So I feel
enraged
happy
excited
I think thoughts
feel emotions strong
and passionate

So I plot a homicide
or dance waving
my arms wildly
or writhe
with desire
dreaming of ecstasy

So why
must I hide
control
sublimate
Is it not
human
to think
to feel
this way?

Human it is
but perfect not
superhuman not
that is why

I must keep
the disguise on
never mind
t'is all tattered
and torn
never mind
the actress
has been for
many days
bare naked
upon the stage

So I refuse
I rebel
I think and feel
as I will
let you all
protest

Freedom of
thought
and emotion
is the only
freedom
never lost

So I rage
I scream
out of my fear
my grief
So I writhe
I dance
out of desire
and joy

So you
disapprove
feel free
to look on
or turn
the other way
I will not
stop
for you

Same as Gaia
never stops
for either
you
or me

So my drama
or melodrama
catches
your eye
will you pay
for admission
or steal a peek
over the fence
or will you
strut over
to participate
either way

So what
I yield not
quit not
leave if you will
I lie not
hide not
stay if you dare
the whip
the hammer
upon the anvil
is hard at work

So you are
or were
significant
to me
So I carried on
about your virtues
about your glory
So I cried on
about your betrayal
about your cruelty
So now I stand
and shake your hand
game over

So now I am ready
to move on
to new adventures
to leave the past
there in a seabag
lying at your feet
good-bye
fare thee well
fare me better
oh so much better
since I let go

Aloha
Namaste
Hail
So I say
Auld Lang Syne
I hum
to myself

So we are
human
heroes perhaps
if we die
saving
fighting
or giving
birth

So we are
children
refusing to
grow up
in hopes that
the fantasy
takes flesh

So it does not
so it
fades
far far away
leaving us only
our thoughts
our emotions
that none
save us
can change.

So now what?
Where is our
hero
heroine
of choice?
Where is our
power
to mold
the world
to our best
interest?
Where is it now?

So it is gone.
I need it not
I can let go
I can hang
the disguise
on its hook
wash off the
makeup
walk off
the stage
into the daylight
into the starlight
into reality

So I do
as I will
so I am free
so I live.

So...
by Cindy Aixmar Salgado