Heart of darkness

 

It was time to start the riot and you could guess I wasn't ready
The smile on my face didn't betray the fact that I was shaky
I thought it'd turn my life upside down that I'd never be the same again
But what should I be scared of when I've everything I've done before was vain
One rainy day I was hanging out in streets
Thinking of who the hazard would make me meet
I'd never know who'd be on the other side of the door
But that day I guess I should have never asked for more
Years later I don't know where I'm heading to I guess I know where I was from
I don't know if I'm alive if I'm dying if I'm outside when people should mourn
Sometimes it's smooth sometimes it's tough sometimes I want to forget
And around me are floating desperation and isolation I haven't pushed away yet
I should be afraid of you
Not being so addicted to you
I guess I always knew the score
I fear we'll never be someone at all

 

Me, October 25th, 2002.

For Guillaume Krin.