Unruhe (1/1)

Author- Midnight Faith

Spoilers- none

Distribution- FF.net, AOH, buffysearch.net and Neurotica… anyone else just ask :)

Pairing- Lilah/Lindsey

Rating- R

Summary- the subtext explored…

Disclaimer- belonging to Joss and assorted other minions…

The morning after the first night they slept together she wakes up alone, through the alcohol-induced haze and convinces herself it was all a dream.

She is proved wrong however, when she reaches work and he pulls her into the stationary cupboard before nine a.m. and kisses her hard.

When five comes he follows her home at a safe distance and they find themselves unable to blame alcohol or nicotine this time around.

It becomes a regular thing before either of them can really register what is happening between them. With no invitation necessary he accompanies her home at least once a week and when she wakes up he's gone.

One lonely night something changes between them. He's softer with her, gentler and when he kisses her it actually means something. He doesn't feel the urge to bite or bruise her and that's been a permanent fixture in what could never really be called their relationship.

He stays that night. Sitting in her bedroom chair, somehow fully dressed and waits until dawn and she first stirs. He leaves before she realises he stayed, batting away any trivial, rising feelings he's beginning to have for her.

He shows up on her doorstep close to midnight and stays again, but this time in her bed. She's surprised to say the least and as she tentatively reaches out to touch his shoulder says,

"You’re still here."

With growing emotion for her he says nothing, silently dressing before leaving, her watching him the entire time.

He surprises himself more the next night by not only staying but when she falls asleep scooping her up in his arms and holding her close to him. Unconsciously she clings to him through her sleep and when they wake the next morning, just moments after each other, they're still entangled, their noses touching. He can't help but smile at her, looking into her eyes and it amazes him when she smiles back with genuine warmth.

She helps him dress, kissing him periodically on the lips and pulling him close for long, lingering hugs, still saying nothing. She follows him over to the door and opens it for him.

"I love you…" he tells her when he reaches the doorstep.

She simply panics and slams the door in his face.