Chapter 4 I didn't think my mother would let me but she actually let me stay at Nick's house. But she suprised both Nick and I and allowed me to stay with him. But she told him to 'use or best judgements and be smart about things.' Nick told me she said that. I just smiled at hime and Nick did as well because we both know what she was talking about. On the Way To Nick's house I could tell Nick was thiking about something. "Why would your mother say something like that?" He finally said breaking the silence. "I guess since we are in a serious relationship for exactly two years, she might think we might attempt to have sex." "Well that's a good point." he said going back to his thoughts. He didn't speak again after that. I know he wanted to go to the next level in our relationship. I certainly could and at times wanted to but I was a little scared of the issue. I figured that him being a guy, he wasanxious to do it, because everyone knows that's practically all guys think about. And I certainly hoped he would wait for me until I am ready instead of pressuring me into it like he sometimes seemed to do. "Nick?" I said when we were almost to his house. "Yeah what's wrong?" he said glancing towards me for a second then turnign back to the road. "Its not important... nevermind, let's just get to your house, I need to lay down for a bit." "Are you sure you don't want to tell me now? " I'll talk to you about it later." "O...Kay." When we finally got into his house he pulled into his driveway where we got out and went in. I went straight to his room adn then to his bathroom. I didn't feel to good. I wanted to talk to Nick about what he was thinking when my mother told him that and what he thought but I could never get up the courage. I could never figure out how to bring up the subject. I started to cry and shake as my feeling went in circles. Nick must have herd me because he was knocking on the door. "Baby are you okay..... Can I come in?" he said worried. "Uh..... I guess... If you..... insist." I said in between sobs. He walked in and stood infront of me. He grabbed me gently by the arms and pulled me up to his level. Since I was slightly short I barely came up to his shoulders so it made it difficult at time to look into each others eyes. He picked me up and held me close. I wrapped my legs around him and layed my head on his chest and cried into him. He took me into his room and layed me down on his bed. He sat down next to me. He looked at me with much concern. I wanted to hug him and hold that hug forever that's how I felt at the moment. He didn't know what was wrong and that sorta scared him. "Baby, please tell me what's wrong. I've never seen you like this." "I don't know..... I just feel that if I don't do something we're going to grow apart.... and then I have this deep feeling that if I don't you'll do something." I said with tears exiting my eyes again. "This has to do partially with what your mother siad right?" "Yeah..." Nick whiped the tears gently from my face. "Okay Here's the deal... It's true I do want to sometimes, but I have come to the conclusion myself that when the time is right we'll know it and even then we may decide to wait." "What if..." "There's NO 'what if's'. I love you and believe me I will be faithful and not decieve you in any way. I haven't been unfaithful since we've been together and the pressure was there all the time. I even had my ex-girlfriend wanting me back and look at us, I am still with you becuase you are everything to me." "Really.... You really mean all that? "Yeah, every word of it...... So are you going to get up and finish celebrating our anniversary or are you going to keep crying and I have to hold you until you get absolutely tired of it?" "I'll get up, but one thing is for sure, I don't think I could ever get tired of snuggling with you." I said smiling this time, "There's my baby smile." he siad laughing. "Well what did you have in mind for us to do?" I asked. On to Capter 5 Main Page