| The Great Outdoors by Destiny JC JC lay panting next to his girlfriend with a red face. Red from embarassment, not exhersion. Thanks to her, he couldn't get it up. "Dammit!" he screamed, springing from the bed. Bobbie bit her lower lip and lowered her head. "I'm sorry. I am. Maybe we could just..." "If you say cuddle, I'll kill you. I will." His blue eyes were steely with tiny flecks of pain and jealousy floating around. JC grabbed his boxers and yanked them on, storming from the room. He slammed the bedroom door ignoring her sniffles. "Fuck you," he muttured as he flew down the stairs. Grabbing a beer from the kitchen, he headed onto the back deck. "Unfuckingbelievable!" he hollered over the canyon below. Good thing about LA, no one blinked when you screamed at two am. JC popped the top off his beer and flung it as far as he could. Impotent. It just couldn't be. He was only twenty-four. "Goddamned pictures," he seethed, flopping down in a lounge chair. His head leaned back and he stared up at where he assumed the stars should be. Fucking smog had them covered. Fuck LA and fuck that insane reporter for showing him those nudie shots of Bobbie. Oh, sure, he knew they exsisted. She had never lied or tried to cover her regret at doing them, but fuck her for not telling him just how bad they were. Screw her for doing them at all. The idea of some guy touching her and licking her and posing for it.....God! It made him crazy thus the performance problems. Two long weeks. He couldn't touch her without seeing those pictures in his mind. Day in and out the asshole she'd posed with flashed into his eyes. "Why?" he cried, feeling his eyes burn with salty tears. He promised himself he would not shed a drop over her. Whatever she did before him was her peroggative, right? So why did he feel so shitty, and why wouldn't his dick cooperate? "JC?" JC squeezed his eyes closed. Her voice sounded the same as always, soft and sweet and comforting. For a moment she was that same girl he fell in love with all that time ago. Then he appeared, returning JC to hate. "What do you want? Can't you leave me be?" Bobbie came closer and knelt down by him. "I don't want to leave you be, Joshua. I want to love you and be with you and I'm so fucking sorry I caused you so much pain and...." "Just leave okay? Just pack your shit and get out of my house for a while. I need you gone." She nodded silently and stood up, touching his shoulder lightly. A small sigh and she was gone. JC hung his head and cried huge racking sobs that make his body tremble. Love sucked. |