second

I didn't hear you leave but somehow I'm sure you slammed the door
Now I'm deaf and dumb and I can't seem to articulate the most little word
It's killing me minute by minute day by day hour by hour
The way you walk the way you talk and the way you sit peacefully
In front of me pretending with a smile that you don't see me
Are you already dead or is it me who can't look with this gloom before my eyes
I'm not sure of myself I wouldn't lie if I weren't but I feel like screaming so loud
I won't move a thing, I won't say a word, I won't even breathe it looks so scary
I don't even want to think, somehow I think it's because it might change my memory
It seems I'm miles away from you, it seems I'm not even in the same universe
We've lost all that we got, we've wasted it like if it was somebody else
As if we had no grip on it as if nothing could help us holding on to it

Put your arms around me, hold me, thrill me, make me believe that I can make it
Take me, take me somewhere, take me where I can feel fine, where I can grab it
I watch the sunrise and it seems I never left this place, I never been somewhere else
I just remember that you belong to me, and a strange feeling of distress
Even if I beseeched your stay, even if I fell at your feet I never tried to erase this
I just want to be home again, but I'm stuck in it, I'm glued to it, I've born twice because of it
I'm numb and tied I'm paralysed but there's nothing that haven't already hurt me
I'm afraid of anything now so please throw nothing up at me
I tried to find a different melody, something that I could sing without crying
I know I'm a fool but there's no other ways for me to be, I have to carry my own soul
Don't say I let it all out because I weren't strong enough to hold it
The conscience that you brought built another self with my pain
A light you carried crawled and bled into my toughest side, but do you really need it now ?

It's a long way down to nothing I can't listen to you I'm too busy
Trying to pick up back all that you've dropped betraying me
I thought you were a man but you was just a little boy
But that's too hard, too long, too tiring to grow up when you're at the bottom
You'll never realise the courage I had to have, what I had to undergo when living with or without you
Your richness will block up your view, you glow the way that you want to
I had to change the judgments made on you to not believe my inner perception
I know now I believed a lot of things and now I see all with a different eye
I understood that you are too proud to mention anything to me
But your words sounds like a promise that you can't afford to betray
You'll never touch all the things I carry within my skin that flows within my blood
You'll never think that I might give up this fight , you musn't give up seeing eye to eye