Just like a beautiful,
long stemmed rose,
On June 24, 1998 my life changed forever. It is the day that
I lost my 16 month old daughter. It started off being a special
day, every thing was going well, and we just found out that we
were expecting again. This would be our fifth. We already had
four girls, we wanted a boy so bad. It was a beautiful summer
evening, and we were all busy outside. I was cooking on the
grill, and my husband was changing oil in the truck, and my
other daughters were all outside too. Except for my 10 year old,
she was at grandma's house. Sara was in the garage with my
husband or so I thought, she walked passed him and he thought
that she was walking to me. But instead of walking to the porch
to me she walked to our pool. She climb the ladder to the pool
without anyone of us seeing her. I still don't know how she
climb that ladder. My oldest daughter found her, and when I
pulled her out she was nonresponsive. I start CPR, but I just
couldn't. That is the hardest thing I have ever tried to do.
Thank goodness a guy came up behind me and took over. The
ambulance finally got there and took her to the hostpital, we
followed. It took us a long time to get there, and once we got
there we waited longer. Finally the doctor came out. I knew
that she was gone. I had a miscarriage a week after.
Our lives have change and I believe that we will never be
the same people that we once were. It will be 4 years this June,
and I still live day by day. We now have two new addition to our
family The oldest was born on August 19, 1999 her name is Allison Rose. Yes, another girl, but that was
the last thing on our minds when she came into our live. Then we welcomed Gabrielle Violet on January 20, 2001. She is such a delight. I have
learned alot from my experience. I no longer worry about the
house cleaning, and little things like that. My children are
first, I know now that in a split second our lives can change,
and I want to enjoy every second that I have with them. My life is very busy now that I have two toddlers running around, but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about my little angel.
Sara was a happy child, she always knew how to make me smile.
She was a busy little girl, and I spent most of the days
following her around to see just what she was into now. She
was a joy, never complained about anything, even
when I took the bottle away from her at the age of one. She
enjoyed watching Barney, sleeping with her Teddy, playing with
her sisters, and mommy reading to her. We miss her so much and
live for the day that we will meet in Heaven.
Dear Child In Heaven,
You filled our home with happiness
Some things we don't find easy
Now it comforts us to know
-Helen Bush
This was written by me, a week after we lost Sara
SARA
My little Angel
We can't know why somethings happen...
but we can know that love and beautiful
memories out last the pain of grief.
And we can know that there's a place
inside the heart where love lives always...
and where nothing beautiful can ever
be forgotten.
If i've learned
anything down through
the years,
it's that nothing beautiful
in this world
is ever really lost-
Those we cherish
will always live on
in memory.
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Her precious memory
grows and grows,
Touching the hearts
of all of those she loved.
And like the fragrance
of that same rose,
Her love, so sweet,
still flows and flows,
Filling our lives with a warmth
that shows she's there.
So like a forever-blooming rose'
The beauty she shared
eternally glows,
For deep in our hearts,
each of us knows she lives!
You were a blessing to us all,
You were a special child,
And we're so glad that God sent you
To be with us for awhile.
And made our life complete.
The time that we had with you
Was far to short, but oh so sweet.
To accept or understand
Till we realize they're part of
Our creator's perfect plan.
You're with the angels up above,
While in our hearts we hold you close,
Surrounded always by our love.
Sent here by God
She was an accident,
but once her a great joy.
Precious child with
a constant smile.
She was a handful,
but what a delight.
Now that she is gone.
I can't wait until
The eternal light.
For then I will see
My Little Angel again.
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