endoftheworld

Something I don't know inside my skin
It's like growing up within
Anger, paranoia or nervosity
Advanced fear brings shaking to a whole new level
Taking guilty feelings to spill the blood that I shed
Feel like I'm trapped in the good old days
Feel like I can't escape those same plays
Just tell me why I've lost pride
Tell me why I don't feel life
Tell me why I can't see any light
Can't stand darkness any longer
Feel like darkness that was once my friend
Slowly became my worst enemy
Cause it forces me to face my hardest memories
No matter how far I can run
I still come back to this same place
No matter how far I can run
I still have to see this same face
You've been travelling too far being out of reach
Do you still listen to them when they preach ?
I want to be up with the sun
Don't want to escape nor to run
Just want to be safe to find yourself again
I'm not strong enough to hold on your shame
I'm not too proud I don't act like I'm someone
But still you think you're never wrong
I want to give you my last smile
The one I've kept within when you left me behind
I feel so insecure the walls are closing in
And my stomach overpressured sink me in
I'm haunted by the different aspects of my own reflection
What do I'm looking for, is it compassion ?
Confused by what's going around me
Confused cause you're not what I see
Are you the only thing I will get
Were I the cheapest thing you've put on bets
Should I shut up the doors open my mind
Should I break up the doors and care of my mind
Should I wake up one day not wondering why
Should I fall asleep one night not crying loud
If I run away would you run behind me
Are you chasing the ghosts you tried to see
Are we one, are we gone, are we blind
I don't want to lie I don't want to hide
I don't want to be ashamed of who I am
But if I can't rely on myself is it because of you
Do you have to make me feel so insecure
So afraid locked up in this room
Why all I learnt is untrue
Why can't we seek the truth
Too busy to protect ourselves ?