Yesterday, i was bitten by a hamster. Lately I've been having dreams, weird dreams as i sleep. Like dreams of me going to take a flight at the airport. Are these signs of things to come? or are these warning signs?
Maybe it means if i take a flight with a furry-bearded passenger, i will get hurt?
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1642H 24 Sep 2002 - In my Head
"As I wake up with an empty head
The deal is done, my mind is made
It doesn't matter what everybody said
I can't face the fact, I'm too afraid
It's in my head
It's in my head
Tonight I'm alive
But today I'm dead
Face to face
With my demons inside
I'll stand to fight
But I'm too afraid
Smile to hide, or hide a smile
I'm rotting inside this hollow shell
Insanity beckons, I might as well
One step closer to the edge of Hell
The agony inside is out of sight
The feeling of doom is shut in tight
I try to stand, I try to fight
But all the good is undone at night
It's in my head
It's in my head
Tonight I'm alive
But today I'm dead
Face to face
With my demons inside
I'll stand to fight
But I'm too afraid
I'm in pain
Go insane
I'm insane
No more pain
It's in my head
It's in my head
Tonight I'm alive
But today I'm dead
It's in my head
It's in my head
It's in my head
It's in my..."
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1733H 22 Sep 2002 - Air-tight
Finally Liverpool kept a clean sheet after letting in 2 goals in each of their last 5 games... phew...
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2341H 20 Sep 2002 - I wanna die
Somebody please just kill me... Cigarettes are taking too damn long...
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1154H 19 Sep 2002 - Weakness
Days gone by and days to go
Days spent looking out the window
Ways to throw my life away
Waste my time, Let's just play
It's like a tunnel without an end
It's driving without a destination
It's like a beach without the sand
It's swimming around in desolation
There's no way out
There's no way out
Once you're in
There's no way out
Days gone by and days to go
Days spent with nothing to show
Face the truth, this can't go on
You gotta get out
You gotta get out
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2154H 17 Sep 2002 - Tra la la la la
Quote of the day:
"Please be spontaneous"
- From an MC asking for volunteers from the audience
Anyway, I've been trying to get down to really working on my schoolwork, but it's hard when all you wanna do is be a slacker... i wish i can just switch the mentality to one of a chao mugger...
wait i take that back... i'm just glad to be myself... come what may, tmrw will still come and we will all live another day... i hope...
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0125H 17 Sep 2002 - Memories...
Can you remember what you were doing on the same day last year? 17 Sep 2001?
You can't?
Try harder... Think...
Still can't?
Well, let me tell you what i was doing on 17 Sep 2001...
erm...
I can't remember either...
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0024H 15 Sep 2002 - Leaky
That's the term to describe Liverpool's defence these days... for the last 3 games before today's, Liverpool threw away the lead late late in the game to draw 2-2... Liverpool should be top of the table by now... and just when you thought Liverpool did it again when Bolton equalised in the 87th minute to level the score at 2-2, up pops Emile Ivanhoe Heskey to smash in the winner less than a minute later... Phew... Hope this is the start of the Red's return to winning ways...
I think Liverpool will have to do what Man U was doing early last season, as in try to score more than they let in each game... Give me back the good o' Liverpool that keeps clean sheets week in week out...
other than that... well, weekend has passed by pretty fast... in fact the term break has passed by pretty fast... i need more holidays...
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2120H 10 Sep 2002 - What may come
Things are getting edgy as Sep 11 approaches... Will US attack Iraq? Will there be another pre-meditated terrorist attack? Will Man U suffer a shock defeat to Bolton? worse still, will Liverpool suffer a shock and shocking defeat to Birmingham?
Whatever happens, I still have a lab at 2pm tmrw...
Managed to catch a bit of the Sep 11 program "In Memoriam: New York City 9/11/01" just the very very last bit, really... there was a sort of parade of the rescue workers as the end credits were rolling... this guy in a heavy crane was waving to the crowd as the crane rolled past the streets... along the pavements, people were saying "thank you" and celebrating the "heroes" Was that really necessary? Was a "parade" really appropriate? I remember reading a column the other day that spokeof the Amercans' obsession with "Heroes"
We all know that something tragic and terrible has happened. The rescue workers were doing their jobs... Do we need to make heroes out of them? The people who died in the attack, the innocent people, did they die for a cause for us to call them heroes? Instead of standing by the streets to say thank you, why din those people do something to help?
I'm not trying to make light of the ocassion, or to belittle those who did whatever they could to help... i think the friends and families of those who died and yet had the strength to carry on with their lives are brave. I think the passe-bys who risked their lives to help even though they were not obliged to are brave. I think those who gave way to others in fleeing the crash areas were brave. but i really agree with the columnist that there isn't really a need to make heroes out of everyone
The Americans are all in this together, perhaps most of the world are in this together... but there is no need make everyone heroes... just because people do what they should do or do the right thing doesn't make them heroes... many are just people who did what they should do... i guess i just have a different idea of who or what makes a hero...
To the people of Al-Qaeda, those who hijacked the planes were heroes... It's a warped world, isn't it?
Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying we shouldn't be thankful to those who helped and made a difference. I salute all the rescue workers... but i stop at calling everyone a hero...
It especially doesn't help when they decide to use the Enrique Iglesias song as the theme for 9-11 "I can be your hero, baby"
You want to know who a real hero is?
Spiderman
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2149H 9 Sep 2002 - Term Break Cometh
Yessiree bob, its the term break... but its hardly the right name, coz there isnt really a break, just that there are no fixed lessons... otherwise, the amount of time spent in school is still about the same as before... sigh... i want to fly to the moon...
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1330H 7 Sep 2002 - Twin Towers
If you look at this KFC promotion, you will notice that on Sep 11, they are giving away free Milo... However, looking at the way the 2 cans of Milo are positioned, doesn't it bring to mind some bad memories from the same date last year? Somebody should sue KFC. If you do, please remember to give me a cut of your damages won...
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0108H 6 Sep 2002 - Stress
I felt stressed, but now i dun... my mind seems to have a weird way of repelling all elements of stress from my mind after a short break... maybe its the cigarettes... maybe its the boost of endorphines that comes when i get out of NUS... whatever it is, it worked... but it's not really that good... coz once i dun feel stressed, i dun have the motivation to work... bah whatever... all i know is that i can't wait to graduate...
my hair is now short again... after a few months of letting it run loose(or rather, grow), it is not short and well, short... when i come out of the bath, after my hair dries, i look like a furball... it's really fluffy, and well, fluffy... like a "Xiao Mao Qiu" thank god for gel!
I really have to keep myself from complaining about school... but i really think it sucks right now... contrary to popular belief, or rather what the school claims, NUS is not a "world-class" university... maybe research-wise it may be, but definitely not as an institution of higher learning... it's such a pressure cooker that its all about the grades instead of the learning... its about sheer exam knowledge rather than application and innovation... and i think that totally sucks... or maybe it's just me alone in feeling this way... maybe every other NUS student thinks the world of the school... maybe everyone else thinks that NUS is the best university in the whole wide world... sorry, but lil' old me begs to differ...
ok, now back to furballs... look in here
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0018H 5 Sep 2002 - Lil' o Stitch
Ok, so it's another cartoon from Disney, but somehow, this one seems to be quirkier, funnier, wittier, and a lot more fun than the rest... Experiment 626 will give it 2 thumbs up, if he had any...
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