholorian count. It runs in your Royal family. Just think…Luke has BOTH the Jedi midicholorians and the Royal force midicholorians. That is why he is more Force Sensitive than his father. If you would like to build a lightsaber, I would see nothing wrong with that.

I am glad that Luke did well in his schoolwork. He really works at things, doesn’t he? I’m sure Luke was a very good student, as good as you are suggesting to me.

Luke’s mechanical creations sound very nice. It is good that he was able to take some things from his father. I am glad he did not inherit his father’s Dark Side emotions, or if he did, he has a better ability to control them.

What is Endor like? You told me you were part of the strike team. I hope that you are experiencing no problems there. You are right; our ships could never penetrate the Death Star’s shields that well. In fact, if they tried, the ships would blow up when they got within contact of the shield. That’s why the shield MUST be down when the fleet gets there. I do not want to put pressure on you, but that is what must be done.



Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 38
Obi-Wan,

Shmi is going to stay at the Rebel Base during the battle. She’s still having trouble accepting the truth about her son, and isn’t ready to fight her son like that yet. I think its better this way…though, if we were to succeed, I’d hate to be the one to notify her about her son’s death.

You mentioned molding two new people into Jedi Knights. Two new people? Are you training Leia too?

I still don’t like the idea of Luke confronting Vader, but perhaps it IS necessary. These days, Vader ahs been more and more caustic in his letters, showing just how impatient he is with Luke’s efforts. Perhaps the best way for Luke to understand the truth about his father is to learn first hand how deep his evil goes.

Aren’t you a little picky about the invitation list for the family reunion? We’re all family, after all! You’re like my big brother, and Jira is almost a parenting figure, even to Luke! Wedge, he’s like a second son, and Bail is also an older brother to me. We are all really one big family, which could be a lot bigger if Ani could also be part of it, but like you said, he chose his fate.

You’re right about Luke, he IS a tough boy! He rarely complains about his physical difficulties, and he really knows how to make the best of it! I am so proud of him, so proud to have such and amazing son.

Don’t apologize, I KNOW I am overprotective of Luke. I think maybe after a few years, when I get used to this, I can relax a little and see that my little boy has indeed grown up. Now, though…it’s like I MISS being overprotective!

Don’t blame yourself for what happened to Ani, Obi-Wan. Perhaps your pride DID anger him, but he could have controlled that anger. It was his choice to be of the Dark Side, not yours or mine.

Although, like you said, the Old Order could use a little modification. I remember one time, Anakin was talking to me about the Order, and he said, “Compassion, which I define as unconditional love, is essential to a Jedi.” He’s exactly right. If you are responsible to save the galaxy, you need a purpose, and the strongest, most pure motive is love. Perhaps if Anakin had felt more loved toward his master and his family, he would not have turned.

I would never force Leia to become a Jedi! I’m pretty sure she wants to be a politician, and who am I, of all people, to discourage that?

According to Luke, Vader kept throwing things at Luke, until he eventually broke his arm. He didn’t try to kill his son, just injure him. I don’t understand why, though. What exactly did Luke do to deserve that? He’s just an innocent little boy, much like Ani once was!

Looks like I have to go meet the strike team now, I’ll be sure to fill you in with details of Endor in the next note!



Padmé
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Note 39
Padmé,

How is Shmi going to stay at the Rebel Base during the battle? You mean Hoth? But how is that possible? I thought I heard from everyone that the Imperials destroyed that base. It was also under my understanding that the Rebellion no longer had a base, that you were traveling as a fleet. Is that wrong? If so, where is the new base?

At any rate, I am sorry to hear that Shmi still having trouble accepting the truth about her son. I suppose that is only natural, though. Luke had trouble grasping the concept of fighting his father, so it is little surprise that Shmi would have trouble with the idea of fighting her favorite son. Let me talk with her some more. She will get used to this with time. She is an important member of the Rebellion, so it is necessary to get herself back together, and fight the Empire.

Shmi has already heard once that her son died, and I have tried telling her that Vader is not Anakin…that he is twisted and evil now, so she should not think of him as her son. That’s exactly what I had to tell Luke. She’s harder to accept the truth, though. It has to do with the fact that she raised him, and knew him. Luke never did.

Actually I believe I made the comment about molding two new people into Jedi Knights after a comment you had made in your previous letter…and yes, we were referring to Luke and Leia. I would be glad to train Leia, if she wants that….but if not, there is little I can do.

I know that you do not like the idea of Luke confronting Vader, but it must be done. Both Vader and Luke have written me, telling me they can sense each other’s presences. Luke is right; the longer he remains with the rest of the strike team, the more in danger that he is placing everyone else. Vader is twisted and evil, Padmé. As I have already tried to tell you, there is no other way to defeat the Sith. He’s not going to turn back, as much as we all would like it, he’s made a commitment to the Sith Order, a commitment which is not easily broken. I do not think that commitment has EVER been broken in a Sith’s life. I have already given you my evidence for this on a different letter. And yes, Luke needs to learn first hand how evil Vader is.

Well I always thought the purpose of a family reunion was to bring blood relatives together. If you include everyone as your family, why call it a family reunion at all? Why not just call it a big party?

Speaking of Luke’s physical difficulties, the only thing wrong with him right now is his asthma, right? How has he been doing lately? Has his asthma bothered him at all? Has he ever had an attack in front of you? It is good that you are so proud of him. I think he is an amazing boy, too.

Oh, the fleet has just come out of hyperspace, and we will commence attack on it immediately, providing of course that you have deactivated the shield? We have received no readings on the shield, so it is impossible whether the shield is up or down. Perhaps you would know since you are part of the strike team?

All right, if you think you are overprotective of Luke, I cannot argue that. Do whatever is necessary to make yourself feel comfortable of Luke. If it takes a few years before you can relax a little about your son, that will work.

I know that it was Anakin’s choice, and that he chose his fate. However, I was his Jedi Master, and I cannot help but feel that I failed with him…but we have exhausted this subject fairly well, so I do not see any reason to continue it. It is neither of our faults that he turned, but we both want to blame ourselves because we had an impact on his life. I believe that we did all that we could for him, and that we tried our best. There is little more we could have done for him.

I cannot imagine Vader saying anything about unconditional love. That just proves how much he has changed. The problem with attachment, and love is that it causes the person to be overprotective of their loved ones, and causes them to have deep feelings for that person. You remember how Anakin acted when his mother was in pain? And you remember what he did in response to her injuries? How he used anger to kill an entire village of sandpeople? That is why the Jedi Code forbade love. There are circumstances where the Order could have been a little understanding, but if a Jedi were raised from birth not to know romantic love, how could he ever fall in love? The Jedi had close friendships, though, and we had the friendship kind of love, and the kind of love where you care about human beings. (Which Anakin was talking about when he said unconditional love was essential to a Jedi’s life.)

If Leia wants to be a politician, then good for her. However, if Luke fails and does not destroy Vader or his Emperor, Leia will HAVE to be trained. You understand, don’t you?

Actually, I heard a very different story from Luke. He told me that during the fight Vader did throw things at him, yes, but if my memory is correct, that’s not how he told me he broke his arm. I thought he had told me that in the last part of their fight they were fighting on a narrow ledge. Vader tried to cut off Luke’s arm, but in that moment Luke lost his balance and fell. He landed wrong on his arm. I wonder if I am mistaken, though. I have experienced many events in life, and it’s possible that I have that mixed up with something else.

You do not understand why Vader tried to injure Luke? Vader has been writing me, as you know, and what I have gathered together is that Vader felt it was a necessary process in trying to get Luke to the Dark Side. I believe he feels that everyone needs to suffer, and that our pain fires the Dark Side emotions. Part of it might have also had to do with the fight on Geonosis. Remember that he had his arm cut off in the fight with Count Dooku? I suspect that that’s why Vader tried to cut off Luke’s arm. I could be wrong, but that might be partially what was behind Vader’s motives to hurt Luke.

Yes, please do tell me how the Strike team assignment is going. You have mentioned nothing about it to me so far.



Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 40
Obi-Wan,

Shmi is going to stay at the rendezvous point, with the rest of the backup fighters. She’s going to help guard the shock, in case the Emperor wins the fight.

Of course she would have a hard time facing the fact about her son! It took me years to realize that my husband was truly gone! And Shmi, she knew Ani since he was a baby, how can she fight this? Anyway, it isn’t like Shmi doesn’t want to help the Rebellion, just that in a time like this she’d rather be on the defensive than the offensive. I think this will be good for her.

I don’t think it’s a good idea to train Leia, at least not at the moment. Luke wants to be a Jedi, and that has helped his training immensely. He will fight well, and if he succeeds, will save the Jedi Order, while his sister is also happy and content being a politician, like she wants. However, if something were to happen to Luke, Leia would probably feel the obligation to become a Jedi, as she would be the only one left. Only then would it, in my opinion, be a good idea to train Leia.

Perhaps it is only a mother’s love that concerns so much for Luke, I simply don’t feel comfortable that he is confronting Vader! He’s my baby son, and it hurts that everyone seems so callous with him!

Boy, aren’t you technical! It really doesn’t matter what we call it, as long as we get all our friends together for a celebration. There are so many who have suffered, this can be an indication that it is finally over.

I haven’t really seen Luke’s asthma bother him, only that he always carries an inhaler, of which I’m glad he does! I’m glad that you think highly of him also. He IS very brave.

The shield IS up right now, and I don’t think the Imps have any intention of lowering it anytime soon…We will need to destroy the shield generator before the squad can blow that thing up. Look at me; I’m talking like the pilots now! So much for all that training in protocol!

Don’t worry; I understand what Anakin said about unconditional love! I know he was just messing with my brain! He used to do that a lot when we were young, to show off how witty he is! I suppose your Jedi Order has its reasons to forbid romantic love, but it’s hard for anyone who has experience such love to imagine life with it forbidden as anything but callous. I know you think it’s a good idea, and I won’t try to change your views, but I doubt you can change mine.

If Leia becomes the only chance for the Jedi, and she AGREES to training, I have no obligation. If she resents the training, however, I don’t think it’s a good idea to train her at all, for her sake and the sake of the galaxy.

I suppose pain could have been a motive for Luke to turn. What I meant, though, was that as a mother I can’t understand why anyone would strike their own son! I suppose Vader might not even consider Luke a real son if he doesn’t turn, though.

I was a little tied up before so I didn’t get a lot of time to talk about what had happened. As soon as we got to Endor, we went searching for the shield generator. We were trekking through the forest, when for some reason, Luke and Leia found themselves chased by Imps! Luke managed to save himself, and thought he had saved Leia, but when he returned to camp, Leia wasn’t there! So Han, Chewie, Luke and I went in search of Leia. On our way, Chewie saw a piece of meat hanging, and his Wookiee instincts told him to grab for it, which ignited a trap for all of us! The Ewoks there had captured us, and were going to cook us! While they were readying their fire, Leia came to camp, and I was so relieved to see her alive! She tried to stop the Ewoks, but they wouldn’t listen! Still, since for some strange reason, the Ewoks thought that Threepio was a god, so when Luke made Threepio’s “throne” rise into the air, he scared the Ewoks to releasing us, thank goodness! We are now in the process of convincing them to join us in the fight!


Padmé
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Note 41
Padmé,

Well it’s probably good for Shmi to stay out of the fight, since she is having a hard time dealing with the fact that Darth Vader is Anakin. And I do realize that Shmi knew Anakin since he was a baby, and that they lived with each other as slaves. Is there anything we can do to help Shmi through this?

All right, I will respect your wishes, and not train Leia unless Luke fails AND she wants to train. I understand that you don’t feel comfortable about Luke facing his father, but he must. I have already given you my reasons for wishing that…and it is under my understanding that he has already gone off to face Vader. Have you heard anything from him? How is the fight going? And the Shield generator…how is that?

I like being technical; otherwise people can get confused. However, I do think that having a celebration for the Rebellion would be a good idea. I fully support it. It would be good to have something to celebrate…as a mark to end this war.

So you have not see Luke’s asthma bother him. It probably would be good for you if you did see it bother him…that way you can handle it better if it happens another time, and you might feel better about his having it, if you could see how he handles it. Yes, Luke does usually always carry an inhaler, and I knew that. But did he tell you about what happened to him when he found Leia in the factory? He told me that his inhaler ran out on him, because it was low, so he didn’t have his medicine….and then his uncle went to Coruscant to get more, and his uncle forgot to give it back to him…and he didn’t have it when he was with me when we were going to Mos Eisley…..and he got really sick, and was sick while we were on the Death Star.

As soon as I received your last letter, I notified Lando Calrissian, who immediately broke off the attack on the Death Star. However, the fleet flew into a trap. I suppose the Emperor thinks he can hold us here and destroy is in one blow. The Death Star is operational, and it has destroyed several of our ships. I hope that you can get the shield down soon. Without it, we cannot make the attack against the Death Star.

I think Anakin was serious when he was talking about unconditional love. He seems to me that he truly believed in it. I am not trying to change your mind about love. I understand there is a place for it. I was merely trying to explain why the Jedi Order did not allow romantic love.

If Luke fails and Leia chooses not to train…then the Emperor will win. I was hoping that we could defeat the Sith.

And that was what I was trying to point out…you must not think of Vader as if he shares your view on parenthood. To us it seems terrible to want to hurt your own child, but Vader does not truly see himself as a father. I do not believe that he feels anything for Luke, except seeing him as someone who also has a high midi-cholorian count, and a potential Sith.

Thank you for updating me about what has happened with you. So Luke used the Force to lift C-3PO’s chair! That was good thinking…and I guess Luke did learn something from Yoda and me. I’m glad that the situation turned out all right. Although, it must have been some experience.


Obi-Wan Kenobi
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Note 42
Obi-Wan,

I don’t know if there is anything that we can do to help Shmi, especially in the light of battle. The best thing is probably just to be patient and give her time to sort out her feelings.

I accept the fact that Luke must face his father, as it is inevitable now. I don’t lilke how the fight is going, though. Luke turned himself in to the Empire, hoping to lessen the danger of the mission, and Vader took him to Palpatine! Can you believe the jerk? They are no in the process of trying to change my baby.

As for the shield generator, we DID finally get that down. The fighters should be able to advance any time now.

A celebration WOULD be a good idea. However, if my son dies, don’t expect me to take part in it.

Luke never told me about he getting that sick! I suppose he was trying to protect me. So when he found Leia he had left his inhaler at home? He had better never forget it again!

Well, you shouldn’t have much trouble getting pass shield now. I hope the fleet can destroy them, though I also hope that Luke can get out of there in time!


Padmé
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Note 43
Padmé,

I have not heard from Luke recently, but I believe that Luke is still alive. He must have gotten away from the Death Star in time. I wonder if he was able to Balance the Force and kill Palpatine and Vader.

I’ll be on Endor soon. Is Shmi going to Endor to celebrate the destruction of the Empire. You know, I’m sure she’ll take Vader’s death hard, but hopefully she realized that he wasn’t the same person that she raised.

I told you that Vader was a full Sith and would not hesitate to obey his master. It does not surprise me that Vader took Luke to Palpatine. I can only hope that Luke did the right thing. I certainly hope he didn’t turn. You must tell me right away if he did. Maybe it is too early to celebrate the destruction of the Sith.

It is a good thing that you were able to get the shield down, otherwise Wedge Antilles and Lando Calrissian would not have been able to blow up the Death Star.

As I said before, I did not feel Luke’s death through the Force, but perhaps I was not paying attention to what was going on. It is possible that he died without my knowing it. If you are not at the celebration, I will know why. It is under my understanding that systems across the galaxy are celebrating the end of the Empire.

Luke never told you about getting that sick? I’m sure that he was either trying to protect your feelings, or he never saw any reason to tell you about that incident, as it happened before you met him. According to Luke, when he found Leia he hadn’t left his inhaler at home…he had run out of the medicine inside of it previously, and had forgotten to tell his uncle. As soon as Luke got back home, his uncle took it to go get him more medicine…….but then Luke got caught up in the mess with the droids, and Luke forgot to ask his uncle for it back (after his return), and Owen forgot to give it back. I am sure that he does not make a habit if forgetting his inhaler.

You must tell me of the news regarding Luke. I am most concerned.


Obi-Wan
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Note 44
Obi-Wan,

I think Shmi is coming to Endor as well. I don’t think it’s a good idea for her to, tough.

I’m pretty confident from Luke’s account of what happened that he did do the right thing. Although, the situation is still very hazy, and I’m not ready to make a decision. I know I sound confusing, but that is because there is something I cannot tell you, at least not yet. Please forgive me.

There will be a celebration eventually, I am sure. Like I said, though, the chances of me participating will be slim. Again, please forgive me. I have too much on my mind.

Luke is all right. That is all I will tell you. I’m sorry.


Padmé
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Note 45
Padmé,

I was very glad to hear of the destruction of the Death Star. The news has spread all over the galaxy. You said that Luke is still alive? How was he able to escape the Death Star? Did he decide not to face Vader after all? With the Emperor aboard the Death Star when it blew up, he was destroyed. With the leader of the Empire gone, the Empire is now no more. We must start a new Republic and be assured that it can never be corrupt. Have you and Bail discussed this?

I know that Luke and Leia moved in with you. What about Shmi? How is she handling the death of her son? I have not talked to her about it yet. Have you? If not we need to tell her soon. Leia and Han are in love, correct? Do you know if they are planning on getting married? When they get married, will they still live with you or will they have a place of their own?

But then you said, that you’re pretty confident from Luke’s account of what happened that he did do the right thing. What do you mean? If Luke did not face Vader, then is that what you are referring to? Then I was wrong to have Luke face Vader. That wouldn’t have been the first time that I was ever wrong.

What is that something that you said you could not tell me a week ago. Can you tell me now?

I did not see you at the celebration, so that means you missed it, right? Of course, there were so many people there, and it was a week ago.

I’m very glad that Luke is all right.


Obi-Wan
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Note 46
Obi-Wan,

Luke managed to get to a ship out of the Death Star. Bail and I have already discussed the starting of a new Republic, and of course, a New Jedi Order, of which you and Yoda will be the head of.

Shmi’s also living with us now. She…is a bit less burdened with the recent events at the Death Star, but she’s still very sad. Leia hasn’t yet told me of any plans for her and Han to get married, but it’s pretty obvious it’s only a matter of time between those two lovebirds. I already told her that if she does want to get married that she can stay at our home, but that of course is still up to her.

I wasn’t at the celebration, no. I just didn’t find a need to celebrate yet. You were there, though, did you have fun? Did the twins have fun?

I still cannot tell you what happened on the Death Star. I promised someone that I would not. I’m sorry if this is hurting you, but it’s going to take time. Perhaps another week, please.


Padmé
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Note 47
One year later:


Padmé,

It’s now been a year since the Death Star battle, and you have not yet told me what happened on it. I know it must have been horrible to think that your husband could die on it, but please tell me the details. I would really like to know.

This new Republic, which you and Bail have started, seems to be going very well. At all times it must be remembered the failure of the Old Republic. There must be no corruption in this new government. It must be checked over very carefully.

The good news, is, that we no longer have to worry about the Empire or the Sith. If Luke did what I can only guess that he did, he destroyed both Vader and Palpatine, successfully getting rid of the Sith forever. He really was the Chosen One. I only wish that Qui-Gon could have known him.

The new Jedi Order is going along nicely. It is a bit hard to find Force Sensitive individuals, but as time passes, I am sure there will be more Force Sensitive people.

I am pleased to hear that Shmi is living with you now. You must forgive me if I have not visited you in the past year, but the way you were mourning your husband’s death…and the way it all affected you…I thought you needed to be alone for a while. I hope you do not mind this letter.

I can imagine that Shmi would be very sad…seeing that she lost her favorite son…and that he had become something so evil. I would not have wanted to be in her place. How is she doing?

And Luke and Leia…are they doing well?

I thought I had read somewhere the Leia had gotten married some time ago. Is that right? If so, how is her marriage doing? Is she living at your house? And Luke…has he fallen in love with anyone, or do you think he will stick to the old Jedi Code and not fall in love?

The celebration went well, and yes, Luke and Leia did have fun. I wish you had been there. I think it would have done you some good.

I hope that this letter finds you in good health. This will be my last letter to you because I think a year is sufficient for getting over so dear a loss. You are my friend, and I do not wish to abandon you. I will not write you again because I hope to see you often in the days ahead. You have been a very brave woman, Padmé, and you had to endure so much. A lesser woman could not have handled what you did. I know your parents must be very proud of you.


Your friend forever,
Obi-Wan Kenobi

PS If you should ever need my services, let me know. As always, I am willing to serve and protect you.
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Note 48
Obi-Wan,

After a year, I think it is finally time that I come clean, and tell you exactly what happened on the Death Star, and why I was so hesitant to speak about it.

Luke had never killed Vader.

You see, Emperor Palpatine had been forcing Luke to fight his father, and when Luke refused, Palpatine tried to kill him. At the last second, Anakin destroyed the Emperor and saved his son’s life. Yes, Anakin.

I regret not telling you this earlier, but since then, Anakin and I have grown quite close again. We’ve learned to trust each other, and now live together in raising our grandchildren. Come over sometime, and meet him, I’m sure he wishes to speak to his old master again.

So you see, Anakin still was the Chosen One, for it was he who finally came to his senses and destroyed the Sith.

Shmi, thank goodness, is very happy now. She is with her son of whom she loves very much now, and she’s so happy, taking care of her great-grandkids!

Remember that nice girl Kirsten, who Luke had a crush on? They married! And so did Leia and Han! Can you believe it? We are all one big family now, and all we lack is you, Obi-Wan. Please come and visit us. I am very grateful for all the help you have given our family these past few years, and am ever indebted to you.


Padmé
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To the readers of this fic,

I would like to take this time to thank you for reading my fic. If you have read it, would you please leave a comment so that we know you read it. It took a lot of time on our parts, and we would just like to know if anyone was actually reading these.

Thank you very much!!! It was a lot of fun!

Lissy (Obi-Wan)


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