I had this dream tonight and I bury myself and I look around me and I wonder where you are cuz now I don't know if I'm sleeping because I'm in too deep and all is cold and all is confused but you're always here you always say "you'll be okay if you can keep yourself awake" and I can't barely talk and I sell myself to the demon over here because you're the deepest thing I ever had to know and I can't keep myself awake though I come to sleep and I think you're so strong to keep me there in this world I don't know that will swallow me if I can't keep myself awake and who am I to tell you no who am I to ask you something no one but someone lost that can't keep itself awake and that's your power over me you let me know you let me think all that you want to know all that you want to think you use my love as a defender against yourself justifying all that you want to hide if only I had kept myself awake but I see you're so addicted to me because I'm the one who can change your world and I know that it had always been so that's why nothing now matters to me I'm so dead like a blossom who faded slowly under a morning sun that you are shining on me so brightly and so warmly for me to fade away but I'd better have risen before I realised you were so strong you have a thing for me a silver heart I have to suffer if I want to open it you're confused now let you know I feel the same way too I always felt the same about you confused and lost but that's how we love each other strong and unaware I am mad about you but who am I to tell you that before you say one word you showed me I had no rights you thought yourself strong but I am so too and maybe later when our fight will end I'll fall in your arms endlessly for eternity