Meanwhile, we were both sorting out our relationship problems and settling them once and for all. We both believe that even if we didn't fall in love, we'd still have left our partners sooner or later. I guess not wanting to hurt each other, just made us speed up the process...and 'forced' us to face the 'music'. (Well, you know just how hard it is to break-up don't ya!)
This was also the 1st time I met Darl's family members, I was so nervours coz I was a lil over-dressed and was worried that Lulu <Darl's mom's nick...she got that nick coz she always woke up to go to the toilet (loo) when we were online and she'd grumble at Darl> might not like me coz I was 'weird'. It was also the day that Darl got the vibe that I had a crush on her.
We sat on the break water and talked about how being "Blur and Happy". i.e Not thinking about the 'status' of our relationship/friendship. Darl was still uneasy about being 'attached' again. She was a lil afraid of commitment after being in a few bad relationships. And I guess, me being her first non-bioguy lover was creepy to an extent......how would family and friends and colleagues react if they found out??!??
It was the 1st time that Darl saw so many PLUs under the same roof. I think she was a lil scared so she dragged her friend along - Maz. Nowadays when we go to HerStory nites, she's a lot more comfortable. Although the crowd can be a lil intimidating at times but they are PLUs afterall so whatever goes. It's the one place that every1 is out of the closet for those few hours.
Well...for one thing, we think so much alike. It's hard to find something that we don't agree on. In fact, there are countless occasions when we say the same exact thing. It's kinda creepy actually...like someone is stealing your thoughts. There are so many feelings that we share, some unspoken, but understood by both. It's just that 'look' or that smile that just says it all. U know what I mean?
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Erm..hehe..didn't expect this from darl..so...now I am the special guest and speaker of this site? Great honour..hehe..*nervous giggle*. I *wet eyes* am really glad to have met my darl, she has been through the best and worst times of my life, and remained loving and committed throughout. Having seen the best and worse side of me, it's her love, belief and trust in me that keeps us going strong. Just like some of our friends say, we are really in this honeymoon stage. Be it 5 years or 10 years or even 50, I believe this magic will not fade.
I could never understand how anyone can be so in love that they forget everything and everyone else around them, until I met darl...it all became so easy - from falling in love, getting addicted, staying in love, and wanting to stay the same forever. Her spontaneous nature is attractive, you never know what to expect. Here is someone who really knows how to cheer me up when the sky's grey, and lift me up when I have a fall...
There are a lot of times when we just share the same thoughts, and darl accuses me of stealing her thoughts! Hehehe....I don't know who steals whose, we just happen to be on the same frequency frequently - be it an intelligent or spastic one! There she is singing to a song on 98.7 while I am summoned to write...so distracting...gonna join her in singing...will pen more later!
The day started out brighter and more beautfiful than any other...and that's because even b4 the sun rose, I had already made 1 b'day wish just past midnight, and had already eaten a slice of delicious Chocolate fudge cake and got a wonderful, priceless gift from Darl. She had made me this scrap book that had pictures and special momentos that are very special to us. It's so obvious that she put in a lot of thought into making it, and although she was so busy with work and school, she still made a special effort to squeeze some time outta her hectic schedule to make it. I can only say...thank u Darl, for framing these beautiful memories into an equally beautiful book!
Darl planned a lovely nite, 1st we rushed home from work and changed in 10 mins. Then we got into the London Cab that specially booked, and went to Tanjong Pagar for Nonya food at "Blue Ginger". The food was a lil spicy for Darl, but the ambience was nice and relaxing. It was just the perfect kinda lil restaurant that I've been wanting to try in Singapore for ages, but just didn't get down to doing it yet. We ate till we nearly burst, then headed down to a nearby KTV for a lil glass-shattering singing session!
Darl...if you're reading this...just wanna tell ya, if u ever quit your job, u can switch to a b'day planner's vocation. U're wonderful! great!!...spectacular!!! at planning b'days. And all that I can say is...can I have a b'day every month of the year? :)
I'm sitting in office waiting anxiously for darl to return from Oz. She's been away for 5 days and it's really torturous. I am going to class and office in a monotonous motion without darl with me. You know how people alway say "absence makes the heart grow fonder"? How can anyone ever disagree to this statement when they are so in love? For 5 days I've been dutifully tidying up my webpage and flooding darl with sms and emails, hoping and praying that darl would miraculously appear right outside my door. Then I can finally be in the same loving arms I know of.
Maybe people call this "the test of time". All I can say is : FIVE DAYS IS ENOUGH!! I'm sure anyone who has gone through this horrifying time can identify with what I am typing here... Life becomes bleak and meaningless all of a sudden, and nothing can ever cheer you up while you sit in the dark listening to sad songs and holding your tears back. In the daylight, you still have to try to smile and *pretend* to be happy... I'm so glad this is finally going to be over and everything will be back to normal, and the sun will shine again. Thanks to the gloomy skies these few days, I feel even worse. Talking to people who just say "you must miss her badly" doesnt help at all. Nothing can, at least not until you get that part of your life back.
Darl, please please dont ever put me through this again? I am not coping as well as I thought I would...
Darl was so concerned that she skipped school so that she could go look for Jamie with me. We walked around the estate for close to 3 hours. Exhausted and sick, Darl still insisted on helping me find Jamie the next day. After those 2 days of footwork, we're both shack, still Jamie-less and aching everywhere.
The dedication and sacrifices she's made...all count in no small way. I know that I can always count on her,...like she can always come to me for anything.
I got the ring ready. Got the card a lil earlier. Made a reservation at Raffles Grill for 8.30pm.
Waited for the appropriate time, which happened to be after our lil appetisers. First she read the outside of the card, and as she began to read the inside of the card, I saw the most 'wide-eyed' shocked look. I could see her eyes getting wet, she's never been very good at hiding her emotions from me, and this time, I could see that she was quite overwhelmed. She tried desperately to use the card to cover her wet cheeks, and once she regained her composure, she said "YES, yes, YES!!!"
Although we had talked a few times about being committed on a deeper level, she didn't expect me to pop the BIG question so soon. Tentatively, we're gonna have our wedding in the US when we go there at the end of the year. Will keep u all updated. Any suggestions are welcome! I wanna make this day, this occasion, the most memorable, and if we don't remember anything else when we are old and grey, I hope we'll remember the day we bacame hubby and wifey. So no expense will be spared! (Darl u better start saving!)
There's been a change in our plans, we're gonna head to Europe instead. I'm now looking for some kinda wedding arrangements that can be performed there. Will be heading to Italy, Swtizerland, Germany, Netherlands, France and London. So if any of you out there wanna meet up, just drop me an email!
I've finally gotten down to scanning and uploading the pictures of our wonderful dinner at Raffles Grill.