bladerunner

Same face when I look inside
Same face when I close my eyes
You guess everything
You lie for anything
I should be happy
But you still scares me
I could cry as loud as I can
Everytime you lend me a hand
Your smile makes me bleed like a papercut
I thought it was those pictures that scared me first
All I wanted was just to be with you
But it's a nightmare I can't go through
I can't stop your evil side that grins
And the fear runs on and on through my skin
I sit quietly and watch through the window
Hearing you saying things you've said before
I'm confusing I lose control on myself
I shake when your smile witnesses the tears I shed
You're here for the best or the worse
You pulled down all the defense all the force
You push me to the edge I'm crawling
Near you the same anxiety beneath my skin
Your voice was erasing my pain
But your smile set off a stain
Protect me while I protect yourself
Your hand on my skin makes me shiver
Bloodcut or self injury don't kill the pain inside
Who are you to tell me I should die
No matter I've crawled it's sink or swim
Salty water runs on my chin
I want to watch another dawn with you